Forum Appreciation Thread

[Natasha Tori Maru]

18 hours ago, Miguel1 said:

As I grow older and mature more, more and more people slowly drop out of my life. Less and less new people I find interesting.

Just wait until they start dying or encountering serious health issues... 

But no.1 for me is people partnering up and having kids. They disappear.

I have always been a hardcore introvert so it has been less of a worry for me (my circles getting smaller). I really enjoy my own mindscapes

I only need one or two close relationships to thrive.

But this place does let me socialize in a useful way, so I really appreciate it. The nature of my work means there is a LOT of forced socialization and relationships, but these do not satisfy in the same way the dialogues here do.

[Eskilon]

26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Damn! Must've been tough times indeed. Hard to imagine you like that

 

26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

Interesting, so you got a lot of real world socialization out of it. You got some balls to meet online gamers -- the risks... especially for a woman . 

I personally never played Wow myself but yeah, nice to know your competitiveness in it . 

You will lose to me in any fighting game tho

26 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

What might go on, in Natasha's mind... scary shit I bet haha😈. 

Edited October 12 by Eskilon

[Miguel1]

5 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

asian gaming genes...

Where are your roots from?

[WonderSeeker]

14 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Eskilon I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

I can see the gamer in you. But how ironic: the troller becomes the the mod!!

4chan precedes me. Back when I was a self-imprisoned, sad bedroom teen, I floated around on YourWorldOfText (thanks V-sauce).

And, regretfully... LOTS and LOTS of Omegle. The 'conversations' I had on there would be illegal in today's world. Not a forum or place to 'talk' to people like civilized beings by any stretch of the imagination. I brought hell to many lives there.

On 10/11/2025 at 2:36 AM, Miguel1 said:

As I grow older and mature more, more and more people slowly drop out of my life. Less and less new people I find interesting.

Well shit, thought it was just me.

Time to wife-up before I become too weird and get kicked from the pool 

[Yimpa]

14 minutes ago, WonderSeeker said:

And, regretfully... LOTS and LOTS of Omegle. The 'conversations' I had on there would be illegal in today's world. Not a forum or place to 'talk' to people like civilized beings by any stretch of the imagination. I brought hell to many lives there.

Good thing it is banned, and good on you for changing for the better. 

Also, is your birthday really on Valentine’s Day? 😮 

Edited October 12 by Yimpa

[WonderSeeker]

5 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Also, is your birthday really on Valentine’s Day? 😮 

Yes

[Salvijus]

15 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Eskilon I was a black pilled little shit back then - only it wasn't called black pill. It was just nihilism and hopelessness 

Coupled with the fact I was insanely good at videogames, +10 asian gaming genes... and WoW was the elitist of the elite shit. Trolling and shitting on others was part of that culture. It very much rubbed off on me. I met tons of people through WoW - couple of ex's also. Many of my real life mates were met online originally. I even flew across the country to meet and live with a previous partner for 2 years. I enjoy just totally deleting my life and changing it up every so often.

I bond with others through shared experience - not emotional expression or knowing their personal stories - so I just naturally got to know those folks better. So their scandalous shit rubbed off on me. Not sure if you know any top oceanic raiding guilds but I was raiding with them all and transferring around. Not Steamboat, Ascension etc. In addition I was smashing Arena PvP for rankings. I can be VERY competitive.

I feel like I had to go through a process of getting the inner shithead out of me before I could get to where I am today. 

But as you can imagine... sometimes there is still some brutal troll dialogue left.

I just don't empty it out on others.

Well, I try not to... hueheuhue

🤨

Interesting. 

 

Edited October 12 by Salvijus

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@Miguel1 Japanese mainly, but my genetics test revealed Korea & China. I think there is a portion of the Japanese Tori-Maru connection that is mixed Asian descent (a lot of crossover in that region).

@Salvijus @WonderSeeker I feel like I had to learn the depths of my inner arsehole to understand the good bits 😅 it seemed a natural progression. Now I figure I know my inner tiger, it is just behind bars. Lock and key. I strategically walk it so it doesn't bust out and destroy some shit!

@Eskilon yes I took a lot of risks - that was for sure linked to the whole nihilism thing. I literally didn't give a fuck and felt dead inside. But at the same time I recognise there was immense fear I confronted by flying off to meet a whole bunch of anonymous men I only knew through regular gaming. After I did that, I really drove into facing fear as it lead to the most growth.

Now if I feel slightly apprehensive about something (fear) I know there is something to investigate there. That doesn't mean throwing myself off a cliff because I fear heights - more that there is something to contemplate/enquire about and understand that will help me.

Just happens that my natural life growth has happened from the furtile soil of hopelessness, dispair, malaise, anhedonia, hate, rejection. I came out from that to fall in love with life. So I know it is possible, and part of what draws me to the forum. That past energy I feel comes from here and I try to understand how I transformed so I can help others. 

[Husseinisdoingfine]

On 10/10/2025 at 5:26 AM, Leo Gura said:

the primoridal ooze from which virtual life monstrosities emerge and crawl out onto land to terrorize and revolt the land-dwellers.

That is literally the plot of the movie, 'C.H.U.D'.

[Princess Arabia]

On 10/9/2025 at 5:30 PM, ivankiss said:

This forum is literally the only one that I ever took part in. Well, except for actuality of being, which is basically the same forum, just inverted.

Just briefly checked that place out; didn't know it even existed. The set up looks similar to this one. Who runs that place?

[Elliott]

1 hour ago, Princess Arabia said:

Just briefly checked that place out; didn't know it even existed. The set up looks similar to this one. Who runs that place?

Nahm

[Princess Arabia]

1 minute ago, Elliott said:

Nahm

Oh, I kind of thought that from what I've heard about the situation. Very similar to this one. I don't like knock off's, so it won't feel the same. 

[Elliott]

3 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

Oh, I kind of thought that from what I've heard about the situation. Very similar to this one. I don't like knock off's, so it won't feel the same. 

It's not similar to here, it's the people that get banned from here, all the annoying and mentaly ill put into a blender.

[Princess Arabia]

Just now, Elliott said:

It's not similar to here, it's the people that get banned from here, all the annoying and mentaly ill put into a blender.

I'm talking about the set up, the structure. It is very similiar.

[Princess Arabia]

1 minute ago, Elliott said:

, it's the people that get banned from here,

Looking through, I did see Joseph Maynor.