My visuals don't get that crazy. But yeah, if you smoke enough of it things get impossibly weird. I have seen geometric objects which simply cannot exist in 3D space. At that point the trip becomes traumatizing to the human psyche. It will scare the shit out of you.

It's hard to know what you mean by that.
But basically, YES. I've had awakenings like that. This ALL has the quality of no form whatsoever, because it is a superposition of all possible things. This would be the Godhead or pure Infinity. You are conscious of every possible thing that could exist at once. But you are not conscious of anything in particular. That ALL is a pure metaphysical abstraction. So don't expect it to have any form. It is not like seeing a billion TV screens at once. It is more like a singularity of pure awareness.

Yes, your first 500 approaches will be pretty cringe. Just get them out of the way as smoothly as you're able.
Your vibe is like 90% of your results. So the reason you're getting these bad reactions is because your vibe is off, your subcommunication is off, you're tense, you're afraid, you're insecure, you're not smiling, you don't feel good in your body, your verbals are awkward, you're not smooth, and you don't know how to lead the conversation well.
All of that improves with practice. Don't beat yourself up.
One of the best ways to improve is watch as much in-field hidden video as possible. Or get a wingman who can demo it for you. You need to see what a smooth approach looks like and sounds like.

I have literally paid my wingmen to record their approaches and give me the audio files. So I can study them.

AI is clearly gonna happen in the future. So there's no use worrying about it. Rather just make the best of your life.
How is worrying about AI gonna help you?
The nice thing about doing your passion is that it is its own reward. If you make great music, people will still consume it. Don't forget, most musicians make their money from touring and doing live shows. You could have said 50 years ago that all musicians would be out of business because CDs and radio was invented. However, musicians are making billions doing live performances. Why do people pay $200 for a ticket to see a musician when they could just stream the song for free on YouTube? There is more to life than just pure mechanical efficiency. Especially in the arts. People want a connection with their favorite artists.

Here are two ways to handle:
1) Sit her down and tell her this: If I am dating a girl, I am not okay with her flirting with other guys. So if a guy comes up to you and starts to flirt with you, you need to shut him down within the first 30 seconds. You tell him, "Sorry, but I have a boyfriend." If I see that you are flirting with guys beyond this, we are breaking up. This is what I require from my girlfriend. If you are not comfortable with this then no hard feelings but we are not going to work out. So take some time to think about it and let me know your decision. I will be okay with whatever decision you make. I have no desire to control you, but if you are want to be my girlfriend then I expect it to be exclusive.
2) Just stop caring. Surrender your desire to control her. Let her do whatever she wants and you work on being a stronger man who isn't needy but detached. This should make her even more attracted to you.

1) It's okay. Just keep faking it till you get some results. As you get results your neediness will slowly dissolve. In the meantime just try to act as chill as you can. Jerking off helps a lot here.
2) Yes, you can invite her straight to your house. The odds will be something like 50% max that she will come over. But you don't lose much by trying as long as you do it in a non-creepy way. A better way is to tell her to drive to your house and that you will drive her out for an ice cream. This is a much smarter way.

It's not different than any other date. You have a coffee, you stroll around, you do physical escalation, you invite her over to watch a movie, you start making out.
You should get a sense of what her plans are for the rest of her day if it's early in the day. You want to make sure her evening is free. Screening for these logistical detail is probably the biggest key. You have to manage the time well.

It is true that personal development can turn into a grind after a while. I have definitely fallen into that trap in the past. So you have to be careful not to just turn your life into an endless treadmill of more and more personal development goals. You gotta relax and have some fun too.
You can try not doing personal development for 6 months and see how you feel after that. That should renew your passion for it.
Life requires variety. You can't just do the same thing every day for 10 years.

@ValiantSalvatore Sounds like you need to be more patient and do multiple dates with her. It is unlikely she will let you back to her place like that. Unless she really likes you and is desperate.
If you want to do same-night lays you gotta develop a better logistical plan, with something to offer the girl. Otherwise you're just throwing dice and hoping for snake eyes. You need to design the situation so that she doesn't feel like a slut for coming home with you. Having a cool place with some activities is quite important for consistent results. Proximity of your place is also important. She's not likely to drive to another city to sleep with you.
But also, there's nothing wrong with doing multiple dates. The truth is that most quality girls will not sleep with you on the first date. So don't be too desperate for it.

I rank it as irrelevant. Looks are important to gain her approval to sleep with you, but once she has decided to sleep with you, from then on looks don't matter. Looks are not determining whether she sees you as boyfriend material because if she has already decided to sleep with you, she already finds your looks acceptable. And that's enough. Women are not looking to maximize a guy's looks. They just need him to clear a basic bar. Looks is more like a pass/fail test.
Girls are not saying to themselves: "Well, his looks were good enough for me to sleep with him, but not good enough to make him my boyfriend."

I never slept with her so there was no relationship. Yes, she broke it off because I was both needy and clueless about escalating.
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I think you reduce being high-value mostly to money. But that's actually not it. It's more about having a cool lifestyle and stimulating her emotionally. Women are driven entirely by emotions in this domain. So if she's leaving you, that only means one thing: she didn't feel strong enough emotions towards you. Clearly it's not your looks. If you are getting so many online dates then your looks are above average. So it must be your personality or lifestyle.
It could also just be some bad luck. Sometimes you have a bad streak. To draw solid conclusions you need a large sample size.

Sounds to me like you're not offering enough value. Like you're not a high value guy. The girl is not that impressed by you and feels she has more value than you.
It sounds like you're fairly physical attractive, but then once the girl sleeps with you she sobers up and realizes that this guy isn't offering me very much. The other possibility is that you're physically attractive but you don't have much charm, humor, or charisma. You're not stimulating her emotionally enough to fall in love with you. This basically means your game is weak.
To really hook a girl you gotta sweep her off her feet by making her feel strong emotions and a deep rapport with you.
Of course online dating is not gonna be as great as approaching.
I've basically never had a girl end a relationship with me. Because she knows she found a rare gem. So the ultimate solution is to make yourself into a rare gem.

One time I slept with an Instagram model. A 10. She was complaining to me how hard it was to be her. Because she has to reject guys 30 times a day. This is the reality of being a 10. Haha!
I did not feel sorry for her. But I would not trade places with her. She will never be as beautiful as my mind.
My new pickup line for 10s:
"You are almost as beautiful as my mind."

I have an American friend who specifically moved to Poland to do daygame. He sleeps with several new girls a week and has a group of girlfriends. He used to game in Ukraine, but the war forced him to relocate. There are tons of opportunities in Eastern Europe. But really, any major city in the EU will have good game opportunities. You want to hit the most populated urban areas with good street life and nightlife.

No, and I have no interest in it.
Beyond amazing. It's super clean. No vomit, not nausea. And the dose is very precise, unlike ayahausca, which is a crap shoot. Having precise and consistent dosing is key.

I am sorta anti-human, because humans are so anti-truth. I've taken that a bit too far lately in my pursuit of truth. But I will dial is back.
Still, humans are a pretty ugly thing. Being mindlessly pro-human is nothing to be proud of.

Obviously she must feel attraction for you.
But girls are mostly attracted by how you make them feel. Talking to them logically about it does no good. This is why you develop game and why you talk to many girls, not one. You screen them for attraction very quickly and early on so you don't waste your time.

Meditation is just sitting and being conscious.
But formal mechanics and techniques can be a distraction from that.
The only meditation advice you really need is this:
Shut up, sit, don't move, and be conscious, for very long periods of time.

Why would you expect what is mostly as spiritual and philosophical discussion group to help you make money? That's not the primary focus on this place.
You should join some money-making forum in addition to this one, so it rounds you out.
Yes, making money is important, but do you really need to get your money-making advice from your rabbi?
What it sounds like you really need is to join a business mastermind group. Not as a replacement for this forum, but as a supplement.
If you are serious about success, what you need to realize is that success comes from specialization. You can't expect one person, group, or book to cover every important topic. Seek out specialists in every area you wish you master. This place is specialized for metaphysical topics. That's not a bug, that's a feature.

If you are like that:
1) You probably will not be able to meditate effectively at all, so brute forcing yourself with meditation will not work very well. You will probably not be able to sustain hardcore meditation, you will have a huge ego backlash, or even if you do manage it, the results will be weak because it's not enough to half-ass meditation, you must do it with quality. Meditation requires quality over quantity. You can't just sit for days in monkey mind and get good results. You might even get worse results like that!
2) You got more basic developmental issues which should be addressed with basic self-help. It sounds like you need to just start taking action on your life, through babysteps. If you cannot accomplish basic goals, you will certainly not stick with hardcore meditation.
I get the vibe from you like you are a newbie going to the gym and deciding to bench press 500 lbs in your first week because you're so fat. It's not gonna work. You need to slowly build yourself up. Years of neglect and inaction cannot be fixed quickly through brute force. If you want to learn how to meditate properly start for 30 minutes per day, do high quality meditation, and complete at least 1 year without missing a single day. Then we talk about hardcore meditation. Until then you're kidding yourself.

It depends on what kind of change you're looking for.
Be careful using meditation as some cure-all fix for all problems. If your problem is something in the material domain, you must fix it at that level, not with meditation. There is A LOT of development work which meditation will not address at all.
So be precise about what your problem is.

I can clearly tell. Which is why I'm saying it's not gonna work. You need to learn patience and consistency. It's hard to be successful from a place of desperation. Flailing your arms around is not how you do this work.
Meditation is a very serious affair and should be approached with the seriousness it deserves.
I cannot stress enough how much quality trumps quantity in this work. You must first be able to execute 20 minutes of quality meditation before you move on to 1hr, 2hr, 3hr. It is pointless to do 3 hours of low-quality meditation. You can do that for years and get nowhere!
Meditation is the antithesis of a quick fix. You are definitely not going to bull your way through into mastery of your mind. If that were possible all my work would be meaningless.

So many people live such shallow lives, without any sense of life purpose or philosophical depth. Of course you will be depressed that way.
What do most teens live for? Games? Porn? Parties? Sex? Online content? Likes? Approval from friends?
All of that is trash.

All things are ultimately One. Reality is composed of imaginary differences.
Yes, the difference between your Mom and a dog is imaginary. However, don't forget, imagination IS reality.