Billy Shears

I'm not afraid of dying but rather of being alive and feeling dead. It may sound strange, but I try to live healthy to be happy and to be mentally and physically comfortable as long as I live and not just to stay alive longer. When I die, I die, but I want to feel comfortable during the time I have. Edit: Maybe I just fool myself and will change my mind when I'm about to face death...

Not to plan anything anymore, just go with the flow.

“If you knew the magnificence of the three, six and nine, you would have a key to the universe.” – Nikola Tesla

I fear we don't have a whole lot. Maybe sometimes you are free to do what you want, within limits. I go through a period of time feeling free, then a synchronicity pops up, and I am startled into thinking my life is governed by fate.

@VeganAwake I am he as you are he as you are me And we are all together

@Bazooka Jesus There's definitely a relation between mental illness and spirituality. My view is that a person can get schizophrenic if the ego can't handle a spiritual experience like an ego death for example. In the beginning it can be a blissful feeling but eventually the ego might come back stronger but deluded because it suggests that it is Jesus, the messiah, etc. The Western culture has no idea what mental illness really means so those people are treated badly and are told that they are crazy although they have tapped into a higher state of consciousness which they just weren't ready to integrate.

Wouldn't that decision also be based on another thought which we can't control?

I tried CBD and it didn't work for me unfortunately.

Well said, thank you. In general, where has the open mindedness gone? That applies to the whole forum, regardless of which perspective is true or not. It seems that one special opinion on reality (non duality) is preached and every other opinion is not really welcome or considered. Besides I'm not claiming to know the TRUTH, but it's a pity and I'm probably not the only one who thinks so.

I've tried some nootropics and know only a little bit about this topic, but dude... That's a huge amount, way too much in my opinion. Don't make yourself dependent on it.

@arlin Exactly, thanks for saying that. It's better to think for yourself and important to be open minded instead of getting brainwashed and believing this teaching and taking it for granted complelety. In the end you are the only one who creates your reality. Believe whatever you want and it becomes YOUR TRUTH if you are totally convinced of it. Another, in turn, can live in a very different reality, so you should not brand that person directly. You recognize these people who claim to have THE TRUTH directly because they will always immediately contradict you and never consider other views.

The ego is part of your being, appreciate it and see it for what it is. Only a spiritual ego wants to kill the ego which eventually leads to more suffering.

I would recommend you to watch this guy's channel about synchronicity. Really interesting.

Oh yeah, definitely. Whenever I give full control to the universe, I experience rows of synchronicities. When I'm searching for them, most of the times I don't experience them. Just go with the flow and surrender the egoic need to control things.

So it's almost a month ago since I started taking 3 capsules of ashwagandha a day and I must say that I feel slightly better mentally and in general more positive. My monkey mind is still annoying but there are definitely more moments when I just observe the chattering without identifying with it and after a while it fades away. I don't know if this change is due to ashwagandha, I will continue to do so for three more days and then take a break for two weeks as I travel to Nepal. I'm looking forward to the coming weeks!