The Purpose Of A Girlfriend Is To Dream Deeper Into The Matrix

[Natasha Tori Maru]

1 minute ago, Emerald said:

You put it very well.

Mind you, I say all this as a longtime fan of her work. I enjoy her perspective and have gotten a lot from her.

But it's clear to me that this is one of her biggest short-comings... and I think of it as a cautionary tale to learn from for anyone who is interested in leadership of any kind.

Yep same. I'm a fan, I can just see the ego clearly.

But I don't judge, we all have our own shit.

I'm just glad mine isn't out on the internet for anyone else to see!

[Puer Aeternus]

1 hour ago, Basman said:

You (Leo) would look great in a maid outfit <3.

Le duh- 

Real ones never forget..

Edited June 18 by Puer Aeternus

[LordFall]

2 hours ago, Emerald said:

Well, takes one to know one, I suppose. 

Even in childhood, I used to fantasize that I was a supernatural being... as I was always trying to set myself apart from others.

Part of that was a reflection of a difficulty with belonging... of being different in a bad way and feeling outcast and disconnected.

And the other was this driver to be different and superlative in some way... and to diverge either in quality or in kind from others.

And my adolescent identity followed suit with that... as I was always trying to be a special snowflake and avoid common humanity. And that embrace of my inner alien and the pride in my divergence enabled me to develop a lot of special skills and qualities that I otherwise wouldn't have developed.

But the re-integration of ordinariness has been at the heart of my inner work since 2021... when Ayahuasca showed me how everything I had ever wanted is on the other end of integrating ordinariness.

The medicine kept bringing me back and forth between two states...

One state was my usual MO, just exaggerated... which was polarization into extraordinariness to the exclusion of ordinariness. And the sense of disconnection and alienation was very palpable (a feeling I hadn't been cognizant of since childhood). It was like being a puzzle piece that had gotten taken up out of the puzzle and was floating in thin air, with all the weight of existence resting squarely on my head and shoulders.

Then, the medicine would bring me back into the integration between both extraordinariness and ordinariness... and I felt connected with humanity, with nature, and one with the universe at large. And the existential weight was lifted from me, and I could relax and exist in this highly connected state.

And the plant teacher kept toggling me back and forth between these two states until I understood what it was showing me.

Then, it put me in this "scene" that was like I was at the precipice of connection... almost like a line. And I had all these ordinary collective phrases flitting through my my mind like: community, family, church, relationship, etc.

And I felt this deep aversion to all of these words, as it was always what I was trying to avoid. But I sat there shaky on the edge of the decision to enter the realm of the collective ordinariness... but fearful to do so.

So, I know that one of my biggest growth arcs comes with the integration of ordinariness... as it frees me up from being the nail that sticks out and bears the entire weight of the universe. But it's difficult after 25+ years of consciously trying to be an alien and feeling such a strong aversion to all things ordinary and average.

I can definitely relate to that. Normalness is not too bad, just kinda threatening. Doesn't seem like the average person fares too well in this world. 

Edited June 18 by LordFall

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Had a bit more of a think about this while fucking around onsite today re Teal Swan ego.

Big difference between Emerald and Leo - they inject a lot less of themselves into their work. Obviously you can't completely remove yourself from your work, but you guys have done an excellent job of it. It is much more professional.

Teal's personality is very much PRESENT.

[Alexop]

4 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

May I respectfully ask what is the reason, if you had to power to ban me, what would be the reason for the ban. Please answer this question because I'm genuinely curious as to what that reason would be. 

 

It is not the first time you just jump and attack people without understanding their point. It is not that you have no clue what you are talking about many times, it is that you try to teach others all the time and engage in debates. Instead of writing that stupid comment attacking me you could just ask me to clarify what I wanted to say. 

My reaction was too harsh of course but try reflect on you behavior instead of just acting superior all the time. 

 

[Alexop]

5 hours ago, AION said:

First part and second part of your message is contradictory. Personally I think white women are the biggest losers of feminism. Men will find a way to get theirs. Through the passport bro way or another. But either way, from my own experience, things aren’t looking good like you say. But it is not my forte to fix these things. Imma invest in cat lady stocks and just play the field. In my opinion it is not a tiny minority. It is a good chunk of females that follow the death cult of feminism. Even men who have access to actualized are lost, sick and tired. Just imagine the average joe and how lost they are. 

It is not contradicting what I said. There are just a bunch of extremist cat ladies around but there is a big problem with society understanding masculinity and what men are. That is not extremism but just cluelessness 

 

Edited June 18 by Alexop

[Leo Gura]

17 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Big difference between Emerald and Leo - they inject a lot less of themselves into their work. Obviously you can't completely remove yourself from your work, but you guys have done an excellent job of it. It is much more professional.

Teal's personality is very much PRESENT.

What??

I don't understand what this big difference is you are saying.

[Emerald]

1 hour ago, LordFall said:

I can definitely relate to that. Normalness is not too bad, just kinda threatening. Doesn't seem like the average person fares too well in this world. 

I tend to think it's quite common for people who get into things like personal development... and spiritual seeking.

But truthfully, average people seem to get on okay most of the time.

The main drawback of lacking the drive towards divergence is that people can tend to stay in a reactive state to life as opposed to an initiatory state... which requires a questioning of the status quo and a level of individuation such that they can realize a different vision to what is.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

4 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

What??

I don't understand what this big difference is you are saying.

You don't make yourself the subject like Teal does. Her personality is very much present. I don't get that as much from watching you or Emerald. 

It could be just the nature of her work in comparison. 

 

 

[Emerald]

24 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Had a bit more of a think about this while fucking around onsite today re Teal Swan ego.

Big difference between Emerald and Leo - they inject a lot less of themselves into their work. Obviously you can't completely remove yourself from your work, but you guys have done an excellent job of it. It is much more professional.

Teal's personality is very much PRESENT.

One thing I would say in relation to this is that I might include some anecdotes from my personal life as it serves the topic at hand. And of course, Leo does this too.

But I think the thing you're picking up on with Teal Swan is the tendency to self-celebrate a lot within her perspectives as a driving force within what she shares.

She's also serving the topic at hand, but there is a tendency to put out perspectives that are more about herself... like her struggles with fame and getting criticisms, or her relationships, or her past traumas, or her path as a spiritual teacher, etc.

[Emerald]

11 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

What??

I don't understand what this big difference is you are saying.

You might have made the same mistake I did. My mind edited out the word "less" when I first read it. So, I was thinking that those are the same exact things.

So, I read it as "Big difference between Emerald and Leo - they inject a lot less of themselves into their work. But Teal's personality is very much present."

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@Emerald You got it.

Sometimes my writing style is a bit jarring when it is on the fly.

[Alexop]

5 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Don't say this sort of stuff.

There is no reason for her to be banned. Stop making women feel unwelcome here.

It's your nonsense that requires endless love, not her.

My bad. I will use my ignoring muscle much more often. It is a sensitive subject for me and hits hard when people just come and shit on all your work.

[Zen LaCroix]

30 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

What??

I don't understand what this big difference is you are saying.

Teal gives her opinion on things. She talks about how she feels. Her work comes across as more personal especially when she's dealing with crowds and talking on stage

While Leo, you talk a lot about insights and things that are either factual or come across that way. The work doesn't feel personal

[Leo Gura]

11 minutes ago, Zen LaCroix said:

The work doesn't feel personal

I thought I include too much of myself into my work.

I was thinking about how to stop using the word "I" when I write, but it's pretty impossible with how English works.

Edited June 18 by Leo Gura

[Princess Arabia]

55 minutes ago, Alexop said:

My reaction was too harsh of course but try reflect on you behavior instead of just acting superior all the time. 

That is your interpretation of what's being said. I don't feel superior to anyone when I address them. It's my way of communicating. It's very direct and to the point and never disrespectfully said. If you interpret that as my thinking I'm superior then that's on you. You addressed me harshly, which you admitted, yet you criticize me for responding harshly. I don't have a superiority complex about me and i don't have to reflect on my behavior like a child because I'm well aware before hand how I'm responding. The person I addressed initially didn't have a problem with the way I addressed them, but you did. That says more about the way you interpreted it than anything else. It was personal to you and the ideas you already concocted up in your mind about me prior. To me, that's a projection. Anyway, it's over and I've already moved on. The rest is up to you. 

Behavior is acting out, I merely typed words.

[Princess Arabia]

20 minutes ago, Alexop said:

My bad. I will use my ignoring muscle much more often. It is a sensitive subject for me and hits hard when people just come and shit on all your work.

How's me responding to the use of the word 'submit' shitting on his work. There was nothing to ignore as I wasn't addressing you in the first place.

[Lyubov]

A relationship will get you closer to god. It is not a distraction. It is entirely up to you what you make of it though.

[Leo Gura]

23 minutes ago, Alexop said:

when people just come and shit on all your work.

She had never done that. She's always respectful and kind.

[Alexop]

4 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

How's me responding to the use of the word 'submit' shitting on his work. There was nothing to ignore as I wasn't addressing you in the first place.

Whatever have a nice day.