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  1. Extreamly well put. This is really not awakening, yes it can teach you about sanity and other intresting this but it is HORRIFIC. In insanity, your mind takes over in a very painful way. It is all mind, which is taking over by creating meaning to everything. There is no peace. There is no love. There is violent delusion. After awekening there is peacefulness, understanding. After and during psychosis there is horrible depression, suicidal thoughts along with other very mind related things.
  2. ”The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight” - Joseph Campbell There are many kinds of psychosis and it is difficult to speak of insanity as it could refer to quite many different states. Having experienced both something that could be classified as psychosis (altough luckily quite mild) and mystical states and awakenings, there is a big difference between them. The problem is that whilst you are in the state of psychosis, you can believe that it is awakening etc mystical state. But if you are able to introspect, it is VERY different. One makes you feel free and one makes you feel, in the lack of a better word, insane. It’s important to note that in psychosis every single one of your delusions has a logic to it and makes perfect sense to you. It is just very difficult to explain this logic to others, actually quite impossible.
  3. Agreed, answering with knowledge or language will never answer the question. Perhaps you should ponder what love has lead you to in this life and what that has taught you etc. Not just universally what love is. Have you ever fallen in love? One cannot properly explain why you meet certain people at certain times, but you are able to recognize your essance with a certain person easier than others. Why is it that the experience of falling in love is similar (much milder ofc) to enlightenment? No. Words. Can. Describe. Either.
  4. Love you <3 I hope you are doing well. Have a lovely day.
  5. Look at those almond eyes of infinite awereness 😍😂
  6. This is the best post in your whole journal <3
  7. One of the reasons why travelling is so beautiful and why most people enjoy it so much is that it highlights that allthough everything around you changes, there is still you whom does not. I suppose some of us are cave dwellers, some of us live in houses, some of us like to be loose footed I'm a ramblin' (wo)man And you're going to keep on rambling? Oh yes, haha, I have to
  8. Don't take lsd. Don't lie to yourself that it's doing you any good if the end result is your mind wandering even more. Psycedelics don't help all people for some they are too strong. Be brave
  9. @George Fil haha, I can definitely relate to the movies part as well. Also happens when I look at trees, dogs, flowers etc. And it isn't like "normal" crying (i.e. sobbing) it's more happy tears. Yes, the feeling of warmth I also experience usually after I feel as if my hands dissapper. @Nahm Thank you for the encouragement Love feels like the natural path/way yet sometimes I must check whether I'm fooling myself or not. Perhaps I need just to trust love.
  10. I have a reoccurding phenomena whilst meditation for a month or two; I meditate and usually end up doing self-inquiry and when I investigate onto the question - Who am I, Who is the one feeling this etc. tears start forming. I do not feel sad or happy but the tears start forming every single time. I don't really mind it, but I'm wondering why is this and could there be anything else I could do rather than just sit with it as sitting with it doesn't seem to give me further insight to sit with it. Another occurance is after doing self-inquiry I start doing a sort of a loving-kindness meditation. Thoughts of all that I love arise (nature, people etc.) I feel grateful and loving and it is very beautiful. But I'm wondering whether it is a distraction of going even deeper? Although my last awekening experience came after this loving feeling as it led to myself. Any advice? Thanks for the help
  11. You are loved. Go deeper into the emotion and see what's hidden behind.
  12. Haha you made me smile because I have pondered the exact same thing, loving animals and nature so deeply and how this has grown or "come back". And I feel as if that special connection I have with them is here even more. The most wonderous thing I also now looking at animals from the same place as when I was younger, they seem to be more curious to me as well, as if they would sense the pure love I have for them. With no wanting to pet them or get anything from them, just looking and appriciating.
  13. Oh how much I can relate. But you know what? If you would have control what would that then give you? It would bore you to death. There would be no point. If you had control of your happiness or sadness there would be no surprise left. We want control because we imagine it would give us peace or happiness but that is simply not true. The best things in life are the ones with an element of surprise. Expecting things to happen ruins them quite a lot of the time. Yes, we feel the sadness of others, but why is that a sad thing? Isn't that the most beautiful evidence of us being the same? It is only your mind trying to tell you a sad story about sadness. Surely you can listen to the story if you like, but perhaps it is not necessary. Perhaps you can take the story for what it is, a story.