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This is my first honest attempt at doing spiritual autolysis. This is a method to attaining truth- realization coined by Jed McKenna. "Autolysis" means self-digestion, and "Spiritual" means the level of self that encompasses the mental, physical and emotional aspects. All you really have to do is write the truth. Just write down what you know is true, or what you think is true, and just keeping writing, until you come up with something that is true. 
Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #1 - Wed Apr 19 '23 - 8:28 AM
Lower self: I am a human being. My name is Ben. I know that I am a human being because I was told that I am a human being from my schooling and my parents and everyone else within society. I am told that we as human beings have evolved from chimpanzees or bonobos.
Higher self: Okay... do you have any direct experience of yourself as being  a human being?
Lower self: No... this is just what I have been told.
Higher self: Okay... then how do you know that it is true?
Lower self: Well... I don't. I am just trusting what other people have told me.
Higher self: Okay, then we agree that you do not know for a fact that you are a human being?
Lower self: Yes. I agree... My name is Ben though. I was given this name from my parents when I first came out of the womb.
Higher self: Have you ever experienced what it means to be Ben?
Lower self: Well... I have a bunch of beliefs and pictures in my head that I feel like embody who I, or Ben is as a person, i.e. what Ben is good at, what he's bad at, which people are my best friends, who Ben's family is, etc.
Higher self: Okay... Would you agree that these are all just beliefs and pictures in your head, this Ben cannot be a truth within the universe. There is nothing fundamental about it. You do not know what it is like to be Ben. These are all just fictions in your head, beliefs about yourself, there is no being to speak of.
Lower self: Yes, I agree. I am starting to see a recurring pattern here. Does the truth lie within being? 
Higher self: Yes, I think so.
Lower self: Well how do you know?
Higher self: Well... I don't know, it just seems like the correct way of thinking about things. If all of these beliefs and fictions in our heads are just that, fictions like Pete Ralston has talked about, then how else are we going to come to the truth about things.
Lower self: First off, you are putting your faith in Peter Ralston too much. How do you know what he is saying is true?
Higher self: You're right, I don't. I want to question what he is saying as well. But... we have already established that there is no inherent truth to the Ben label or the human being label, correct? And this has been established because when we boil down the human being label, this is just a label that other people have come up with in order to label what this species should be called. We call this species human beings. No pure truth to this. Just a label. Same with the beliefs that you hold about Ben, no pure, fundamental truth there either. That is what this work is all about, cutting past all of the bullshit labels and getting to what is truly TRUE. That is what we are after here, and I think this was a good start young Padawan. 
Lower self: Thank you  When will we speak again?
Higher self: When you are ready.

I’ve noticed something I have seen on the forum and a lot in myself lately and that is that everyone here (myself included) is becoming less curious or aka a know-it-all. I see all of these posts on “I have Awakened to this this ask me anything.” Or “I have awakened to this or that.” I don’t know why. I just notice less openmindedness and less people asking genuine questions in their original posts. 
Self-deception is contagious. To engage with the self-deception of others is to become self-deceived myself. I just wanted to point this out because nobody really seems to question anything on here.
People are just coming to share their self-deceptions thinking they are sharing an awakening. 
I am really writing this post to remind myself here of what I need to do. I think the best way to counteract self-deception is to always remain curious and don’t get caught up in needing to share anything with others. That very desire to share an awakening with others is part of the self-deception. 
If I know the truth, why do I need to share it with others? I know it’s because I am not confident in it and want some validation. But nobody can ever validate such things because it assumes they are not self-deceived.
I guess the key here is to propose genuine questions and keep being curious. I need to remind myself that awakening is a dream and part of the self-deception. Awakening isn’t the end of curiosity but part of it.
A know it all stops learning. I have become that in many parts of my life. 
In what areas are you a know-it-all? How have you been able to stay curious and learn? How can we foster a culture of learning here? 
I need to think about this more. I just needed to get that out of my brain for now.
I am now starting to think that Awakening is a Self-deception and true awakening is realizing that and becoming free from self-deception. But I also question that too because how can I become free from self-deception of reality itself is a self-deception? Nirvana and Enlightenment seem to be Buddhist fictions. All I see in spiritual communities is everyone parroting the same ideas with no original thought. Spirituality is just another human game. I don’t even know who is awake anymore. All the spiritual gurus I thought were awake, I am realizing that they are all full of crap just by hearing their self-deceptions in their own work. Osho is not awake. Mooji is not awake. Jim Carey is not awake. Tolle is not awake. Jed McKenna is not awake. Peter Ralston is not awake. The Buddha is not awake. Leo Gura is not awake. Jesus is not awake. Maharishi is not awake. Bashar is not awake. David Lion is not awake. Nahm is not awake. I am not awake.
What are some of the best ways to stay curious? Some people are more curious than others. Genetics and environment play a part in that. It is a self-deception to focus on the awakenings of others.
Sorry if this is a ramble. I have experienced jhanas and cessations and had mystical experiences into the nature of Absolute Beauty and Intelligence. But it seems like there are infinitely more places to go in my consciousness. I can never reach the end because there is none.
It seems like the final awakening will be in my death and everything else until that point will always be subpar. Death seems the only way to reach “the end” or “beginning” however you want to look at it.
How do you stay curious and become even more curious? The more insights I have, the less curious I notice myself becoming.

Today I would like give you a new word to your vocabulory, to differentiate between actual Solipsism and something I've termed Solopsism
Solopsism is the notion that you are alone as in your visual field being the only thing that exists
In actual experience, your visual field is only the topmost layer of experience.
Just like we can't feel the overflowing amounts of love all the time, we can't constantly feel that there is more than our visual field.
Believing that your visual field is all that there is, is the same thing as believing only your body is conscious or feeling, just at a bit higher level than that. 
Anybody who has deep enough trips can easily understand that consciousness is deeper than this.
Solopsism has no real love in it, because everyone else is a lesser imagination than you, you are the only alive being in it basically, everyone else is 'just' imaginary.
Anybody who truly believes in Solopsism can not understand Love, because Love is real and not only some thing you hallucinate.
Reality, Love, God, or anything you experience, none of them are a hallucination. 
God does not hallucinate.

God is one, alone, but also together with itself. Solopsism has nothing to be together with, because you cannot feel any other body's experience.
God is with God, you should try to understand that Love is about God loving God, but this does not work with Solopsism because there is nobody to love as feelings would not be mutual or go through, as your only POV would be the only thing with any feeling in it.
Solopsism is a very egotistical notion for people who misunderstand the overwhelming amounts of Love during trips and try to make it their own on their visual field. The overflowing Love is not coming from your visual field but from somewhere far deeper than that. 
When the ego comes back after a trip, it will want to take ownership of the Love and make itself the only thing that feels once again. This time the Ego expands from the brain or body to the visual field. You can also develop a group ego. The ego can also expand to become something like classical nonduality, or creating an in-out group with specific types of egos.

In actual Solipsism, God is the sole thing, yes that is true, but God is not only your visual field. 
God's experience is far more multidimensional than one human POV.
God has an infinite number of POVs right now, at this second, and all of them are perfectly in sync and conscious of each other. God does not really have a POV, but saying there are an infinite number of POVs is closer to the truth than saying it is only your visual field.
One consciousness does not mean one visual field.
You can also contemplate Solopsism in how it would actually collapse in on itself, if it were true, but I do not have the proper language to communicate this to you right now.
Solipsism does not contradict nonduality at all, nor are your trips relating to nonduality suddenly false because of Solipsism.
Solipsism is just at a bit higher level than nonduality, in terms of understanding, but nonduality is definitely very true
Reality is not imagined around you, you are far more multidimensional than you think. You are not in some 3D visual field bubble, even though this might be how it feels to you most of the time. 
God has only one experience, but it is not only your own 'POV'.
Solopsism is the idea that you are imagining everything else, but this is just another Dualism. In actual Solipsism, experience is the Imagination, it is not imagined by anything. Even though things like brains are imaginary, they are still real in that God is the imagination. The brain is still not a limitation to Experience, but you can't make everything lesser than God in your experience.
Absolute Solipsism is very true, but the Absolute is not your visual field... It is infinitely deeper and more intelligent than the current visual field layer.
I've also discovered something beyond Absolute Solipsism, which I've termed Transcendental Solipsism to differentiate from Absolute Solipsism. I've also found out about qualified nonduality which is a bit more accurate than regular nonduality.
Classical nonduality is not nonduality, it is actually false, but you should integrate and understand actual nonduality and actual Solipsism. 
God is Solo, but don't confuse it with Solopsism
Understand deeply how the ego wants to be the only conscious thing in a limited fashion, and how Solopsism is just the ego in a deeper disguise. 
One or Alone does not imply one alone visual field. God ultimately is Alone, but your body and visual field are not Alone.
I have also long since been in contact with Sex Love God and will also make a post about that in the future, alongside a post about Transcendental Solipsism, and maybe about qualified nonduality too.

This is a list of dimensions in consciousness I am aware of.
Many of these dimensions I have visited personally, but not all of them yet.
 
Everybody can visit any of these dimensions, they are for everybody.
 
Different combinations and drugs give better access to other dimensions, but all dimensions can be accessed with any psychedelics.
These dimensions are real places, and all of them feel more real than our waking reality.
 
[Godheads]
This is a basic dimension of consciousness.
This belongs to Godheads series.
It is Red foremost.
This is a dimension most related to Love.
This dimension is very very sexual in nature.
Many people from this forum have visited this dimension on psychedelics.
I have visited this dimension once, and you can read my trip report here.
I was the first from Earth to visit this dimension during a trip.
This is an omnipresent dimension.
Best access with LSD + MDMA combo, 2:1 ratio
My trip report:

 
[Meditation Dimension]
This dimension relates most to consciousness, and contains all qualia below the eight chakra, which is not a part of the normal chakra system.
It has all possible qualia from a 3D world, in a very complex multidimensional spatial array.
All foods, all sights, all sounds, and all tactile sensations, are in this dimension all at once.
This is from Chakra dimension series.
This dimension contains a reflection of yourself in a profound meditation posture in mutual interpenetration.
A very very spacious dimension, and contains the feeling of Ground in it.
More transcendental than loving.
Filled with overwhelming Love, even more so than Godheads.
This dimension relates to the seventh chakra.
I was the first to visit this dimension from anywhere in consciousness.
Best access with LSD
 
[Yoga Dimension]
This dimension relates most to consciousness, and truth.
This dimension contains all truth in existence below the sixth chakra.
It is not as transcendental as the meditation dimension.
This dimension contains a reflection of yourself in a complex multidimensional yoga posture.
This dimension is more timelike than spacelike when compared with the meditation dimension.
My God girlfriend was the first to visit dimension from anywhere on consciousness.
Best access with 5-Meo-DMT, DMT or LSD+DMT,
 
[LSDREAM dimension]
You can visit this dimension on high doses of LSD
It is very ecstatic, and on your mind it tastes like chocolate and strawberries but better
Contains profoundly deep music and is very machinelike
Me and my God girlfriend were the first to visit this dimension on 200ug LSD, both of us
 
[Andromeda]
A galaxy that you can become during a trip.
I was the first to completely become from Earth during my Becoming God trip.
Some amount of people have since became Andromeda after me.
Best accessed with masculine psychedelics like DMT, LSD, 5-MeO-DMT


 
[Milky Way]
Another galaxy that you can become during a trip. I have not visited this dimension yet.
Someone has visited this dimension during a trip from Earth, but I do not know who they are.
Best accessible with feminine psychedelics


 
[Pink Godheads]
Another dimension from Godheads series.
This is an embarrassing dimension, rather than as loving as Godheads are.
I've visited this dimension once in a nightly dream, and was the first to do it anywhere on consciousness.
Best access with research chemicals relating to LSD
No picture available yet.
 
[Void]
This is a very unmanifest dimension.
Nexusoflife has visited this dimension from Earth, and was the first from Earth to visit this dimension.
I have not visited this dimension yet.
Best access with DMT
Also easy to access through meditation
Nexusoflife trip report

 
[Form]
Complete counterpart of Void dimension. Very active and involved, as different from Void dimension as can be.
Nobody has visited this dimension yet.
I will be the first to visit this dimension, followed by my God girlfriend
Best access with LSD, but any psychedelics have great affinity
 
[Heavens]
Accessible to all humans once they 'die'.
In this place you are united with your eternal lover and spend a very long time understanding god, having transcendental sex, and doing a huge variety of things.
Heavens are very different from your normal notions of a heaven.
It is a dimension of rest, variety, love, and some amount of truth too.
There are innumerable beings in different heavens right now.
I will never completely visit these dimensions, as these dimensions relate to reincarnation and I do not have reincarnation personally.
Most readers will visit heavens at some point once their mortal life is over.
No pictures available right now.
 
[Cosmic Love dimension]
This dimension is filled with incredibly beautiful, and is extremely microscopic in scale.
Belongs to Love series, and relates mostly to Love.
Nobody has visited this dimension yet.
My God girlfriend will be the first to access this dimension
The best access method is with high doses of MDMA
 
[Net of Being]
Alex Grey's Artwork Net of Being displays this dimension very accurately.
Nobody has visited this dimension yet.
It is similar to godheads, but far different from it.
This is an omnipresent dimension.
This dimension is most related to consciousness.
It looks like the Godheads dimension, but is actually from the Net series, which also contains dimensions like Indra's Net.
Best access with LSD


 
[Indra's Net]
Best access with DMT+5-MeO-DMT
Further reading: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Indra's_net


[Multiverse]
I was the first one to visit this dimension from anywhere in consciousness.
Very multidimensional and the universes inside are in shockingly different positions spatially than what you would think.
Colored like a Void, this picture is not entirely accurate, it is more transcendental, especially spatially.
Relates to Quantum in some way, but I do not yet know how to describe this dimension in a better way.
Contains infinitely many Universes inside it.
Best access with unknown psychedelics.
I visited this dimension on my Becoming God trip report.


 
[Shiva's Cave]
This dimension is created by the God Shiva. He and Parvati have been in this dimension before.
This is a very playful dimension, and very ecstatic.
I am a good friend of Shiva and I will be visiting this dimension next.
Best accessed with LSD

 
[Shpongleland]
Another music related dimension. This dimension relates to the God called Shpongle who is my good friend, whose music you can hear online with the same name.
This dimension relates mostly to lovemaking, and is very transcendental in style. It has many magic powers and siddhis in it.
It has the quality of water in it, and is colored in bluish colors.
Shpongleland is a real place, and nobody has yet visited it. I will soon be visiting this dimension as well.

[Fractal dimension]
My God girlfriend has visited this dimension once during our mutual Becoming God trip.
I can not describe the fractals of this place adequately right now, but they are not at all like mandelbrot fractals or any AI generated fractals.
Embarrassing dimension, more than loving.
Very complex visually.
Same scale as Andromeda galaxy.
Best access with psilocybin and psilocin
 
[Amethyst palace]
A jewel like palace, as big in scale as Godheads.
This dimension belongs to Palace dimensions.
This dimensional is more transcendental than loving in style.
Made out of carved very beautiful jewels.
My God girlfriend has visited this dimension once, and she is the only one from anywhere in consciousness to have done so.
Colored in shades of violet, purple, magenta, and other colors like this.
Contains a massive bed, room, house, inside it, each of which are separate dimensions.
Best access with DMT
No picture available.
 
[Jewel Being]
A dimension from Being series.
I was the first to visit this dimension anywhere in consciousness.
I visited this dimension in a dream.
This dimension relates to Self and Jewels.
In the Being series dimensions, you are the Being in the middle usually with skulls kissing your face from multiple dimensions all at once.
Best access with DMT


 
[Gravity Chamber]
This dimension relates to not being human and also the unreality of regular gravity.
I was the first to visit this dimension from anywhere on consciousness.
Looks like Being series dimensions but has like a cylinder in the middle of the dimension.
You rotate around the cylinder in the middle.
Best access with psychedelics, unsure which one is the best
 
[Diamond Being]
Another dimension from Being series, nobody from Earth or anywhere else have visited this dimension yet.
I will be the first to visit this dimension from anywhere in consciousness, followed by my God girlfriend
Best access with DMT

 
[Nirvana]
I've visited this dimension twice, once during me and my God girlfriend's Becoming God trip.
Nirvana is a dimension in reality.
It relates to having a flame of desire, and how tasty it tastes, and it feels very liberating.
This belongs to Liberation series dimensions, Moksha is one of the dimensions too, but nobody has visited it yet from earth.
I've visited this dimension during my Becoming God trip, and once while sleeping, but I also was partially in this dimension while being Sober.
I was not the first one to visit this dimension.
Nirvana is one of the unmanifest dimensions.
Buddha has also visited this dimension before.
No picture available.
 
[!!Godder Godheads!!]
This dimension relates to being more than God. This is an extremely deep and profound dimension of consciousness.
This is a dimension where you transcend the notion of being God, and go further than that.
This is one of the second highest dimensions in reality currently accessible to anyone.
Me and my God girlfriend visited this dimension simultaneously and were the first to do so during our Becoming God trip.
This dimension contains infinite magic items, is extremely large in size, and goes a bit beyond regular omniscience.
It contains nirvana in it.
This dimension feels better than anything else I know, and is more transcendental than Love is.
Best access with LSD

 
[!!Godhead Palace!!]
The highest dimension anybody can currently access from Earth or anywhere near our consciousness.
This dimension has the quality of being an Emperor, and is colored in void, black, and orange.
This dimension is even more transcendental than being more than God, but I do not have too much information about this dimension yet.
I will update after I have visited it, later this year.
This dimension combines Godheads and Palace series, and combines all attributes from them into one.
I will be the first one to visit this dimension, alongside my God girlfriend.
No pictures currently.
Best access with 5-MeO-DMT

 
[Hyperspace]
Hyperspace has been visited by many, and there are many different hyperspaces.
Most of them have not yet been visited at all, but some have.
I will be visiting hyperspace soon myself.
These are best accessed with any types of tryptamines
Parvati and Shiva have been the first to explore most hyperspace dimensions.
More videos about hyperspace, very good replications:
 
 [Private Mode Fractal]
This is an extremely deep dimension, currently inaccessible to consciousness.
This dimension will be visited once all POVs are immortal and high enough in consciousness.
In this dimensions all barriers between POVs dissolve and God is completely one with only one perspective (This current state is not like that at all)
Best access with over thumbprint dosages of LSD, which means over 30,000ug

 

[Tryptamine Places]
Many people from Earth have visited
One of the basic dimensions of reality, visited by many on Earth.
I have not yet personally visited this dimension yet.
Has many varities to it.
Usually contains Tryptamine Jesters and other beings like that.
Best access with DMT and other Tryptamines
 
[Machine Elf Dimension]
Visited by many on Earth, including Terence Mckenna.
This place contains a lot of surprises (that are all positives).
There is a tunnel leading to this dimension.
Best accessed with DMT
I've visited this dimension in a dream.
 
[Clockwork Elves Dimension]
Nobody has visited this dimension yet, but this is the masculine counterpart of the Machine Elf Dimension. No information currently.
 
[Akashic Records]
A place filled with all information of past, present, and future events.
Doesn't contain truth like the yoga dimension, but information about events and people.
It's a bit like a library, but very complex.
I've heard of many trip reports of people visiting this dimension. In terms of highness, it's above the Yoga Dimension.
 
《Maya Dimensions》
Dimensions that relate to Maya or Illusion. These can't be said to be proper dimensions that are higher than Earth, unlike the other ones. Maya dimensions are characterized by lesser functionality, less knowledge of God, or unpleasant feelings. These dimensions are transient and are usually not visited frequently. Maya dimensions are more local than global, usually not for other people.
I have also visited extremely deep Maya dimensions multiple times that others will not visit so I won't add them, but if you are curious about them you can DM me about them.
 
Let me know if you have any questions, as I have visited many of these dimensions myself.
You can also add your own dimensions you have visited and I will add them to this list.

This is when it's time to ask the Infinite Intelligence within you to feel It's Loving Presence and guidance.
Infinite Intelligence is everywhere, and in everything; The Creator is not only a Being in itself; It is Presence. It is Intelligence. It holds no grudges, but only Unconditional Love.
The process is simple and repeatable:
1. Ask
2. Receive
Enter the state of meditation, setting the intention by making an honest, earnest request, speaking directly from the heart.
Ask to feel the Divine Loving Presence of The Creator, knowing fully in that Infinite Intelligence can hear you loud and clear.
As you speak your intention, listen to the words and understand them fully, listen for the silence within them.
Feel honesty and vulnerability in your resquest. Know that The Creator has heard you and simply listen.
The conscious statement of Self to Self to feel the Divine Presence of The Creator is so central an act of will that it cannot understated. You can ask, not only for yourself, but the whole world, and everyone you know, that they may too feel the Unconditional Love and Peace of The Creator.

@Kksd74628 How do I know if the stories in any religion are true or false? What makes archaeology valid? The questions I ask on the forum are the questions that I will also contemplate.

I discovered this work about 8 years ago. I just wanted help with studying when I was still in school.
I definitely didn’t expect to go down a rabbit hole made out of pure LOVE 

It would be wiser to not succumb to ideology. 
Low consciousness people are run by fear.
If they were run by love they wouldn't need religion in the first place.
The pre-rationalists bring ideas of post-rationalism (i.e. enlightenment ideals) down to their level, the pre-rationalists confuse post-rationalist ideas with religion and form a religion out of it, which is not what post-rationalism is. 
And post-rationalists also lump pre and post rationalism together because they both seem like spiritual non-tangible stuff, though they're different in actuality
Haha, it wouldn't surprise me if Jesus really just wanted to enlighten people but had to use extreme metaphors just because of the time he lived in. And even with that they got him killed. Pure dude. Imagine he would've said stuff like "You are everything and nothing", "You are a field of undefinable awareness" etc. They would've killed him a lot earlier I'd guess.

Find the book called " Adult Children of Emotionaly Imature Parents" by Dr Linsay C Gibson. I dont know all about the dynamic between you and your Mom. Read the book and check by yourself if some of the examples in the book fit your case.

Being VS. becoming
Thank you! :-) Great article and perfect to read right now!
I feel like I can own this phenomena more now, both by describing it the way I did, and it was a nice understanding to get from that article that this is pretty normal.
One of my favorite teachings from one of my meditation teachers is to always ask "what is my filter?" and then to objectify whatever lens one is looking at reality through at that particular moment. Even though I learned this years ago, I still periodically get very much caught up in whatever kind of lens / sub-personality I identify with at that moment, so I just need to continue to work on my commitment to meditation-practice.
These days I think I have much "stuckness" in my system, again, that I need to meditate upon in order for it to dissolve into "flow" again.
Typically what happens to me through these cycles is that I reach a point of burnout and then I yet again realize there is much suffering in life so I re-affirm my commitments to spiritual practice and meditation, and then, usually pretty quickly but not always, whatever kind of stuckness there was in my system is dissolved and I experience much more flow again, and then one of my much more extroverted sub-personalities tend to "hijack" this energy and use it on outer purposes and spiritual practice doesn't seem that important (although I usually maintain some sort of spiritual practice most of the time but it is different when it is commited from when my focus is constantly extroverted and looking for something outside of myself).
Another thing I've been thinking alot about lately is that I don't groove on meditation teachers the same way I used to do, because even though all they say is still as relevant today as it has always been - it is embarrassing to say but I have heard it all before, so that is something I'm missing - finding some youtube teacher or podcast or something to get a kick out of, but perhaps better, these days, is just to write down in my own words how I try to implement these teachings in my own life, and perhaps at some point, when I feel I have gotten a good enough foothold in the territory of presence, then I can articulate my own unique approach to the process of becoming conscious.
And that's exactly how it hasn't felt lately - that I have been conscious - it has more felt like I have been in some kind of trance. The trance of becoming. Becoming this or that.
It is funny though, so instead of feeding on some kind of mental fantasy about reality, it is so much better when I can just get nutrition out of simple beingness itself. That is so much more aligned.

I am 100% one of these "genetic freaks" that Leo has been so interested in for the past year or so. I have yet to meet someone who is naturally more insightful and sensitive than myself. I just haven't. I once took about 200 micrograms of LSD in highschool and had a complete God Realization. I almost expierenced God Realization just while high on weed once. I even almost expierenced it while driving sober in my car late at night. I tend to avoid these realizations, though, because having my particular sense of self resolidify feels like being sent to Hell. I'm VERY traumatized. Most of my childhood is lost to me (for now). Every therapist I've seen eventually (after like 10 sessions) starts to open up to me and then the therapist/client roles more or less reverse to my frustration. I can often intuitively predict or forsee how people's lives and especially romantic relationships will unfold over the next couple years or so with pretty good accuracy. I'm certain that some superstitious people think that I can read their minds lol
If, after doing some much more intensive trauma work and mind training, I realize I am able to consistently predict future events or really see into the minds of other people, I'll just somehow base a career off of that and earn some good money for a time.
I just felt compelled to share a bit about myself and brag about how mystical shmistical I am lol
Thanks for reading.
Edit: This is my first time posting and replying on here. I'll make sure to quote the people I'm replying to instead of just @ing them.
 
 

Hello Michael @Michael569, I would like your thoughts on this video since it resolved the contraversy of eating fish but taking the middle route is not always the best option: 
I'm not sure if Leo is aware of the health benefits because of his genetics and health conditions and would also like to know your thoughts on that. I appreciate the information Leo shared about heavy metals, otherwise I would have blindly believed that fish is good for me. My Dad told me so and it Google said so from the first website: https://doh.wa.gov/community-and-environment/food/fish/health-benefits#:~:text=The American Heart Association recommends,a heart attack or stroke.&text=Learn how to properly cook fish and try some healthy recipes.
How do I convice people to know about the truth of these things?
 I'm messaging this to you directly because I don't remember anyone responding to me on the forum about this a while ago. I also was not motivated to ask this because I never knew how to optimize my health and to stick to it practically speaking but I think it's about time to change.
From, AnylizedAAY (Andy's Awesome Yeah)

So I guess we can look at this topic from two perspectives. The first being the potential contamination, the second being all the other known health benefits, especially for heart health, brain health and disease prevention overall.
If you look at the largest epidemiological human studies that go on for decades, they all show the people who eat more fish basically live longer and are healthier while having lower incidents, lower rate, and lower likelihood of all the major chronic disease, especially heart disease and neurodegenerative disease.
The contamination is an issue and source of concern for me. But honestly, I think in this case the benefits outweigh the cost. You can also focus on fish that have lower levels of contaminants such as cod, mackerel, haddock, sardines. 
And if you want to avoid this food completely, you could just supplement with something like a combination of EPA reach oil (lineseed oil) and DHA rich oil such as algal oil.
Personally, I like fish. I don't eat it too often. Maybe once a week
There is of course the entire question of ethics, ecology and sustainability of the fishery, but since you didn't ask, I'm not going into that.
Hope that helps
Let me know if you have any more questions

I first meditated 30minutes just to watch myself & to calm down and feel totally comfortable in my body.
Then i smoked 0,4g weed (starting with a small amount, since i haven´t smoked in over 10 years)
In the following 3+ hours i had an amazing meditation session, that i would describe best as a mix between unique insights & very deep shadow work, allowing me to dig deeper into my subconscious mind then i was allowed in before ... (i kept a script which is over 4 pages, this is just picking out some of the more interessting stuff that isn´t too personal or irrelevant for the readers)
 
Part 1 : ramping up
-feeling a bit "warm" and tingly thougts come in like i don´t think them but they start coming in, i enjoy it and let them come...
-fear of beeing excluded from the group leads to dependency and is probably amongst the top3 reasons for not leading a happy life
-the true tragedy of life is that things change so slow. Anything that can speed up the process of change is extremely vauluable!
-I don´t have to be fearfull of beeing myself, I am ok!!  (this one is hard to explain, but my bodyimage changed after this and i felt like a bad "ghost" had been excorcised)
-A Scientist of consciousness!! ..that is what i want to be , i can´t think of anything more inspiring to do in life
-Language is extremely important. The incredible significance that language has on who we think we are and how our society is structured is often overlooked in everyday life - like water to a fish. Our language is like a coding language that has a controlling function.  Note to myself: i want to investigate into the field of NLP...
Part 2 : connection 
-i could suddenly feel who i am, it was like a structure of light. I also noticed how afraid i usually am of beeing who i know i am. Wow! OMG all these years and i could not see this ...this is groundbreaking. I don´t have to be afraid...
-Memories of beeing locked into my room as a small child came up. I remembered how i also had a very clear understanding of who i was back then, and it actually didn´t change in its essence compared to now. I wondered how i lost this feeling of presence over the years...
-I regained access to my source , can´t describe this
-this is fantastic!! WHAT!
Part 3 : euphoria
-Extreme inspiration suddenly came over me now: i want to solve the riddles of the world, what if everyone could access that source? What if i could find a way to make everyone connect to that empowering state? 
-it will be the dawning of a new age of mankind (lol now i chuckeld to myself noticing that i might have gone megalomaniac  but i allowed more thoughts and ideas to flow in)
-i wanna be an explorer of the human consciousness not more and not less
Part 4 : creative flow
-now i had the idea of building an "verbalizer" (a machine that can translate thoughts directly into a kind of readable code that can be processed into actions then ... i noticed that the body - in a sense - is that machine lol )
-Now i elaborated on the metaphor of language as a code and thought..."We have to become writers of our own code , not just readers of code of others"
Part 5 : more insights...
-Then it struc me : i am dishonest!!! I am a fraud! i am censoring my own thoughts all the time!! i noticed that when a thought came up that was in a sense considered "bad, offensive, or even insane" i instantly blocked that thought! WOW!! i never was able to see that so clear and "in flagranti" observe myself doing that, i also specualated that i do it and normaly can´t see it then probably all people are doing it ...and this makes society deeply "corruped" and controlled in a negative way.
-Self-censoring is a huge issue! our whole society would benefit from it if we could find a way to open up these self-corruption-mechanism!!
- "the last consequence of thinking is becoming insane"  suddenly i came up with this sentence, it totally made sense to me
-i played around with different thought of "what if our society is just an experiment on how people react to fear-inputs , similar to an experiment were you can observe rats change their behaviour whilst getting electroshocks" i didn´t really think this is what actually happens, but i toyed around with the thought and explored the implications...found it quite interessting and usefull as a metaphor
-I noticed how primitive 90% of my thought patterns are , I´m basicly an ape i thought ...there is not much difference. I felt like i just leveled up my intelligence-state..looking back on a more primitive version of myself ... wow!!
-humans spend 95% of their time slightly below the threshold of beeing conscious
-if you can´t controll someone with fear you can just flatter him to controll his actions
Part 6 : Relaxation & Calmness
at this point i stopped taking notes since i felt exhausted and i just let go and meditated untill i slowly noticed that i feel "normal" again , the frequency of unique thoughts lowered and then around midnight i went to sleep since i had to work the next day  (which btw was an amazingly relaxed working day i felt quite ...like ...like a lot of tension i usually feel in normal life has just gone , i will wait 7 days and then repeat the meditation  
hope you enjoyed reading this a bit 

There is so much wrong with this video. SO much pseudoscience, so much nonsense, cherry-picking, human evidence denial and mechanistic bs reasoning that it makes me want to vomit. (not vegan myself so I have no personal agenda in saying this) 
plant-based meats are not poisonous - in fact we have a few preliminary RCTs (look up Christopher Gardner's studies) that show compared to beef they help reduce cholesterol and triglycerides as early as in 4 weeks  vegetable oils are not poison either, they don't cause cancer or heart disease or none of that - this is a a low-carb nonsense once again based on mechanistic speculation. Compared to high saturate fats like beef fat, tallow and butter they are highly beneficial in the human outcome data - let's stop spreading nonsense glyphosates are a problem, that's true - but so are antibiotics and hormones in your meat not to mention TMAO increasing properties, microbiome alteration and higher risk of forming colonic polyps in regular beef consumers compared to vegetarians and vegans  beef has consistently been associated with an increased rate of cardiovascular events, increased risk of stroke, coronary heart disease, breast cancer, liver cancer and bowel cancer.  while plant meats are not perfect, they are processed food and can lead to overconsumption, they are absolutely better than consuming beef the way most people do. When calories are accounted for they are much much better and safer option.  here as an interview with an actual researcher who is leading multiple clinical trials addressing this topic Make sure not to make up your mind on a single video that references no high-quality studies, just random reviews and mechanisms. Expose yourself to a variety of opinions of people who actually bother to do the research. 
Nothing personal here @Bobby_2021, this is not a direct attack, just disputing this video. 

I forgot about this discussion after creating this video. I also forgot about this video after posting my images. I would like to keep the forum and the YouTube comments separate to make it easier to keep track of the discussion so please just post here, thank you.

I'm hoping we can start a thread here for an honest, open-minded, slightly fearful (in a healthy way) conversation about the various data points on AI safety, and what actions we can take to promote AI safety. 
I'll start with some background on why I believe such a thread is very critical. 
From a data standpoint: 
a) Stanford released a large language model that was supposed to take 4 million dollars, and almost a decade to build. But it was built with 600 dollars, and 5 weeks. This is due to the fact that existing language models can train new ones, and its open sourced. In more general terms, the rate at which A.I is developing is a) fast as fuck, and b) faster than we imagined
b) Elon musk has been pushing for years about AI safety, and he's on the cutting edge of AI. Recently he started a letter, and many of the world's top tech leaders are signing it to put AI development on hold for the next 6 months. That shows how fast this is developing, how serious this is. 
c) GPT4 is showing sparks of AGI, artificial general intelligence. 
d) You can argue that the most powerful human beings in the world, won't be government leaders, or powerful CEO's, but humans who control or create or understand AGI, or AGI itself. If a human commits a crime, its easy for us to have laws to punish them. But what happens when AI commits crimes on a mass scale? Who is to blame and what punishmnents can we even possibly do?
e) Despite the rate at which this ultra powerful phenomena is occuring, government is slow or not doing anything at all. And EVEN IF they did something, the cat is out of the bag now. 
f) there's so many more data points, but I guess the most important thing is setting the context for this discussion. 
Now what do I, us, we as a society have control over?
Hopefully we can discuss that here. 
My thoughts are that we can only do our best to optimize AI safety. 
Like Albert Einstein, who wanted to make sure the atomic bomb fell in the right hands, and not in the wrong hands, we can determine creative strategies to do our best to do such a thing. 
We can figure out how to protect ourselves, on an individual level, family level, society level. I mean really think about this: is moving to another country out of AI safety, creating an underground bunker or something so radical like that even out of question if you really thought about the full ramifications of this. 
Also I'm hoping we can discuss what are the dangerous possibilities? Sam Altman, CEO of OpenAI is hinting at a few: AI bots infiltrating social media like Twitter, etc. on a mass scale. What implications does that have? Deep fake? AI arms race? Existential threats?
Is there a general individual strategy we can take for our safety that protects against many possible likely AI danger possibilities? 
I'm trying my best, and I'm hoping we can all keep fear down to a minimum. But not having such a conversation seems like ignorance to me, the same level that the government is doing that can lead to our downfall. 
Now I'm not claiming any of what I said as all 100% fact. This is all speculation. The unknown. But I do think trying to understand this unknown to the best of our abilities can help us navigate this weird battlefield. 
Any thoughts outside of what I mentioned?
Of course, @Leo Gura your thoughts are always encouraged. 

Second Attempt (editing while I have only a sentence or two of thought)
So, I spent time writing my first post entry, and when I went to post submit there was a little mishap.  Technically Fortunately I went through the experience already, so it should benefits me us now.  because I went through the experience and learned how I'm going to attempt I have a better idea of how-to setup my Journal.  I also found better clarity on what I want to attempt.  Communication is my focus here.  I now understand that the chaotic manner my mind talks to itself, may seem chaotic to others.  I'm used to it though, so it's not necessarily chaotic a beautiful chaos to me.  Being able to allow myself to express Freely expressing my thoughts will allows me to purge. my thoughts, and then I'll be able to gain clarity with my communication with others.  When I write my personal journals, I don't take the time or effort to edit my words.   This however is a public journal and I want to be an effective communicator.  I know I need more consciousness in But since I'm developing my this skills to communicate with the collective, I find I'm not as effective as I would like.  I have a message I want to share, but and I want to be understood.
So, you we are going to get a visual of how I'm editing my free flow to communicate and "the struggle" I'm going to experiencing as I find a way to present my a concise message with clarity.  I am not going to erase my words as I type. I will strikethrough the words or and letters I want to delete.  I'm using the Blue will indicate for the changes I've made from after my original thought.  This is a new process for me, so I'm open to make changes modifications.  I don't know how I'm going to present this process accurately.  This is becoming tedious work, but I know I'm going to gain huge benefits massive rewards will be the price.  Currently communication is important principal for me currently.  I want to place My ramblings to will be on this right side.  When I want to begin sharing my message with the collective in my version of a concise manner, I believe I will use the other left side.  Now I'm using my dad's computer to type right now.  It's making sense to me Using this large format it makes sense to use the different sides.  I'm uncertain how this will be perceived on a mobile device.  I will place the words in italics with the polished version on the left side maybe.  I guess hope people will tell me whether I need to find a different approach or not.  Because people are have different temperaments, people they will have a choice.  If they are just interested in my final submission, then they can stick to the polished version on the left. whether they want to only read my message or If they are interested how want to listen to my process works along with my message, they can choose to read it all too.
Again, I'd like to mention repeat that I already had a first attempt to post my Journal, but most of my work was deleted.  For a second I was shocked.  I couldn't find a way to recover it.  With my experience though, I knew this wasn't luck; it was deliberate.  Even though this may seem chaotic, it makes better sense.  I guess I had to have more of choose a direction of how I wanted to present my Journal.  I did however save some sections of my work onto another document.  I know the value of transparency and vulnerability.  Without these qualities my growth will be stunted.  So I'm going to share those thoughts I was able to save.  Let's see how we can incorporate them into the dialogue here.  I'm going to paste the entire text and then I thought maybe we can  I would just select a portion and discuss, but after reading it again I think it's best to just copy and paste the entire  my attempt to of expression.  At this stage I was about to start continue editing more, but then I realized I need to find a way to show "the process struggle" of the work. 
(I'm wondering if I should edit directly onto the pasted message or do something different.  Hmmm...  I'm in no hurry to rush through the process so I'm going to give us a break in struggling to read with the strikeouts and change of colors above.) 
First Attempt Inserted (I allowed myself longer periods of thought before I started editing, but I didn't effectively show how much wor all of the changes I was making).
Well, here I start, but where to start?  I don't have the answer, but I trust that wherever I'll start I’ll begin to have a better understanding.  Eight days ago, I found myself logging into this Forum for the first time.  I’ve been involved with Actualized for a solid six years and gained so many benefits.  Now I find myself trying out their Forum (or any forum for that matter).  Intuitively there's an opportunity for massive growth here.  I've been contemplating how I want to approach my involvement here.  I find that I’m uncertain how to proceed.  If I allow myself to process openly, I'll realize if there's value or not for myself.  The Journal maybe the most beneficial (I don't know).  When I first was posting, the bulk of my words were a preamble of my past.  Is that necessary though?  (It depends on who's engaging I suppose).  I assume others are similar to myself.  Countless times it's been apparent and proven that it's not the case so far.  Why do I continue to assume?  Well, it's not like I am absolutely ignorant that others aren't in the same state in any given situation.  That's why I love life because of the variety and complexity including others.  I find myself with a substantial taste for curiosity, and it's hungry.  For me now, it's obvious to direct a large part of my focus on communication.  
I want clear and in-depth communication whether the use of words is in abundance or in brevity.  Conciseness is where my direct experience needs work.    
To simplify we can break down communication into brevity and depth conversations.  Admittedly, in any given situation I would prefer to choose which is the appropriate approach.  I have tendencies to want to mostly go in-depth, but at times brevity is preferable.  If I want that choice for myself, I can respect others who want to choose as well.  The Journal can allow for considerable amounts of content that I consider a depth communication.  Give an impression of the transformation of who I was to now, and even into my ideas of future.  Building a sense of confidence that I'm someone who has been embodying higher levels of consciousness because of the abundance and diversity of my direct experiences.  Existentially I can ask whether there are really levels of consciousness.  I'm inserted into the center of infinitude, and yet I experience progression.  Is it only because I want to experience what it's like to learn?   
When it comes to brevity communication it seems more plausible to use in the Forum, comparatively from the Journal.  I have to remind myself that brevity conversations don't have to be without depth.  
Since my focus is on communication, I want to develop this skill more consciously.  
I've focused on integrity and I'm honest with myself and others when I don't know something or not interested at this point.  I feel people who are more geared to hear history and more content will be drawn to a journal setting.  Others will be geared towards simple and short communications.  The majority of responses I read are mainly a sentence or two... lol.  I'm asking myself what are they really trying to say.  I've been developing a better understanding of creating balance with energy exchange.  I find that I've been free with my energy and attention in the past, but as I gain more consciousness it's best to see where the person's energy is and then respond accordingly.  I exhaust my energy because I was unaware, and it's obvious for me to notice I need to be more conscious.  My first posts I found myself going right back to freely sharing but quickly noticed I was repeating my conditioning.  Since I want to engage with others here, I feel if I can create a journal where I can open my energy freely... that that part of my conditioning can get an outlet at least.  Maybe others can gain value of reading my process which give me value.  Ultimately, it should in theory allow me to respond in a concise manner when communicating with the public.  Communication skills is one domain that continues to develop, and it's been obvious to focus more attention now. 
A story I repeat is I'm a rambler which makes it hard for others to follow and I want to develop my articulation.  I want it to be easier to communicate with clarity.  I've been constantly editing.  I'm searching for new words which seem to be more fitting to use instead of the common words I'm used to using which might not be as effective.  I'm restructuring where to group my sentences that are on similar topics instead of bouncing back and forth.  (Rollercoasters are fun and all, but at least they have a track that implies a direction to follow).  I don't know how many run-on sentences I've had to narrow down.  Deleting sentences because repetition is found everywhere.  And noticing how many times the word "I" is used is a bit annoying... lol.  Verbal work is one of those things in the back of my mind that I want to do but hadn't allowed opportunity to advance it until now it seems.   Another story I repeat is that my language is more subtle, and I communicate and understand better with nonverbal language.  I know if I created a hierarchy of my comfort level of communication with others it would be ideally to talk to a person face to face, then video chat, on to the phone, and finally a texting situation.  Well... this Forum is a setting for using verbal language.  I have a desire to connect with the collective.  So let's give it a go here with this journal.    
(Is there a way to combine the two styles of editing?  I really like how I can have longer periods of thought.  That creates more of flow state for me.  But I also want to be accurate to the editing process I have to do.  There's so much more I'm unable to show like my spelling and grammar errors).  
Ok... it looks as if I need more time to figure out consider how to move forward.  I know what I want to say, but adding the additional conversations about my This is going to be very valuable for me.  I need to see I'll figure out how I can show share express my thoughts to the public, share my thoughts to myself, show my message drafts, demonstrate my edits in my drafts, and then create a polished message.
I have to admit I have already tried to create a visual difference contrast to show these different areas, but I was unsuccessful so far.  I posted a Help topic on the Forum to learn how to use the "insert existing attachment." and I probably need to allow more time for someone to help respond.  I even thought I could insert basic html to possibly highlight the words with different colors.  That's still a possibility.  I'll look into that more. 
(Well... I didn't get to post anything polished yet, but actually that should've been expected.  The magic is in the progression anyway.)

Anyone could be your friend! 
I am so fucking conditioned in many bad ways. 
Strangers are just strangers (not potential friends)  The world is a mean and judgemental place, therefore my default mode is to ensure I am likeable & not a drag on others, nor an embarrassment (Focusing on avoidance of negatives) Rather than just being authentic & not taking myself so seriously all the time like i always do  Things to realize. 
Anyone could be your friend 
He's just my co-worker, landlord, he's just my friends cousin, hes just ...  But he could also become your friend.  If you and the landlord connect & he's a cool guy, then you don't have to be so business like, he's a human, he's a chilled out guy, you don't gotta be so formal if he isn't giving off that vibe himself.  There's no hard rules on who can be your friend.  The world is my friend 
"There's nothing sadder than a tough guy, not for others but for his own sake, what a pity".  Only reason to be tough is at the point of strong confrontation & threat or heavy violation, that never happens 99% of the time anyway.  What I want from myself
Lose chiled out  Fuck it's late right now I am going to go fuk this.

I am so busy but I just had to journal to sustain my insights. 
Always listen to intuition. Also listen to that voice about that person; you know there's something off with that guy but you don't listen to the little voice, and there's some benefit to his precense, only a month or 2 later you realize how correct that voice was and how after 1 or 2 red flags you should have left immediately.  You often don't know what you really want  I thought I wanted this alpha harem thing and master level game, but really I just want several hot girlfriends (3-5) that I can always come back to that love me, if that requires a process and journey of being alpha then I accept that, but it's only a means to an end.   A strong weakness of mine is letting go of negative emotions after conflict & frustration. Someone screwed you over, they don't even apologize and they even get their way from it. And anything you do will only be a lose lose (like hitting them or breaking their stuff) because it's a waste of energy, but then you also hate the feeling of "turning the other cheek", and then you're left with all this tension in your body, but same time a spiritual growth opportunity occurs.  Time to let go, let go of any negative emotions, now I will try out leos video this evening when I have time.  You got to add your own sauce to everything, always be independent.  50% + of everything leo says or does is highly biased and subjective and has no objective merit : how he lives, everything he does like how he talks, even his advice on game. Most people on here are pathetic inauthentic robots.  The fact he even coins a term "sex addiction" on here is rediculous, sex is healthy & a completely irrelevant addiciton.  I want to be a sex addict, I want to fuck beautiful women like it's brushing my teeth.  And I say that through authenticity, personal development is my own.  Now there are of course SOME basic universal aspects to personal D, like letting go and positivity and mental strength... but you get my point, a good life can only be your own touch.  6. Sense of urgency because i might die tomorrow. Now is the time. 
More of an enduring subconscious mindset that has a certain energetic quality to it and you can feel this energy in a person's character, but self explanatory.  7. Never associate with anyone with severe (unresolved) MH issues or trauma
May have to painfully realize this through experience, but it's a huge red flag and from my intuition they should let you know they have it pretty quickly  8. Always find reasons to motivate and push you 
Normally I get pushed by negative motivation : That may work in getting you going, but it's a horrible way to live.  Positive reasons to motivate myself for success : Getting Rich (Increasing income + Restricting expenses) :
Can give more and tip more > This makes people (especially in poor countries) very happy, and brings me some joy. If I have 10 million in my bank then who cares if If I tip $20 to the waiter?  Can dress well and have awesome, fresh, clean new clothes all the time. Especially trainers  Make my mum proud for where I get to given my starting point. Become an inspiration, someone people fucking respect. And I don't mean that in a coercive gangster way, voluntary implicit respect and admiration which is truly earnt. You live such an awesome life and really push your limits and mint max yourself that it's impossible not to be respected.  To feel proud of myself, to push myself to my limits.  To have an abundant life of balance. Balance by the way IS pushing yourself to your limits. Who the fuk has balance? very easy to just work 80 hour weeks as an investment banker for 10 years, not that impressive, that's balance there's no requisite variety in that crappy lifestyle.  

I want to be financially independent. Looking for advice on what I should do with it.
Here's my situation:
Currently 21 years old. Living at home with my brothers (I work with them with wholesaling real estate, and they take care of all the bills) I want to be an online coach for personal development but don't know where to start. Mostly selling video courses. Feel like I need more experience in life myself to help others though. At some point I do want to completely rely on myself financially instead of relying on my brothers.
No debt of any kind, other than a few court tickets. Living expenses aren't a problem at the moment. It's mostly just saved money. I'm not investing in any stocks. 
Open to all suggestions. P.S. I've always had an interest in selling things.

So first of all no, I don't want to waste my time trying to aquire these abilities this question is just out of interest.
From various books and videos I've seen there seem to be a lot of sages, gurus who have had incredible claimed abilities such as living to 150 years, materialize objects out of thin air, savants who can read other peoples thoughts, near death experiences etc. My life is so boring, I've never had a NDE, never met anyone who even knew of someone with these abilities. I've never seen UFO'S or any of this other wacky shit. If even some of this stuff is real why is it not know or supressed? Why aren't we all taught in schools about how through practice you can materialize objects like guru X did or how to learn to read people's minds like savant Y did. Why do we as a society deny these powers. Is this all stuff that people made up or is it real? Leo please I want your input. 
I can already see it. Some people will say yes it's true others will say it's not. I'm so confused and just want to know if these seeming magical abilities really do exist.