@Martin123 Sounds like a killer niche opportunity for a budding young counselor.
The quality of therapists and counselors is so low, you should be able to wipe the floor with them if you just apply yourself.

Imagine AI app 
Magic Studio
Creative Fabrica 
Night Cafe AI 
Imagen 3 
Starry AI
Gencraft 
I rotate them. 

I would take a good chunk of time off from school and work, go into solitude and reflect on my top values and brainstorm a new vision for my life.
This is about finding yourself.

- read books, took notes, consumed other creators content, took baby steps
- went to a 10 day naturopathy healing center, got rid of withdrawls & depression
- enrolled in local commerce college just to have a degree
- started supporting my father in our traditional family business.. I was super-lucky to have this time of exploration without having to worrying about career/finances
- joined other skill based classes in local which made me social, functional and intellectual again
- I discovered my passion for philosophy & psychology.. even enrolled in distance learning psychology degree (didn't continue it after 2nd year as I got way better knowledge through YT and other self-study means)
- got to know about god/awakening/spirituality which blew my mind again.. but this time out of curiosity rather than suffering
- I din't care about anything else other than this
- It was like I contemplated on this for most of my waking time..kind of like Self-Enquiring 4 hours daily for years
- Did Vipassana, Inner engineering and other Yoga programs by Sadhguru, tried mushrooms and ayahuasca
- and finally understood what God, Leo, other teachers were trying to communicate with me
- It's that - 'It is what I say it is' or 'I am what I say I am' or rather 'what I choose I am'
- Not what God says, but what I say
- And that was my moment of realization 
From Monk-mode to Work-mode 

- Then what? A field of infinite possibilities opened up for me
- I immediately moved out (my parents tried their best emotional blackmail to stop me lol), took a content writing job as writing was a skill I trained to a degree (my cover letter was so good, they didn't even bother asking about my credentials)
- Gained experience, confidence and marketing knowledge
- Shifted back to my hometown, this time out of genuine desire to support my father and grow our family business.
- tried bunch of different stuff too like stock trading, teaching, writing..did Life Purpose course again
- Have been having best relationship with parents since then.. not because I listened to them and came back to join our edible-oil trading biz (that I left again as my father found my ideas way too radical) but because I've got the backbone of self-respect and genuine love for my parents. Their manipulations seem like child's naughtiness to me. And I can clearly see their love for me in certain actions. We love spending time with each other. but coming back to our work discussion,
- only a few months back finally finalizing to make my career in copywriting and marketing
- did a few online courses and have been pursuing freelancing since then
- I can't put into words the level of clarity that I have now. My mind works like a flowing river when I intend and focus it like that.


Now why did I share my history in such detail and how does it relate to your situation? how you might benefit from this?

I will like to mention a few key points that will help you sort things up:

1. Getting into a state of happiness first, before trying to figure it all out

Note that it took me far too much time to figure it all out. Heck, many people still haven't figured it out. 

See what you're saying is that - I will only be happy when I have certainty about my future.

And we are saying that - 
don't worry about it so much as of now, take a chill pill do what needs to be done like confronting your parents and let them know that you don't want to continue engineering or whatever your take is have patience, do the right things - like getting any basic job that pays the bills, explore your interests, etc etc.. hey and even leo's new course is also coming, aren't you excited for it?? If I were at your place I would postpone dying until then 😄 (hey sorry didnt mean to joke about it..i could never know your pain and I wish you fast healing) once you have the right state of mind, right careers will appear in front of you like a shining diamond. You wouldn't be able to miss them even if you try. You will just know that this is the thing for me and I will achieve the highest possible success in this.


2. Making your parents proud vs making yourself proud
Please don't even think of taking your life away (now don't say it is automatic.. we do have the ability to direct our thoughts.. please steer your car to make a U turn) I can't even imagine the suffering my parents would go through if I ever did suicide. It kills me to imagine that Dude, you need to first experience what being a parent is like. Only then you will be able to appreciate their love for you. Forget dying, you will wish you could serve them for all your life I am getting a taste of this just by becoming a dog-parent. Being a parent is like nurturing an extension of yourself So what if they weren't able to nurture you the way you wanted? They did the best they could They didn't have the level of information distribution as we have in this age. But that doesn't mean they should be punished for being ignorant. Yes you don't want to punish them, but they will surely experience it as punishment One good idea I will like to share with you that I have as my aim is - how about forgiving them for whatever shit, and becoming parent to your parents? I will make myself proud when I am able to fully do that. In doing that, I don't care if they get ashamed of me.. (honestly I do care, but not more than making myself proud)


3. Unlocking your genius
 
I am cent percent sure that there is a talent within you that is waiting to be honed, waiting to be appreciated I am not saying this to cheer you up or anything, I am saying this with having a deep understanding of how life operates The fact that you were considering taking your life says that you have so much repressed energy that is seeking expression Also the fact of changing careers shows you are wise as Leo mentioned. You like to think far ahead and can't pursue something which you don't see blossoming into something great.. This is good however don't discount the process by which this discovery/unlocking of genius happens. For you to find your niche/field of expertise or whatever you want to call it, it is necessary for you to go through this frustrating phase of dissatisfaction with current career choice.. You see, there's a flow here.. from discontentment to contentment.. So according to me, this current event is a call for you to seek your calling As Leo said in his videos, make finding your life purpose, your life purpose!

You would still be in this situation because you are in the wrong line of work.
All you have to do is let go of your pigheaded ideas about what your line of work should be.
You are simply lacking openmindedness. An amazing career could be right around the corner for you, but your mind is so closed and stubborn that you will not even look at it.
This is why I teach radical openmindedness. And you have still not learned that lesson. You have gotten so stuck inside your own mind that you bought a rope to kill yourself. That's what closedmindedness leads to. And the solution is to simply open your mind to new perspectives.

But it doesn't matter whether I could pass or not. There are many things I cannot do and should not do. You're not getting the key lesson here. The lesson is: life is all about finding your niche, fitted to your strengths. It doesn't matter what your strengths are.
You are playing to your weaknesses. It's been obvious to me for over a year now that engineering is not your strength. The solution is simply to stop doing it! That's it. Stop doing the things you will never be great at. But you keep insisting on doing math and torturing yourself.
Go do what you are good at and enjoy. It's that simple. You need to look outside academia. Academia is not for you.
Quit academia and start a real life. That's your answer. You instantly feel better.

The reality is that if you want to become financially successful, you'll have to set aside your ideals for a while and be ruthlessly pragmatic. There's no way around learning the fundamentals of business - like sales, marketing, basic economics, etc. - if you want to get your venture off the ground.
Once you've reached a certain threshold of basic business aptitude - meaning you're earning enough to survive by providing some kind of service or product to customers - you can start developing your business in accordance with your higher values and "purpose." This will be a slow and steady process, though. If you try to get too fancy too fast, you'll just undermine your ability to profit from whatever you're doing.
In my case, this involved dropping out of college to work in a call center and grinding away 60-hour weeks to develop myself into a highly skilled salesman. Now, I comfortably make five figures a month and can work from my phone anywhere in the world, which opens up a lot of possibilities for "individuation" again.
I'm basically trying to express Whitehead's idea that “[one] advances by extending the number of important operations which [one] can perform without thinking of them.” In other words, you advance in business by mastering all the fundamentals at each "level," working yourself up toward something that is increasingly aligned with your highest values - or becoming more "individuated," so to speak.
Really, this is just basic evolutionary dynamics, which you probably intuitively understand. But when it comes to one's own life, things are naturally very murky and obscured by all sorts of emotional and psychological turmoil.

@Husseinisdoingfine You are taking university way too seriously. It's really not important as you tell yourself it is.
All this situation means is that you are not cut out for that kind of high academic work. That's okay. The problem here is that you keep trying to succeed in a field that you are not naturally well-suited for. You need to sit down, accept that, and find a new field that isn't heavy on math and hard science. That's okay. There's nothing wrong with that. You will be much happier once you switch careers. You are too attached to that one career field.
Do not kill yourself over this issue.
I switched my major from out of enginnering after years of study because I realized engineering was a bad fit for my personality. Imagine if I killed myself instead. That would be silly.
Throw away your rope right now.
You will never need it. Just sit down and accept the pain that engineering is now right for you. There's no shame in that. There are much better fields than engineering.
Throw away your rope.
Switching to a career that suits you better does not make you a loser, it makes you wise.
Happiness awaits you once you just accept that you don't need any of this engineering stuff or academics to be happy and successful. Academia is an illusion. Certainly not worth killing yourself over.

You dont want her to trust you,you want her to not trust you,to give her free will to see that you are not judgmental that you are not looking to get into her pants and you good to go.

I had zero skill and I'm not built different. It's just massive experience.
Getting failed approaches means nothing after a while. 10 failed approaches is a typical night in pickup.
You just need way more approaches.
It can feel like that. Warm up is important. But you also build up skill which doesn't go away.
It takes thousands of approaches to get good.
Your first 1000 approaches will suck. It's no problem. You will get a tiny bit better from each approach.
You just need way more approaches and to trust the process. You are guaranteed to get better if you do 2000 approaches.

@1x0 That's right, there is a trade-off between being a technician versus being a big picture thinker.
Project leads do very little actual coding. So you have to decide what you want out of life: Do you love coding so much that you want to be a master hands-on coder, or do you love other things more, like management, big picture thinking, business strategy, etc? In that case, you must surrender your desire for hands-on coding.
It's sort of the difference between being a bricklayer and an architect. If you love to lay bricks you shouldn't become an architect.
There is no right or wrong answer. It is perfectly acceptable to just enjoy the art and science of coding or bricklaying. It's not always better to be a project lead. You can just be a master coder. Then again, coding can be quite dehumanizing and a waste of life. Do you really want to be sitting behind a computer screen for 12 hours per day? Is there something more fun and valuable that you could be doing? Does the world really need another code monkey? Or could your creative talents be put to better use?
But it's not just about getting more money for your time. You must enjoy the thing you're doing. So if coding is what you genuinely most enjoy, then do that. The trick is, there are probably other things you enjoy more but haven't discovered yet. So then your task would be to discover that.
Personally I don't enjoy management so I avoid positions where I have to manage lots of people. I would rather be working independently, doing my art. But that's me. Some people love to work in groups and manage others. It all depends on your personality type.

Just look at his videos and teachings. He's still busy chasing girls.
He's still basically teaching guys how to get laid.
He's dead-set against them.
Of course because they would change him. Owen has a pretty massive ego. It won't go down without a fight.

I don't see that his content has really changed, he's just rebranded it to avoid mainstream backlash.
He's still fundamentally stuck on chasing girls. He can't seem to get that out of his system. I think that to truly evolve he would have to give up chasing girls. That seems like his biggest attachment, so he's in a tough spot. How do you surrender the very thing which made you who you are? What would Owen even do with himself if he wasn't chasing girls? He's not the kind of guy who can sit around all day peacefully under a tree.
I'm not denying that there are spiritual aspects to his work, but he's been talking about spirituality for over 10 years. So that's not new. It's spiritual, but not that deep.

Seems like he's stressed out, over-worked, and let himself go a bit.
He's like a hamster in a wheel, running hard but staying in the same place.

My guess is that he just loves food a lot. Little addictions can be really hard to break. Addictions that are not necessarily directly destroying your life, but still have a negative impact on you in the long run. Addictions like food, cigarettes and porn

I don't understand why Owen Cook is still fat. 
He's filthy rich, "has his own gym", doesn't drink, eats organic food & "hasn't got sick since 2012".
Yet he's somehow fat still wtf ? 
Tbf I think it suits him more than skinny some reason, makes him more amusing but still I don't get it, he's not an Endomorph either I don't think.  
* Also why do so many of these self help guys not workout & get muscular either? Such a basic easy habit but so many don't do it (although it wouldn't suit Owen).

Depends on what you want to get out of it. With X, same as other platforms, consistency is a key. Daily tweeting, ideally about trending topics related to your business os rewarded more than irregular tweets. If you can post multiple times a day, even better 
Aim for short and consistent catchy titles, not long elaborate articles, that's more for LinkedIn. 
Reposting and resharing other people's tweets is what the algorithms reward as well. It's how you start growing network by having your post re shared by bigger accounts... obviously don't expect Elon Musk or Jeff Bezos to reshare so scale accordingly and find accounts that are slightly bigger but not massive. 
X doesn't like when you pull people away from the platform so it's all about engagement with a particular statement rather than having people, for example, click a link and download something or book a call. You're free to have that in your bio but it should not be the aim. X wants to maximise user's time on the platform so if you work against that rule, your posts won't be seen 
I think the best way to get started is to observe accounts you aspire towards, who do what you do but are larger.
Also spend some time practicing posting for Twitter. Maybe take an interesting article and practice writing about it in 60-100 characters focusing on engagement. Gpt can be pretty good for that to help you practice and give feedback but make sure to pay for premium.
Also, maybe this is more long term but don't forget about voice & tone consistency. It's not just about saying something but about how you say it and how consistent you are saying it this way. It's part of your branding - voice & tone guidelines. Throw it into GPT as well and he'll tell you more about it. It is what builds credibility with your audience and what makes your brand recognisable and trustworthy, people like being able to predict your behaviour in a way. Think of successful businesses, podcasters, they all do this in some way and when they don't, you're like "wait, that's weird, why do you say it like that" 
Good luck

I watched an interview of a guy that was shipwrecked for almost a full year at sea the other day. He & his family survived by drinking turtle blood & eating raw birds.
Imagine the seriousness that comes when your survival is at stakes like that. There is absolutely zero space for pettiness in this kind of situation. Now realize that your purpose literally is your survival. Imagine yourself being shipwrecked into your purpose. The only thing you can afford in this situation is to put all of your effort on it. If you slack off & waste your time online or engaged in petty bs you will be swept away. You won’t starve but your passion & love for life is going to be sucked out of you. You’ve got no other choice but to take the hardship head on. And make no mistake, it WILL be hard.
Now imagine the relief & exaltation that comes from any kind of progress you make. Imagine catching your first meal in 8 days. Imagine how satisfying that raw bird would be. Imagine how grateful you would be for rainfall & any kind of dirty water bottle floating by to help you collect it. Eventually you might even land on a deserted island. You are not out of it yet but now you have fire & soon enough, shelter. Imagine the total absorption your psyche would be in with the situation. Every single opportunity is embraced. Every single step you take, you thank God for. Every day you wake up in the morning is a victory.
I started keeping a logbook of my purpose. Every day I write what happened, what could be improved upon, what the next step is & how I feel about all of it. I imagine myself being alone on a tiny sailboat & the only way I will make it that day is through my own strength, courage & determination. My purpose is as serious to me as being shipwrecked in the middle of the pacific & I love the thrill of it. I love the adventure of it. I love who I have become to live & thrive in the chaos of it. My purpose is a shipwreck.
 
 

No but I am glad I did not pick this life path. Being in left brain autism mode for 8 hours a day is just hell and I think unironically makes you less human.

Almost anyone else in my position would monetize Actualized.org by a factor of 5x-10x more.
I have literally left millions in profits on the floor.
I've given that up simply to pursue my personal spiritual development and topics I like to talk about.
I'm rich relative to an average dude. But I'm much less rich than I would be if I cared about profits instead of consciousness.
The money makes me uncorruptable by any corporate forces.

I am fortunate I've never been addicted to success.  I had my head in the philosophy books too much for that.  So I had the opposite problem, kind of an eschewing of success, a pooh-poohing of success.  And that caused a lot of suffering in my life and for my business.  I think there's a balance.  Do your business, but try to keep it as green as possible.  Chasing success was something I was never able to do, although there were moments in my life where I really wanted to.  Those all backfired on me.  Ego ultimately backfires.  Business isn't inherently bad though, as long as you keep your priorities straight and your head screwed on tight.  Business is a way of sharing your gifts with the world.  I have a little business myself which could use a couple heaps of love and care.  We forget that our businesses are like organisms, like systems, which need the right kinds of care to survive, let alone flourish.

No, it's the opposite. It's an escape from spiritual practice.
The mind is extremely crafty. It's sole job is to keep you a hamster in a wheel.
It may appear arrogant, but I'm just explaining a deep dynamic of how the egoic mind works. It's nothing personal.
A proper move in relation to living life and being a good human being. This is not a subjective thing. If he did what I'm saying, he himself would come back in 10 years and tell you, "OMG!!!!! I was so wrong that way I used to live. My life has been saved."
It's sorta like you find a mental patient hitting his head against the wall and you tell him, "Hey, it would be better if you stopped doing that." And he responds, "What?!! How dare you tell me what will and won't make me happy! Do you really claim to know what will make me most happy in his life? You're so arrogant!"
With a bit of awareness, it's not a giant leap to realize that hitting one's head against the wall cannot lead to happiness, no matter how well its done. This is not a matter of personal style or values. It's just a feature of being human. Humans don't like getting their heads beat in.
Success has zero to do with happiness. Success is about ego-perpetuation. Success is specifically designed to NEVER make you happy. Because that's counter to what is necessary for the ego's survival. The ego wants you in constant action without fulfillment. Because fulfillment means the end of action under that paradigm.
Look behind all the sophistication, and you'll see that Elon Musk is just a hamster in a wheel chasing an imaginary piece of cheese. A chimp in outer space is still a chimp.
I don't say that to be mean to Musk. He's a decent guy trying to do the best he can. And he's certainly better than 90% of businessmen out there. But I say it because there's a deep lesson here that you guys are still failing to grasp: the ego utterly dominates all your motivations and desires. So much so that you're having a hard time seeing it. It has corrupted you through and through.
This has nothing to do with me chasing enlightenment. Or trying to preach enlightenment at people. I just understand success. It's EXTREMELY addictive. There's really very little difference between a heroin addict and a businessman, other than how our culture frames it. Except businessmen are actually 1000x more dangerous and harmful to society than heroin addicts.
Start to mindfully observe how every day you're being a hamster in a wheel. You will be SHOCKED at what you find. Don't be surprised if a few days of such careful observation sends you into a depression. That's about appropriate.
Success is like food. Some degree of it is necessary for survival. But you can eat consciously, or your can eat unconsciously the way 99% of people do.

@Edvard You cannot escape the consciousness problem. Going to Mars will not solve anything. All your consciousness problems will come with you. If humanity cannot make on this planet, it certainly won't make it on Mars.
I'm not saying he has to become an enlightenment teacher. But he would benefit from becoming enlightened himself. That would give him a proper sense of priorities and recontextualize all his technological striving. It would also make him happy.
What is the point of changing the whole world if you cannot be happy? Sacrificing one's own happiness is NOT a solution. It's ignorance. If even a billionaire cannot be happy and pursue consciousness, what hope does that give the rest of the world? It says we're all screwed. Given his power, he could have a massive impact on the world's collective consciousness if he first became conscious himself.
All this just goes to show the depth of the consciousness problem. It's VERY deep.

A) You cannot accept something you're not conscious of. His "sacrifice" is out of ignorance.
B) He would be able to help humanity more if he first made himself consciousness of what consciousness is.
C) What humanity needs most is not more technology, but consciousness! We have enough technology to all live happily forever. What we lack is the consciousness necessary to do so. Technology without consciousness is the greatest existential threat to humanity. So he may very well end up killing us all. That's what happens when you put the cart before the horse.
I don't want to sound like I'm criticizing him or that he's a bad guy. He's not a bad guy. He's doing the best he knows. He's just not conscious of the bigger picture and how he's robbing himself of joy.
Jesus wasn't kidding when he said: "It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God." That's the case here. When you have 15 billion dollars, it's extremely hard to give up that kind of power. You become its slave.

(Here's all of Leo's recordings from the blog.  I'll update as more come up.  Enjoy !!)
 
Actualized.org Blog Videos:
     Society & Politics
[] Inside The Mind Of Trump
[] My Political Awakening
[] Rethinking Human History
[] My Critique Of Zizek's Critique Of Buddhism
[] The Big Picture Of Global Politics
[] Why The Media Is Corrupt
[] Why Bernie Sanders Lost
[] Deconstructing Property Rights
[] Conscious Capitalism BS
[] Life Lessons From "Life Below Zero"
 
     Epistemology
[] Why Are My Videos So Long?
[] Metaphysics vs Epistemology
[] Understanding Better Than Academics
[] Changing Perspectives Destroys Reality
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric - Part 2
[] Skepticism & Nonduality
[] How To Test For Self-Bias
[] Learning From Partially False Perspectives
[] Sherlock Holmes' Brain
[] Why Debates Don't Work
     
     Enlightenment
[] Absolute Infinity Demo
[] Explaining God For Dummies
[] Total Omniscience Awakening
[] Infinite Love Awakening
[] Ego-Collapse Awakening
[] Tapping Into Collective Consciousness
[] Miracle Awakening
[] Sense Organs Are Imaginary
[] DPT: The Other God Molecule
[] What It's Like To Smoke Salvia Divinorum
 
     Life Purpose
[] Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work
[] How I Started My First Business
[] Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness
[] Guerilla Business Advice
 
     Health
[] Don't Half-Ass Yoga
[] Sitting Posture For Yoga & Meditation
 
     Leo’s Health & Life
[] Do I Doubt Myself?
[] My Health Situation
[] Back From 2 Month Break, Updates 
[] 14 Day Water Fast
[] Water Fast Ends, Carnivore Diet Begins
[] Things I’ve Been Wrong About
[] Fat Leo (I had to add this because it’s adorable)
 
     Retreats
[] Solo Retreat Videos & Insights
[] Hawaii Solo Retreat Feb 2018 Videos
[] Mindfucked In Hawaii
[] Hawaii Retreat Intro
[] Hawaii Late Night Insights
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 1
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 2
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 3