Nemra

To say religious people got it right is too generous—they cannot understand that belief is not direct.

I think you have to love it deep down if it happens instantly, even if normally you get disgusted by it. I would not like it if someone treated me like an object (like an enraptured meal), but my god, if I interpreted it sexually, it would be impossible to resist. It is what it is.

@Leo Gura, also, your post also clarified why I don't place much value on being a businessman or a leader. It is because I don't value being ruthlessly practical that much for reasons I mentioned in the above post, which is not to say I won't try to be ruthless if I have to solve my situation. Though, I don't demonize if others are ruthlessly practical. The opposite, I often admire them if they genuinely help others. I try to be practical and solve my problems alone, which comes with lots of benefits, i.e., not being gaslighted by others, thinking for myself, being free from others BS, etc., but I will not mind or I will feel good to be led by someone that is honest, open-minded, and truthful beyond practicality, which I understand makes it difficult for me to have a sovereign mind. I'm in a pickle here. 😁

@Leo Gura, reading your blog post "Why Masculinity Values Truth More", I was thinking about why I would like my partner to value truth. I’m drawn to people who are equally or more practical than I am—not because I want to become lazy, but because I’ve always intensely felt a wide range of emotions, constantly, and I know what it’s like to be at a disadvantage when it comes to surviving socially and physically. Though I understand that I can also solve my problems if I put in the effort, I would still value people, in terms of attraction, who are truthful, practical, someone I can hold onto, someone who can challenge me, are provocative, can be 'above' me, are solution-oriented, and also do not totally look like a man—which makes my sexuality weird. Do you think that a man like that can ever succeed in finding a partner? Is it even appropriate?

I'm glad that I took a psychedelic before weed, which helped me compare the experiences of both. I don't understand why people consider weed a psychedelic. Yeah, you might have some non-ordinary experience, but you won't get incredibly conscious or have some transhuman experience, at least that's the case for me. To this day I'm much more moved by the psychedelic experience that I had than weed could ever give to me. Weed was making me less motivated not because I realized something but because I was just forgetting stuff.

I quit weed a month ago. I smoked it about 5 times. The first two tries were quite an extraordinary experience for me. However, I was eventually getting more paranoid of forgetting stuff. I was starting to think I was high even though I didn't smoke any. Although I don't mind mindfucks, I didn't like that I was forgetting lots of minor stuff, which can lessen the quality of my life. Also, it was not getting more mystical.

Stage blue women are not only feminine but also quite dogmatic and delusional about what femininity is.

The singularity point. 😂

Would you consider her a masculine or feminine deluded figure?

Share them. We're not your girlfriends. 😁

Oh, I thought it hurt like how you said to the woman because you told her some minor truth. To be honest, I would also feel hurt if someone did that just because they cannot understand that I would not use truth to belittle them, and also they generally cannot handle the truth, especially a minor truth.

Of course, for emotionally immature people it's like that.

WTF, seriously? 😒 If someone doesn't at least value truth for their own benefit or doesn't manage their survival, I wouldn't even consider being with them.

Sometimes I delude myself into thinking about what you say people think about it. Lol.