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  1. I have a lot of experience with these psychedelics: - LSD - (It's similar versions are AL-LAD, 1P-LSD & more) - Mushrooms - (It's similar versions are Magic Truffles, Psilocybin extract & more) - DMT - (N,N-Dimethyltryptamine, 5-MeO-DMT, Ayahuasca) - Cannabis - (Becomes Psychedelic in certain dosages) There are many more Psychedelics which I have not properly tried: - Mescaline - Salvia - San pedro - MDMA/Ecstacy - 2C-B & More - - - Harm Reduction - - - Prologue (Basics): 1. Be sure that you have the right substance 2. Know the basic effects of the substance 3. Prepare the proper set & setting to support the trip 4. Consume the substance & Enjoy - - - In details - - - 1. Be sure that you have the right substance: This means taking precautions to buy from a trustworthy vendor, in a way where you are as juridically safe as possible (avoiding law enforcement, or buying in a legal way). Now, when you have the substance, you want to be sure that you will be taking the proper molecule; this is to be able to expect that you are for example smoking salvia, and not weed. A common way to do this is to have a testing kit, to test the batch which you have purchased in order to know that you have the correct substance. This is because when you take the substance, you want to feel safe, knowing that you have "consumed 100ug of LSD: 'which means that you will trip for 12 hours, and your body will not be harmed'". The point is to feel safe during the trip. To feel fully safe, you want to know that what you are consuming is not something else than what you expect. If you end up tripping without these precautions, you may start thinking "I don't know if this substance is weed, it might be something else which is harmful!". I'd prefer to think: "I have taken many precautions to know that this is the right substance, which means that I have consumed weed, and I will not be harmed"; a safer trip; a safer "mindscape". 2. Know the basic effects of the substance Read trip reports. If you are a beginner, not knowing the substance, please research enough about the psychedelic you intend to take, so that you have a basic sense of what will happen when you consume the substance. When you have the basic "expectations" of what the substance (which you have tested), then you are ready to start small (also performing step 3&4) in order for you to get a taste of the direct experience. Getting used to the direct experience of a psychedelic is how you will properly master the psychedelic. For when you have tripped once, you have a grander taste of what will come in the next trip. The best way to get used to safe tripping is to get used to the substance through direct experience. 3. Prepare the proper set & setting to support the trip Wikipedia quote: "'Set' is the mental state a person brings to the experience, like thoughts, mood and expectations. "Setting" is the physical and social environment." - When you are tripping, direct experience of reality will change. In order to trip safely, you want to stick to a safe baseline of activity (experience) during the effects. 3.1 Tips for proper Set: a. Trip during a time which you don't have any obligations to perform. It feels much safer to experience a psychedelic when you are not forced to perform tasks that are incongruent to the different state of consciousness. Examples of obligations are Homework, work, deadlines, meetings, responsibilities & must-do's. Ideally, you want to have the entire day free when you intend to trip that same day. b. If you need, have a trip sitter. If you follow precautions but still feel unsafe to the thought of tripping "by yourself", then it tends to feel safe to have a trip sitter who can comfort you, and affirm to you that you are safe during the trip. If you have nobody which you can trust to be your trip sitter, and you still feel unsafe to trip alone, then it might be because you are "fearing a big dose". Then just lower the dose you intend to take. b.2. Inform trusted people that you are gonna trip: Having someone which you trust to know that you are tripping, can make you feel safer, because "if you start feeling weird", you can always call on that trusted person to comfort you, this can happen through the telephone. c. It's important to start small. Just like a toddler starts small. And when the toddler has learned to walk the first step (when you have learned how a low dose of the psychedelic feels like), then you will feel safer in regards to consuming a larger dose the next time, just like the toddler will soon start walking. D. Important metaphor: For me, a psychedelic has the effect of "bringing more energy into the system (mind-body-spirit)". Think of it like a comb: It's much easier to comb hair that is already straightened out, than to comb hair that is tangled. A psychedelic will make the comb start moving, and the comb will not stop. If the hair is tangled, then the comb "not stopping" will be painful. If the hair though is straightened out, then the comb "not stopping" will face no resistance, and so will feel "smooth and pleasant". What do I mean by "Hair"? I mean: Mind-Body-Spirit. "Tangled" vs "Straightened"; Mind: For me, a "tangled" mind is identified as being Neurotic, Addicted, Trauma-suppressive, Destructive, Unsafe, Chronically stressed, Afraid, "Survival-mode", & more. A "Straightened" mind is: Safe, Harmonious, Positive, Future-Positive, Clean, Calm, Self-Confident, Self-Loving, Accepting, Trauma-Healing, & more. "Tangled" vs "Straightened"; Body: For me, a "tangled" body is identified as being: Polluted (with toxins in the system), dehydrated, in un-natural posture, vitamin & mineral deficient, amino-acid & fatty-acid deficient, sleep-deprived, unhygienic, containing trapped negative emotions (traumas), weak & inflexible (muscle wise), & more. A "Straightened" body is: Clean, hydrated, ergonomic, vitamin & mineral saturated, amino-acid & fatty-acid saturated, well-rested, clean, released from trapped negative emotions (released from traumas), strong & flexible (muscle-wise), full of positive emotions, more. Tangled vs Straightened; Spirit: There is no such thing. Spirit is unchanging. Spirit is embodied within the body and mind if the body and mind are "straightened out" in the ways (& more) that are listed above. What usually makes a psychedelic tip "bad" is when the tangled mind & body is forced to be combed by the energy (effects) that is supplied by the psychedelic. That energy will not stop being supplied until the trip has subsided, and so if the mind & body is "tangled" enough, the "comb" will "painfully force its way through the tangles" = "Bad trip". 3.2 Tips for proper Setting: a. Be in a safe environment, for example: Your bed, your couch. Your bed is usually the safest place to be. This is because: It's comfortable, it's warm, it's soft, it's undisturbed, it's private, it's clean, it's simple. Thus, in order to feel safe in your environment, make it feel like you are lying in your bed. If you want a "safe trip", do so in an environment that is comfortable, undisturbed, etc. Treat yourself like you would treat a baby. A baby has no obligations, you would not force a baby to talk, or to work, or to respond to you. You just feed the baby and let the baby stay comfortable. b. We humans love Nature. The ideal environment for me to trip would be in a beautiful forest, where I have re-created the "safe-baby conditions". In that case, I would be sitting out in nature with Warm clothes, free from disturbances such as: Bugs, animals, weather, uncomfortable clothes, people, With the ability to fulfill my own needs such as hydration, food, access to shelter. 4. Consume the substance & Enjoy; - Having followed the precautions of 1, 2 & 3, (Tested the substance & prepared Set & Setting), then it's time to trip. Epilogue (Summary & Tips): Have the space in your mind to know that everything is alright during the day when you trip. Stay undisturbed by obligations. Integrate the trip experiences (have space to do so). This is basically done by reflecting upon what happened, to be summarizing to yourself what you have learned, and how the lessons will change your behavior. Psychedelics works best when "supplied" into a lifestyle that works just as well as combing straightened hair; A healthy lifestyle, with peace of mind, with a future to look forward to, where psychedelics can play a role in enhancing your purpose. If you live a tangled lifestyle where your actions are predicated upon feeling unsafe and escaping problems, then psychedelics will probably give you a "difficult experience". This is because psychedelics show you more of yourself (supplies more energy to the system, in certain ways depending on the substance), and if you are escaping your emotions, your ethics, your responsibilities, then the psychedelic will show you the truth of your situation. And if your situation is "ugly", you may not like what the psychedelics will show (you), and this may be unpleasant and in extreme cases can lead to very difficult experiences. Thus, the best way to deal with psychedelic experiences is to Surrender to what is being shown. Surrender yourself to the truth of the psychedelic experience, where it's much easier to surrender to something that is shown to be "beautiful", (a heart-centered lifestyle, nature), rather than surrendering to something "ugly" (suppressed traumas, a dirty home). Master your psychedelics; Learn to walk (like a toddler does) by starting with small doses to increase the dosages from there. When you feel comfortable with your preferred dose, identify the activities which work best for your experience; a. For me, I like eating when I'm high on weed. And so I have mastered that experience by doing intermittent fasting, eating the healthiest food while high (melons, fruits), and chewing the food slowly, & more, to get "more out of the experience". b. I love playing piano while high on LSD. And so I have mastered that experience by delegating time to play the piano, putting on beautiful clothes, working out beforehand, & more, to get "more out of the experience". c. I love vaping DMT in nature. I do so while sitting down comfortably, preferably with an empty stomach, in warm clothes, and with an alkaline body (having done breathing exercises), & more, to get "more out of the experience". When you love your life, psychedelics will enhance your love for your life. If you don't love your life, psychedelics will show you how you can love your life more, which requires you to be aware of your "problems". I would call psychedelics "Love enhancers"; Love would show you your own wounds, and also show you how to heal them. And so, Surrender is a word to remember; Let the healing begin. AweLoveYou
  2. @JosephKnecht Defining substance is like for a ball point pen to describe ink on a piece of paper. The ink in of itself is substance, then if you write with the ink "ink <--", that's a representation of ink, but not "more" accurate than just directly seeing substance. Substance is already as close as can be. It's nothing other than you. Although substance tries hard to describe itself, an efficient antidote would be to stop describing, but just be what represents. Be the substance of representation. Find yourself being, substance itself.
  3. Let's forget our beliefs for a moment, especially the belief that "God can't be spoken". What I will do here is refer to your own direct experience to describe infinity, in this way, you can anchor infinity yourself, and see it in direct experience. Forget what God is, forget what anyone told you, just for a moment; you open your mind for this thought experiment. Thought Experiment: Substance You are conscious. Right? Let's agree on that. You are conscious of "reality". Let's agree on that. Reality is here. As whatever is "reality" it's made out of a substance. And you are conscious that there is a substance here. Let's agree on that. If there is a substance, let's define substance. What is the substance that can take all of these shapes and forms? "The substance of reality" can take on many forms. Sometimes it appears as a computer screen, or other humans, etc. It's even possible for us humans to construct/invent almost infinite amounts of the form (such as in sculpting), so what do you think would limit the substance from being any form? Why would the substance be limited in any way of taking "particular forms" but "not other particular forms". What forms can't substance take, and why? How do we know? Can we agree that substance has unlimited potential in what forms it takes? The solution here is that we can't think up a form that doesn't exist because there would appear a thought of that form, and that would be a representation of that form's existence. When we think of an object that "can't exist" (therefore substance can't take all forms), it would be a lie. Because that object actually appears to be taking a form, as a representation, a thought. The solution is that we can't think up a form that doesn't exist, therefore, reality has no reason to be limited. For there is no mechanism that can limit it, other than illusions such as "thought representing 'something that doesn't exist' while not seeing that the representation exists in of itself". So let's agree that Substance is unlimited in it's potential to take on any form. If Substance is unlimited, then substance will unify with its potential. Potential means "the possible forms that substance can take". But if substance has infinite potential of shaping itself into any form, then substance will inevitably be all these forms. Because nothing limits substance from achieving it's potential. Because if substance can take on any shape, that by definition means that substance is unlimited in it's freedom to do so, which means that it will eventually happen. Let's agree on that substance can take on any form, and is already doing so. This is where time comes into the picture. Time is here for substance to experience itself. As substance already exists in it's infinite and unhindered potential, then substance will be just in the shape that reality is for you right now. In your reality there are a bunch of colors, sounds, feelings, sensory stimulation, time, thoughts, maybe more. This is because substance can take on any form, and is already doing so, therefore your experience must exist just as it is right now, as there is nothing hindering substance from existing just this way for you. And that included the experience of "time". What time is, is just a thought in your experience. The concept of "Time" doesn't exist if you don't think about it, because concepts require thinking to be held within substance. So, what is time when you are not holding a concept about it? Well, it's movement. It's change. Change is the way where substance can experience itself changing. For substance to take all forms (as it already does), it has to also experience every form, because every form that is possible must happen (as the substance of form is unlimited), and so the "experience" of "substance" "just like this" is possible, thus exists, and it's morphing, because substance is every possibility, and it can be limited to this experience, while also being everything all at once by maintaining limited but constant movement, where experience will morph to be everything. Let's agree that time is constant movement. Constant movement of substance, is a feature of the substance's unlimitedness, because constant movement (without end) guarantees that substance takes all forms "eventually". But it also garantuees that substance will be experienced as what it is. Let's agree that substance limits itself with endless movement of limited frames, so that it can experience itself as limited. This completes unlimitedness, because if total freedom cannot limit itself, then it's truly not totally free. Substance is by definition totally self-accepting. This is because substance cannot not be itself. Then it would not be substance. Substance must be itself, therefore, it's also self-accepting. Complete self-acceptance is inbued within every single one of substance's form. Yet with substance being unlimited in it's creative capacity, it can limit itself in it's unification with itself, but not totally. There will always be total self-accaptance within substance, yet it's potential to create, can create limited forms, that are inherently self-accepting, but may not appear as such. Substance does this by creating your sensory experience, with a lot of thoughts and beliefs, creating the illution of "being human", etc. All of this to limit itself, which is a feature of total freedom. Substance is always in existence. For there to be a substance here, it means all of these things stated above. Substance must be this way per definition; unlimited, timeless, totally free, totally self-accepting. Substance is immortal. Yet, substance can believe in death. Death is merely a feature of movement. As one frame passes, another one replaces. The first frame thus disappears (dies) to make life to the next frame (life). Death and life is thus the same thing. It's movement. As substance is eternally moving, substance is immortal. As it always dies by being alive, it trancends death. Death is life. Death is substance. Substance is beautiful. Death is ecstasy. Substance is beautiful, because intelligence is a feature of unlimited freedom of in shapeshifting potential. Intelligence must exist in infinite potential, because why would infinite potential be limited to not include intelligence? That cannot be, because substance would not limit itself to exclude any potential form, thus intelligence must exist as a feature of substance. Let's agree that any form that substance takes, is inbued with intelligent design. Every object has in fact infinite beauty, because every object has an infinite context, because it's made of an infinite substance, which interconnects itself through a singular shapeshifting timeline, which is eternal, thus "in the end" embodies every possible shape. And so, it's as if a part of the substance has an infinite history, and infinite "connectedness" to substance. Let's agree that the substance loves being human. Because substance would limit itself to being human, instead of infinite. Yet substance is infinite in it's limitation to human, but there is still a sacrifice made in "being human" rather than "infinite", and that is because substance loves being human, as the human experience is a divine experience. It's eternal - self-accepting - infinite potential - all experiencing - infinitely intelligent - one with itself. Substance is one with itself, because there is no reason for any part of substance to be limited. This is because the substance that grounds all of reality cannot be limited, and what actually limits, is the illusion that substance creates for itself which compartmentalizes certain parts of substance to be "split" into "sections". This is using infinite intelligence for substance to actually succeed at limiting itself, while it remains unlimited at the same time. For substance to be playing this beautiful game, in infinite self-acceptance, immortality, and infinite intelligence, limited & unlimited. Otherwise, substance couldn't be defined as substance, thus wouldn't exist. For substance to exist, it has to have features of Love. The substance is God. God is infinite; self-acceptance, intelligence, life; Love. God is love everybody! There is nothing to fear.
  4. We can create anything. Anything. We have free choice to do so. Free choice is loving design (we can get anything we wish) . Intelligence would always do the most loving choice. The most intelligent choice is love. Infinite intelligence = infinite substance = infinite love. We have free choice to do anything we wish. It's lovingly imbued in our intelligent design. And what are we doing now? Truly?
  5. @Natasha Amazing Boquet. It will last you a lifetime! Here is a poem I write called "To Maria" The rest of the time, I was not still, but when suddenly moved to a halt.. By the rest of the Love that I share, within the stillness of time, unmoved. In stillness, I saw my beautiful mind. Being still, in midst of winds. The long-forgotten stillness upon me, as insights form a beautiful mind. Now I know that Loving is still. For from stillness comes the relevant response. For stillness knows beauty Like the eye knows the bird; The Falcon knows the fish; only In stillness of the wind. In stillness, I saw you; Keep my mind, Flowering with Awe.
  6. I just want to knee-jerk react to this before having read the rest of your journal. Pardon if you need to repeat yourself if this is already answered (explicitly or implicitly), but your text begs the question: "Isn't 'I can't fall in love with her, or else...'" a limiting belief? Why would you to try to limit your natural inclination to fall in love and stay in love? For me at this moment, it's a defining question too. Yet, what if "falling in love" is a feeling that takes into account your circumstances, goes meta on rationality, and thus is actually the best for you, but maybe fear is doing the rationalization. How do you know this? Could you be missing out by limiting natural inclination? Maybe you have answered this. Also, when I read, I kept saying "thank you", because this is VALUE. Your descriptions are Gold for those who seek inspiration.
  7. @Insightful27 I'm 19. I have tripped and such since about 15. I'm currently slightly addicted to weed, where I have had certain awakenings using weed, which is one of my excuses fueling the addiction. I won't label this behavior "right" or "wrong" thus, because in the end, awareness is curative. Use your awareness too young man, use your intuition here. By having even asked for other's advice, you are opening up for other's authority to affect you, but althewhile, stay connected to your intuition. If it feels right to try, because you have actually sit down and pondered your situation, and considered the potential risks, and it still feel right, then go! That is your intuition knowing everything will be fine. So, the resource I will give you which you might want to consider to fuel your intuition is: If you are in a situation where your survival patterns hinges upon suppression of emotions, such as guilt, anger, grief, or if you eat a toxic diet, have an improper posture: All of these things will affect how the psychedelic will open your mind. See the psychedelic as a blood pressure; the more the pressure, the more blood to all veins, then the more clogs will be *hit upon* with more awareness. The danger is for you to suddenly be aware of many of your deceptions. So, being prepared to let go is a wonderful tool for any trip. Consider all your tools and potential risks, see if tripping feels right. Also, tripping means of course what dose you take, and you can of course start small.
  8. Guide for men: Grab a fleshlight, an anal vibrator or crystal dildo. Get naked. Attach the fleshlight to a large mirror. Or if you want privacy; on the bathroom wall with the shower water gently running down (blending the sounds). Take your preferred psychedelic aphrodisiac (mine is Weed). You can also aid with aphrodisiac scents Put on your speaker with your favourite sex music Begin foreplay: Touching body Taking that shower Looking into that mirror Gazing at the fleshlight Playing with the anal toy Fantasizing Now that you are horny, begin the sexual act with the fleshlight and/or the anal dildo. Make sure that you start slow. Avoid premature ejaculation. Aim for 1 hour. Incorporate Taoist/tantric breathing techniques; actively transmute the sexual energy using your conscious intent and breath. You can also moan (sounding). If you are using the mirror, make sure that you look at your body and muster full self-acceptance of your body and sexuality; feeling your sexiness. If you are using the shower, make sure that you are looking at your body from available angles; feeling your sexiness. Now when the breathing is semi-automatic: Let your fantasies run wild! I have done some sessions: While raising the sexual energy to my third eye -feeling gratitude- while manifesting my dreams of financial freedom. As if I fucked my visions; Pleasurable. Fantasizing sex with a potential partner (I'm single). Imagining myself fucking myself as if I were "The girl in the mirror". Imagining a perfect intimate partner to which I loved to give amazing levels of pleasure to. Vividly imagining (with the help of sexual energy) having sex with a beautiful partner (as if it were real because the mind can't tell the difference). Dominating her with my endless sexual energy, looking her deep into her eyes while dancing-thrusting to the music Alternative climaxes: Regular ejaculatory orgasm, enhanced when looking yourself into the eyes (in the mirror), or when vividly visualizing your dreams. Also enhanced by the vivid imagination of having simultaneous orgasms with your imaginary sexual partner. Energetic orgasm using breathing and tantric/Taoist techniques. No orgasms, just a closing gesture when you feel satisfied. If ejaculation: Sit with yourself for 15 minutes after the orgasm, to turn the post-orgasm boding moment inward for self-acceptance & self-love. //// This practice is likely to increase self-esteem: Through radical self-acceptance. Through psycho cybernetics of attracting a partner through visualization. Practising imaginary sex is no different from practising real sex - for the mind. Through mastering sexual transmutation thus building confidence in being able to last a long time in bed. Confidence in your ability to pleasure her. Through being able to radically fulfil your sexual desires solo, thus not needing a partner. Through potentially transforming PMO addiction into something more desirable and healthy. Through practising semen retention due to mastering sexual energy transmutation and weening yourself off from less pleasurable forms of masturbation such as PMO. Through connecting more with your feminine side, embracing it with love. = = = = = I once had such a powerful ejaculatory orgasm with the fleshlight attached to the mirror after 10 days of nofap, looking myself deeply into the eyes, in pure awe of the climax, while high in weed. Radical Love. A radical level of self-acceptance that significantly altered daily life.
  9. What ultimately helped me drop many addictions is the law of "awareness is curative". Leo made a video on it. When I scroll on facebook nowadays, I'm very aware of the minutes ticking by. When I watch porn, I'm aware of the sensation in my body, the after effects When I eat junk food, i'm aware of the taste, but also how I feel the day after
  10. Sweden: Järntoget. A "capital" of drug dealing in Gothenburg. It's a place I have researched through imperical observation. I have been tripping in that place more than 3 times (Moderate doses: LSD, Weed), deliberately observing. 4 times I have been scammed in the same way: Black people trying to sell me weed. Of course, the weed was fake each time. But these people were convincing. They were so convincing that I repeated my mistakes. Basically, they acted as if their weed was real and that I was getting a bargain. They used always doubled down on their lies that "the weed was real", they even acted as if they expected me to buy the thing, because it was gonna be worth it. Their reasons always made sense, their acting went along with their style, the environment. Basically, they acted superbly as if they had good weed and that I should buy it. They acted as if they were real-deal sellers, selling me good stuff, where they actually didn't. The thoughts always came to me that they might be scamming, but I couldn't find any evidence for it, because their act was so congruent; and so I got scammed in self-doubt, "taking the risk" so to speak. I can only imagine people who has not been scammed before thus don't get the suspicion in the midst of their congruency. But they have to be very congruent: to make their reasons for trading with you, believable: "Win win" It's as if the scammers apply to our good nature, and they do this with congruent acting. As if it was real: No suspicion = free money for the scammer.
  11. I read everything up until page 18; what a beautiful tread! I brought out the snacks for this one. I think that all sexual and relationship problems between men and women stem from lack of understanding the truth of the other person's perspective. Where intimacy lies in expressing radical honesty - to share one's perspective with another. For if the man was truly interested in hearing the perspective of the woman, there would be no problem for the woman, vice versa. For some reason, men and women have a hard time understanding each other's perspectives. I judge men who don't understand the importance of understanding the woman for intimacy to even be enjoyed, to be unwise. From my experience of doing cold approaches with radical honesty, it seems obvious to me that the majority of women are unwilling to truly listen to the man's perspective, understandably as many men can be labeled "predictable" and "sneaky - hiding their true intentions". But tell me, whenever you as a woman feel the vibe that the man hides his intentions, or "just wants sex", do you ever tell him outright -your perspective- that "you think that he just wants to have sex with you and that he hides his intentions?" This will bring the problems right up to the surface to be processed. I'm saying that it's effective for intimacy to occur when all the "assumptions about the other person" are brought to light. Because assumptions are by definition false, where intimacy entails the correcting of assumptions. Understanding each other doesn't happen until a person gets thoughts that match the reality about the other person. Both people can reach a full understanding of each other while still being "man and woman": Where they can understand that they are both turning each other on. And so, the solution to all sexual and relationship problems is where everybody communicates in a way that makes other people understand them, where understanding leads to "consent" (understanding consent). Thus: if you as a woman are dealing with a drunk guy, then maybe it's inappropriate for you to expect that he will understand your "subtle cues". Be more explicit with words. If you as a woman are dealing with men approaching you, seek to understand their perspective and probe that understanding by explicating your thoughts and feelings to him! This forces him to be honest. If you are a man, always explicate your truth. Same for women. Seek to be understood with your truth, especially in your intimate relationship investments. If you are a woman and you know that you live in a society where men are prone to be unwilling to understand your perspective, please be honest about it: while you wear a pepper spray to reduce risking having your physical boundaries be crossed. If you are afraid that if you express your feelings that the other person might dislike it; <- express that! I know that I am attractive (because I turn myself on). And so, Girls who reject me without understanding me are not willing to understand me. That makes me turned off. I, as a man, get turned on by women who are open to understanding my perspective, because it fits perfectly with my willingness to understand hers. I feel satisfied enough with the love I give to myself at the moment that I don't need an intimate relationship with a woman because I already have an intimate relationship with the woman within myself!! And so, a woman who is not interested in understanding me is missing out on me. Here where I live in Sweden, the majority of women that I approach seem either: Not willing to understand my perspective (for reasons; Projection, fear, boyfriend, busy, etc) Showing unattractive features which makes me disinterested in the investment of understanding her perspective any further (in case of fulfilling the purpose of the approach which is to have an intimate relationship.) A combination of 1 & 2. It's rare for me to find a girl who is willing to open herself up to true intimacy and understanding right of the bat, where it's extremely rare for me to find a girl who radiates self-love, radical honesty & curiosity for the perspectives of men, where she explicates all her feelings and thoughts to him unconditionally, prompting him to do the same. Such a girl will attract a partner who values radical honesty and will unconditionally explicate their own perspective to her, where they both are full of self-love, they will enjoy a fantastic interdependent relationship. Although it's very rare that such people will even meet: As it seems like the majority are stuck in a state of unwillingness to truly and directly understand each other. Afraid of intimacy as it seems. Note that a "subtle signal" ("implicit") is actually an explicit signal if the other person verifies that they understand. I love "subtle cues" and it's a great form of communication, only if it's clear that they are understood. - - - - - We are great at misunderstanding each other, until all the rape, abuse, pain and suffering will force us to empower effective solutions; such as simply telling the truth and prompting others to do the same. All rape would cease if the people committing rape would truly understand how it feels to be the one getting raped.
  12. @justfortoday Gotcha, thanks for the clarity! Profile pic looking sharp! Nice haircut! Beautiful lips. It's amazing how intuition knows all of this. So, it's tenable that intuition is "in alignment with" the highest authority. The journey is to fully integrate intuition, to completely understand these principles, through a gradual "rewiring" of understanding truth through clarity, letting illusions melt away. I love you.
  13. @justfortoday My beautiful friend. I love your profile pic, especially the angle at which the face is shown, which makes him look sexy. I also get inspired by the integrity you seem to carry with expressing these insights in a minimalistic way. Thank you. I do this too, with Love. I was just about to ask you the question of how can every file be in a loop forever? Yet I approach that question with linear thought. You say that I fork experiences to create new ones. That means that I have chosen to live in infinite ways, in this body, lived through all possibilities. And in order to fully experience reality this way right now, I have to fully not-see all possibilities which have happened. Meaning that I experience reality one frame at a time, meaning that the entire universe is here right now. That it's possible for everything here to be everything that is in this POV, because when death occurs, the replay happens as another one of the infinite perspectives. Tell me, is it possible that the entire universe is right here, right now? In the way I just explained? Well, yes, because I am you, yet I chose to fork myself right now, but eventually, I will be you, and in this way, I am you, and me, simultaneously, right now. Eyes tearing up right now. Like what??! I am you right now because time is an illusion! LOVE!!! LOVE!!! It seems to me like one sees the ramifications of infinite consciousness while only retaining a limited perspective, by choice. It seems like the only way that one can be limited to one's perspective, and still say "reality is absolute infinity occurring as every perspective simultaneously" is by realizing the mechanics of consciousness and then intuiting that it's true, without actually going beyond the limited perspective itself unless it happens somehow. Is this the case for you?
  14. There is some sort of design here. You can't have heaven without the possibility of hell. Hell will thus be created in all possible manifestations, contextualized with an infinite design of infinite love. Everything will happen. As anything is possible, given the design.
  15. I say that this is serious because there has been no other question that I have ever had on this journey so far that I feel so open to having an answer for, hence the question. Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? I'm aware of the cliché of this question, but what makes it serious is that at this point, my mind is open enough for the answer. My own contemplations: If it's true that reality is consciousness itself, that would mean that any thoughts that I have had about what reality is made out of is completely backwards. Specifically the thoughts that reality is made out of atoms, or whatever possible thought that attempts to invalidate this question. We might think that reality is made out of atoms, or waves, or energy, to form all these holons, etc. When this question hit me, I was in the middle of a walk thinking about how reality must be made out of the same energy, taking different forms and different vibrational frequencies. Are you with me? Because here comes the question which jerks my tears: Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? You know the consciousness we all experience? The awareness of things? What if reality is made out of Consciousness, and Nothing else!? It's completely backwards relative to any other explanation, such as atoms, energy, etc. The consciousness "Of" reality, being the substance of reality. Holy... But where is the separation between me and the consciousness "of" reality? "Of" entails that there is a seer; Could it be that all of reality is consciousness, without a seer???!!! WHAT?! Okay, that one sinks in. But if it's true, then how is consciousness? Now, thoughts are appearing of the complexity of how reality takes different forms. How is consciousness... How is it not? Could it be that consciousness "is", and "is not" at the same time?! As the substance without a seer??! Consciousness could be "not" by always changing shape. But then, how is consciousness constant, relative to constantly changing shape? How can consciousness not be? Is that even possible? Yeah, consciousness can change shape... Is there a shape that consciousness cannot take? No... that's very unintelligent. There is no shape which consciousness cannot take. If consciousness can take shape, obviously even change chape, then it's very unintelligent for consciousness to not be able to take "certain shapes". It seems like what enables consciousness to take shape, also enables consciousness to take any shape. But then... What enables consciousness to be & take shapes? ... Nothing? Is it nothing? Could it be that "Nothing" is what enables consciousness to be? Well, the existence of absolutely nothing enables absolutely every shape to exist. How? Because the existence of absolutely nothing, means that it's substracted from all form. If consciousness, as the substance without a seer, strips away all forms, as there is no shape that consciousness cannot take, then, the stripping away of all form means that absolutely nothing remains. Could it be that absolutely nothing, is absolutely everything? It seems like the ability to take any shape, comes from the ability to let go of those very shapes. Because if one clings on to specific shapes, then reality is limited in its ability to take shapes. For shapes to be, shapes also has to not be. Can certain shapes be prioritized to be? -> No, by the same mechanics as reality can't be limited in its ability to take certain shapes; it cannot be limited in letting go of certain shapes either. If we let go of all shapes, we get nothing. If we let all shapes exist, we get everything. But for everything to exist, everything has to also be let go of, because why would reality ever cling on to specific things? Could it be that existence is nothing, and everything, at the same time?? Yes.... . Because for something to be, it has to be not. For specific things to take shape, it first has to lose it's shape. And for everything to take shape, it first has to have no shape at all. For shapes to even exist, they have to not be. For consciousness to be, it has to "be not". It seems like "shapelessness" and "shapes" must exist simultaneously. As if the substance of shapes is nothing and everything. And that's a great solution. That's a great solution. For when nothingness and consciousness intertwine, it allows reality to be. Anything. It also has to be everything, for it to even exist, as nothing and everything simultaneously. Everything = infinite. Could it be that all of reality is consciousness itself? Haha... Yes it can. Because it's nothing - everything - infinite. Guys, God is inside.
  16. I want to add that I went to a place called "Walkfeeling" here in Sweden, where they basically train ordinary people and athletes to walk and run with a proper posture. They told me that what posture does is that it increased our ability to breathe more deeply, with more air in the lungs, and also to have the muscles stay as relaxed as possible. When we have a poor posture, there are minor muscles that strain in order to compensate for the core muscles not being that strong, or the wrong muscles having its movements been chronically habituated. Proper posture will only strain the major muscles, while the hips, neck, and shoulders stay relaxed. Imagine having a perfect posture, as if you were a Winning Phoenix, walking tall through life with confidence, deep breaths, and relaxation. That's Walkfeeling for you.
  17. Happy Easter! ? I vaped 3 hits of 5-MeO Oxalate just after having smoked enough hits of weed to feel high. This report was copy-pasted from my journal. I will answer further questions about the experience if you have any. Namasté This was before yesterday, when I had the urge to just get high, and after this 5-Meo experience, came an urge to have freedom in how I eat, and what I do. I ended up talking to my family, Iris, Serena about things, while eating a lot of food. I also took a walk outside, eating banana chips and drinking juice. - So, I brought out the 5-MeO, as I saw it to be appropriate to mix with the weed that I was just smoking. And so I took some, and experienced the fear, yet, I also experienced this serene safety of being at my home, where nothing could go wrong. I remember that the weed high, even though it was 2 weeks ago that I last got high, was very clear. One thought that was most triggering as I vaped the initial 2 hits of 5-MeO was that "this was gonna last for a long time, as I was also high on weed, and maybe the synergistic effects of these two will make it all last longer". I surrendered this thought. After two hits (experiencing fear), I had the urge to take a last one (excited, turning my excitement into positive action), all of the hits were minor, yet I knew that this last hit was gonna turn the experience into something profound. Here is what followed: Fear was present, Body and mind started slipping away. Thoughts became obvious, now obvious creations out of nothingness. Coming from nothing. This nothing could spawn any thought into existence, hence it created reality. This nothing was also beyond the senses, as the senses were soaked in the nothingness. I could also say that the feeling-experience of this nothingness was Huge, it was Huge. So large. At this point, I was kind of murmuring to myself how Leo would say it, that "it's infinite, its infinite, etc", because my thoughts describing the experience was aware of the size of this void, and the thoughts couldn't grasp the void with any size measurement that the thoughts themselves could express. So, the thoughts kept happening, observed to be creating the perspective in which I ground reality. Time seemed to slow down, yet I was still grounded in time, as the illusion of time was still solid, still something to return to, every heartbeat, every second. Yet it was frightening to be in touch with this the enormous creative power of the void, as I could create the death of my body right then and there if I so wanted to > by jumping out the window. But I didn't. I chose to murmur the words to myself: Love, infinity, bliss, ecstasy, joy, God, Creation. And these words set the tone of what was being created in the experience. How did I know that the void was endless? Because it was clear that everything in my experience was its creation, coming from this "space". It's difficult to explain this space, as explanation is a part of the space which creates thought. We can say "Whatever I explain the space to be, is the space itself, taking certain shapes". Yet by the experience getting contorted to have everything in the experience point to the space being there: the intuition, the thoughts, the colors, the senses, as they all were formed, but most importantly how they are were seen indicated there was a "seer". And this "seer" is present as "a void", in which all thoughts spawn. Where it becomes obvious (as an insight, expressed even through thought at that moment), that this void can create anything it wants. And so it's understood that this void is beyond all things that is "seen", that the "seer" is thus unlimited. It takes on certain shapes as it wants to, it's the creator and what is being created - Because it takes on shapes which itself is made out of, as the substance of the shapes is the void, just because the void is creating everything. And so the creator is the created. And so we can say that we are under constant creation, by an infinite void which we are. Oh, what a bliss. Oh, what a bliss. The very last thing that was glimpsed before the ego came back to its grips was how loving it is. How loving creation is. How allowing it is. How beautiful. Most of all, how allowing it is. It allows anything, in love with anything, everything. It allows itself to be created, in any shape or form. There were no "rolling on the floor in love and bliss", but just a kind of "mild awe" of this realization. The feeling of ego coming back to reality is that time came back, thoughts became structured as usual, and the fear just vanished. When I opened my eyes, the OEV had reality be white, as if it was 50% "faded to white". I think that if I would have taken a fourth hit, that the void would've became more total, saturating my sense of self, expanding the sense of self to be one with the void. This triggers bliss, melts away all fear (fear is untenable in unity), and re-contextualizes the senses and any thoughts to be of the creation of me as void.
  18. @OBEler Thank you, amazing man. I have this playful attitude with 5-MeO, I have this vape that works wonders, and this powder that can easily be inserted into the vape, so, I can experiment with the substance to really build a relationship with it. I think that an easily accessible relationship with 5-MeO is what will spawn amazing trips through something like the 80/20 rule. Take it slow, but take it! It's quite an experience to just take a super minor hit, and feel how it feels. To be in control in that sense, and through control, surrender control, by taking some more @Leo Gura Haha! Yeah. Thanks. Some day ill be sitting in that bathtub with 25mg's up my ass. Or casually vaping breakthrough doses while sitting on the bus or something. @Gianna Okay, so yeah. Essentially, things like knives in the house is food for thought. So, what will probably happen is that fear will spawn morbid thoughts, and if there are knives in the house, one might think of using those knives to die. The fear spawns these thoughts (risk of death). Once when I plugged 5-MeO, I had a sweater which when I was high on the 5-MeO, this sweater started feeling "hot", and the fear I experienced hooked onto this experience of "hot" projecting the cause of fear of death onto the sweater, as if "the sweater was killing me". But this was just a projection. The thing with fear is that fear resides in emotion and thought, but we have the choice to act on that fear or not. If we act on fear, that will complete the fear cycle, creating more fear, creating more fearful thoughts. If we act upon fear, we can trigger panic. Now panic is quite an uncomfortable experience, also dangerous as that might result in an accident. Fear uses doubt. This is why prior experience can help a lot, because that disarms doubt. I have no doubt that vaping 5-MeO lasts for only 15 minutes, and I can use this certainty to disarm my own fear. Something like: I have a trip sitter here, and I have no doubt that my body won't receive any harm due to this experience. But if I start doubting the psychedelic, or the actual safety of my experience, fear can escalate a lot easier in thought and emotion. But the last thing you want to do is to act upon that fear. Rather, we want to surrender to the experience. Surrendering is done by not acting into that fear, rather, be the watcher of every single feeling or thought stemming from the fear, sort of be the seer, lovingly allowing any thought or feeling to arise. This is the key to dealing with fear, watch it, and don't act. But hey, what if I see a bear in the woods? Well, then you are certain of danger, and that certainty makes you act. But why can't that certainty make me act in the case of 5-MeO? Because with 5-MeO, you are certain that it's all right to observe the fear. That there is nothing to be afraid of. Set and setting are important to facilitate this mindset that "there is nothing to be afraid of if I just sit here on the couch"... Until you sit long enough to realize that fear is rooted in duality, and that the actual bliss of unity makes fear melt away - Another way to disarm fear is just to connect with the simplicity of reality, where duality collapses, simplicity (unity) arises, and so there is like nothing to be afraid of, because there is nothing but one thing. In this way, love always wins. Like: "There is not even anything to be afraid of, like, why am I even feeling afraid? Like all stuff has melted away dude, why are you even afraid?? There's nothing here!" And so, bliss.
  19. I have combined both. I realized that I can try to vape the 5-MeO Oxelate that I have thought is only used for plugging, and when I tried to vape it, it gave the same effects. Since then, I've taken out the vape when I felt like I could use it. Up until now, I wouldn't say that I have had "full-blown Ego-death". More like all things getting reduced into one. More like, realizing that imagination is the basis of all of existence. I will post a trip report about that. Leo, you should say "Whenever you get the urge to do weed, do it, but add some 5-MeO to the mix! The brain fog from Cannabis actually gets neutralized by the clarity of 5-MeO. It's like 5-MeO is pure clarity, such that all the illusions melt away. But the effects of cannabis are kind of "foggy", where we tend to for example forget our thoughts. When you are really high on cannabis, then go try some 5-MeO. It clears everything up and gives the high a tinge of ecstasy. Also, it seems to me that the Cannabis makes the 5-MeO last longer (in combination) and the visuals get affected to become more beautiful. The cannabis visuals are kind of subtle, as when one is looking at a white wall, it gives the effects of as if we were looking at one point on that wall being sober - kind of "applying" certain patterns onto the canvas, but in a subtle way, as if it were a template without content, structure without content. Combining 5-MeO (vaping) with Cannabis sort of fills that visual structure with more content. At one point, I was seeing eyes! As if certain strategic points of my visual field became eye-like. The thing that is the anti-dote to fear when it comes to 5-MeO, is that 5-MeO approaches nonduality, which makes reality simple. And simplicity is the essence of bliss. How can one be afraid when there is like nothing to be afraid of? And at that point, bliss occurs. Or at that point, I should've taken another hit from the vape , to fully merge with the nothingness so to speak. The worst thing that can happen with fear is if the thoughts, emotions, and actions are under the control of fear. So, the worst thing that can happen is if we act on that fear, which reinforces the emotional state and the thoughts. Acting on fear is basically to panic, and to let the panic snowball. Fear is emotional and triggers certain thoughts. The key to fear is to be the observer of those thoughts and feelings, without ever acting out. This is what we call "surrendering", just observing, just observing. One can do this several times to get the hang of it. That's what I'm doing with the 5-MeO right now. In preparation for a big ceremonial breakthrough down the road...
  20. I have dry fasted for 5 days once in my life. I don't remember how "beneficial" it was. Long story short: I was thirsty. Here is a video of an expert that explains the thing about dry fasting. If I would fast, I'd rather water fast 100% of the time.
  21. @Nahm I felt lucky, so I stayed up. Wow, epic response. Thank you! So true the thing about not having any reference experience with you compared to my sister so that I am free to choose to create lovely images. These images change based on what I choose to see, sometimes based on what I feel. Im feeling stuck in a pattern of feeling-reacting-protecting. Feeling so invulnerable, like a statue... I think you know what I mean. I think of you like a glowing man Brown hair! And this thought makes me feel comfortable and cozy. So it feels so important to let others express their own cozyness through receiving such love from my body and presence in return. You know, like you do through your words. Affirming, very affirming. Yes, I am more specifically talking about hidden emotions, I really think so. Oh man, just as recently as today have I actually noticed these patterns occurring in my mind. Yesterday, I swear to God, was such a good day!! I met these beautiful people when being outside, but today I didn't feel the same way, and so these familiar thoughts came along with familiar emotions, to create a deja-vu experience telling me something like "you have not grown a bit". But this time, I managed to let it dissolve, kind of as I snapped out of it saying with presence: "hey man, I don't believe this anymore. I love you". The thing about "applying human" took me by surprise, and kind of had the thing about "cherishing the ego" making sense. Hey, I just said it actually! I snapped out of it with presence! - well, first of all with a contradictory but loving voice... but I think you meant that the ego party is created when we kind of bathe in that voice, and those emotions. Because love in that case means presence, meaning dissolution of old inappropriateness (so to speak). The thought of using love based (thus probably contradictory) voices to trancend these emotions into more loving presence feels winning to me. That's kind of a rare occasion for me, to have people become super-mysterious. Yet I can see how that would actually work!! I'm projecting a lot of things on my Sister and my mother relative to seeing them as mysterious. I want to trust God's attention! My trust has 'nowhere' to go! It's a leap. I thought that I need to battle this problem on the realm of emotions, kind of using emotions against emotions, not having a rule of thumb- kind of a grasp on what anchors the emotions. And so I'm pointing to presence, because if I can look at my emotions, as I believe they will arise, seeing them as a choice! You know like I did today with awareness, and tied into that, noticing my projections, through acknowledging that I'm also projecting "human"? Previously I have tried to "find the joy", seems hard to do directly when in a state of fear. Yet seems more possible when the stepping stone to this joy is presence & seizing projection. Sounds good so far. Okay, sleepy time Sweet dreams my friend. With certain people, it feels like I have known them for a long time, because I can be myself with these people, and they accept all of me! It makes me fall in love with them!! Oh, I am in the process of learning how to express my innermost joy to my sister and my mother and I am thankful to God for being in this process because it lets me learn how to love other people fully. Thank you god. Thank you god. I am dreaming of fully expressing my joy to other people, and I know that learning how to do this with my family is very valuable in this adventure. I am not sure if I will be able to fully express myself to my family, yet I believe that I will come "very far (like, what is possible?)" in 'mastering'/'harnessing'/'creating' expression of joy, emotions, presence, creativity, love, god. I feel insecure in my wording here (can of worms), but to put it simply: The world will witness expressions of love, coming from this body, which will radically inspire the hearts of many, to do the same for themselves. Because I am here celebrate God with as many people as possible! Haha! I don't know how, yet I feel grateful in advance (inspired by Conversations with God) for the beauty that will follow. Oh boy, it will be Grand. Okay, waaay off topic Ill let myself message you tomorrow about booking a call. I will book a call with you. Bai.
  22. @Eren EeagerSocialization requires other people, you, and a suitable environment. Hey mister! Aside from all recommendations you have read prior to this comment, please try to visualize yourself socializing. According to the book: Psycho Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz, I think you have an "issue" with your self-image, in the book, Maxwell draws a clear line between studdering and self-image and self-belief. And all of those potential "issues" are cured by improving self-image. Which can be done through combining winning-feelings with imagination. Your mind interprets reality with imagination, with thoughts, and so, all stuff is in your mind so to speak. Your self-image is there, so you can come up with thoughts which your mind "can interpret as reality" which will actually improve your self-image, because they "are real", "have happened". They will spark emotion. Visualize! Visualize yourself taking fluently with great friends at a bar, and in this environment, practice. Find the Winning-Feeling, as you are talking fluently to your friends in your head. That winning feeling is like a snowball, keep it rolling!! This will also motivate you to then go out and try this in real-time, and then go home again and visualize some more! Visualization to improve self-image is quite effective for social anxiety and such things. Effective for me for pickup.
  23. Little off-topic here, sorry @Nahm Hey, I visit your links and stuff. YOU'RE ALIVE! I went to the bathroom thinking that I might request a call with you, but then when I thought of any problem that I might present to you for us to solve, I knew that I actually have the ability to solve these issues myself. Haha, issues. The only issue is, why don't I ask myself? Resonating with you a lot right now. In the future, we will work together. Ill find you. Because I want angels like you to speak in resonance with music! In ways that I know angels will like. Thank you god for such inspiring messages sparking resonance like 2 clicks away. Based on how happy I feel right now, I feel really enjoying talking with beautiful people. I like you, man behind the words. I love you. Ahh, I kind of missed you. Okay, I came up with a question. How do I find this joy and light in relationships which I feel to be limiting and uncomfortable sometimes? For example, I struggle to look my sister in the eyes, I struggle to look my mother in the eyes, as I feel afraid and uncomfortable doing so. Which ties into lack of expression of pure delight to these people! As if I'm gonna receive pain for being too happy. I want to be joyous around all of these people! Just like how I feel when I'm writing to you. An answer I have come up to this question is to sit and journal with my inner child of why he feels uncomfortable to express himself with certain people & situations. But that feels hard... Yet isn't pain required to be felt? To be respected and loved? But bringing it to light feels uncomfortable, something which I didn't do before. I think the answer is a commitment, a promise to love! A reconnection with inner strength that supplies courage to the part of me suppressed. To come forth, gently, honestly, lovingly. Lol. I'm answering my own questions. I like conversations. It's like journaling, together. Now I feel some of those emotions again... Tired too. I will go to sleep hugging myself. Goodnight! Thank you Nahm.
  24. @Nahm I just read your post. Uhh, that was amazing? You are poetry! Words as specific as heart resonance. I noticed that Resonance requires a certain amount of light to strike a spark, from both sides! Maybe for someone else, they might not see all of what you write, but I did! And it was cool! Thanks Nahm! What resonated with me the most was "being yourself". Yes! That's so fulfilling. Hey, @Hugo Oliveira, it's quite fun to go outside, with the 'want' to socialize, with heart for all the beautiful beings out there, with desire to express attraction to all the pretty ones, and with courage to make them smile as you approach. It's easy once you get the hang of it. If it's hard, then I think you are trying to animate yourself as someone else. Find yourself. Your inner expression expressed, and go with that! I mean, I had such a beautiful interaction with a conscious lady yesterday. It was beautiful! She saw my light enter her presence as I followed the 3 second rule and approached her, right, and she blushed! It was beautiful! You know, and then we talked for an hour, then she took her train. I got some beautiful insights from that, how fulfilling it was just to look in her eyes. Those things are found outside of your home, at least. Beautiful people so to speak. You aren't chasing, you are WANTING! And you are expressing your inner fucking power to STAND UP FOR YOURSELF. TO RESPECT YOUR INNER WANTS. And she will like that. Like a wizard, you can make any girl smile, if you just believe that she will smile, because you know she likes how you are embodying power in your presence, creatively expressing it to her, feeling her. Its fun, go try it. Practice.
  25. My ex used to go to alot of these festivals. That was her lifestyle in her 20's, traveling the world, tripping hundreds of times on LSD while attending festivals. Here is a research paper I read about Dark Psytrance: https://www.researchgate.net/publication/282185848_Pushing_the_Boundaries_Investigating_the_Musical_and_Social_Aesthetics_of_Dark_Psytrance This article describes in similar words the way my ex described her experiences. Darkpsy was her favorite. She told me that dancing to it felt like a constant orgasm, especially on LSD, where the bass is the thing that causes the physical pleasure. Then, I can imagine, the collective thoughts, while all others are tripping. She described a peak experience she had on a darkpsy festival that caused her to roll in the sand, crying in bliss. Another experience where she took 600ug of LSD without tolerance, just to dance in the front row on a certain festival, where she described the experience as being "SOOOOO DEEP". Hehe, I kind of tried to pick her mind on these stuff, but still to this day, when I am high, I get urges just to listen to some psytrance so that I can uncover the "blissful mystery she described". But sure, if festivals feel like home for you, if you just have successfully opened a yoga studio, if you have not gone to a festival for 6 months, seeing all your friends there and stuff, dancing with them under the sun, high on LSD, maybe you would roll in the screaming with tears of bliss. I don't know dude. And not knowing this is kind of frustrates me. Makes me feel lower than my ex. lol. She told me that she once danced for 24 hours straight on "just one drop of acid". Here is one of her favorite festivals: Some of those people look quite high quality if you ask me. I would definitely cold approach all of the girls on that festival, I promise ... but watching the vid, I want to teleport away from this winter, right around that bonfire where the girls sit Personally, as I sometimes feel jealous and inspired, remembering my ex's stories of her experiences, as I yearn to have a memory of just epic bliss for some reason, I experimented with the darkpsy and psytrance. I have not tripped on a festival though, but I have went to a 3-day festival with 100+ people, and that was quite cool, but no peak experience, just felt as good as a workout with friends. So far for me, I judge the darkpsy lifestyle based on what I perceive from my ex, that it seems destructive. I mean, she danced for 24h straight!?! To Darkpsy?! If you ask me, I'm a classical pianist, I think darkpsy has a lot of room to improve in terms of harmonics. I like to think that the darkpsy is bad for the inner child. But I have not experienced it and have some negative emotions towards my ex so please take this with a grain of salt. I mean, the main issue is that the festival lifestyle doesn't really teach you the Leo things, so, my Ex had some emotional issues. But I am sure that an actualized person would really enjoy a festival with epic darkpsy and stuff, if only it doesn't hinder the self-actualization. To answer your point: For me, festivals seem to be only positive, as a way to invest "travel time" and if it doesn't ruin your self-actualization work. There are peak experiences to be had, comparable to how "there are peak experiences to be had in terms of taking mushrooms". Treat festivals like a giant trip, but don't get lost in the tripping. I think so many get lost in the tripping, so many turn to festivals to fill their holes and find their homes. But if you are self-actualizing, festivals would probably be quite a fun vacation, ideally used as a way to fuel your main lifestyle and purpose. The main thing about festivals is the collective consciousness.