Truth Addict

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  1. Posted

    @DrewNows 

    Look buddy, I know it's just my perspective. But they're devils in MY perspective. I don't want to see them otherwise, because they are actual devils. My perspective is true, and you don't have to believe in it. Stop telling me to stop judging because I won't.

    I know that illness is a part of being. Yet, I work to stop it from spreading. The same thing applies here, I am the doctor here, and they are the cancer. I can see that because I have wisdom, and they don't. Again, you don't have to believe me, just let me have my perspective.

    28 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    They lack your compassion, wisdom, awareness, selflessness, and definition for medical practitioners.

    They lack my scalpel excising their malignancy.

  2. Posted · Edited by Truth Addict

    1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

    It wasn't something i ever focused on nor is it something im bothered by, but there's nothing wrong, it's like their life purpose

    Because you don't count in their league. They don't judge your grades.

    1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

    hahaha. is it possible not to play the devils game? It is all happening in your mind after allxD

    The no-devils no-game is also happening in your mind after all. After a certain point, you will become able to see devilry without being a devil. Devils are just toxic, it can't get more obvious.

    1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

    Would you mind answering my questions regarding toxicity?

    I already answered it: ?

    3 hours ago, Truth Addict said:

    They're very serious people. You probably have noticed that I share some of their seriousness. I can't live up to that anymore. That's not a healthy way of going about life.

    Those people are the opposite of wisdom, ironically, as they should be the wisest people of all. Medicine is all about wisdom. Yet, they don't have any, they're just robots.

    They lack awareness, compassion, wisdom, and they're extremely selfish while they're supposed to be the most selfless people. They are destructive cancers while they're supposed to stop cancer. They're acutely ill while they're supposed to be the healers.

    What more toxicity/devilry are you looking for?

    1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

    What is wisdom to the untrained eye? Is there even such a thing? 

    If you're being passive aggressive with these two questions, then the answer is that you are stuck at stage Green.

    By the way, the people I'm talking about are passive aggressive by default without them even noticing or caring. They talk a lot of shit they don't mean.

  4. Posted · Edited by Truth Addict

    I have no problem at all with other races, ethnicities, nationalities, religions, cultures, etc... Except with gender and sex preferences. (and more recently with highly intellectual people, but that's kind of irrelevant here).

    I don't understand how homosexual people are normal people. I don't know if it's good for me to understand them right now because my society rejects them entirely, so it might be dangerous for me to think differently. And even though I already think differently, the people I interact with would call it just philosophy, but with sex preferences, it's a different matter. Sex and marriage are serious matters where I live, i.e. among Muslims.

    I don't understand transsexuals, bisexuals, lesbians, gays, etc... I don't even know how many genders are there.

    However, I can watch lesbian/bisexual female porn. But I can't watch gay porn at all, it disgusts me.

    I haven't seriously thought about this until now. Some people say that it's just a defence mechanism that I don't accept homos, and that it means that I have inhibited homosexual tendencies. I don't think that is the case for me. But who knows? I could be wrong.

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    45 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    They totally do haha.

    So, it's an epidemic.

    46 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    I love reading journals like yours where people aren’t afraid to open up, sometimes I ignorantly find it beyond me to do so, anyways 

    I can open up to anyone, especially to strangers, because I know they would judge me as humble and carefree. But I'm very careful with my medical colleagues because they're devils, they're so judgemental, especially of each other. Rank is a very important factor in their system, if my rank is low, then I don't have a voice, so I basically can't be a leader amongst them, and I dislike their leadership. I don't specifically like being a leader, but I can fill that position very well. They're the worst leaders in my opinion, they're basically like Trump.

    58 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    How do you try to connect with them? Are you asking questions that challenge them to go beyond their identity and appearance?

    Perhaps I wasn't good at describing the situation. I have friends from medical school, one of them is my best, and he's at stage Yellow. I used to be friends with multiple groups, but I had to act inauthentically in order to fit. At some point, I couldn't take it anymore, so I became fully authentic and cut off most of my friendships. Not a single one of them is interested in personal-development, nor consciousness, or anything like that. They're stuck between stage Blue and Orange. You can find some Green among them, but I can't tolerate that as well. They're way up in their heads.

    The average guy in medical school talks about studying 90% of the time. Even my best friend talks a lot about studying, but then he balances it with philosophy and politics.

    They're very serious people. You probably have noticed that I share some of their seriousness. I can't live up to that anymore. That's not a healthy way of going about life.

    1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

    Think of the challenge as challenging yourself to truly see them to the depth of compassion

    I hate them more than I hate Peter Ralston. At least Ralston has some wisdom. Those people are the opposite of wisdom, ironically, as they should be the wisest people of all. Medicine is all about wisdom. They don't have any, they're just robots.

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    4 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    They say fear gets transformed quickly into anger, and sometimes directly to judgement 

    Correct. I was afraid for my self-image. The professor was so inconsiderate of it, and so he embarrassed me in front of my colleagues. I know I shouldn't care for other people's opinions, but I'm not there yet, not even close. That's why I'm journaling.

    7 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    I’ve been playing soccer with medical students, I’d definitely bring up naturopathy and detoxification if I get to know them on a more personal level 

    part of me has been afraid to open up to anyone I wish to form a connection or friendship with on a real vulnerable level 

    Here, they rarely talk about anything outside of studying. They're complete nerds. They are addicted to studying, even on holidays they study, even on vacations, even in the summer.

    They don't practice as much. They're just bibliophiles, and they don't read anything that isn't related to medicine.

    Maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit, and surely there are cool people as well, but the majority are nerds.

    I try to connect with them on a personal level, but all they care about is my grades and how much I study.

    Again, this is the case here. I don't know about your country or even about another medical school in my country. I wonder if your friends don't talk about studying before or after playing.

  8. Posted

    Yeah, so as I returned to college, I started interacting with college students. They're the worst ever. Medical students are the most ignorant and neurotic people you'll ever meet. I'm quite sure most doctors are so. Being a good student requires being highly neurotic, obsessive, and closed-minded, at least where I live. I WAS like that my whole life until three years ago i.e. until I started my self-development work. I was a complete nerd, the most ignorant guy in the whole world. I was even more ignorant 5 years ago. It's quite shocking how many layers do ignorance have, and it's quite impressive how much I've improved. I know I have a lot more to learn, but whatever.

    Anyway, so those nerds... They're the most irritating people ever. Everything they say is toxic and neurotic, they have an extremely offensive attitude, think of mine and multiply it by a thousand. They're extremely selfish and serious. The only thing they care about is high grades, which in their minds translates as high money.

    The irony is that people who are responsible for health are the most unhealthy. Lungs doctors smoke, what the fucking smoking hell?! That's just one example, the rest is so on, if not worse. Today I was discussing my graduation project with the psychiatry professor, he said that I am being obsessive! What the fuck? So it's just like that? You're automatically diagnosing me, and based on what? Are you done yet Mr. Projections? I know that I still am obsessive, but thank you for saying it out loud in front of my colleagues. You're just the worst!

    The worst thing about ignorance is that you can't respond to it without being ignorant. It's really toxic to be around those people. They're convinced that they are the best people in the world. I'm telling you, they're the worst. You don't want to be around them.

  14. Posted · Edited by Truth Addict

    I really started hating this place.

    Every ignorant fuck thinks they're enlightened masters and then they come and make projections and claims about me. Moreover, due to their deep ignorance, they provide their unsolicited 'advice' mostly in a projection form.

    My life is amazing, why am I wasting it on interacting with ignorant people?!

    I'm not sure about leaving, but I'm sure that this place is no longer a match for me. Once you've become a human, a chimp will not be able to understand you.

    Now I truly understand this quote: "Never argue with stupid people, they will drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience."

    I don't usually get triggered, but I'm really angry right now. I think I need to take a break.

  19. Posted

    @Raptorsin7

    It does not have to be 5 hours exactly, and it does not have to be a meditation practice.

    If you can practice any activity continuously for prolonged duration, that'll do it.

    The point is to learn how to detach from thinking about other activities while you are doing one activity. You need to lose yourself in the activity, and that's basically the flow state that you're looking for. If you practice for long enough, it'll become easier for you to enter the vortex in no time.

    Of course, it's just my opinion.

  23. Posted · Edited by Truth Addict

    @TrynaBeTurquoise

    There's no such thing as 'concept awareness' and 'actual/real awareness'. There's no such thing as a distinction to begin with.

    Try pointing down the concept. You can't.

    Try pointing down awareness. You can't.

    I call ideology from the without, not from the within. Non-duality eventually undermines itself, or it becomes an ideology.

    No offence, but your mind (which is a metaphor) seems to be struggling to find a land to stand on, while there aren't any.

  24. Posted · Edited by Truth Addict

    @TrynaBeTurquoise

    **Welcome to dogma.

    Yes, I am not aware. There's no such thing as 'something' and 'nothing'.

    Sure it will confuse a lot of people, you could be one of them, because it fucks with their non-duality ideology. People couldn't find awareness, so they started worshipping the concept 'awareness'. People are already deeply confused and misguided. Undermining awareness could break their fantasies.