I Am Transgender

[Clarence]

10 hours ago, Aaron p said:

I couldn't imagine changing to a female lol. I'm raised in hard stage blue indoctrination so it's still quite an alien idea. What does it feel like?

The transition to me felt like a slow realignment process, of moving toward my most authentic self. I had to drop the mask I had been forced to build by the end of my childhood to fit others' expectations of me, so I could become who I truly was again.

My gender identity didn't change; I finally aligned my appearance with how I felt inside, as fully as I could. 

The word transgender is confusing, as it sounds like people change their gender, but that's not the case. The deepest desire of transgender people is to align their external appearance with their inner being, which is very different from changing gender.

It is exactly the same for me as it is for you: I can't see myself living as a woman. The distress you would feel if you had to start dressing as one is the distress I felt when I had to. I literally desired to tear my skin apart to escape this body that didn't feel like mine.

Aligning one's body with one's inner identity is like finally wearing the skin and the clothes that belonged to you all along.

[Salvijus]

41 minutes ago, AION said:

I like to play with female characters because I like looking at it

That's a good point. There is an element of that too.

[Salvijus]

People should understand, it's not what you look like that defines you, it's what you do that defines you. You can look like a god, but if you act like a fool, you will be a fool and not a god.

[Clarence]

1 hour ago, Salvijus said:

When I play video games I often select female characters to play with. Or all kinds of weird non human characters. Does it really matter? It's just a costume in the end. 

Yes, it doesn't really matter when it's just the costume of a video game character. But when you're entire life is at stake, it gets much more serious.

Edited April 16 by Clarence

[Salvijus]

Just now, Clarence said:

Yes, it doesn't really matter when it's just the costume of a video game character. But when you're entire life is at stake, it gets much more serious.

Not really. Seriousness is an illusion. 

[Clarence]

Just now, Salvijus said:

Not really. Seriousness is an illusion. 

Your entire life is an illusion, but it's still very real.

[Salvijus]

Just now, Clarence said:

Your entire life is an illusion, but it's still very real.

Only if you believe in the illusion. 

[Clarence]

@ExploringReality @integration journey @Natasha Tori Maru @Applegarden8 Thank you!

[Carl-Richard]

58 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Only if you believe in the illusion. 

Stop eating food right now. Oh, so you're attached to the illusion of being a human? 

If I put on the wrong color t-shirt, I become mentally unwell.

[Salvijus]

39 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

Stop eating food right now. Oh, so you're attached to the illusion of being a human? 

If I put on the wrong color t-shirt, I become mentally unwell.

You have a point there. I too am very particular about what I wear. You can wear whatever you like. But it's not what you look like that defines you, it's the role you play that defines you. And God created certain roles for different people to fulfill. If you were given a support champion with support skills and antributes. Then you shouldn't play ad carry role. People will just report you for trolling. That is not how the game of life is meant to be played. Woman avatar has different stats than man avatar, their astrological alignment, their energies and their psyche behave differently to fulfill a different role for a reason.

Edited April 16 by Salvijus

[Clarence]

@Adrian colby Thank you for sharing. I've read other posts from you, too. Your contribution is very valuable. I'm also working toward fully integrating the masculine and the feminine, and especially understanding why I was born female but felt the pressing need to be male.

I think there are deep reasons beneath both, but it is a long process to uncover them as they play out in dimensions of myself I have no easy access to.

It requires sincere dedication to get to that kind of information, as well as meeting with the right people. But working to gain that understanding is highly beneficial to me, as I have a deep need for answers.

[The Crocodile]

27 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

You have a point there. I too am very particular about what I wear. You can wear whatever you like. But it's not what you look like that defines you, it's the role you play that defines you. And God created certain roles for different people to fulfill. If you were given a support champion with support skills and antributes. Then you shouldn't play ad carry role. People will just report you for trolling. That is not how the game of life is meant to be played. Woman avatar has different stats than man avatar, their astrological alignment, their energies and their psyche behave differently to fulfill a different role for a reason.

This is authoritarian.

[Salvijus]

16 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

This is authoritarian.

Truth is the ultimate authority. 

Edited April 16 by Salvijus

[Aaron p]

Nice. Oh I can feel the blue in me twitching lol. Your situation seems incredibly genuine and authentic, very powerful. Nice. Very brave

[Nemra]

21 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

This is authoritarian.

@The Crocodile, maybe epistemic dishonesty?

 

[Nemra]

@Clarence, I'm happy for you.

[The Crocodile]

42 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Truth is the ultimate authority. 

The Truth is that you honestly have no idea what you're talking about.

[Salvijus]

10 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

The Truth is that you honestly have no idea what you're talking about.

When you come up with an argument to back that up let me know. 

[The Crocodile]

14 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

When you come up with an argument to back that up let me know. 

You have a pre-rational understanding of reality and are saying stupid things.

[Salvijus]

4 minutes ago, The Crocodile said:

You have a pre-rational understanding of reality and are saying stupid things.

I'm still waiting for the argument.