non-dual baseline

[PolyPeter]

I want to share something that is happening to me as I continue my human life.

 

I've reached enlightenment and the implications for myself have been immense. 

I live every second as it was the first and the last. VERY intensely. yet from a calm ever present and solid consciousness.

I'm aware of what awareness is. at all fucking times.

the lived experience of recognizing the unity throughout all the elements of experience, while still having some inertia from my human habits, is something that for myself turned out to be an extremeley isolating situation.

i have to tone myself down in every fucking conversation because the receiver is so caught up in duality that my ideas don't even get past the front door

 

right now i'm so fucking angry 

and behind the anger there is sadness

 

sadness of recognizing things as they actually are and looking at everyone make the most stupid mistakes due to the lack of the understanding that we are one single reality being expresssed thrugh multiple locus, throughout the entire universe

the sadness comes from not being able to communicate that the curiosity of trying to understand reality is what led me to this place. not leo, not rupert spira, not something somebody said.

I don't think this (me being angry and sad) is gonna be a permanent situation. since i can also see that the pain comes from wanting other people and beings to know that we are all one, which has little to do with my own process of realization. and i know my way out of this state. but it feels right to share this. 

 

is like waking up from a dream, just to come back to the dreamed character, that is now fully aware at all times that all of the dream, and trying to tell somebody else in the dream that "appears" to be awake but isnt. fuck, fuck fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!

 

what i think i need: compassion and deeper understanding into how FORM is being imagined by myself. 

 

I'm a very DIY human, therefore, this entire thing falls directly into the category of things that have nothing (or very little) to do with my doing.

The only thing i think i can do for others is point. pointers pointers pointers. and even then, pointers sometimes dont work. 

 

im suspicious about my previous mental habits. the human me has been quite neurotic and mental throughout my life, and it's got some inertia to it. 

 

What would anyone reccomend me doing for dealing with my new level of understanding?

I want to make peace with the situation we are finding ourselves in as a species, but there's something in between. and from inside i can't see clearly what it is yet.

Thanks for reading.

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[Carl-Richard]

You gotta change society to what you want it to be.

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[Sugarcoat]

Right now in this moment, do you have any sense of self? 

Im not asking for my own sake here

[AtmanIsBrahman]

I think you have to accept that being into spirituality with the depth that many of us are on this forum is extremely uncommon. It’s likely genetic, as Leo always repeats. Just like you can’t blame people for not being 7 feet tall, you can’t blame them for not caring about truth.

There are also a number of life circumstances that have to line up perfectly for someone to do spirituality. Having a good childhood, education, being encouraged to think independently, seeking out philosophical and spiritual knowledge, finding the right sources (Leo).

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[PolyPeter]

1 hour ago, Carl-Richard said:

You gotta change society to what you want it to be.

hum, this is what i would like, but seems like a wave trying to steer the entire ocean. 

How would you think this can be possible, without forcing anything onto anybody? 

[PolyPeter]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

Right now in this moment, do you have any sense of self? 

what do you mean exactly 😭?
 

i close my eyes and there is nothing

a nothing that is

not just "nothing" in the usual vacuum of space sense.

nothing as in the "unlimited infinity" sense

 

 

[PolyPeter]

1 hour ago, AtmanIsBrahman said:

I think you have to accept that being into spirituality with the depth that many of us are on this forum is extremely uncommon. It’s likely genetic, as Leo always repeats. Just like you can’t blame people for not being 7 feet tall, you can’t blame them for not caring about truth.

yes, my intuition also tells me it's about accepting the uncommon nature of what i created for myself. 

somehow it still hurts that it is very uncommon

have you been able to accept this and also feel good in your human? or is there still tension of some sorts

 

1 hour ago, AtmanIsBrahman said:

There are also a number of life circumstances that have to line up perfectly for someone to do spirituality

oh I can see this very clearly. but again, we are about  8,313,318,950 humans on the planet (i just looked it up) right now

why is it that this conditions are not there more often?

I thought about this a little bit. on one hand, if you are too busy surviving human life, there is no space for this inquiry. on the other hand, if you are born rich, there is space for this work, but the comfort of just living a "rich life" (whatever that means) might be also getting in the way.

So, the conditions we are talking about are not specific, but VEEEEERY very specific and unusual.