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  1. @JosephKnecht Defining substance is like for a ball point pen to describe ink on a piece of paper. The ink in of itself is substance, then if you write with the ink "ink <--", that's a representation of ink, but not "more" accurate than just directly seeing substance. Substance is already as close as can be. It's nothing other than you. Although substance tries hard to describe itself, an efficient antidote would be to stop describing, but just be what represents. Be the substance of representation. Find yourself being, substance itself.
  2. We can create anything. Anything. We have free choice to do so. Free choice is loving design (we can get anything we wish) . Intelligence would always do the most loving choice. The most intelligent choice is love. Infinite intelligence = infinite substance = infinite love. We have free choice to do anything we wish. It's lovingly imbued in our intelligent design. And what are we doing now? Truly?
  3. Let's forget our beliefs for a moment, especially the belief that "God can't be spoken". What I will do here is refer to your own direct experience to describe infinity, in this way, you can anchor infinity yourself, and see it in direct experience. Forget what God is, forget what anyone told you, just for a moment; you open your mind for this thought experiment. Thought Experiment: Substance You are conscious. Right? Let's agree on that. You are conscious of "reality". Let's agree on that. Reality is here. As whatever is "reality" it's made out of a substance. And you are conscious that there is a substance here. Let's agree on that. If there is a substance, let's define substance. What is the substance that can take all of these shapes and forms? "The substance of reality" can take on many forms. Sometimes it appears as a computer screen, or other humans, etc. It's even possible for us humans to construct/invent almost infinite amounts of the form (such as in sculpting), so what do you think would limit the substance from being any form? Why would the substance be limited in any way of taking "particular forms" but "not other particular forms". What forms can't substance take, and why? How do we know? Can we agree that substance has unlimited potential in what forms it takes? The solution here is that we can't think up a form that doesn't exist because there would appear a thought of that form, and that would be a representation of that form's existence. When we think of an object that "can't exist" (therefore substance can't take all forms), it would be a lie. Because that object actually appears to be taking a form, as a representation, a thought. The solution is that we can't think up a form that doesn't exist, therefore, reality has no reason to be limited. For there is no mechanism that can limit it, other than illusions such as "thought representing 'something that doesn't exist' while not seeing that the representation exists in of itself". So let's agree that Substance is unlimited in it's potential to take on any form. If Substance is unlimited, then substance will unify with its potential. Potential means "the possible forms that substance can take". But if substance has infinite potential of shaping itself into any form, then substance will inevitably be all these forms. Because nothing limits substance from achieving it's potential. Because if substance can take on any shape, that by definition means that substance is unlimited in it's freedom to do so, which means that it will eventually happen. Let's agree on that substance can take on any form, and is already doing so. This is where time comes into the picture. Time is here for substance to experience itself. As substance already exists in it's infinite and unhindered potential, then substance will be just in the shape that reality is for you right now. In your reality there are a bunch of colors, sounds, feelings, sensory stimulation, time, thoughts, maybe more. This is because substance can take on any form, and is already doing so, therefore your experience must exist just as it is right now, as there is nothing hindering substance from existing just this way for you. And that included the experience of "time". What time is, is just a thought in your experience. The concept of "Time" doesn't exist if you don't think about it, because concepts require thinking to be held within substance. So, what is time when you are not holding a concept about it? Well, it's movement. It's change. Change is the way where substance can experience itself changing. For substance to take all forms (as it already does), it has to also experience every form, because every form that is possible must happen (as the substance of form is unlimited), and so the "experience" of "substance" "just like this" is possible, thus exists, and it's morphing, because substance is every possibility, and it can be limited to this experience, while also being everything all at once by maintaining limited but constant movement, where experience will morph to be everything. Let's agree that time is constant movement. Constant movement of substance, is a feature of the substance's unlimitedness, because constant movement (without end) guarantees that substance takes all forms "eventually". But it also garantuees that substance will be experienced as what it is. Let's agree that substance limits itself with endless movement of limited frames, so that it can experience itself as limited. This completes unlimitedness, because if total freedom cannot limit itself, then it's truly not totally free. Substance is by definition totally self-accepting. This is because substance cannot not be itself. Then it would not be substance. Substance must be itself, therefore, it's also self-accepting. Complete self-acceptance is inbued within every single one of substance's form. Yet with substance being unlimited in it's creative capacity, it can limit itself in it's unification with itself, but not totally. There will always be total self-accaptance within substance, yet it's potential to create, can create limited forms, that are inherently self-accepting, but may not appear as such. Substance does this by creating your sensory experience, with a lot of thoughts and beliefs, creating the illution of "being human", etc. All of this to limit itself, which is a feature of total freedom. Substance is always in existence. For there to be a substance here, it means all of these things stated above. Substance must be this way per definition; unlimited, timeless, totally free, totally self-accepting. Substance is immortal. Yet, substance can believe in death. Death is merely a feature of movement. As one frame passes, another one replaces. The first frame thus disappears (dies) to make life to the next frame (life). Death and life is thus the same thing. It's movement. As substance is eternally moving, substance is immortal. As it always dies by being alive, it trancends death. Death is life. Death is substance. Substance is beautiful. Death is ecstasy. Substance is beautiful, because intelligence is a feature of unlimited freedom of in shapeshifting potential. Intelligence must exist in infinite potential, because why would infinite potential be limited to not include intelligence? That cannot be, because substance would not limit itself to exclude any potential form, thus intelligence must exist as a feature of substance. Let's agree that any form that substance takes, is inbued with intelligent design. Every object has in fact infinite beauty, because every object has an infinite context, because it's made of an infinite substance, which interconnects itself through a singular shapeshifting timeline, which is eternal, thus "in the end" embodies every possible shape. And so, it's as if a part of the substance has an infinite history, and infinite "connectedness" to substance. Let's agree that the substance loves being human. Because substance would limit itself to being human, instead of infinite. Yet substance is infinite in it's limitation to human, but there is still a sacrifice made in "being human" rather than "infinite", and that is because substance loves being human, as the human experience is a divine experience. It's eternal - self-accepting - infinite potential - all experiencing - infinitely intelligent - one with itself. Substance is one with itself, because there is no reason for any part of substance to be limited. This is because the substance that grounds all of reality cannot be limited, and what actually limits, is the illusion that substance creates for itself which compartmentalizes certain parts of substance to be "split" into "sections". This is using infinite intelligence for substance to actually succeed at limiting itself, while it remains unlimited at the same time. For substance to be playing this beautiful game, in infinite self-acceptance, immortality, and infinite intelligence, limited & unlimited. Otherwise, substance couldn't be defined as substance, thus wouldn't exist. For substance to exist, it has to have features of Love. The substance is God. God is infinite; self-acceptance, intelligence, life; Love. God is love everybody! There is nothing to fear.
  4. @Natasha Amazing Boquet. It will last you a lifetime! Here is a poem I write called "To Maria" The rest of the time, I was not still, but when suddenly moved to a halt.. By the rest of the Love that I share, within the stillness of time, unmoved. In stillness, I saw my beautiful mind. Being still, in midst of winds. The long-forgotten stillness upon me, as insights form a beautiful mind. Now I know that Loving is still. For from stillness comes the relevant response. For stillness knows beauty Like the eye knows the bird; The Falcon knows the fish; only In stillness of the wind. In stillness, I saw you; Keep my mind, Flowering with Awe.
  5. I just want to knee-jerk react to this before having read the rest of your journal. Pardon if you need to repeat yourself if this is already answered (explicitly or implicitly), but your text begs the question: "Isn't 'I can't fall in love with her, or else...'" a limiting belief? Why would you to try to limit your natural inclination to fall in love and stay in love? For me at this moment, it's a defining question too. Yet, what if "falling in love" is a feeling that takes into account your circumstances, goes meta on rationality, and thus is actually the best for you, but maybe fear is doing the rationalization. How do you know this? Could you be missing out by limiting natural inclination? Maybe you have answered this. Also, when I read, I kept saying "thank you", because this is VALUE. Your descriptions are Gold for those who seek inspiration.
  6. @Insightful27 I'm 19. I have tripped and such since about 15. I'm currently slightly addicted to weed, where I have had certain awakenings using weed, which is one of my excuses fueling the addiction. I won't label this behavior "right" or "wrong" thus, because in the end, awareness is curative. Use your awareness too young man, use your intuition here. By having even asked for other's advice, you are opening up for other's authority to affect you, but althewhile, stay connected to your intuition. If it feels right to try, because you have actually sit down and pondered your situation, and considered the potential risks, and it still feel right, then go! That is your intuition knowing everything will be fine. So, the resource I will give you which you might want to consider to fuel your intuition is: If you are in a situation where your survival patterns hinges upon suppression of emotions, such as guilt, anger, grief, or if you eat a toxic diet, have an improper posture: All of these things will affect how the psychedelic will open your mind. See the psychedelic as a blood pressure; the more the pressure, the more blood to all veins, then the more clogs will be *hit upon* with more awareness. The danger is for you to suddenly be aware of many of your deceptions. So, being prepared to let go is a wonderful tool for any trip. Consider all your tools and potential risks, see if tripping feels right. Also, tripping means of course what dose you take, and you can of course start small.
  7. Guide for men: Grab a fleshlight, an anal vibrator or crystal dildo. Get naked. Attach the fleshlight to a large mirror. Or if you want privacy; on the bathroom wall with the shower water gently running down (blending the sounds). Take your preferred psychedelic aphrodisiac (mine is Weed). You can also aid with aphrodisiac scents Put on your speaker with your favourite sex music Begin foreplay: Touching body Taking that shower Looking into that mirror Gazing at the fleshlight Playing with the anal toy Fantasizing Now that you are horny, begin the sexual act with the fleshlight and/or the anal dildo. Make sure that you start slow. Avoid premature ejaculation. Aim for 1 hour. Incorporate Taoist/tantric breathing techniques; actively transmute the sexual energy using your conscious intent and breath. You can also moan (sounding). If you are using the mirror, make sure that you look at your body and muster full self-acceptance of your body and sexuality; feeling your sexiness. If you are using the shower, make sure that you are looking at your body from available angles; feeling your sexiness. Now when the breathing is semi-automatic: Let your fantasies run wild! I have done some sessions: While raising the sexual energy to my third eye -feeling gratitude- while manifesting my dreams of financial freedom. As if I fucked my visions; Pleasurable. Fantasizing sex with a potential partner (I'm single). Imagining myself fucking myself as if I were "The girl in the mirror". Imagining a perfect intimate partner to which I loved to give amazing levels of pleasure to. Vividly imagining (with the help of sexual energy) having sex with a beautiful partner (as if it were real because the mind can't tell the difference). Dominating her with my endless sexual energy, looking her deep into her eyes while dancing-thrusting to the music Alternative climaxes: Regular ejaculatory orgasm, enhanced when looking yourself into the eyes (in the mirror), or when vividly visualizing your dreams. Also enhanced by the vivid imagination of having simultaneous orgasms with your imaginary sexual partner. Energetic orgasm using breathing and tantric/Taoist techniques. No orgasms, just a closing gesture when you feel satisfied. If ejaculation: Sit with yourself for 15 minutes after the orgasm, to turn the post-orgasm boding moment inward for self-acceptance & self-love. //// This practice is likely to increase self-esteem: Through radical self-acceptance. Through psycho cybernetics of attracting a partner through visualization. Practising imaginary sex is no different from practising real sex - for the mind. Through mastering sexual transmutation thus building confidence in being able to last a long time in bed. Confidence in your ability to pleasure her. Through being able to radically fulfil your sexual desires solo, thus not needing a partner. Through potentially transforming PMO addiction into something more desirable and healthy. Through practising semen retention due to mastering sexual energy transmutation and weening yourself off from less pleasurable forms of masturbation such as PMO. Through connecting more with your feminine side, embracing it with love. = = = = = I once had such a powerful ejaculatory orgasm with the fleshlight attached to the mirror after 10 days of nofap, looking myself deeply into the eyes, in pure awe of the climax, while high in weed. Radical Love. A radical level of self-acceptance that significantly altered daily life.
  8. What ultimately helped me drop many addictions is the law of "awareness is curative". Leo made a video on it. When I scroll on facebook nowadays, I'm very aware of the minutes ticking by. When I watch porn, I'm aware of the sensation in my body, the after effects When I eat junk food, i'm aware of the taste, but also how I feel the day after
  9. Sweden: Järntoget. A "capital" of drug dealing in Gothenburg. It's a place I have researched through imperical observation. I have been tripping in that place more than 3 times (Moderate doses: LSD, Weed), deliberately observing. 4 times I have been scammed in the same way: Black people trying to sell me weed. Of course, the weed was fake each time. But these people were convincing. They were so convincing that I repeated my mistakes. Basically, they acted as if their weed was real and that I was getting a bargain. They used always doubled down on their lies that "the weed was real", they even acted as if they expected me to buy the thing, because it was gonna be worth it. Their reasons always made sense, their acting went along with their style, the environment. Basically, they acted superbly as if they had good weed and that I should buy it. They acted as if they were real-deal sellers, selling me good stuff, where they actually didn't. The thoughts always came to me that they might be scamming, but I couldn't find any evidence for it, because their act was so congruent; and so I got scammed in self-doubt, "taking the risk" so to speak. I can only imagine people who has not been scammed before thus don't get the suspicion in the midst of their congruency. But they have to be very congruent: to make their reasons for trading with you, believable: "Win win" It's as if the scammers apply to our good nature, and they do this with congruent acting. As if it was real: No suspicion = free money for the scammer.
  10. I read everything up until page 18; what a beautiful tread! I brought out the snacks for this one. I think that all sexual and relationship problems between men and women stem from lack of understanding the truth of the other person's perspective. Where intimacy lies in expressing radical honesty - to share one's perspective with another. For if the man was truly interested in hearing the perspective of the woman, there would be no problem for the woman, vice versa. For some reason, men and women have a hard time understanding each other's perspectives. I judge men who don't understand the importance of understanding the woman for intimacy to even be enjoyed, to be unwise. From my experience of doing cold approaches with radical honesty, it seems obvious to me that the majority of women are unwilling to truly listen to the man's perspective, understandably as many men can be labeled "predictable" and "sneaky - hiding their true intentions". But tell me, whenever you as a woman feel the vibe that the man hides his intentions, or "just wants sex", do you ever tell him outright -your perspective- that "you think that he just wants to have sex with you and that he hides his intentions?" This will bring the problems right up to the surface to be processed. I'm saying that it's effective for intimacy to occur when all the "assumptions about the other person" are brought to light. Because assumptions are by definition false, where intimacy entails the correcting of assumptions. Understanding each other doesn't happen until a person gets thoughts that match the reality about the other person. Both people can reach a full understanding of each other while still being "man and woman": Where they can understand that they are both turning each other on. And so, the solution to all sexual and relationship problems is where everybody communicates in a way that makes other people understand them, where understanding leads to "consent" (understanding consent). Thus: if you as a woman are dealing with a drunk guy, then maybe it's inappropriate for you to expect that he will understand your "subtle cues". Be more explicit with words. If you as a woman are dealing with men approaching you, seek to understand their perspective and probe that understanding by explicating your thoughts and feelings to him! This forces him to be honest. If you are a man, always explicate your truth. Same for women. Seek to be understood with your truth, especially in your intimate relationship investments. If you are a woman and you know that you live in a society where men are prone to be unwilling to understand your perspective, please be honest about it: while you wear a pepper spray to reduce risking having your physical boundaries be crossed. If you are afraid that if you express your feelings that the other person might dislike it; <- express that! I know that I am attractive (because I turn myself on). And so, Girls who reject me without understanding me are not willing to understand me. That makes me turned off. I, as a man, get turned on by women who are open to understanding my perspective, because it fits perfectly with my willingness to understand hers. I feel satisfied enough with the love I give to myself at the moment that I don't need an intimate relationship with a woman because I already have an intimate relationship with the woman within myself!! And so, a woman who is not interested in understanding me is missing out on me. Here where I live in Sweden, the majority of women that I approach seem either: Not willing to understand my perspective (for reasons; Projection, fear, boyfriend, busy, etc) Showing unattractive features which makes me disinterested in the investment of understanding her perspective any further (in case of fulfilling the purpose of the approach which is to have an intimate relationship.) A combination of 1 & 2. It's rare for me to find a girl who is willing to open herself up to true intimacy and understanding right of the bat, where it's extremely rare for me to find a girl who radiates self-love, radical honesty & curiosity for the perspectives of men, where she explicates all her feelings and thoughts to him unconditionally, prompting him to do the same. Such a girl will attract a partner who values radical honesty and will unconditionally explicate their own perspective to her, where they both are full of self-love, they will enjoy a fantastic interdependent relationship. Although it's very rare that such people will even meet: As it seems like the majority are stuck in a state of unwillingness to truly and directly understand each other. Afraid of intimacy as it seems. Note that a "subtle signal" ("implicit") is actually an explicit signal if the other person verifies that they understand. I love "subtle cues" and it's a great form of communication, only if it's clear that they are understood. - - - - - We are great at misunderstanding each other, until all the rape, abuse, pain and suffering will force us to empower effective solutions; such as simply telling the truth and prompting others to do the same. All rape would cease if the people committing rape would truly understand how it feels to be the one getting raped.
  11. @justfortoday Gotcha, thanks for the clarity! Profile pic looking sharp! Nice haircut! Beautiful lips. It's amazing how intuition knows all of this. So, it's tenable that intuition is "in alignment with" the highest authority. The journey is to fully integrate intuition, to completely understand these principles, through a gradual "rewiring" of understanding truth through clarity, letting illusions melt away. I love you.
  12. @justfortoday My beautiful friend. I love your profile pic, especially the angle at which the face is shown, which makes him look sexy. I also get inspired by the integrity you seem to carry with expressing these insights in a minimalistic way. Thank you. I do this too, with Love. I was just about to ask you the question of how can every file be in a loop forever? Yet I approach that question with linear thought. You say that I fork experiences to create new ones. That means that I have chosen to live in infinite ways, in this body, lived through all possibilities. And in order to fully experience reality this way right now, I have to fully not-see all possibilities which have happened. Meaning that I experience reality one frame at a time, meaning that the entire universe is here right now. That it's possible for everything here to be everything that is in this POV, because when death occurs, the replay happens as another one of the infinite perspectives. Tell me, is it possible that the entire universe is right here, right now? In the way I just explained? Well, yes, because I am you, yet I chose to fork myself right now, but eventually, I will be you, and in this way, I am you, and me, simultaneously, right now. Eyes tearing up right now. Like what??! I am you right now because time is an illusion! LOVE!!! LOVE!!! It seems to me like one sees the ramifications of infinite consciousness while only retaining a limited perspective, by choice. It seems like the only way that one can be limited to one's perspective, and still say "reality is absolute infinity occurring as every perspective simultaneously" is by realizing the mechanics of consciousness and then intuiting that it's true, without actually going beyond the limited perspective itself unless it happens somehow. Is this the case for you?
  13. There is some sort of design here. You can't have heaven without the possibility of hell. Hell will thus be created in all possible manifestations, contextualized with an infinite design of infinite love. Everything will happen. As anything is possible, given the design.
  14. I say that this is serious because there has been no other question that I have ever had on this journey so far that I feel so open to having an answer for, hence the question. Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? I'm aware of the cliché of this question, but what makes it serious is that at this point, my mind is open enough for the answer. My own contemplations: If it's true that reality is consciousness itself, that would mean that any thoughts that I have had about what reality is made out of is completely backwards. Specifically the thoughts that reality is made out of atoms, or whatever possible thought that attempts to invalidate this question. We might think that reality is made out of atoms, or waves, or energy, to form all these holons, etc. When this question hit me, I was in the middle of a walk thinking about how reality must be made out of the same energy, taking different forms and different vibrational frequencies. Are you with me? Because here comes the question which jerks my tears: Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? You know the consciousness we all experience? The awareness of things? What if reality is made out of Consciousness, and Nothing else!? It's completely backwards relative to any other explanation, such as atoms, energy, etc. The consciousness "Of" reality, being the substance of reality. Holy... But where is the separation between me and the consciousness "of" reality? "Of" entails that there is a seer; Could it be that all of reality is consciousness, without a seer???!!! WHAT?! Okay, that one sinks in. But if it's true, then how is consciousness? Now, thoughts are appearing of the complexity of how reality takes different forms. How is consciousness... How is it not? Could it be that consciousness "is", and "is not" at the same time?! As the substance without a seer??! Consciousness could be "not" by always changing shape. But then, how is consciousness constant, relative to constantly changing shape? How can consciousness not be? Is that even possible? Yeah, consciousness can change shape... Is there a shape that consciousness cannot take? No... that's very unintelligent. There is no shape which consciousness cannot take. If consciousness can take shape, obviously even change chape, then it's very unintelligent for consciousness to not be able to take "certain shapes". It seems like what enables consciousness to take shape, also enables consciousness to take any shape. But then... What enables consciousness to be & take shapes? ... Nothing? Is it nothing? Could it be that "Nothing" is what enables consciousness to be? Well, the existence of absolutely nothing enables absolutely every shape to exist. How? Because the existence of absolutely nothing, means that it's substracted from all form. If consciousness, as the substance without a seer, strips away all forms, as there is no shape that consciousness cannot take, then, the stripping away of all form means that absolutely nothing remains. Could it be that absolutely nothing, is absolutely everything? It seems like the ability to take any shape, comes from the ability to let go of those very shapes. Because if one clings on to specific shapes, then reality is limited in its ability to take shapes. For shapes to be, shapes also has to not be. Can certain shapes be prioritized to be? -> No, by the same mechanics as reality can't be limited in its ability to take certain shapes; it cannot be limited in letting go of certain shapes either. If we let go of all shapes, we get nothing. If we let all shapes exist, we get everything. But for everything to exist, everything has to also be let go of, because why would reality ever cling on to specific things? Could it be that existence is nothing, and everything, at the same time?? Yes.... . Because for something to be, it has to be not. For specific things to take shape, it first has to lose it's shape. And for everything to take shape, it first has to have no shape at all. For shapes to even exist, they have to not be. For consciousness to be, it has to "be not". It seems like "shapelessness" and "shapes" must exist simultaneously. As if the substance of shapes is nothing and everything. And that's a great solution. That's a great solution. For when nothingness and consciousness intertwine, it allows reality to be. Anything. It also has to be everything, for it to even exist, as nothing and everything simultaneously. Everything = infinite. Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? Haha... Yes it can. Because it's nothing - everything - infinite. Guys, God is inside.
  15. I want to add that I went to a place called "Walkfeeling" here in Sweden, where they basically train ordinary people and athletes to walk and run with a proper posture. They told me that what posture does is that it increased our ability to breathe more deeply, with more air in the lungs, and also to have the muscles stay as relaxed as possible. When we have a poor posture, there are minor muscles that strain in order to compensate for the core muscles not being that strong, or the wrong muscles having its movements been chronically habituated. Proper posture will only strain the major muscles, while the hips, neck, and shoulders stay relaxed. Imagine having a perfect posture, as if you were a Winning Phoenix, walking tall through life with confidence, deep breaths, and relaxation. That's Walkfeeling for you.