Meditationdude

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  1. @Bill W That IS strange 🧐
  2. @Spiral Wizard it’s personal preference. If you’re less advanced I would keep your eyes shut vs more advanced people who won’t get pulled away by visual stimuli.
  3. @RIP Such a newbie, arrogant and ego blind.
  4. @AwakenedSoul444 just be yourself and don’t try. Authenticity is how you attract people.
  5. @brugluiz Cool good luck w all that discipline you guys have.
  6. @brugluiz Name one
  7. @ADD I meditate daily, no less then 30 minutes up to 2 hours. 10ish shroom trips, one 30 day solo travel retreat. I’ve missed maybe 3 days of meditation in the last 4 years.
  8. @ADD gradual - it really started being noticeable 3 years into serious meditation. I guess one way to describe what I’m experiencing is an overwhelming awareness of ego at all times and I can’t turn it off. Life just seems humorous.
  9. 2019 has been one of the most emotionally challenging years of my life (I’m 33). The thing is though is I’m totally fine. 5 years ago (before I started self actualizing and waking up) I would have been crippled anxious and depressed but I’m emotionally just fine, very happy actually. My point is, is sometimes I feel like I turned into a psychopath. I know this isn’t true because I’m very empathetic and kind and caring about others but things just don’t affect me the same way they used to. I know this is a good thing but I can’t help but wonder if my girlfriend, friends and family think I’m some emotionally handicapped person who doesn’t react to things they way most people do. It’s like I’m too understanding and open that life flows without resistance and I can filter out ego on the fly with no effort. I realize this isn’t a question, I’m just wondering if people can resonate with me here?
  10. @Butters The reason you’re crying is because you’re coming down off of drugs. It used to happen to me all the time. I’d go on a bender and then for 2-3 weeks after I’d be an emotional mess. Then my brain chemistry goes back to normal and I’m fine again. Do yourself a favor and stop messing with drugs because it’s fucking with you more than you know. It’s not going to be possible to grow with actualized work if you’re doing stimulants (cocaine or adderal) and depressing drugs like alcohol. In fact it will make things worse because once you get some awareness with say meditation work, all your problems will be clearly right in front of you but you won’t be able to do anything about them. It’s a lot easier to fuck up your life when you’re unconscious. Consciously fucking up is much harder.
  11. @Preety_India well that’s a separate problem.
  12. @Hypnofrik how about you and your team experiment with them yourselves? 🤯
  13. @Preety_India This is actually a good thing, who told you otherwise? Many forum threads here talk about the above and how this is a measure of success in meditation, not failure.
  14. @Justincredible76 try not smoking concentrate, it’s too strong and messes with your brain chemistry. Just vape regular trees and see how that goes maybe. concentrates make me crash and feel depressed and anxious but I get none of that with regular old vaped bud. Just make sure it’s very high quality. Sativa or Indica doesn’t really matter all that much. Quality matters more. It’s kinda of like alcohol, better quality doesn’t give you the same hangover. I would also recommend having a plan when you smoke. If you use for mediation or Contemplation great, but if you’re smoking and doing nothing that’s a problem. My routine is after breakfast and morning clients I vape, meditate and then workout. By the time I finish and take a shower I’m 100% sober again and energized for the rest of my day. If you’re still groggy you smoked too much and will stay lazy till you smoke again. This is the major problem with smokers, no discipline and they start relaying on weed to be motivated to do anything.
  15. My Dad had quintuple bypass heart surgery 6 weeks ago and 3 days ago his kidneys failed and they found cancer in his blood (unrelated to heart). He’s in lots of pain and it’s brutal seeing him go through this but something is weird... I’m doing fine. I spend quality time with him and give him my full awareness and although I’m sad I’m truly fine. A part of my feels like I’m an emotionless psychopath but I think I’m just very emotionally stable and mature. Or a psycho I dunno 🤪 All of this spiritual and personal development work has prepared me for this I guess. Am I just at such a deep level of understanding that I can handle tough life shit like this or what?