5 MeO DMT - The Transmission I Didn’t Ask For

[tashawoodfall]

5-MeO-DMT (Bufo) Ceremony Trip Report – July 13, 2025

The ceremony took place in a group of about 10 people, held with a shaman and his wife facilitating in their home. I had done plant medicine before, including previous Bufo ceremonies where I connected deeply with Source but this time was completely different.

I was called to go first. The shaman approached me with the pipe, prayed over me for protection and guidance, and instructed me to inhale slowly and completely. Once I couldn't inhale more, he told me to take one final deep breath and hold it as long as possible. I trusted the process, knowing from past ceremonies to focus on surrender and breath.

As I inhaled the vapor, I felt the medicine take hold almost immediately. I laid down on my back, arms open wide, grounding myself with the reminders: surrender completely and remember to breathe. Within seconds, the familiar challenge arose–it felt like I was dying, with breathing becoming labored and heavy. But I stayed focused on my breath. During this phase, I noticed the distortion in my face again, a sensation I've come to recognize from other ego-death moments in plant medicine. My face felt twisted and contorted, with an energy that had a tinge of something "demonic" or not-good–hard to describe exactly. It wasn't scary this time; I allowed it, ignored the discomfort, and kept breathing through it. Then, everything went black.

While "down under," I have no recollection of what happened. This is common with Bufo experiences; the experience is so profound and non-dual that memories don't form in the usual way. The shaman explained that flashbacks or insights might surface in the weeks or months ahead, as the medicine continues to integrate.

When I regained consciousness, I was back in the ceremonial room, but this world was different because now there was/is a very strong KNOWING–not thoughts, not beliefs, but an absolute, unshakable certainty/knowing that the world is doomed, catastrophic–filled with destruction and death on a massive scale.

It wasn't a fear or a vision; it was truth affirmed deep in my being, a knowing. I didn't want this to be real, but the knowing was so powerful, so affirmed, that I couldn't deny it. I looked directly at the shaman, and said, "What can we do?!” Then I turned to his wife, peering deeply into her eyes, and repeated, "What can we do?!”

Despite the heaviness, I also knew the truth of who and what I am–eternal, connected to Source. This world isn't too serious; it's illusory in many ways. I felt a sense of agency, like I could do something about it, perhaps shift or influence the outcome. As the shaman helped ground me back to this reality–holding space and guiding me–I blurted out something like, "I'm the main character, and this is crazy." The words just came, raw and unfiltered. Then I thought I’d just chill and drink my water and grapple with the new reality. Then the emotions hit: I cried a lot, releasing waves of grief, and acceptance.

After that, I accepted the experience and laid back down while the others took their turns. Everyone had shared that they had a beautiful experience connecting with Source and discovering deep knowing - which I’ve had before but my experience this time was something so completely different. I am now in the process of integrating…and honestly it’s challenging. That KNOWING remains. And what to do with it? I don't know.

[Leo Gura]

1) Your dose is way too high, this is bad.

2) Realize you do not know the future and let go of your ideas about it.

This is an example of improper use of psychedelics. Use properly and you will grow rather than this.

Edited July 14 by Leo Gura

[PolyPeter]

8 hours ago, tashawoodfall said:

Then, everything went black.

If there is something scarier than this, I don't want to know 

I hope you can find a way to share with the shaman that the dose was, maybe too much!

[Ponder]

Consider that others after taking a psychedelic have had an equally undeniable “knowing” that the world is heading towards utopia. How would you go about determining who (if either) is correct? 

[Salvijus]

On 2025-07-14 at 8:42 AM, tashawoodfall said:

unshakable certainty/knowing that the world is doomed, catastrophic–filled with destruction and death on a massive scale.

🤨

Sounds like a projection rather than an genuine insight. I'd be mindful it, unconscious projections of your subconscious mind posing as grand truths are very common with psychedelic usage. Your mental faculties and discernment abilities also go down for some time during the recovery, that adds to the problem aswell. 

Edited Tuesday at 08:29 AM by Salvijus

[tashawoodfall]

About the dosage - it’s possible I received more, since it wasn’t measured and I went first. But everyone else at the ceremony likely had a similar dose, and they all experienced beautiful states of oneness.

I would feel so much more at ease if I had come across even one account of someone who, upon taking 5-MeO-DMT, received a strong knowing that the world is heading toward utopia. But in all my searching, I haven’t found anyone who’s had a similar experience to mine.

As you know, 5-MeO-DMT isn’t like shrooms or ayahuasca, which work primarily on the mental body. This wasn’t a projection. It didn’t arise from fear or fantasy. It was a KNOWING. Of course, every human I share this with will say something - anything - other than validate it. Because no one wants to hear this. I didn’t want to hear this. I was perfectly content in my little box. I hadn’t been thinking about the end of the world. And now… I can’t un-know it.

Integration after this has been brutal, because I can’t shake what was shown to me when I took the God Molecule.

I’m going to research more about what shamans believe regarding the spirit of Bufo and the deeper meaning of its “gifts,” because what I received has been deeply unsettling.

[Leo Gura]

4 hours ago, tashawoodfall said:

received a strong knowing that the world is heading toward utopia.

It does not matter.

You are missing the point.

The point is reality is Absolute Perfection.

Stop worrying about human nonsense and seek more Awakening. You are getting distracted.

Your job is to love truth, not worry about the future.

Edited Thursday at 02:49 AM by Leo Gura

[tashawoodfall]

Whether reality is absolute perfection and absolute dysfunction isn’t the point. 

After seeing beyond the veil, I get it - there is no point. We’re just here, in the now. Either blindly following our programming or, if we’ve awakened, moving in alignment with our natural rhythm.

There’s nothing to seek anymore (I've let go of the idea/need for "purpose"). My intention going into ceremony was "to let go of the search and allow what’s true to remain"

And I'm finally starting to see I got exactly what I asked for. 

I believe 5-MeO-DMT is a sacred Earth medicine. It’s not like other psychedelics that work on the mental body - this one goes straight to the soul.

And my soul hit me with a KNOWING - so intense and absolute I can never unknow it. The knowing that this world, as it is and as I know it today, is coming to an end.

Unless you’ve received that kind of knowing, you wouldn’t understand. I imagine it’s something like what a person feels after a stage 4 cancer diagnosis - the unmistakable certainty of the end.
That was the gift I was given.

And that truth isn’t wrong.
This world will end - whether soon or not, it will.

Because the world is ending - this moment is enough. A lot of things don't matter as much. The pain of being forced into mundane labor, just to scrape by in a mediocre, soul-numbing life is almost more bitter in contrast to the world ending. 

My human experience has become a bit more uncomfortable now because I am more aware of the truth of the situation. 

It's more painful to waste time and energy on what I deem to be stupid shit. I just want to be free while I'm here and move through life effortlessly. Human nonsense doesn’t concern me and I’m not afraid of death for obvious reasons.

Integration is the most important part of doing a bufo ceremony (which I did in a proper way). I had no control in the manner it all unfolded as it was meant to.

My journey right now is about letting go of a lot of the bullshit.

[OBEler]

@tashawoodfall I had also once a deep knowing that the supermarket is closed. Turns out it was open. 

Don't take things too seriously you can't predict the future.

[Oppositionless]

@tashawoodfall  have you considered the possibility that you're conflating a symbolic end- ie the dissolution of ego that 5 meo dmt produces- with a literal end of the physical world? 

[Leo Gura]

You do not know the future.

Stop fooling yourself.

Stay with not-knowing.

Edited yesterday at 12:29 AM by Leo Gura

[AION]

It is your own projection since the future is non existing 

[tashawoodfall]

@AION You're detached, cowardly, and lazy and think it's enlightenment what a fool.

@Oppositionless No, it was a knowing and didn't come from fear.

@OBEler @Leo Gura

Right, because that kind of thing doesn't exist in this reality. Yeah, okay whatever helps you feel better. This knowing is just as strong as the knowing(s) you've blissed out on. This is not an idea to unknow it was a knowing that happened during Bufo and it's useless to explain to spiritual egos in this forum honestly.

 

I will share my journal entry here since you all are mentioned lol

 

Since coming back, I’ve carried something I can’t ignore.

A KNOWING - so absolute, it bypassed thought entirely.

That this world is headed for collapse.

Not in a poetic or metaphorical sort of way.

In a real way. Destruction, death, and catastrophe on a massive scale.

I wasn’t shown when. There was no vision of a date or timeline.

But I became aware - completely aware - of where this planet is heading on its current path.

It wasn’t a fear. It was a knowing.

It was just truth. Completion.

And that truth didn’t change even as I kept asking, “What can we do?”

I didn’t emerge with this knowing terrified, I emerged clear.

With this clarity came urgency. I didn’t ask, “Why me?”

I asked, “What can we do!?”

That question didn’t come from panic.

It came from something deeper. A recognition.

Because in that same moment, I knew I was Source.

I knew I was a main character.

Not in an egoic way, but in an embodied one.

That I - we - hold power.

That even if this is where we’re heading

Perhaps it doesn’t have to be where we arrive.

When I shared this experience and knowing with "spiritual" people, I was met with dismissal.

“You don’t know the future. Let go of that idea.”

“It’s just your subconscious projection.”

“Remember, the future doesn’t exist.”

These responses, wrapped in spiritual ego and mental gymnastics, weren’t supportive.

They were protective.

For them.

Most people haven’t experienced this kind of knowing.

So they try to shrink it to something they can understand. Something they can soothe or reframe.

They offer mind-based interpretations of a soul-level transmission.

But Bufo doesn’t work on the mind.

It doesn't generate projections.

It dissolves everything but the truth.

And what I was left with wasn’t belief, it was certainty.

So no, I’m not confused.

I’m not traumatized.

And I’m far from spiraling in fear.

I’m carrying something too big for small talk or spiritual bypassing.

And I know now I’m not alone in this.

There are others who’ve emerged from Bufo with revelations - as visceral, unquestionable truths.

It's rare, but it happens.

And it often drops people into a very different kind of integration.

One that's not about euphoria, but about carrying prophecy… or warning… or insight that doesn’t have a clear home in the current world.

Some initiations aren’t meant to be personal.

My prior ceremonies showed me Source, love, light, divinity.

This one felt like I was shown the other side of the veil

The shadow of the collective or of the Earth itself.

I was given a deeper knowing, for some kind of purpose I’m still uncovering.

This wasn’t fear based.

That’s why the first words out of my mouth were, “What can we do?” Not “Why me?” but “What can we do?”

When I said those words, I was fully aware that my being transcends this world entirely.

It was that unmistakable, familiar feeling of having woken up.

And no – I don’t think my role is to fix the world.

My path is to sit with this knowing,

To let it shape my way of being in this lifetime.

There is a paradox in all of this.

Because I know this world isn’t too serious.

It’s illusory in many ways.

I used to believe we were completely out of control.

Now, I am reminded that is not entirely the truth.

It’s the truth for most people.

I felt a sense of agency.

Like I could create shifts.

This paradox is interesting:

The world is illusion.

And we are here to act as if it’s real.

This is my path now.

To walk between the knowing

that none of this matters,

and the conviction that everything I do does.

The voice that said, “I’m the main character”

It wasn’t ego, at least not entirely.

It was Source.

Reminding me that I was given this for a reason.

Not because I’m special.

But because my soul could hold it.

I now acknowledge impermanence – that everything in this world is fleeting.

Much of what we obsess over or build may ultimately be insignificant in the grand cosmic sense.

And now I sit in the questions:

What do I do with that?

How do I engage meaningfully when I see the illusion?

How do I live, love, and create fully, knowing that this world is impermanent - and most of what we chase doesn't ultimately matter?

 

Edited yesterday at 04:22 PM by tashawoodfall

[Eskilon]

@tashawoodfall You said the World is going to destruction and collapse, but you also you mentioned utopia too. The destruction of the world is the biggest utopia？ Can you explain a little what you mean from your experience.

Edited yesterday at 05:54 PM by Eskilon

[AION]

This guy expected everyone in this thread to tell him he is the one 😂

 

[Sugarcoat]

On 2025-07-14 at 7:42 AM, tashawoodfall said:

that the world is doomed, catastrophic–filled with destruction and death on a massive scale.

You dont need drugs to realize this lol

[theleelajoker]

17 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

You dont need drugs to realize this lol

You made me laugh, thanks!

It's true, one doesn't need drugs to see and know this. But KNOWING something and FEELING something are two very separate things. 

Let's face it, NOBODY REALLY knows what's going on. Who's projecting what on whom, why and when? What's symbolic, what's real, what's illusion? 

One person saying the world is about [XYZ], because he/she realized this on substance [XYZ] or on meditation [XYZ]. Then second person comes, proclaiming a new truth [XYZ], because he/she realized this on substance [XYZ] or on meditation [XYZ]. Then person A and Person B fight about what's the right [XYZ] and why [XYZ] of the other person is wrong. And people assume that there is one [XYZ] for all and call that "true" or "real" or "what it's about". Maybe, maybe not. Maybe there are infinite [XYZ], who knows?

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What do I do with that?

How do I engage meaningfully when I see the illusion?

How do I live, love, and create fully, knowing that this world is impermanent - and most of what we chase doesn't ultimately matter?

 

@tashawoodfall 

I also had some strange ideas, feelings on substances. Nothing re doomsday, but the main character thing, sense of agency, or the idea that something needs to be done. Is it ego, is it projection, is it a message, it is just my subconscious fooling around, is it a cosmic joke, is it a mission, is it a mechanism of creating meaning in a otherwise meaningless world, all of it, none of it? Who the fuck knows. But psychedelic "revelations" can be tricky, I wouldn't "believe" them just based on this one experience.  

So what to do with it?

Go and find out. Action, action, action. Test your hypothesis. Figure out how much is symbolic, how much is projected etc etc. If you truly know, then acting seems like the right choice. Get in touch how things feel, instead of how you think about it. Action and the feedback will most likely show you if you're moving in the right direction. At least, that's my [XYZ] for you  

And who says that this world is "just" an illusion? Maybe creating in this dimension is all we got, all that matters? Who knows? 

To say it with the words of Esterly in "Bad man"

My eyes
Are blind
I can't seem to tell me
What I need to get right
Your eyes
They can't seem to understand
What I've realized
Realize

This isn't just a dream
Stuck on a bad repeat

Edited 1 hour ago by theleelajoker