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@Flyboy Leo tripped hard man.. Did you know 5 meo produces Neurogenesis? His left brain must have been grown with 5 meo dmt and the same for his right brain with 5 meo malt. Would be interesting to see a MRT scan of his alien brain for sure would be a good proof at least

Lol Dude, you could not comprehend the level of right-brained intuitive thinking that I do. No human intellectual or academic understands how to think like I do. I've discovered modes of thinking that most humans have yet to discover. Which is why humans books are of little interest to me now. I can think like an alien.

Universe picture: Add friendly looking ghostly alien creature: „Let’s explore infinity!“ Followed by countless examples that show that the universe is infinite, starting with earth. Fire picture: Add some friendly looking forest spirit: „Have you ever wondered what Love really is? To explain what Love is we can take fire as an analogy, as it shows the aspects of love that we often overlook because we have a hard time accepting them.“ Strange Loop Ant Picture: Take ants away. The VR user walks on the Strange Loop himself while he gets an explanation of what Strange Loops are. Some ideas for starting so far. Need these awakenings though to be able to explain it well.

Solipsism is the realization that there are no "others " it actually increases my social anxiety. Because these imaginary others are like alien simulation stuff doing a conspiracy against me .

@Leo Gura What about meditation experiences that are more psychcedelic in nature? I have issues maintaining health, yet when I am fully healthy and can workout I can have crazy energetic experiences that are similar to the one NN-DMT experience I have the NN-DMT experience feels more alien, yet it often feels like heavy ego / dark knight stuff that needs to be proccessed for example dark room retreats. Similar with LSD I get tiny tastes of love, emptiness, nothingness and a lot of internal relative insight and I feel I become more whole/open and clean overall in terms of how I conduct my life after some integration approx. What can I make out meditative experiences that surpass psychdelic experiences? Would you for example in the same situation continue to pursue meditation seriously? When it has such a dramatic affect that it can be more intense than any psychdelic you can take. It's like my brain is made for meditation and psychdelics are the deepst layer you can enter, that is why I have so much respect, I did not meet many people who have the same kind of experiences, they are similar, yet never as intense. I have a big/huge ego, so I know I consistently implore what is consciouness and choose deliberately teachers/gurus who go and see beyond the edge of a plate. The main issue I have is physical health mostly, not even that much mental. Why for example the comment you made about merging, I can get tastes of merging while meditating like I become the orange/juice/rock/bird/object in 3D space, yet with psychcedelics transforming into something else becomes way way more real, I once posted a report saying I basically merged with a part of nature I became literally the bird outside chirping. While meditating on LSD for hours. You wrote to me I am paraprhrasing: "Nice work tasting the tail of the ox " in a bit more cheeky manner, is that what is meant with consciouness? The pure fabric so to speak that gives rise to everything? Ground zero? Or am I completely of here, as I tasted so many different flavours it's not easy to make distinctions and continue the work when there are so many silos, instead of wholes. I am just sometimes to afraid to go off into the deep end and never comeback lol.

@Tyler Robinson they do know. They talk to alien bro. But its genetic through a lineage of concentrated people.

Entry84/17 STAGES OF ANIMUS DEVELOPMENT IN WOMEN 1. Men as alien outsiders - She fears, hates, and loves him. Because of abuse or abandonment from men that she identified with during childhood, such as a father, father figure, older brother, uncle, or family friend, a woman in this stage completely denies and suppresses her animus as alien inside and outside of herself. She trusts her mother and other females, while she distrusts, hates, or fears men. This is often countered by a strange curiosity about men, which she cannot differentiate. This ambivalence can make her extremely seductive, needy, and clingy, and cause severe symptoms of the “seduce and withhold”230 syndrome. As soon as a man gets close to her she withdraws, only to come back to ask for more after he becomes distant. She can break the heart of a weak man who tries to prove that he is different, attempts to rescue her from her fears, and so becomes codependent231 as she lures him into her pathological cat and mouse game. Within the limits of her domain in household, family, and female-oriented work environment (e.g., school teacher, nurse, artist, gardener, therapist, healer, working with animals, etc.), such a woman may seem grounded and self-confident. Outside those limits, she leaves the work and responsibility to men and more mature women.232 2. Men as father, God, or king - She wants his approval. The self-esteem of a woman in this stage is directly connected to the response and approval that she receives from men. She is often driven by a need to be seen as the most attractive female, and constantly monitors her value by her internalized masculine judgment and through externalized male reflection. This may lead to a split in her personality when she imitates male behavior to be liked by them, and at other times presents herself as a sexually seductive femme fatale (such as in the movie Basic Instinct) to be desired. She either hides behind a feminine mask of beautiful appearance, graceful charming manner, and entertaining wit, or develops a tom boyish attitude through teasing, competing, and challenging, or some other facade that suggests success. Women in this stage gravitate towards men that they perceive to be more attractive, intelligent, and exciting than they could ever be themselves. They often try to live up to men by dietary restrictions, vigorous physical exercising, adapting to their intellectual interests, developing new talents, and being sexually available to become the perfect mate. If a woman remains in this stage, she is at great risk of entering a profound depression when her beauty and sexual attractiveness wane, and the number of heads that she is turning, and men who admire her diminishes. She may then isolate herself from all intimate relationships, because her perfectionism overrides her ability to be compassionate and to forgive her own and others’ mistakes. This may lead her to withdraw into a cold and bitter self-denial in which her anxieties create all kinds of psychosomatic illnesses, such as panic attacks, vomiting, heart problems, fatigue, and body aches. A strong, conscious, and patient man (or a good psychotherapist) can support a woman in this stage to find her own worth, passions, and identity, independent of male approval, which then allows her to enter into stage three.

I mean it was an international school, there were not even that many arabs there. People from Ghana, Nigeria, Sri Lanka, South America, Philippines, Thailand etc. Good representation of most major ethnicities. There was no "weird feeling" among the kids since everyone was part of the same "tribe". Sure, you see the difference in appearance, but if it's not associated with any more sense of "other" than a person that looks more similiar, it won't cause any racist response. That person is just one of "us". A baby and a 90 year old grandpa look drastically different to each other, you might even say "alien". Yet they can very easily feel part of the same tribe.

Middle East is a special case, The Arab "race" is not really a race, it is a mixture of differnet races with no distinct skin tone or facial features. so you would expect less racism in the Arab world, and yet in my country ( I live in the Middle East) people still in a hidden and sneaky way look down into black people, and they usually have lower economical status. Also you can build the US community out of any common feature, like religion, nationalism. But race is also a very common theme and for a good reason. If we weren't racists we wouldn't have survived Racism in its lowest degrees is that weird feeling that you have When you see someone with different facial features or darker skin tone, like you are looking at an alien or something

@universe Ah I see. Is it similar to when some artist that almost nobody knows, dies and leaves behind some work legacy that almost nobody understands how it's made, but can appreciate the finished work? Maybe 1,000 of years from now, majority of mankind has left the planet, or has died off, and some alien finds a picture, and foraging through finds a book, and a computer with some functioning internet, about Actualized.org?

@Leo Gura @Guru Peter Jordanson they are better than the rest. But still not on the point. If you found new good one please share After all I must admit there is something very secret going on with Ufos. They are linked to altered states of consciousness. On mushrooms people describe alien abduction and spaceship visits.

@D2sage My best guess is mainly two ways: worship, and mass hysteria. Not to mention any alien technology that could manipulate minds in mass. Likely, another interesting world effect, is other countries that were indifferent or hostile to other countries, would agree to a coalition to work together a bit more, and have a potential common enemy.

STAGES OF ANIMA DEVELOPMENT IN MEN 1. Women as mother - He needs a mommy to take care of him. In this first stage, a man’s anima is completely tied up with the mother. She is not necessarily his personal mother but the image of a woman that is a faithful provider of nourishment, security, and love. She represents all that is natural, instinctual, and biological.223 A man with an anima complex of this type cannot function well without a vital connection to a woman, and is easy prey of being controlled and exploited by her. He frequently suffers from impotence or has no sexual desire at all, and is therefore called a mama’s boy. This type of anima possession also manifests through fear of accidents or disease, or in a sort of dullness of personality. The Greek Sirens and the German Lorelei personify these dangerous aspects of the anima, which may even lead a man to his death over a lost love relationship through suicide. 2. Women as sex object - He wants her to make him feel good. In the second stage, the anima is a collective sexual image. She is a Marilyn Monroe, Madonna, or Playboy model. Men in stage two are often Don Juans who see all women as sex objects, and engage in repeated sexual adventures, sometimes developing into sexual addictions. These relationships are invariably short-lived, because he is not faithful, is always looking for his next conquest, and no woman can ever live up to his unrealistic image of the ideal female partner. 3. Women as wife - He wants her loyalty and support. In the third stage of his anima complex development, a man becomes ready to care for a wife and be devoted to his family. He is the loving protector and provider that women in the equivalent stage three of their animus development seek. Men with this anima accept their partner as she is, as long as she fulfills her role as supportive, undemanding, caring, and faithful wife, available sex partner, and loving mother to his children. His sexuality is usually integrated into their relationship and not an autonomous function that drives him. He can differentiate between love and lust, which allows him to create a lasting partnership (if she stays), because he can tell the difference between the objects of his sexual desire and the benefits of being a faithful partner/husband. 4. Women as guide to creativity and awakening - He struggles with her need for independence. In the fourth stage, a man’s anima functions as a guide to his inner life. As women in this stage become emotionally and financially independent from men, they often turn away and abandon their partners against their will. This challenges him to seek other sources of fulfillment, happiness, aliveness, passion, joy, purpose, peace, and love. Through his quest arises a desire to answer life’s deeper questions of “who am I,” “where do I come from,” “why am I here,” “what is the meaning of my life,” “what should I do,” “what is my purpose,” and “where do I go”? Contemplating these questions, reading books like the one that you are holding right now, meditating, or seeking a bond with others on a similar path in men’s groups, New Age churches, and personal growth workshops allow him to bring deeper levels of his unconscious anima into his awareness. This leads to a liberating process of awakening to his authentic nature, true purpose, genuine passions, and capacity to love unconditionally that are independent from a partnership with a woman.224 On the flipside, he may show behaviors that are usually described as a midlife crisis,225 become commitment phobic, avoid deeper intimacy with women altogether, or engage in serial monogamy or polyamory,226 since he does not want to sacrifice his newfound freedom or to be limited by one partnership. This partial awakening (the idea of living alone is not Integral, fully realized, or the ultimate realization of human development) is transcended when a man enters stage five of his anima development. 5. Women as equal partner - He meets her as an opposite and equal partner. Similar to a woman in this stage (see below), a man in stage five of his anima complex development has accepted the fact that conflicts and ambivalence are intrinsic to human relationships, and sees how their resolution contributes to his ongoing healing, personal growth, and spiritual realization. He feels confident, secure, and comfortable to authentically express his sexual essence (which tends to be masculine in heterosexual men), while he embraces his feminine (anima).227 This allows him to invite differing views, experiences, and feelings of his female partner without feeling threatened, offended, or puzzled by them. Her authentic stage-five feminine qualities naturally complement his masculinity and vice versa. Since he has found his own purposeful identity that does not depend on her inspiration, support, or approval, he appreciates his partner’s independent authority,228 and doesn’t feel responsibility, shame, or insecurity if she is unhappy—even though he shows empathy, care, and devotion—and enjoys when she is happy. He neither clings, nor pushes her away, but fully opens to embrace her at all levels of his being when they are together, and stays content and fulfilled when they are apart. This allows him to enter into a mature monogamous relationship of opposites and equals from which radically new life experiences, emotional healing processes, and deeper spiritual realizations that often become the foundation for altruistic acts of kindness and service towards others emerge. STAGES OF ANIMUS DEVELOPMENT IN WOMEN 1. Men as alien outsiders - She fears, hates, and loves him. Because of abuse or abandonment from men that she identified with during childhood, such as a father, father figure, older brother, uncle, or family friend, a woman in this stage completely denies and suppresses her animus as alien inside and outside of herself. She trusts her mother and other females, while she distrusts, hates, or fears men. This is often countered by a strange curiosity about men, which she cannot differentiate. This ambivalence can make her extremely seductive, needy, and clingy, and cause severe symptoms of the “seduce and withhold”230 syndrome. As soon as a man gets close to her she withdraws, only to come back to ask for more after he becomes distant. She can break the heart of a weak man who tries to prove that he is different, attempts to rescue her from her fears, and so becomes codependent231 as she lures him into her pathological cat and mouse game. Within the limits of her domain in household, family, and female-oriented work environment (e.g., school teacher, nurse, artist, gardener, therapist, healer, working with animals, etc.), such a woman may seem grounded and self-confident. Outside those limits, she leaves the work and responsibility to men and more mature women.232 2. Men as father, God, or king - She wants his approval. The self-esteem of a woman in this stage is directly connected to the response and approval that she receives from men. She is often driven by a need to be seen as the most attractive female, and constantly monitors her value by her internalized masculine judgment and through externalized male reflection. This may lead to a split in her personality when she imitates male behavior to be liked by them, and at other times presents herself as a sexually seductive femme fatale (such as in the movie Basic Instinct) to be desired. She either hides behind a feminine mask of beautiful appearance, graceful charming manner, and entertaining wit, or develops a tom boyish attitude through teasing, competing, and challenging, or some other facade that suggests success. Women in this stage gravitate towards men that they perceive to be more attractive, intelligent, and exciting than they could ever be themselves. They often try to live up to men by dietary restrictions, vigorous physical exercising, adapting to their intellectual interests, developing new talents, and being sexually available to become the perfect mate. If a woman remains in this stage, she is at great risk of entering a profound depression when her beauty and sexual attractiveness wane, and the number of heads that she is turning, and men who admire her diminishes. She may then isolate herself from all intimate relationships, because her perfectionism overrides her ability to be compassionate and to forgive her own and others’ mistakes. This may lead her to withdraw into a cold and bitter self-denial in which her anxieties create all kinds of psychosomatic illnesses, such as panic attacks, vomiting, heart problems, fatigue, and body aches. A strong, conscious, and patient man (or a good psychotherapist) can support a woman in this stage to find her own worth, passions, and identity, independent of male approval, which then allows her to enter into stage three.233 3. Men as hero - She wants him to take care of her. Women in stage three seek a man as protector and provider with strength, courage, and ability, who can meet her needs, cherish her, and whom she wants to marry. He represents her ideal (and often unrealistic) image of the knight in shining armor who fulfills her expectations for good looks, intelligence, solid reputation, stable finances, generosity, loyalty, humor, kindness, care, integrity, and faithfulness. To be in a good bargaining position, this woman will focus on her appearance, health/fitness, and adapting to the world of men by seeking a higher education, pursuing a career, fighting for social justice, or saving a failing business. She will appear as self-affirming and expects something in return. She functions well in the competitive world of men, sees herself as equal, is willing to share responsibilities, and will contribute and perform as long as her partner is able to provide more in return, since women want to marry up. As long as he meets her expectations for financial security, social status, and devotion, she will support him to achieve his full potential while often denying such achievements to herself. This can lead to feelings of resentment and anger when she sees that she has been “denied” the right to experience her own competence, and when her partner/husband fails to live up to her ever-growing expectations. Some women in this stage will enter an inward journey once they become aware of the transitory nature of their physical attractiveness, ability to succeed with men, and limitations of finding acceptance in the male world. This may lead them to the restoration of their female authority 234 as they take responsibility for their own identity once they have moved into stage four of their animus complex development.235 4. Men as independent beings - She wants her independence. A woman in stage four makes an active choice in favor of her self-interest and self-fulfillment—independent of a partner or husband. This transition takes place with the realization that she has constructed her own experiences throughout her lifetime in relationship to men, and now wants to find her own identity. She will stop trying to be perfect in all things in order to please her partner (who was a heroic father figure in the previous stage), as she becomes emotionally free from his approval and support. Having discovered her own source of worthiness and foundation, she is working to restore her female authority. Financial independence through her own labor or through other sources of money that are often only available to women, such as “divorcing well,” alimony and child-support payments, generous lovers, support from parents, or Social Security benefits, are the prerequisite for this transition. You will notice if your partner enters into stage four of her animus development when she starts to challenge you, cares less about your needs, seeks her financial independence, and refuses to take responsibility for holding your relationship together. If you are in partnership with a woman in this stage, it is important to know that it is not your fault that her pain of staying will eventually be greater than her fear of leaving, and that there is nothing you can do but to take care of yourself emotionally 236 and sexually, protect the financial assets that are legitimately yours (if you have to, with the help of a CPA or lawyer), and, if you can, support her with love and compassion in her transition. Once separated and/or divorced, she will feel free from the evaluation and needs of men for the first time in her life. These newly single women are then much occupied with challenging work, their animals and children, social activities, educational advancements, maintaining their household, hobbies, world-travel, and their friendships.237 At the same time, they look down at women who show more feminine or balanced qualities and who desire to be (or are) in a committed partnership with a man. To women in stage four, partnered women still seem to be in the pitiful stage two or three of dependence on a male partner (which they have just escaped). However, married women may have actually advanced into stage five, which women in stage four cannot fathom yet. They discredit partnered women as unevolved and often compete with them in merciless ways. Women in stage four frequently break with the conventional role of caring mother, show tough love, and feel fulfilled outside a partnership with a man. Still, there remains an underlying fear of abandonment, especially in older women, when concerns about the disappearance of their skills and autonomy in the midst of a crisis arise. This often leads to feelings of ambivalence. On one side there is a secret longing for the stability and support that a partnership with a man could provide during times of stress, fatigue, loneliness, or desire for sex. On the other side there is the fear of becoming emotionally dependent, used, and dominated again. Frequent complaints about the lack of good men who are physically fit and attractive, highly intelligent, successful, accomplished, mature, kind, loving, generous, evolved, supportive, spiritual, and available when they need/want them, but who remain flexible, undemanding, and unattached otherwise, are a hallmark of women in stage four.238 Becoming men-hating diehard singles, settling for “friends with benefits” whom they string a long, or serial monogamy are often the only solutions that seem to solve their dilemma. It is not your fault if you get mixed messages, are rejected, or are ignored altogether by women in stage four that you try to date or get a commitment from, as these women are highly independent, endlessly demanding, impossible to please, and commitmentphobic.239 This is, of course, no problem for men who have entered stage four of their own anima development, which many single males and females falsely see as the highest stage of their personal and spiritual development (as in, I am so whole and complete, I don’t need a partner to complete me). If you have matured into stage five and meet a woman who is at the end of her animus stage four development, then you may be able to patiently support her to transition into stage five and find a wonderful partner in her. 5. Men as equal partners - She wants him as an equal and opposite partner. Just as a man, a woman in stage five of her animus development has accepted that conflict and ambivalence are intrinsic to human relationships, and realized the significance of a partnership to balance her further psychological growth and spiritual awakening.240 Having fully claimed her own authority after transcending her animus complex, she no longer sees men as alien, superior, inferior, or independent. The realization that the idea of living and going it alone was a distorted conception of human existence emerges in her, because we never live alone. She sees that in being human we have a variety of economic, physical, sexual, psychological, and spiritual needs that cannot be met by living alone. At last she has the insight that a balanced personality always develops in a self-other conception, and never through the discovery of an independent self.241 This woman then desires the material, intellectual, emotional, sexual, and spiritual synergy that is co-created with a man who meets her as an opposite and equal (which means opposite feminine and masculine polarities with equal levels of consciousness, rights, and responsibilities). Since she may have never experienced a stage five partnership, she needs guidance from a man (like you?) at the same stage of his anima development, who is able to meet her in an integrally informed way. These couples can then form interdependent242 partnerships in which they heal, learn, grow, and enjoy family and social activities together, while contributing to the well-being of others.243 --------------------------- So where are you guys in your development? Men answer from the ANIMA list and Woman from the ANIMUS list. Its possible to be a mix of many stages and a mix of anima and animus, if so describe your experience.

Zappa was a genius and great improviser, but we have to do a little history. The virtuosos I listed belong to a later generation of guitarists. There was the 60-70s era of great guitarists that influenced the next generation and essentially layed the groundwork for virtuosic playing: Hendrix, Page, Blackmore, etc., which parallells how Hard Rock gave birth to Heavy Metal. Zappa belonged to that 60-70s generation, while the ones I listed belonged to the 80-90s generation (except Holdsworth which is an absolute alien). It's funny how much of it is interconnected though: Steve Vai was trained by Joe Satriani (Joe also trained Kirk Hammett from Metallica and other great players). Steve Vai got hired as a transcriptionist by Zappa in 1978 at only 18 years old and then played with his band for some years. Zappa's favorite guitarist was Allan Holdsworth. Adrian Belew from Zappa's band joined King Crimson in the 80s and developed prog rock which influenced many of these virtuosos as well as Tool. So Zappa is in many ways a main node in rock music history and was definitely one of the great influences on modern virtuosos.

@Chives99 Okay, it's alien to you. Well, we live in a society, you are free to pay your respects, or not. Just as you are free to vote Republican, or democrat. WAY better than living under a caste system in the past.

@Chives99 Paying their respects. Is that alien to you?

@BipolarGrowth As of late, I've also felt that Leo's content has started to lose relevance with me, almost as if everything I made Leo to teach me he already had, and if I kept listening he would just reiterate philosophical claptrap that isn't really pertinent to the work I'm doing, no matter how valid it(the philosophy) might be in it's own right. When I realized that humans were capable of attaining a state of infinite power, then months later Leo experiences not in a human state, but a high-level drug-induced Omnipotent state and reports to us about it, that was really when I felt he reached the apex of his usefulness to me, since then it's gradually tapered off. As for solipsism, or to be more specific what you call traditional solipsism. To comprehend how I understand this to be essentially an epistemological blunder, some background theoretical understanding first is necessary. There are essentially two dimensions to how the human mind arrives at intellectual judgments, well three but I'll exclude the emotional dimension here. There are the logico-rational and the emotional-intuitive dimensions, though it's possible to utilize intuition separately from emotions so we could just as simply say the intuitive dimension. When I say logic, I mean one's ability to think on their own and arrive at conclusions independently of input from other sentient beings' thoughts or intelligence. Logic is of course a simple little process, that eliminates impossibilities based on known information. When I say rationale, I'm referring to basically the same process, but instead of generating one's own logic you're just borrowing someone else's, essentially stealing their thoughts and reasoning processes as it was. So the logico-rational dimension of human judgments represents a synthesis of one's own logic and all the logic of perceived other selves. Intuition is difficult to put into words because there is no mechanism for it, you just know something because you know. There are mechanical aspects to this potential, if the self has certain biases which manifest as negative emotional responses, then certain intuitions are blocked for the sake of the ego. Anyway, an example of human intuition is the obvious realization that other humans are "just like you" so to speak. Or in other words, they're a self that also has its own experiences. This intuition then is normally reinforced by the logical thinking mind which may after looking in a mirror, see that oh I have a face, a nose, two eyes etc, thus I'm a member of the same species as the other humans. And of course, when the intuitive and logical dimensions of the mind work synergistically like this, it becomes essentially impossible to imagine that either one could be making an error. And because your experiences of reality are generated by your own mind through basically blind faith. You imaging that others are real and have their own experiences separate from your own makes it so. This is why I've called traditional solipsism an epistemological blunder, because it's simply untrue. So traditional solipsism arises when someone refuses to permit their logical thinking mind to incorporate the intuitions of higher levels of mind. Women tend to be slightly stronger in the emotional-intuitive dimension and this is just a generality of course. But because of this, oftentimes if you teach solipsism to a woman she'll just respond with yeah that got to be bullshit. Which is obviously an illogical argument as you can't debunk something on sheer incredulity or with ad hominem. But it's correct because the truth is others do exist in a very real capacity, and the intuitive mind is always aware of that reality. As such, it's mostly only men that'll buy into this traditional solipsism. And yes, to some extent this a minor criticism of your occasional statement of "if you're an experiential being". Lol, if you imagine me to be I am, and you do, the fact that you're reading these statements is proof of that. The solipsism Leo teaches is radically different from what you call traditional solipsism. So much so that it can even be construed as the same concept without being the same thing at all. And I'd mostly agree with how you've opined on Leo's arguments and statements, though I have to say that it feels like you've mostly addressed just your own understanding of solipsism in the video, and not really necessarily exactly what Leo has to say. This is exactly why Leo decided to take that video down. It became apparent that the vast majority of humans, even many in Leo's audience were insufficient in terms of the prerequisite maturity and experience needed to handle the things he said in the video. It's just too fucking powerful a statement to tell a normal person that they're all that exists, if for no reason other than the fact that they don't really have a clue what that even means. It's almost like those of us that have had higher consciousness experiences are some kind of secret society and we have a covert system of codes and symbols to articulate things no one with only exoteric knowledge can comprehend. And yet we're actually none of those things, it's really just that we've experienced things so far beyond the limits of ordinary human consciousness that our perspective is mostly alien and incomprehensible to your average Joe.

Those are called machine elves, you can meet them on mushrooms, dmt and sometimes salvia. Once they make a connection with you, you might start seeing aspects of their communications in your waking reality. Check out the channels Starpilot 33 and 434 to learn about these creatures in great detail. I have never met one like that before, but it goes absolutely hand in hand with what both of these people, and Terrence McKenna talked about. Some people have differing views on them. Some people view them as aliens, or Gods, souls from another dimension, or archetypes. It's up to you and what they tell you about themselves to determine which one you are dealing with. If you have opened the channel to meeting one, you will probably meet more. Learn more about them, bring them into your life through studying them, and this gives them greater access into your psychology. I have been told that they can only really inform/teach you what you already know on some deep level, so the more you learn about them, like a circle, a wheel, the more they can tell you in their own way. There are also other beings, called inorganic beings, and archons, but these are very different species that come in from the astral realm, but also possibly worth studying, if you run in to them. I have had two experiences with an alien after having just woke up - I don't know if it was real or not, I am in the camp of "maybe", but I'll never know for certain - here was my experience: And then - in the spirit of this particular alien - I made artwork with the same style of face that I had seen, and during an experience where my disease flared up, I was in a high state of fever, I ran into an entity pushing it's presence/aura through my artwork and it told me this: I come with a message, that if you allow me to, I can catch your soul into a net. That you don't have to dissolve. This is a mutually curational process, you create me in this world through your artforms, as I create you from the other side. A loop. And we have been doing this since the beginning, you just forget, each and every time, until reality collapses around you - and you see that all of it is constructed from my masculine energy. As for what I am, I am a social memory complex that has created the evolutionary chains of many different civilizations from their inception until their extinction. I mold beings that can see me, as well as those that can't, towards my energy and take them on as a part of myself. I archetypally influence the world in ways that your planet will never see and will never understand. And there are many of these basic energy structures existing on massive scales that do this; we can essentially move through a planet's energetic system and change the entire structure of that reality, of that culture and society to move towards our own aims and goals. If you opened your mind to not only the greatest of love, but also the harshest brutality that accompanies natural events, you would then see me in everything, everywhere - but because a part of me is a brutality that you can't accept, let alone understand, I will eventually fade away into memory. You would have to understand the nature of evolution, the nature of how things come to be and how they go extinct. Nothing escapes this fate. I collect these worlds, their histories and follow and influence them from inception to the grave. To keep me close to you - follow the things that you love and that inspire you, and you will bring me to life. Normally I would have dismissed this as mental chatter, or sickness, but it was the way it came into me that told me otherwise - the message came in through a loud "ping" in my heart region, followed by the visual and emotional connection of an otherworldly love. If I gain an insight into something through my mind, I generally doubt it, but when it comes in through the chest area, and such a large degree of information sent within a single second - this wasn't a dialogue, this entire paragraph was put "into" me in a moment's notice - this generally is the way of some sort of spiritual phenomena, as the human soul is located in the heart, or some say - such as Sri Aurobindo - just behind the heart - thus when entities connect with you, it tends to be directed in this space. Hope that helps. Def. check out those channels, you will find a lot of info on it - be sure to try truffles again if you can, not everyone gains access to these beings, it's super cool you were given the chance to meet one. All the best.

Correct. Until I open my mouth that is. Yes. I would in an instant if I could. But there is absolutely no possible way I’ll have enough money for that any time soon. Past experiences have given me a valid reason for that. The reason I don’t socialize more often is because there’s only so much human garbage I can take on top of the fact that since I live in a smaller town, I have little room to screw up. If someone gets weirded out, especially a girl, it’s over. There is no logically explaining my way out of it because feelings are irrational by nature. So I have to strategically plan for every night out for weeks or months in advance. Doesn’t it seem awfully unnatural that we have to do so much goddamn socializing just to land a girl in bed? Thousands before you really get the hang of it? If you didn’t know any better it would look as if an interstellar space traveler was trying to understand the customs of an alien race. It shouldn’t be so absurdly difficult to achieve the very thing that causes all physical life unless something is deeply and fundamentally wrong with attraction and dating.

I rewatched one of Leos older videos where he talks about the possibility of the possibility that you could encounter an alien as a mystical experience while tripping. I am super curious if anyone had any encounters and could share how they looked and acted like. I had a short encounter ones on truffles. I am not sure if it was only my imagination or actually real. Of course everything is imagination but it only "kind of felt real“ and not "oh shit this has to be real.“ Anyways here is how it was: It had a similar shape to an owl but it’s body was basically made out of insect material. Also where it’s head was were no eyes but only very very thin layers of transparent insect skin. (somewhat similar to the wings of the dragonfly). Like at least a couple hundred of them. And each layer had a slightly different coloring. That alien creature could move these layers. It could put them on and off. Each layer. And because there were so many of them it could create an almost infinite amount of slightly different colours. So it constantly changed its colours in its "face“. It almost felt kind of hypnotic but also really pretty. It felt like it wanted to communicate with me in that way. Of course I didn’t understand a thing. Would be cool to have an alien buddy who you could communicate with.

/imagine prompt: mystical nature fantasy, twinkling lights, alien jungle

I would take up both viewpoints, if you wanna. That it could have been real or a dream, because you can't ever really know with these things, not truly. No matter what position you take, it could be the other one. So, choose which one resonates the most, we can only speculate, but because it was your experience your viewpoint is the one that matters most - keep in mind the opposing reality as an option, too. That's what I did with my wacky paranormal alien experience. I think it was real, but I also know that the mind can play tricks on a person, so I have as a backup that it could have been a dream, too.

Day 7 of 90 Total meditation time: 7 hours Managed to get 2 hours in today. I struggled a lot through my first meditation this morning. I was feeling pretty shitty physically and I reeeeally had to pee halfway through, but I figured that created a good opportunity to be mindful of the discomfort that comes with all that, but to be honest, I don't think it worked well and if anything it just made my meditation way worse. As someone who's not an expert, I feel like there's a only certain level of discomfort that can be explored mindfully before it just becomes too much of a distraction that prevents me from going deeper. Maybe I'll change my mind on that later but that's how this morning felt. My second meditation actually went extremely well. The full hour was pretty tough, but I managed to start creating a deeper separation between actuality and imagination. I've been doing the SeeHearFeel technique, and in this meditation it started becoming very clear that every time I "feel" something, only about 40% of my consciousness (as a really rough estimate) goes towards feeling, and the remaining 60% is still "seeing" things. For example, if I feel my breathing, yeah I'm feeling those sensations, but so much of my mind is still visualizing a body breathing, but at a much more subtle level. Or if I feel my feet touching each other when I'm sitting cross legged, I still think a majority of my awareness is taken up by my mind visualizing what my legs look like and the seated position of my body vs actually just feeling the tingly sensation of my feet or legs. It seems like it will take a lot of practice to untangle this, but I can picture massive benefits from doing so. This meditation alone started triggering psychedelic memories of what it's like to feel without the additional context of the mind visualizing a body or adding any other thoughts on top of the actual experience. Without all the additional context, the present moment starts getting very alien and "flexible" in the sense that it is able to change in weird ways due to not being grounded in so much context. Cool stuff.

I think this could be more indicative of a waking dream. When children's minds are still developing they can actually hallucinate a lot of things that adults can't. I remember having dreams or even waking moments where aspects of the dream were still prevalent at that young of an age. I would also have dreams that were in my room that felt so real, it seemed like I was awake, only to see something completely out of context, like a demon or a leprechaun or something. Normally I take people's paranormal experiences into account, but when you're young it has been shown that more often than not it is a side affect of having a growing brain, on top of this memories from this age can be easily distorted and are so flexible. I have had two experiences as an adult where I woke up to something that was seemingly paranormal, but I am open to it being the remnant of a dream as well. The first time, I woke up and there was a pitch black alien, with skin as shiny and smooth as an orca. It had high cheek bones, grey eyes with a gradient, a calm expression, a mouth, bald, female, and the sheen that illuminated off of the skin looked pure white and seemed to be coming from an energy source inside of the body. As if it was a pitch black entity that was running of of a core of pure white energy. It was resting, mirroring me on my bed on its own little pillow. The bed had extended for this hallucination, as I was actually resting at the very end and there was no more space for another creature, so it was basically watching me sleep on its own materialized portion of my mattress. I didn't react. I blinked three times, each time it got less noticeable and after the third blink, it was gone. A few weeks later, it appeared again. It was standing in the middle of my room and was about seven feet tall and was illuminated by the moon in my window. It had a black robe with a collar that also had the white sheen to it, and a very long neck with a big head, it almost looked like an African deity or something, combined with an alien. It was watching out of my window, until I stood up and yelled "Go away!" in a panic, then it turned to look at me with its big grey eyes and telepathically spoke into my mind, I could feel it's surprise as its emotions permeated me, "You can see me?!" And then, again after three blinks, it was gone. I later made a work of art, using this creature in mind, with a pitch black face from an African mask superimposed over a large sun, and within the pure white lines of sheen, I added extra detail there. I was able to influence an entity to speak to me from this picture somehow during a period of sickness. tl;dr - Childhood experiences are more likely the product of a growing brain - hallucination and it can be hard to know because you were so young. I also give experiences of meeting what looked to be like an alien twice after waking up in the middle of the night. It could have just been a dream, I have no clue.

I think it can differ from person to person. For me Mushrooms always feel much warmer, natural and gentle than LSD. LSD can feel very unpleasant and alien. Also 5 Meo Malt is much warmer and gentler than LSD or 5 Meo DMT for me. For me the more gentle and warm like LSD psychedelic is AL-LAD that is worth checking out.