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  1. My first couple times on lsd I was literally watching porn on my wall like it were a smart board of my imagination pushed outward, and the images were just appearing in the objects of the room I was in, Very cool
  2. 20, Take of it what you will.
  3. bought a 3 month supply of minoxidil to thicken and increase volume and length of hairs I will let you guys know, I’m not really doing it for new hairs but I’m open to it
  4. My opinion is that he should stop if it’s anything like he though before hand trying it, In his critiques of stoners, If it becomes a lazy unconscious thing for him of course I think he should quit, But I also think we should let him experience this for himself and see how the mystical experiences and health side of the coin go, I’ve been smoking for 3 years still going strong so I see no issues with it personally, and infact everyone on this forums critique of weed(especially the ones that have not been recently high) all your understandings lack nuance for how it is for me, None of you folks have described any of the facets I’ve experienced on weed peaks, Yet they are metaphysical facets, They are ones you can identify on psychedelics, Like LSD and mushrooms(mushrooms is more like weed for me) but you have to be a degree awake to catch the facet while your tripping instead of putting it more under the radar and fearing. Try taking a rip of some smoke and realizing your god, It can happen with weed. Also weed has the facet of infinite imagination for me, I could imagine anything like an infinite randomizer of metaphysical creativity, And I could hold it in my mind like a rock for the duration of the experience
  5. @Leo Gura awesome, I feel LSD very much struck me as being this way, I remember my first couple times taking it, Seeing tumbling Salvador Dali’s moving across my room was quite a surreal moment, Had a lot of surreal moments on acid ,it’s quite a head twister. Salvia is just like abstract land, This is like realms of consciousness you just stumble upon and are just in awe that you can even get a glimpse of this piece of reality, Like I will close my eyes and go to a completely white room with melting rainbow smiling dogs how am I imagining this? That’s how it feels sometimes like the power or imagination to hold images and hyperboles is so grand and crazy like you talk about reality being an infinite hallucination, That is probably the most impressive facet of reality to me that I can dream up any visual any world essentially with my own mind, That’s why everything seems perfectly connected when I’m on an lsd trip since it’s literally almost like I’m altering the storyline and elements of the dream, Super alien and surreal. It’s like waking up in a dream and it all starts falling apart in that moment, Its like acid on the fabric of the dream, That’s a good metaphor for psychedelics! btw I far prefer lsd over salvia it’s far more comfortable, Salvia is like a veil of mental haze, I can imagine colors that I’ve never seen before as that haze is coming on it’s unbelievably fractured yet synergistic and structured and almost like if you bundled a lot of hallucinations into like one interconnected knot, It’s like every file cabinet of e universe has been storing commands for how qualia and the world appear get fucked with and you have to be the one to rearrange all those records so to speak and make use of them, God has to come in contact with seemingly long lost parts of itself and experiences of itself.
  6. Yeah I didn't seem to care, I wanted the existential shit very early on, I would lay on my mothers floor, Think about the groundlessness of reality questions such as "if god created everything what is responsible for the creation of god?". I also spent many years in the astral projection/shifting community as it was the only spiritual community I could find back then that would recognize infinite imagination and the fact your dreaming objects just as you would in an astral projection, Its just that you are always in a body that's imaginary and you are always metaphysical and beyond physical reality, There is no limit to the power of dreaming . I also love the fact that Awakening goes on and on forever reaching an infinite climax the earlier you start the more robust the climax, If that makes sense cause there is no plateau to the climax, You may have a couple ego backlash but it will percolate if the infinite consciousness is true and you care to nourish the seed of oneness to infinity, Almost to hijack the universe as god by realizing your creating it all including the apparent room and people, As god through your domain of metaphysical expereince or unconscious mind(it was way more unconsciously rooted back then I was just having the insights as a vehicle I hadn't really mulled them thoroughly quite enough then to solidify the understanding. I had these all in grade school, Okay maybe the infinity part was realized after, I realized oneness in the bathtub plenty of times, I still feel like I'm there in a way, I was like younger than preschool or in preschool cannot remember but yeah the room collapsed into one reality bubble, it was experience and it was absolute truth. This is all the best way I can articulate it from my understanding which has changed and intellectualized. I hope you guys found this satisfying and not garble. I'm just looking back, In some ways I had more mystical experiences in the form of dreams as a child, Which is one thing I envy about my child self is its imagination and capacity for wonder. Hope I did well its nearly 1:00 in the morning Also the fact that nothing exists besides my expereince and that object permanence is a hallucination, All outsides are spontaneously generated inside.
  7. @Leo Gura OF COURSE OF COURSE you could use it to have that effect if you like being tired all day and not having an energetic sativa high like I prefer usually, Your just calling out a low blow, Most weed smokers use it for a more psychological reason than stupidity and silliness (although that may be a facet or knob of how some psychedelics hit. I can tell you that most people have never experienced true guttural, manic and insane humor before, Try laughing at a toaster oven for no reason, That is a state of consciousness, And it may be better than most of the other things humans do for humor when they are sober I HAVE NEVER NEVER NEVER SEEN LEO DEMONIZE A SILLY GOOSE FOR HAVING A QUACKING TIME. BE ANGRY LEO IM A SILLY GOOSE WEED OR NOT, WEED MAKES ME A STOIC GOOSE WHO ALSO HAS THE ABILITY TO LAUGH, Sometimes you will even realize there is no goose or the goose is infinite, ( not joking its common and certainly is bound to happen for me with a low tolerance, Just got to keep plunging into the weed headspace with the right intentions and you may get some potent mystical states of consciousness you weren't expecting, States full of great vitality, Life and consciousness, Of course Love AND PSYCHEDELIC MINDFUCK MUAHAHAHAH : and some of the most pleasurable body sensations you have ever experienced in your life (that's second order importance but still beautiful) I'm just trying to make sure Leo knows his stereotype is not the average high consciousness weed smoker or even the common weed smoker imo, There are a good few of them, Like me sometimes when I'm not sober and manic. Weed will make my unfortunate states of consciousness I was born with into an ACTUAL good thing, Something to take me to infinite consciousness every once and a while (like I experience on lsd mushrooms salvia). Weed will make me experience infinity full swing, If that sounds like laziness to you, I wish I could give you just a chunk of what I was experiencing at the peak of an edible high, This was a full on imagination control involving some of the deepest layers of imagination, Like the ones we typically label either physical reality or stream of consciousness, I WAS ACTIVELY CHANGING DETAILS AND IMAGINING NEW SPACES, LIKE IM DOING WITH THIS IMAGINARY CHAIR IM SITTING ON AND THESE IMAGINARY FINGERS TYPING AWAY...
  8. @Leo Gura Weed is more likely to cause mania and full onset consciousness expansion and willpower improvement my friend, For me, Not laziness. You have been milking this stereotype for literally years, Most of the weed smokers on your forum dont give you excuses to keep thinking THATS what weed is, That sounds like a waste of a mystical experience right there with"smoking to sit and be stupid and lazy"...
  9. also, I’m not talking about the absolute of the concepts of advaida I’m talking about the absolute of this right now it’s not going anywhere it’s changeless as radical and dynamic as it is
  10. the way people suddenly are weaponizing their ideas of science against Leo now just because of this alien awakening topic is kinda disheartening to me, Why’s it gotta be science why can’t it be direct perception of reality without a mediator? I would argue that consensus would not be the place to look, Your assuming that’s more fundamental for truth when it’s not, You gotta be the truth to perceive the truth, Otherwise it will just be an empty message and you will hallucinate that there was nothing there when the message contained everything you needed you just weren’t paying attention, But we will see in the future if Leo’s proof is satisfactory, Still won’t change my absolute experience, Sure of it. Absolute definitely comes first than alien if Leo’s videos become more about alien than absolute then that will draw some objections from me but I mean he hasn’t given us any ideas yet maybe he will give us scientific explanations but I wouldn’t count on it just because your expectations want that, That isn’t more truthful if we had a scientist validate it since the scientist or culture could be wrong, So could Leo but also so could the culture judging Leo. Don’t drown in your bias you guys you will see whether this is satisfactory or not in the end, assuming you really care about truth you will be able to sort the wheat from the chaff, Don’t believe Leo but also don’t believe your ideas of what truth ought to show up in. The concept of alien doesn’t ring my truth bell immediately so I will definitely be curious to see where these ideas really lead to,if anywhere hopefully something really enriching and truthful, If they aren’t then I will just stick to my already absolute experience as it always is unaffected by other peoples concepts whether relatively right or wrong they may be… I am not in favor of either Leo or the skeptics of Leo who think he should be more scientific and non psychotic by the consensus standards, Leo may not be psychotic don’t just assume he is
  11. @Leo Gura I can relate with much of what you are saying here. This has been my daily experience as well, Maybe not exact to yours but it is like an effortless consciousness I can just ride on, Lately I have not even been seeing rooms just my own mind, Even the sensation of it being a seperate room is immediately right here it is like a nonspecific permanent samadhi with anything throughout my experience, Although there are gradations of awareness and I can fall totally asleep thinking I’m awake when I’m not, It’s like nested unconsciousness for me that the only barrier is these assumed buildups of unconsciousness like air-pockets between connections, I suppose that’s a feature not a bug though that I have an aspect that is totally dead and unaware to whatever happens in consciousness no matter how lively the sights are I am completely aware that it’s nothing. Basically I am living as my realized imagination and it’s complete nothingness, I am imagining everything just as I imagine an apple in my thoughts. But it has an alien quality but I think it’s separate from what your talking about this is so depersonalized I wouldn’t even call it alien, Alien is not enough, I don’t find the label alien satisfying for me cause I sense it as beyond alien but a complete mind duck of a nonexistent oddity yet not alien or different, It’s not alien it’s absolute familiarness within everything, If an alien were to come to me yes there would be ego shock but that’s me! The extent to which I cannot see the sameness within alienness is my delusion that prevents me from samadhi with all items of my imagination, These realizations and insights all feel so very fresh for me, I am infinite consciousness is the main insight, I just get pummeled by roiling infinity as you described it in your salvia episode all the time, It’s a total recontextualization of every single content of my perceptions, It is quite hallucinatory but it’s less than my metaphysical contemplations used to be which is weird I have reached a point of integration where I can integrate some of the more far out imaginings, Before I was always giving my friends I was trying to teach just straight up whacky examples of relativity with like ideas of like stuff they wouldn’t think is real in consensus, Now it’s just an infinitely present room or whatever is here, It’s a room for me right now. and it goes meta, That’s where psychedelics are leading me rather than tangential hallucinations nowadays, Psychedelics are just more of this than I would be experiencing on a daily basis but same insights, Just different approaches and magnitudes of consciousness but same dynamics apply at the highest level, I have one question though if you integrate all difference with you really be able to perceive anything as alien or truly different? Why’s it alien if I’m everything,including all of the strains of infinity? Isn’t everything going to obviously encompass all difference and divergence? alien being maximum divergence from what we consider normal, Isn’t that a part of the natural that it is the supernatural?
  12. im 18, Took acid at 15 and went from there, I have had about a total of 15 lsd trips and 7 shroom trips a couple salvia trips, It only has gotten better Im glad I found them when I did even though almost everybody I have told about that was in disapproval usually, I could have waited to but I didn't really see the point in it, It wouldn't have really been more powerful for me to wait till I was 21 I don't think, If your spiritually gifted and comfortable with existential collapse Id go for it but please for the love of god be careful with the 5-meo id recommend extensive tripping on the lower entheogens even though they are gonna be different, If you cannot navigate that for years you certainly shouldn't be playing with 5meo so start small and see if you can handle even that, If you don't freak yourself out try more. Id definitely recommend getting comfortable on lower levels or occasional high doses of like mushrooms or lsd( If those ones work for you, You may need 5-meo in the end of the day but Id definitely keep tripping if you feel comfortable and like its healthy for you, Just be wise about it ,don't make it something stupid that your only doing just for fun or just for a sensation, Its more than that this is more than philosophy and has an inflection point with real reality in a way that can be frightening for the unprepared
  13. Psilocybin is also very alien, Salvia too, I mean there are plenty of alien directions to go you just got to try the tools, I'm pretty sure you will not find it is mundane or ordinary if you take a clear look, Everything is supernatural with no opposite except lower orders of radicalness and alienness, Like people who tune out the more radical aspects of reality like God Love and Infinite Consciousness, But if you really care about this you will take a clear look regardless of what the conclusion will be, Don't just play the detached skeptic actually learn certain things like astral projection and moving into infinite consciousness, You may see the alien you might not it depends on your state of consciousness, If your omniscient or extremely intuitive you will find out before your infinite eternitys up or not whether aliens have ever been here, We would totally know it if we died into infinite consciousness and interconnectedness, Everything is always mental so all you have to do is just imagine just like you imagine people right now in a subconscious way, Imagine something else if you can, Imagine one bit of human biology just slightly off, The problem is that humans are not intelligent to totally recreate biology into something new altogether, Unless they have always had control of how they have been imagining reality then they have always been creating themselves as god in their own universe
  14. @Leo GuraThis is the hardest I have seen this forum beat on Leo and Leo has still only begun to comment on this, You guys probably don't know where he's coming from even though you think you do, That's why your calling him insane, Give him a chance to breathe jeez Loise, it will probably take months for him to even lay down the foundations of teaching whatever things (God knows what) that Leo is becoming conscious of right now. See his video on how not everything can be explained simply and why valuable things require development over time, That's important to know before judging an entire paradigm on a whim from a couple quotes you have heard about it
  15. @Danioover9000 That is unreal to me now that you pointed that out, Astute observation his behavior would warrant a diss track if it was another rapper acting like Kanye