Spiritual Warrior

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #217 ~ Tue Sep 8 '26 I want to add a push ups and pull ups regimen to my morning routine. I'm also going to take out the protein shakes, I just don't see it being sustainable and sometimes you simply just have to switch things up. Ideally, I wake up at 8 am, I go upstairs and eat my granola / cereal with milk and get a coffee. Wake up at 7:30 am Make bed Take medication Drink coffee, eat cereal Journal 8:00 Take a shower, groom hair, etc. 8:30 Push ups / pull ups 9:00 Kriyah Yoga 9:30 Pack lunch and fill waters 9:40 Leave for work For food: Cereal w/ milk, lentils w/ rice, tuna when I get home Daily goals: Make bed: 33 Take medication: 50 Shower: 50 Groom hair: 50 Brush teeth: 50 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 8 Brush teeth before bed: 3 Wash face before bed: 3 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals -

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #216 ~ Mon Sep 7 '26 I Daily goals: Shower: 49 Groom hair: 49 Brush teeth: 49 Floss: 0 Take medication: 49 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 32 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 7 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals -

Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #94 ~ Sun Aug 20 '26 ~ 10:48 AM This is a rant. Sometimes, my Autolysis journals will look like this. My mind is starting to contemplate things that it may not be ready for. Strap yourself in because this ride is going to get bumpy. here i will be contemplating the ultimate Truth, what is death? Death is the ultimate Truth in the sense that there is nothing more final than death. It canot have any other meaning. To understand the Truth about death means that you understand the entire Universe. We are talking about the Absolute realm right here. And the Absolute realm is right here, right here in front of me. But the problem is right now I am not conscious of it. I feel like I'm on a high right now. But tomorrow is going to come and all of a sudden I am going to be roped right back down into social games. But I do know what I want out of life. And it ain't so easy to distinguish right from wrong. Maybe I should eat two cans of sardines every night... I'm getting away from the topic at hand. Life is a mystery in the sense that we're not supposed to find out all of its deepest darkest secrets. This finite being is not supposed to become Enlightened. He is here for a different reason, to survive. I now have such a great foundation of what Truth work really is and why it is important. If I didn't care about Truth, then I wouldn't know what to do with my life, I wouldn't have a direction. I do want to have children one day, maybe when I'm 35 years old. I am here on this desolate planet with no one to turn to and no where to go. Where would you go anyways when you die. Theres nothing else but right here. You are here and you are shackled, attached to this body and mind, trying desperately to hold on to something for stability when there ain't any (or theres infinite stability depensing on which way you look at it.) Burn the ego to the ground, thats what my mind keeps saying, but I want to love the ego wth all my heart, just like I love Izzy. If you love someone truly, then you will be able to let them go. You will always have to let them go in the end anyways. But enjoy your time with them, theres nothing wrong with that. Even if you get married, that doesn't mean that you own the person. I am afraid that I won't end up with her. If you don't end up with her, then she simply wasn't right for you. The Universe does not make mistakes. This whole thing is so much bigger than you.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #215 ~ Sun Sep 6 '26 I hate cooking. Like I really don't like it. However, I want to be healthy. How am I going to be healthy without cooking. I want to start having cereal in the morning. 7 wishes with whole, organic, pasture raised milk. Then i want some lentils with rice. What about the meat? Can I just have that when I get home from work? Will that be enough protein? Maybe... depends, I've been trying to eat 150 g , but is that too much? Do I really need that much protein? So no more protein shake? Correct, no more protein shake. 7 wishes: 16 g protein, lentils: 20 g protein, Rice 10 g protein, sardines 18g protein Sometimes I feel like I am blindly trusting what I hear from books about a subject. The bottom line is that I have not liked the progress that I've gotten in the gym based on the routines that I am engaging in right now, so I am now on a quest to figure out a better path. I've gained some muscle, theres no doubt about it and I now have a workout regimen that I am following on a weekly basis, these are all necessary things to sort out in life.. Daily goals: Shower: 48 Groom hair: 48 Brush teeth: 48 Floss: 7 Take medication: 48 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 31 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 6 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals - Call about hospital bill

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #214 ~ Fri Sep 4 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 46 Groom hair: 46 Brush teeth: 46 Floss: 5 Take medication: 46 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 29 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 4 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Get new light bulbs Wash sandals Call about hospital bill

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Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #213~ Thu Sep 3 '26 What is it that you want? I want a girl in my life. Someone that I can grow with and have a good time with. I want to make a lot of money doing what I love, dancing. I want to get closer to God. I want to understand the Truth of the universe. I want to be jacked and shredded. I want to have integrity and to be an impressive man. I want to have a good work ethic and to also understand other people and what makes them tick. I want to start letting go of all of my neurotic tendencies. Daily goals: Shower: 45 Groom hair: 45 Brush teeth: 45 Floss: 4 Take medication: 45 Drink protein shake: 2 Make bed: 28 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 3 No ejaculation: 3 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Get new light bulbs Wash sandals

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #212 ~ Wed Sep 2 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 44 Groom hair: 44 Brush teeth: 44 Floss: 3 Take medication: 44 Drink protein shake: 1 Make bed: 27 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 2 No ejaculation: 2 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 17 Wash face before bed: 17 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 ( ☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Call Daniele - ask what the song means to her Get new light bulbs Wash sandals

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #211 ~ Tue Sep 1 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 43 Groom hair: 43 Brush teeth: 43 Floss: 2 Take medication: 43 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 26 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 1 No ejaculation: 1 Eat 150 g of protein: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 16 Wash face before bed: 16 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 ( ☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Call Daniele - ask what the song means to her Get new light bulbs

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #210 ~ Mon Aug 31 '26 A lot of things have been going on in my life recently. I had a date with a girl yesterday and I made out with her in a park. I took shrooms last night and experienced a gnarly but mind-opening trip (I'll explain later,) my lessons have been growing substantially, I am allowing myself to rest more, I've been flirting with my co worker, who I kissed last Thursday during a Truth or Dare game, I've been working out a lot and my physique has been growing, I am starting to take inventory of all of my projects at work, and I am happy, truly happy. What a great job I've been doing. I've decided that no ejaculation forever is not sustainable, I think a good balance would be to go two weeks without ejaculating. This allows my energy to rise throughout those two weeks and then I get a pleasurable release when I finally do allow myself to keel over and it doesn't zap my energy too much. I really need to fix my phone, I am going to do that tomorrow, no matter what. I have a lot fo projects to practice when I get into work, I can't wait to start on them. I've started to write down all of my projects in that choreography book. I'd like to carry that around with me at all times. My shrooms experience: Okay, I've only got 7 minutes to explain what happened to me on Saturday night. I visited my sister and I helped take care of my nieces. She was very appreciative and I had a great time. At the end of the night, my brother-in-law and his friend were taking shrooms so I joined in. He warned me before we took them that they are strong. I've taken shrooms at least 20 times by now so I feel almost like a veteran. What I experienced next is difficult to explain and to comprehend and I really don't know what to make of it, anyways, here goes... The first thing I experienced, I was sitting cross legged, with my spine somewhat erect (I've learned this from my kriya yoga sessions and I attempt to do this when I'm sitting down and relaxing because it puts me into a heightened consciousness state. Anyways, brother in law and friend were talking for a while so I just sat there and observed. Then the friend leaves and I am there with my brother in law. We start talking, I'm having a hard time remembering what he was saying but I started to look at him like this poor helpless child that is deeply insecure and that hates himself. This is an overreaction, but there's a lot of truth to it. In the moment, I felt like a heightened being, the friend came back and it felt like they were both looking at me for a direction, they didn't know where to go or what to do. I didn't know how to feel about that. And then it dawned on me that if I want to teach meditation or kriya yoga one day, I have to be that person, that "enlightened" person that is leading these people towards something. This made me feel vulnerable and I was afraid that I couldn't handle all of that pressure. We decide that we're going to watch Fantasia because I haven't seen it yet. My brother in law tries to put it on the TV but he can't figure it out. He is getting angry and I don't know what to do so I just observe. Then something happens that I have no idea what to make of, his phone starts to make a staticy sound, one that sounded like aliens communicating with us. I mean what the actual fuck is going on?! And he literally cannot shut it off. It sounded like aliens, truly it did. And I asked about him the next morning and he confirmed that it happened. Anyways, this freaked me out so I went inside and laid down in my room. For some reason, I started viewing these two humans, brother in law and friend as evil, as if they are up to no good, even though I love them both, truly, but in this mindset, I was experiencing something different. When you're on shrooms, you don't see people based on their background or personal history anymore, you see them based on energy and vibe. I saw or felt something dark about them, I don't know why or how and I didn't know what to do about it. Of course, was this a real instinctual feeling or was this just my mind fucking me over, which definitely happens later in this story, we will get to that soon. Now strap yourself in because I'm just getting started. I lay down in the room that I'm set up in. Its difficult to distinguish the order of events from this point on but I will do my best. One of the things that started to happen was I started pacing back and forth in my room. I could feel my body or mind or whatever it is (having a hard time distinguishing between body and mind) start to spiral, I could feel something dark coming towards me, it was an insight and I could feel myself not wanting to deal with it. It was death. I had the opportunity to experience death. I continue to pace and I am freaking out. I DONT WANNA DIE. I DONT WANNA DIE. I then hear voices coming from outside, they are talking about me in a negative light. I then realize that I can control the voices and I put a positive spin on them , this works for a little while and now I'm dancing around my room, but then the negative voices come back again. From then on, its a battle to keep myself positive. This right here is clearly in the mind, these are my thoughts, but they felt so much more real given the drug that I was on. My thoughts were heightened and louder, making them feel real. Couple that with what I forgot to mention, my personal history was null at this point, I didn't know who I was, I knew my name and I had vague memories of what I do for work and some of the people in my life, but most of that was gone and I was just experiencing whatever this magic mushroom wanted me to experience. I start pacing again, back and forth, back and forth, trying to figure out what is going on. There is something here with me, I felt, an insight that I dont want to look at. I continue to pace in agony for a while. Eventually, I am able to look at this family photo, its of my brother in laws parents and it made me realize something, this, what I'm looking at, what I'm experiencing is all ONE. It is all one thing, we are all connected and therefore, you can create whatever the fuck you want, literally, you can create anything that you'd like. This was a deep realization for me and it felt so real, I knew it was real as soon as I realized it. Thats the difference between that and some of those negative thoughts that I was experiencing. We are ALWAYS in a battle with the ego, or with the I-thought. He gets in the way every fuckin' time. But he is a scared little child. Maybe thats why I looked at my brother in law in that way, I was seeing his ego and I was taken aback by it. I saw the ugliness of it and I didn't want to look at it anymore. I wish I could go back and analyze or experience again everything that went on. But unfortunately, journaling about it is the best I can do and it is helping. The next thing I experienced was I felt my body get really wet, but not like a soaked wet, I felt like a purified ball of light that was shining, it felt amazing. I felt on top of the world, like I could do anything. I straightened my spine and continued to dance around the room, feeling the magnificence of this state. Unfortunately, this didn't last long. My mind tricks me again and this time with something even more sinister. My brother in law and friend were right outside my bedroom but I didn't know it was them, all I was hearing were voices. At first, I heard them talking shit about me, I felt agitated but also stuck, feeling like I couldn't do anything about it. They were not actually talking about me, but my mind tricked me into thinking this. Then, it gets even worse, my mind starts to create a scenario in which these high schoolers are the voices outside, they are poking fun at me and they are talking about getting inside of the house and raping my nieces. I start to freak out, I get angry, really angry, I'm fuckin pissed right now. I can't believe my mind has tricked me into thinking that this is real. That these voices inside of my head are real things. I can see the danger now of this drug. If I wasn't as mature as I am now I could have absolutely freak out out of paranoia. I decide that I have to say something to these kids. I'll run out there and beat the shit out of all of them if I have to. I yell to them "Yo, are you good?" in an assertive voice... Its just my brother in law and his friend grabbing these halloween skeletons out of the shed. As soon as this happens, I calm right back down. But holy fuck man, this magic mushroom is taking me on an absolute ride. My trips have become gnarlier and gnarlier over the years, I'm definitely not going to do it again for a while. The last thing that happened is difficult to comprehend, but I will try my best. I started thinking about this girl from work that I have a crush on. It felt like she was right outside of my door, it felt like I could open the door up and see her. I open the door and the only one that is outside is the dog, I pet her for a little while and I realize that she is filled with love, pure love. I head back to my room and I lay there on the floor for a while longer, continuing to experience things that make no sense in physical reality. Thats about all I got, I eventually fell asleep at like 4 or 5 am. Gnarly fuckin' trip man, very gnarly, this seems to be a pattern at this point. Now that I'm removed from the experience, I feel grateful that I experienced something out of this world and I feel a sense of accomplishment that I was able to handle it. Moving forward, I am going to work on distinguishing between my mind and the feeling state of intuition, what is the difference between the two and how do I distinguish one from the other. The feeling state, from my experience is much more trustworthy, The mind can cause absolute chaos. To be able to identify when the mind is going on one of its favorite tangents is a skill I will continue to work on. This is what I've learned from these magic mushrooms. Namaste. *** Never mind about ejaculating every two weeks, my energy is zapped right now, I hate my mental state, there is nothing that's propelling me forward anymore, I feel like a slug and I don't know what to do about it. No more ejaculation. Maybe after an entire month, but fuck this state that I'm in right now, I don't know how people live like this. Things to do tomorrow: Cook food Cash check and get new card Get oil changed Do laundry Daily goals: Shower: 42 Groom hair: 42 Brush teeth: 42 Floss: 1 Take medication: 42 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 25 Kriya yoga: 10 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 0 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 15 Wash face before bed: 15 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - Tuesday? Need to find new phone first Cash check and get new card

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Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #209 ~ Sun Aug 30 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 41 Groom hair: 41 Brush teeth: 41 Floss: 0 Take medication: 41 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 24 Kriya yoga: 9 No porn: 14 No ejaculation: 14 Eat 150 g of protein: 6 Brush teeth before bed: 14 Wash face before bed: 14 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 (☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - Tuesday? Need to find new phone first

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #208 ~ Sat Aug 28 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 40 Groom hair: 40 Brush teeth: 40 Floss: 10 Take medication: 40 Drink protein shake: 5 Make bed: 23 Kriya yoga: 8 No porn: 13 No ejaculation: 13 Eat 150 g of protein: 5 Brush teeth before bed: 13 Wash face before bed: 13 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 (☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Cut Tyler and Amanda music Figure out where you're going Sunday Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #207 ~ Fri Aug 28 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 39 Groom hair: 39 Brush teeth: 39 Floss: 9 Take medication: 39 Drink protein shake: 4 Make bed: 22 Kriya yoga: 7 No porn: 12 No ejaculation: 12 Eat 150 g of protein: 4 Brush teeth before bed: 12 Wash face before bed: 12 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 (☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Cut Tyler and Amanda music Figure out where you're going Sunday Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #206 ~ Thu Aug 27 '26 Things are going VERY WELL for me right now. I am happy. I will continue to try and turn off my mind in favor of a more conscious feeling state moving forward. Kriya yoga will be helping with that. Cheers. Daily goals: Shower: 38 Groom hair: 38 Brush teeth: 38 Floss: 8 Take medication: 38 Drink protein shake: 3 Make bed: 21 Kriya yoga: 6 No porn: 11 No ejaculation: 11 Eat 150 g of protein: 3 Brush teeth before bed: 11 Wash face before bed: 11 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 (☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Practice Argentine Tango Practice Rumba for Pam Practice Rumba for Tanya Practice cha cha intro for Tanya Practice Swing intro for Pam Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Review Pam Waltz Cut Tyler and Amanda music