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An interesting thing I realized while tripping is that understanding gets very deep and immediate beyond the human state. It touches everything. Understanding is not a human thing.

@Leo Gura, I don't know why I haven't watched your trip reports. The way you describe your trip is very helpful in understanding mine. Or what makes a psychedelic an S-tier?

I'm not kidding, I still notice the white glow around objects. It's like the following image, but less intense and thick.

@Leo Gura, which psychedelics do you consider S-tier besides salvia?

Ok. It would take a few months to even prepare for a vacation. I wouldn't be able to try psychedelics other than N,N-DMT anyways. However, I will try it with harmala extract. I didn't understand that longer exposure to psychedelic experience changes everything.

Then, next time. I should take a much longer vacation next time. Maybe I wouldn't have been able to handle it this time. As you say, it's advanced. I have been warned about doing it.

The following are my tests of the chemicals. 5-MeO-DMT: N,N-DPT: N,N-DPT and Cannabis: Before combining with N,N-DPT, I tried a cannabis gummy. Though, I ate the second half of the gummy about an hour later. I was really high from it. The visuals were beautiful. However, I was tired and I slept through it. 4-HO-MET: 5-MeO-MiPT was replaced with 4-HO-MET. Though, I thought I would get N,N-MET from the vendor. I didn't test 5-MeO-/DiPT/DALT because they might have built tolerance to test the other ones. I could have tested one of them at the last day; however, I didn't know about their effects that much. 4-HO-MiPT was in 20 mg pellet form. At the last day, because of the previous trip, I thought it would be too much for me. Salvia is said to be too weird, and I thought that it wasn't worth the risk of getting caught smoking in the hotel. LSD is said to last 12 hours. I couldn't do that in the last day because of the previous trip. I was given a sample of 10 mg of O-PCE, but I just wasn't confident enough to try a dissociative after the trips got more serious.

I'm sure people in Congo have different facades. You might be happy to see different stuff, but that's different to actually living there, and you eventually will get bored of their facades. I think you're just bored of seeing familiar stuff.

I think the headspace was leveled up when I took THC with N,N-DPT. I still notice some effects from that combination of chemicals.

@Breathe, I started with about 15 mg. I don't feel quite confident about the first measurement.

I wasn't expecting the whole thing from a tiny dose. I just wanted to at least try one of the remaining ones and have a light experience. But I'm glad it happened. A nice way to end my testing.

The trip was so healing. Everything is created by love. I can't describe it. It showed me that I panicked on my last trip because I lacked love. It showed me that I don't love myself enough, but I'm being loved anyways! In the beginning of the trip, it was intense in terms of understanding my feelings. Literally, it was being untangled. It gave me space to express my feelings from childhood. It was also a bit sexual. I noticed that I'm still afraid to be feminine, even though I prefer it. I'm harsh on myself and don't want to face my feelings often. You cannot not cry when you understand that God is trying to make itself aware of love by loving.

I orally consumed about 10 mg of 4-HO-MET.

LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! I have not known what LOVE is. This much LOVE is insane. There has always been LOVE. I was missing this my whole life. Self-generating LOVE.

@Butters is telling that he is located specifically behind the eyes. He is referring to a specific location in the visual field. "Behind the eyes" would not point to some specific location if the whole visual field is taken into account, but it would point to everything that appears, which in that case "eyes" just means visual field.