How Are Ya’ll Really Doing?

[WonderSeeker]

On 12/30/2025 at 8:12 AM, Miguel1 said:

How are you guys doing?

Epic share. In fact dude, you are so well-positioned I'm slightly jealous!

I'm also an HSP empath. I feel everything insanely deep, and have worked all my life to live effectively in this hyper-masculine world.

Had a recent inner win: realized I gotta be more patient with my development, because financial constraints have limited how high I can go at the moment. I thought I could make money bags if I crushed it at sales jobs, or found business success. Even with several months of HARD work at these things, it all made me poorer with more debt.

So now I'm just combining passions (teaching + traveling). I moved from America to Korea right after getting fired from corporate. Best decision of my 20s. And now, I'm taking the slow route to financial health. All by cutting as much discretionary as possible for the next 3 years; got it all mapped out:

First I'll nab the credit card debt. Then tackle the student loan beast (only in America, amirite?). Then personal development will skyrocket. But even now, getting into more Ralston and Wilber, while exploring Korea.

Life's good. It's evolving. It's dynamic. And it's intelligent as fuck.

[Miguel1]

Thanks everyone for sharing your heart.

The culture here on the forum is such that we focus on very serious, cold truths and head-dominated facts.

It is very sweet to once in a while come together and remind each other that we are just fellow human beings here together on this journey to God.

With each having their own hardships and happier times, let us go to the next year with more clarity, inner peace, and joy.

Much love to ya’ll. Thank you for being part of this community.

Happy new years! ❤️

[Talinn]

I'm doing well, I'm trying to learn to play the harp. This was the happiest I ever was post-transition.

I was contemplating how being born without a sense of smell affected my psychology, I haven't come up with good answers. But I'm going to eat more healthy come hell or high water. I feel listening to music's gonna burn out my soul from sheer formlessness, am looking forward to a possible olfactory bulb implant to balance out my senses. Though I don't know if I want one at the same time, trans anything is still weird.

Struggling somewhat with dating in regards to men not wanting to date trans women, despite me passing and everything at first.  I am wishing I was gay. I'm also getting more involved in one of my tribes the intersex community, there's so many nice intersex people and they can tend to be a little more philosophically elevated which is nice.

I hope everyone has a good 2026 too

 

 

Edited December 31, 2025 by Talinn

[Jannes]

Left my old theatre club which was a tragedy for my social development. I kind of entered an extended adolescence, trying to fit in, connecting and building a new identity and it just didnt work out. I got blackpilled by direct experience about how girls can be in terms of cheating ... I feel like I lost so many years and opportunities and I am just too old to experience some of the things I could have experienced there. I am griefing over it every day to some degree. 

On the other hand I am much more emotionally stable thanks to leaving that place. I was a complete mess before. I am learning more about adhd and find ways to deal with it. I am working towards becoming a remote viewer which is either a huge hit or miss for my career path. I am also socializing a lot. I am putting so many good habits into place right now, some fruits need to come from it. 

[WonderSeeker]

19 hours ago, Jannes said:

Left my old theatre club which was a tragedy for my social development. I kind of entered an extended adolescence, trying to fit in, connecting and building a new identity and it just didnt work out. I got blackpilled by direct experience about how girls can be in terms of cheating ... I feel like I lost so many years and opportunities and I am just too old to experience some of the things I could have experienced there. I am griefing over it every day to some degree. 

On the other hand I am much more emotionally stable thanks to leaving that place. I was a complete mess before. I am learning more about adhd and find ways to deal with it. I am working towards becoming a remote viewer which is either a huge hit or miss for my career path. I am also socializing a lot. I am putting so many good habits into place right now, some fruits need to come from it. 

Why do you assume you're too old? What is there to grieve?

At the same time, I agree dating in the west is butt-cheeks. Come to Asia for a little bit. It'll set you right  

[Jannes]

32 minutes ago, WonderSeeker said:

Why do you assume you're too old? What is there to grieve?

At the same time, I agree dating in the west is butt-cheeks. Come to Asia for a little bit. It'll set you right  

An educator would say you go through certain phases in life. For example if you never played as a kid, its hard to get that back as an adult. 

I missed out on stupid romance. 

[Oppositionless]

@Miguel1 Ive deepened my realization of God more this year more then any other but in the human domain I still have so much self hatred . It's a strange place to be.

[Miguel1]

47 minutes ago, Oppositionless said:

@Miguel1 Ive deepened my realization of God more this year more then any other but in the human domain I still have so much self hatred . It's a strange place to be.

I know right? This is why you ought to be very careful of spiritual teachers, and people in general who have reached awakenings but haven’t done the human work.

[Oppositionless]

13 minutes ago, Miguel1 said:

I know right? This is why you ought to be very careful of spiritual teachers, and people in general who have reached awakenings but haven’t done the human work.

This next year I'm going to prioritize my health over all. I've decided to give up the alpha ideal , cancel my gym membership and instead spend my money on physical activity I actually enjoy (yoga classes).

Gym is quite boring to me but the alpha programming told me I should try to get bigger.

Edited January 1 by Oppositionless

[Miguel1]

Just now, Oppositionless said:

This next year I'm going to prioritize my health over all. I've decided to give up the alpha ideal , cancel my gym membership and instead spend my money on physical activity I actually enjoy (yoga classes).

Very good!

[meta_male]

On 29.12.2025 at 11:59 PM, Miguel1 said:

Closing the year, I want this thread to be a safe place for you to share your true feelings, and to for example, share what you are currently struggling with the most? What is making you sad? Hopeless?

Late to the party. I live with a constant underlying sadness, loneliness and deep attachment to love. 2026 marks ten years since my life changed completely and a long road to healing began. Instead of fading, emotions only get deeper and on most days it's hard not to lose hope that things will improve. 

Still, there's so much to realise and learn.

Wishing everyone all the best for this year 🙏

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Been a ballroom dance instructor for 2.5 years and it has changed my life for the better. I am now entering competitions and I am able to authentically express myself in ways that I hadn't previously thought possible.

I still struggle with getting laid as I currently lack the courage to approach women on a weekly basis. I am also realizing that its almost as if I don't actually want to get laid because it scares me, I am doing visualizations and affirmations to kick start this process, I KNOW that I will deal with this. 

I am going to start shifting my focus this year onto more material desires such as getting laid, making more money, winning dance competitions, buying a house, this will be my focus for the next 5-10 years. Serious spiritual pursuits will then come after I exhaust these more "shallow" desires as I have been learning that I cannot fully embrace a "non-dual" state when I am still deeply frustrated with my lack of success in my bank account and attracting women. 

Overall, I have come so far and I am very proud of myself. The effect that actualized.org has had on me has been truly remarkable, not sure where I'd be without it. I have noticed that since following this work off and on for 10 straight years, nowadays the effects that Leo's vidoes have on me are much more profound, its as if I am finally coasting off of the hard work that I've put in.

I now look at my life like a never ending project, in which the manifestation of things requires a deep marination over long time horizons. I have finally started to realize the important of long term fulfillment as opposed to instant gratification, which is a much more mature and fulfilling way to lives ones life. 

I wish everyone the best, I genuinely love you all. 

[Miguel1]

@Spiritual Warrior Great share. Glad to have another dancer here as well.

How old are you, since you still plan on competing?

[Spiritual Warrior]

@Miguel1 30 years young

[Joseph Maynor]

I feel better than ever.  I look forward to going thru my notes and making some to do lists about life purpose and some self-help/personal development improvements.  I was able to connect a lot during this holiday period, so I feel great. 

[Ulax]

On 31/12/2025 at 4:36 PM, Miguel1 said:

Thanks everyone for sharing your heart.

The culture here on the forum is such that we focus on very serious, cold truths and head-dominated facts.

It is very sweet to once in a while come together and remind each other that we are just fellow human beings here together on this journey to God.

With each having their own hardships and happier times, let us go to the next year with more clarity, inner peace, and joy.

Much love to ya’ll. Thank you for being part of this community.

Happy new years! ❤️

❤️

[Davino]

A tough think I'm going through is a familiar situation out of my hand.

A beautiful thing is how I'm constructing my life and youth in the right principles. There's a joy for all that I have accomplished and grown and such hope and vision for the future. Not all days are good but I don't want only good days, my love can also take bad days.

Lots of love to all of you

Davino❤️