The Day I Finally Realized God

[Cubbage]

I did it. Speechless. There are no words. Cliche, but ultimately true for the feeling of what awakening is like. The epitome of ineffable.

This was the ultimate shift from destructive nihilism towards positive nihilism that I needed in my life right now as well. My ketamine addiction completely clouded my mind for many years and my mind would spin delusions as Truth and couldn't let go of the "ketamine consciousness" if you will. My DMT trip just now recontexctualized my whole life and tapped into the mind of God in a way I have never experienced before. I know it goes unfathomably deeper than I can ever fathom, but this was the first of many awakenings in the future and it was finally refreshing to have helped me now make sense of all of my past trips albeit without the chaos. 

I had fallen back into my ego for many years since I took a break from my healthy psychedelic practice around 2022. This was after my 90mg 4-aco-dmt experience (do not recommend a dose this high at all tbh I actually overdosed it accidentally) my whole life changed for better and worse and I was in a perpetual state of endlessly fluctuating states of euphoria and dysphoria in my mind. Eventually after enduring this chaotic mindset every day and other events in life unfolding for me, I got addicted to ketamine and it ruled my life for years up until October 2025 when I went to Japan for 3 months and embarked on various wellness retreats and to spark magic back into my life. This ultimately ended up helping me recover from ket addiction and has not only been amazing for myself it's now allowed me to have a second life purpose for helping addicts alongside guiding others towards awakening. 

This trip unlocked a part of me that had been slowly bursting out of me my whole life. I'd like to thank DMT firstly but and even bigger thanks to @Leo Gura for sowing the seeds towards my awakening. I love You. 

👁 

[Leo Gura]

@Cubbage Awesome!

Namaste

There is no guru like DMT

Edited 2 hours ago by Leo Gura

[LoneWonderer]

Hello Vivec. I have watched your channel for a few years now, and your work has helped me learn many things. I am so happy for you brother! You are an incredible positive influence in this spirituality space and look foward to following your journey from here! Will def watch your awakening update video when it drops! 🥰

Edited 2 hours ago by LoneWonderer

[Cubbage]

@LoneWonderer Much love man yeah gonna take a while to really integrate my experience and make sure I convey it as best I can

[Cubbage]

@Leo Gura

One insight that struck me the deepest was the full realization of myself as God being an infinite shapeshifter. This always made sense to me as a child and it was especially profound having that come full circle both experientially and mentally.

[Leo Gura]

26 minutes ago, Cubbage said:

God being an infinite shapeshifter.

Yes, that's a good one.

[OBEler]

@Cubbage wow congratulations!! I was in japan many times, what wellness retreats were you participating, any recommendations?

[Shari]

I am pleased that you are now enlightened. My experience in finding God came after a fruitless search EVERYWHERE for SOMETHING to show me the purpose and meaning of life. I didn't believe in God and was a materialist fully. But while looking for a reason for my meager existence, God showed Itself to me. He didn't go lightly on me either. There were some very tough lessons I had to learn about myself, along with my necessary ego loss. I am now a changed person, and now I don't know how I lived that far without Them!