allislove

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  1. Posted

    Any relationship in life is not accidental. Ultimately, to have a good relationship, you just need to be aware what you want from the connection, what the other party wants. If you both have a wanting to be together, just be, celebrate the divine creation of life. While starting relationship it's important to have a proper intention. The proper intention should come not from the place of lack but from the place of abundance. If you think you need that person to complete you, that's the wrong intention, then, you are not ready for relationship. First, teach yourself to love yourself, to feel complete no matter what. Then, from the place of abundance, start a relationship. Everything is working out for you.

  4. Posted

    I am grateful for my body.
    I am grateful for my life.
    I am grateful for cup of coffee in the morning.
    I am grateful for playing with kid.
    I am grateful for talking to wife.
    I am grateful for drinking water.
    I am grateful for breathing.
    I am grateful for psychedelics. 
    I am grateful for dream board.
    I am grateful for my job.
    I am grateful for gym near to job.
    I am grateful for my relatives.
    I am grateful for having this age.
    I am grateful for living in this era.
    I am grateful for having food.
    I am grateful for having shower.
    I am grateful for listening music.
    I am grateful for every experience which I have in my memory.
    I am grateful for this experience.
    I am grateful for EVERYTHING.
    I love You.

  7. Posted

    Thanks for sharing. 


    > “unconditional love”, some kind of a “orgasmic feeling” in the whole body.

    I can relate to this. That was mind-blowing, I was so grateful when ego "returned back". Like: I am still alive, wooohooo.

    > I looked at my girlfriend an I saw myself in here.

    I had similar experience on my first acid. I was peeing into toilet and it felt like I am peeing into myself, like toilet just sucks from my body. Like: what a fuck, it's all me.

    > This time I totally felt the meaningless of everything,

    On my second or third acid I had a glimpse of Oneness for a few minutes but with that came Freedom. Like: I am one here, so I can do whatever fuck I want, nobody cares, because it's all me.


    Can it be you are going too fast? What about making longer breaks between psychedelic sessions? Do what feels good for you.

    "There is nothing to fear but fear itself." If you feel bad, try to deep breath, ground yourself in the current moment, zoom out, observe your thoughts, feel your feelings, relax. :x

  11. Posted · Edited by dimitri

    8 hours ago, Jahmaine said:

    Triality would be a three way version of duality, so for arguments sake, instead of us seeing a duality like black and white, a triality would be something like black white and grey.

    What if you look into it from a different angle...
    Ultimate duality for white is not black.
    Ultimate duality for white is "not white". For example "not white" is green, blue, apple, breath, forum and anything else but not "white". 
    Do you see how duality contains triality and any other magnitude of division?

  12. Posted

    Captured effortlessly
    That's the way it was
    Happened so naturally
    I did not know it was Love

    The next thing I felt was You
    Holding me close
    What was I gonna do
    I let myself go

    You filled my heart with a kiss
    You gave me freedom
    You knew I could not resist
    I needed someone

    Ain't nobody
    Loves me better
    Makes me happy
    Makes me feel this way
    Ain't nobody
    Loves me better than You

  13. Posted

    Yesterday I have spent 2 hours talking to @Nahm via skype.
    It felt like 1 minute for me, it felt like I was talking to my old friend who feels me completely, who reads my mind if you will and says exactly what I should to hear. Thanks for explaining so carefully, with examples to test the concept in my direct experience, thank you for amazing analogies, that was really fun. Thank you for giving me a simple tool to concur anger if any. Thank you for clarifying quite a few things related to dream board. Love you, my friend. And looking forward to the next session in the future. Grateful for the experience. ?❤ 

  15. Posted

    To be a smart ass: seems like you think that something (for example yoga or meditation) will make you happy. That's a wrong attitude. Nothing can make you happy except you. Notice the beauty of the current moment. Let go of need to do anything. Just enjoy the perfection. Then, start doing yoga, meditation, running or whatever just because you love doing it. From the place of abundance, from the place of love, not from the place of lack, not from the place of fear. Love you, my friend.

    Thanks for mentioning ashtanga yoga, there is a lot of it in city I live. I will keep it in mind, maybe, I will check out it in the future.

    You're right about meditation retreat. I've in Vipassana retreat, I also was doing 2 days micro-retreat at home. I see the benefit from doing it.

    I would do 5meo and kriya yoga as much as possible if the spiritual path would be the most focus of my life. Now, I am happy in my own balance.

    This forum is super valuable resource to me. I stopped asking deep questions, since any deep question leads to answer like: you have to have a mystical experience, direct experience, think why you are doing it to yourself, you are God. And that's a good pointers! I love them. Just focusing on my direct experience now.

     

  18. Posted

    Love, Now

    Shift focus. Don't try to catch love on yourself. Love is uncatchable. Love just is.
    If you try to get love on yourself from so called outside world you will fail, that's the trap.
    Wish to feel love rather than to be loved. That's huge, really.
    Don't wish somebody to love you, wish to feel love. Because you are you, you are Love.
    Don't compare yourself to others, you don't know what experiences other have.
    Focus on your feelings, on feeling love. Doesn't matter what the object of love is, since everything is love. 
    Wish happiness and love to everyone, actually, feel it. Feel how everything is perfect. There is no other way, it is just perfect, it just is. 
    Surrender. Relax. Love.

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  20. Posted

    TIL: to see all messages from people I follow:
    https://www.actualized.org/forum/discover/unread/?&stream_include_comments=1&stream_read=all&stream_follow=followed&stream_followed_types[members]=1

    I was thinking what are my 3 favorite books read in 2019.

    I would say: 
    1. Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue, Book 1
    2. Mistakes Were Made (But Not by Me)
    3. Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender
    Feel free to share your favorite books. :)

  24. Posted · Edited by dimitri


    Sunny day, I am re-listening this video again and again. So many insights come while listening. And then I read amazing @Nahm's comment:

     

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     Get a huge dream board going, and imagine onto it, let resistant thoughts go by choosing a better feeling thought, and imagine everything that you love, and watch the universe play with you. If you seem to notice it isn’t, imagine it is. You’re not really moving, all experience is coming to you - through you. Let it. 

    I also had such realization, that I am not really moving, everything comes and goes, but not me.
    I am not just a content. I am a structure, the background of everything. Of course, on ultimate level structure and content are the same but enough of non-dual bear for now.

    Grateful for life. Love You.

  25. Posted

    I also want to express my opinion :D 

    I haven't drink coffee for 6 months or more, but then in the super positive day I wanted to drink coffee. I was so grateful for my life, like, what else I can do except just to drink coffee in the best restaurant in town? Nowadays, I drink few cups per day in the morning, all is good. I probably will drop it again after some time, will see. I see disadvantages and advantages of doing it.

    It seems you are trying to run from underlying problem by drinking coffee. Try to relax, breath, maybe insight will come what the problem it is.
    I was doing the same with porn for example, or with computer addiction in the past.

    Have you tried micro-dosing? In such days like yours, use a micro-dose of shrooms or lsd, thank me later. :D 

    Or just meditate, go walk in nature, make good for you, and there is nothing bad with drinking one cup of coffee.

    Good luck.