Jannes

I am so hyped about the new chinese rubber I bought for experimentation. Traditional chinese rubbers are harder and have less catapult but you can get the same and more spin if you play very active. My soft european tensor felt a bit like a crutch so I am very eager to try the chinese one out. Perhaps its more hype then anything else but perhaps not.

I remember all the positive experiences I had with body doubling, I need to make it work again. Found a first solution now I jump with two discord accounts into the RV group, my iPad for the camera and my laptop for the screen. It kinda seems to work. Holy shit this little tweaks for my compensation strategies mean life and death (almost)

Even medications couldnt bring me to do a whole lot.

I cant get myself to do the university work, its so shitty. You kind of have to make it enjoyable for yourself I think, otherwise well .. you just aint gonna do it. But I dont know what I can do to make it more enjoyable for me... well maybe that should be my contemplation now.

I found heaven, its finland

I need a new setup for body doubling though. I want one where I dont look directly into the camera if I want to see other people. I look like I stare (which I do) but I feel like it would make people uncomfortable so I dont do it as often but that robs me from getting the full effect. There is only so much I can do with my old iPad 6 though

Oh thats great to hear! I am always in a group so I dont have a partner but I tried 1 on 1 before and I found it can be very effective.

My old theatre club has only 1 more event on its website. I heard from different people a few months ago that it was gonna go down and now winter is coming (its super cold there) so the timing fits right. Damn Well I dont actually know whats up I can just guess so who knows

I just realized how long I blocked the regular forum ... like a few weeks. Reading what Leo had to say was kind of a basic grounding thing to do every day. Well I made the experience before that the forum graps a lot of attention from me, so maybe I should keep locking it (except for the journal section) going forward.

Nice, did it help you?

I was thinking about the nature of humor a bit recently and got the idea that for one humor is very culture dependent and second because of that by trying to understand jokes that arose from a completly different cultural background then your own you can actually understand another culture a lot because there is often a lot backed into a joke. I asked chatgpt for a few. Japan — The Apology Loop A: “I’m sorry I’m late.” B: “No, I’m sorry you had to apologize.” A: “No, I’m sorry that you’re apologizing.” B: “No, I’m sorry for making you feel you had to apologize.” Both bow. Finland — Too Much Conversation Two Finnish men are sitting in a sauna. They sit there silently for three hours. Finally, one man says: “It’s getting warm.” The other man looks at him. “We came here to relax. You don’t have to start a conversation.” Mexico — The Albur A: “Do you like spicy food?” B: “Of course.” A: “So you like having things put in your mouth?” B: “Only if I’m the one putting them there.” A: “So you admit you like putting things in your mouth?” B: “Only things that belong there.” A: “Then why are you talking to me?” Russia — The Optimist “How are things?” “Could be worse.” “Really?” “Yes. It could be tomorrow already.”

Faking smiles. I feel like everyone kind of developed a signature fake smile in their life which tries to come across as authentic as possible by copying the form of a spontanious smiling/ laughter reaction. Most smiles are a mix.

Superior in self hatred 🫣

Nice quote Connects well to a thought I had about the question of this thread. You can save a bad position by doing a paradigm change and seeing in which way you actually are in a superior position. Obi Wan was superior on a mental level to Darth Maul. If you are getting attacked and demonized but you have the facts on your side you are superior on that front.

Whoa, I filled 100 pages with my journal, thats a lot.