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@Husseinisdoingfine /fit/ was the biggest circlejerk of soy boy trolls back then...

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That being said I feel like I need to be more present here cause its a wild world out there right now.

I come here to destress and remember that there are groups of people who's interests really jive with my own. I cannot talk about any of this stuff in reality as I am simply not understood. We all may argue and get heated and end up locking horns - but at the end of the day, we share the same interest :) 

I really enjoy the experiences you shared above !

@Eskilon Thank God I have emptied out most of the troll within there. I was really bad at one stage - and when I was raiding competitively in WoW. I was really a little shit back then. Really elitist gamer mode. Would go around shitting on everyone. 


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As I grow older and mature more, more and more people slowly drop out of my life. Less and less new people I find interesting.

And so, as an extrovert, I am really glad there is a place like this to socialize, crack some Alien dad jokes, and share some deep thoughts.

Deeply appreciate ya’ll, and thank you Leo for hosting this for us.


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7 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Thank God I have emptied out most of the troll within there. I was really bad at one stage - and when I was raiding competitively in WoW. I was really a little shit back then. Really elitist gamer mode. Would go around shitting on everyone.

So you were a competitive demon back then?😈🧩🕹️

I don`t judge, I come from similar backgrounds:P. Played a lot of dota 2, fighthing games such as Street fighther, Tekken, anime ones(Blazblue, Guilty Gear). I always prefered 1 vs 1 games over team games, I couldn`t stand losing because of someone else`s mistakes:D.

But I wonder, where does that competitiveness and a need to dunk on people come from?

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@Eskilon I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

Edited by Natasha Tori Maru

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18 hours ago, Miguel1 said:

As I grow older and mature more, more and more people slowly drop out of my life. Less and less new people I find interesting.

Just wait until they start dying or encountering serious health issues... 

But no.1 for me is people partnering up and having kids. They disappear.

I have always been a hardcore introvert so it has been less of a worry for me (my circles getting smaller). I really enjoy my own mindscapes :)

I only need one or two close relationships to thrive.

But this place does let me socialize in a useful way, so I really appreciate it. The nature of my work means there is a LOT of forced socialization and relationships, but these do not satisfy in the same way the dialogues here do.


Deal with the issue now, on your terms, in your control. Or the issue will deal with you, in ways you won't appreciate, and cannot control.

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26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Damn! Must've been tough times indeed. Hard to imagine you like that:(

 

26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

Interesting, so you got a lot of real world socialization out of it. You got some balls to meet online gamers -- the risks... especially for a woman :o

I personally never played Wow myself but yeah, nice to know your competitiveness in it :P

You will lose to me in any fighting game thoB|

26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

What might go on, in Natasha's mind... scary shit I bet haha😈. 

Edited by Eskilon

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14 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Eskilon I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

I can see the gamer in you. But how ironic: the troller becomes the the mod!!

4chan precedes me. Back when I was a self-imprisoned, sad bedroom teen, I floated around on YourWorldOfText (thanks V-sauce).

And, regretfully... LOTS and LOTS of Omegle. The 'conversations' I had on there would be illegal in today's world. Not a forum or place to 'talk' to people like civilized beings by any stretch of the imagination. I brought hell to many lives there.

On 10/11/2025 at 2:36 AM, Miguel1 said:

As I grow older and mature more, more and more people slowly drop out of my life. Less and less new people I find interesting.

Well shit, thought it was just me.

Time to wife-up before I become too weird and get kicked from the pool xD

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14 minutes ago, WonderSeeker said:

And, regretfully... LOTS and LOTS of Omegle. The 'conversations' I had on there would be illegal in today's world. Not a forum or place to 'talk' to people like civilized beings by any stretch of the imagination. I brought hell to many lives there.

Good thing it is banned, and good on you for changing for the better. 

Also, is your birthday really on Valentine’s Day? 😮 

Edited by Yimpa

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5 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Also, is your birthday really on Valentine’s Day? 😮 

Yes

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15 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Eskilon I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

🤨

Interesting. 

 

Edited by Salvijus

Freedom is love under all conditions. 

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@Miguel1 Japanese mainly, but my genetics test revealed Korea & China. I think there is a portion of the Japanese Tori-Maru connection that is mixed Asian descent (a lot of crossover in that region).

@Salvijus @WonderSeeker I feel like I had to learn the depths of my inner arsehole to understand the good bits 😅 it seemed a natural progression. Now I figure I know my inner tiger, it is just behind bars. Lock and key. I strategically walk it so it doesn't bust out and destroy some shit!

@Eskilon yes I took a lot of risks - that was for sure linked to the whole nihilism thing. I literally didn't give a fuck and felt dead inside. But at the same time I recognise there was immense fear I confronted by flying off to meet a whole bunch of anonymous men I only knew through regular gaming. After I did that, I really drove into facing fear as it lead to the most growth.

Now if I feel slightly apprehensive about something (fear) I know there is something to investigate there. That doesn't mean throwing myself off a cliff because I fear heights - more that there is something to contemplate/enquire about and understand that will help me.

Just happens that my natural life growth has happened from the furtile soil of hopelessness, dispair, malaise, anhedonia, hate, rejection. I came out from that to fall in love with life. So I know it is possible, and part of what draws me to the forum. That past energy I feel comes from here and I try to understand how I transformed so I can help others. 


Deal with the issue now, on your terms, in your control. Or the issue will deal with you, in ways you won't appreciate, and cannot control.

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On 10/10/2025 at 5:26 AM, Leo Gura said:

the primoridal ooze from which virtual life monstrosities emerge and crawl out onto land to terrorize and revolt the land-dwellers.

That is literally the plot of the movie, 'C.H.U.D'.

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On 10/9/2025 at 5:30 PM, ivankiss said:

This forum is literally the only one that I ever took part in. Well, except for actuality of being, which is basically the same forum, just inverted.

Just briefly checked that place out; didn't know it even existed. The set up looks similar to this one. Who runs that place?


What you know leaves what you don't know and what you don't know is all there is. 

 

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1 hour ago, Princess Arabia said:

Just briefly checked that place out; didn't know it even existed. The set up looks similar to this one. Who runs that place?

Nahm

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1 minute ago, Elliott said:

Nahm

Oh, I kind of thought that from what I've heard about the situation. Very similar to this one. I don't like knock off's, so it won't feel the same. 


What you know leaves what you don't know and what you don't know is all there is. 

 

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3 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

Oh, I kind of thought that from what I've heard about the situation. Very similar to this one. I don't like knock off's, so it won't feel the same. 

It's not similar to here, it's the people that get banned from here, all the annoying and mentaly ill put into a blender.

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Just now, Elliott said:

It's not similar to here, it's the people that get banned from here, all the annoying and mentaly ill put into a blender.

I'm talking about the set up, the structure. It is very similiar.


What you know leaves what you don't know and what you don't know is all there is. 

 

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1 minute ago, Elliott said:

, it's the people that get banned from here,

Looking through, I did see Joseph Maynor.


What you know leaves what you don't know and what you don't know is all there is. 

 

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