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  1. @The Blind Sage Of course you can! LSD is the most potent psychedelic that there is. I have had some paradigm shattering trips with LSD. My body's tolerance is high with all drugs in general, so I didn't notice anything significant below 150ug. Everyone is different so, be careful as you increase your dosage. Also, meditate and set intention for what it is you want out of the trip. One cannot just take the drug and wait for it to give you the insight.
  2. @SgtPepper I don't reckon you'll be able to do it in the US, since 5-MeO is a Schedule 1 drug. You can always go down to Mexico, though.
  3. @SoonHei Yes, very subtle indeed. almost all thinking can be boiled down to self-deception
  4. @PsiloPutty Thanks! This trip was much needed. So much bullshitery going on!
  5. @Recursoinominado they happen in Europe (Spain and Netherlands) and the Americas (Mexico) as far as I know. Google it and follow-up on the leads
  6. Context: I am 10 days away from a planned Bufo Alvarius session with Octavio Rettig in Spain. Since the retreat organisers strictly state: "no drugs a week before", I thought now might be a good time to trip existentially once so that I breakthrough successfully later Dosage: 400ug LSD Insights: I became aware of the Fact, that Being is Infinite, in all dimensions, everywhere It became glaringly obvious to me how consciousness is a 'shapeshifter' as Leo put it. It has no attributes whatsoever, so it can be everything The residue of my materialist, rationalist paradigm was completely shattered. I encountered this with my 24ug 5-MeO trip before, but there it was more of a shock and I didn't have time to grasp the repercussions of the insight. But now, on LSD, this insight was concretized gradually, such that I cannot deny it anymore. Consciousness is fundamental to reality and existence, not atoms and molecules. Holy fucking shit! Are you kidding me?! I'm an engineer, man! I became aware of the ego, and it is just so much bullshit! Infinite degree of self-deception. I feel that I cannot take anything literally anymore, because the Devil will misconstrue it, even if it is a teaching about enlightenment. Pure irreducible being is all that can be trusted. I feel that there is nowhere to hide anymore. And nowhere to go. What's even the point of lying and bullshitting?! (Of course, I will come up with reasons later) I became conscious of what Nonduality really means. Holy fucking shit! I cannot be jealous of, criticise or judge anything ever again (of course I will find a way) My entire life and being has been completely recontextualized. I understand why they call it 'emptiness' and why people say stuff like 'God is!, saying anything more is already misleading'. My fears: I had originally thought that I would try doing self-inquiry in the dark and face my fears, but the things mentioned above just blew all my plans away But after having all these insights, it became clear to me that what I feared truly wasn't some scary phenomenon or a crazy mindfuck, but the lack of a first person perspective! So I returned to the same position where I was at the end of my 5-MeO trip, knowing that I need to surrender this sense of self, getting close, but failing to do so. Again, so much bullshit here, I became aware of how I'm escaping doing the really important work and instead thinking if I can come up with more insights or something. It really felt like I'm fighting an invisible dragon, as Leo described, but it is just..tough What's next: The Bufo Alvarius ceremony, of course! I hope the drug is powerful, because this ego structure I have is a fucking beast. It will not die! Just wanted to share this. If there is anything I'm misconstruing or doing incorrectly, then please let me know. One obvious mistake I made was to trip on a Sunday evening. This gives me no time to sit and reflect upon my insights, but I had to study for an important test before (of course, it is not important at all, in a way)
  7. This is a really good debate on the Nature of Reality between Alan Wallace (Buddhist Scholar/Teacher) and Sean Carroll (from the Quantum Mechanics episode). There are so many debates on YouTube between Atheists and Religious folks (Stage Blue); nothing of value ever comes out of those! This debate also shows why stage Orange is more likely to advance to Yellow and Turquoise compared to stage Blue.
  8. @kieranperez thanks!
  9. Quintessential stage orange. I would've agreed with this guy wholeheartedly a few years ago.
  10. This could explain the phenomenon of the brain getting 'rewired' after having a number of mystical experiences with 5-MeO, as Leo described.
  11. Here are some papers published on 5-MeO that I came across. The epidemiology of 5-methoxy-N, N-dimethyltryptamine (5-MeO-DMT) use: Benefits, consequences, patterns of use, subjective effects, and reasons for consumption - The full paper isn't free to Download. Most of us already know this stuff, so not worth reading comprehensively The natural hallucinogen 5-MeO-DMT, component of Ayahuasca, disrupts cortical function in rats: reversal by antipsychotic drugs - Based on my understanding, this paper frames the 5-MeO experience as sort of disruptive and psychotic; and discusses how these effects can be reversed. Imagine all those rats having radical Non-Dual experiences;) and then being killed right after:( Preferential action of 5-methoxytryptamine and 5-methoxydimethyltryptamine on presynaptic serotonin receptors: A comparative iontophoretic study with LSD and serotonin - The full paper isn't free to Download. This was written way back, in 1977. It basically compares 5-MeO with other psychoactive substances and the receptors they target. Short term changes in the proteome of human cerebral organoids induced by 5-MeO-DMT - From the Discussion section: Typical psychological effects of psychedelics such as changes in perception and thought, renewed sensation of novelty, ineffability, and awe may derive directly from the strong modulation of synaptic and cellular plasticity promoted by 5-MeO-DMT, and putatively compounds of other classical psychedelics. - Our work also suggests that a single, 24-hour-treatment with 5-MeO-DMT, i.e., a single dose, modulates specific signaling molecules identified as key players in LTP, a classic mechanism of learning and memory. Cheers!
  12. Is the Placebo Effect really just a simple phenomenon as the stage orange scientific and the medical community describe? Or is there more to it? This will be another video in the series against naive realism, if it is the latter.
  13. What the rationalist/materialist paradigm misunderstands about time! I have heard a lot of people say time is an illusion and that the present moment is all that there is. But for a person like me, it is still hard to comprehend. A video on the metaphysical understanding of time would be foundational.