The biggest price of Awakenings is dating life

[TheGod]

I remember I was on a cruise ship, some years ago. We were in the middle of the sea, the moon was shining trough small cabin window, leaving it's light on me and my ex girlfriend's body. We were having sex on a table next to the window. It was very romantic experience. 

When we were hugging in bed after having made love, she told me that she felt like she had lost herself in me and she felt like her entire identity disappeared. She felt like she was one with me. I responded to her saying that it wasn't a feeling but it was the actual truth, because everything is one self (by that time I had dozens of mystical experiences and I have solid ground of understanding non-duality). 

Unfortunately, she laughed saying that it's a good joke...being completely unaware of the truth... 

Years after and until this day I realized that my deepest awakenings slowly pushed my desires for intimacy to another level. Now what I crave is deep spiritual connection and understanding with women, but, unfortunately based of my personal experience the percentage of awakened women are very very shallow (and I am not talking about crazy levels of awakening). 

It seems like every time when I start a deep spiritual conversation with women they are completely lost and show no interest in this topic. 

A few weeks ago I asked a girl I had been talking to for a few month about what she though about the universe and where everything came from she gave me rather a disappointing answer. She just said "Science" and quickly change the topic to food. Women seems to be obsessed with food topics as much as men with sex. Some other women I spoke to about spirituality either bring ideology or some new-age nonsense like higher beings and energies. 

It's very clear to me that romantic relationship with women are not satisfying to me if they do not have spirituality in it. They feel empty and rather disappointing to me. 

Most of the women I meet are incapable of intimate depth that I seek because they are so lost in survival. 

Please understand that I am not saying that men are so awake (most of them are also very lost) but it's very obvious to me that most of women compared to most of men are at least one step behind from spirituality. That's what my direct experience says. 

So, with this being said, there are 2 options:

1. Don't seek this depth with women

2. Don't date women at all 

At the end of the day, why would I want serious relationship with someone who's incapable of sharing the same paradigm? I was able to do it 10 years ago when I was completely asleep. Now, after everything I have experienced there is no way back. 

 

[aurum]

2 hours ago, TheGod said:

At the end of the day, why would I want serious relationship with someone who's incapable of sharing the same paradigm?

But why do you need someone in a relationship to share your paradigm?

Spirituality is for you. Needing her to get it is immature.

[Lyubov]

You have to upgrade all areas of your life after awakening and apply the wisdom as if it’s the root where everything else grows. You don’t need a relationship to be whole and it may not be something you wish to pursue in life but I would be cautious of blaming spirituality for your lack of compatibility than your own choices beliefs and expectations. 

Edited 15 hours ago by Lyubov

[Carl-Richard]

The only woman I've talked spirituality to in real life is my mom lol (maybe it's genetic after all). But I don't exactly push the conversation often either (I don't go around expecting people to be interested in it). And I don't exactly talk to many women either  I have talked to like 2-3 guys who know what awakening and/or meditation (and the various states that are possible) is. But I can understand your position. It would be very nice to have someone on that level. Talking to my mom about my experiences (and she being open and actually understanding) was one the most beautiful experiences I've had, it brought me right back into that mind space.

Actually, there was one girl at a party once where we had this intense conversation where I managed to drop so many non-dual hints in the normal conversation like "but everything is connected to everything else anyway, so" and she was like "yeeessss, everything is connected to everything else 🤯". And ironically, we were in a way connected after that because she started going to the same gym as me in another town.

Edited 14 hours ago by Carl-Richard

[Ramasta9]

You wont find butterfly people in caterpillar environments.

[Hojo]

Food is the universe. Why not go in depth. I fell in love with a tomato one time on drugs and I don't even like them to eat. It was just perfectly symmetrical in everyway. I cut it open and the inside looked perfect.

Edited 8 hours ago by Hojo

[cistanche_enjoyer]

5 hours ago, Ramasta9 said:

You wont find butterfly people in caterpillar environments.

Where do you find butterfly people?

[Ramasta9]

1 minute ago, cistanche_enjoyer said:

Where do you find butterfly people?

In the real world  

[Eskilon]

Either settle for a stage green/yellow-ish woman or hope to get abducted by a hot pleiadian woman

Edited 3 hours ago by Eskilon

[TheGod]

13 hours ago, Carl-Richard said:

The only woman I've talked spirituality to in real life is my mom lol (maybe it's genetic after all). But I don't exactly push the conversation often either (I don't go around expecting people to be interested in it). And I don't exactly talk to many women either  I have talked to like 2-3 guys who know what awakening and/or meditation (and the various states that are possible) is. But I can understand your position. It would be very nice to have someone on that level. Talking to my mom about my experiences (and she being open and actually understanding) was one the most beautiful experiences I've had, it brought me right back into that mind space.

Actually, there was one girl at a party once where we had this intense conversation where I managed to drop so many non-dual hints in the normal conversation like "but everything is connected to everything else anyway, so" and she was like "yeeessss, everything is connected to everything else 🤯". And ironically, we were in a way connected after that because she started going to the same gym as me in another town.

Dude, I can say the same about relationship with my mom. She's an intelligent woman and she even did mushrooms one time with me. She was so dramatic during the trip saying "You're not even my son..." lol 

See, I don't expect people being interested in spirituality because for that reason there has to be a curious mind and most of the people men and women curious about survival. And I don't blame them because society is made this way and I'm too far from transcending survival as well. 

It's just spirituality for me such an exciting thing, I would say the most beautiful and important. I'm always seeking connections build upon it. Nothing brings me as much joy as seeing people awakening or getting a taste of God. That's why I like vaping 5MeO-DMT with people who show interest in spirituality. I help gently guiding them to meet their true nature. It makes me full of joy seeing their happy faces when they say "Oh my god.."

Being with a woman who's deeply stuck in survival wouldn't bring anything but stagnation. So I guess I need to wise up and sacrifice my expectation of meeting such a partner and concentrate on God.