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  1. Consciousness actually means existance, being, absolute bottom of everything, formlessness and the source of all forms. A story based on actuality. Actual absolute consciousness can only be expeirenced. Nothing more or less. Neurons firing in a brain, percieving an objective reality and creating an indentity is merely awakefulness. A story based on naive realism. It's also a vocabulary problem with consciousness. I've heard this from sadhguru and it really helped me distinguish and actually point my aim at consciousness instead if awakefulness.
  2. @Leo Gura Can one have psychedelic-like effects of the mind (like no mind and becoming Actual) on command? I don't know about other people, but it seems like contemplation and inquiry develop a mental skill of shutting down the mind and becoming actual and present. Feels like non-verbal/non-symbol thinking as you said. I haven't tried any psychedelics yet, but is this sort of skill be any close to a normal pcychedelic experience? (Not so powerful like 5meo)
  3. Poetry is very close to the core of the persian language and it's culture. This insight hit me when I looked from this lens: Everything that is, existance, is there to create maximum poetry and creativity. All beings and creation is a work of absolute art. All duality is art, poetic. All forms, all beings, all levels of consciousness and formlessness is absolutely poetic. If you were an infinite and unlimited being, you would EXACTLY create this moment right now, to the finest detail in infinite forms and resolution. This identity you have lives the exact life there needs to be for absolute poetry. The aboslute work of art. A few weeks later, I saw the movie "The House that Jack Built" and "The AntiChrist" from the mad genius, Lars von Treir. So disturbing yet absolutely artistic. These movies reinforced this insight in me. No matter how aweful or awesome life can be, it is absolutely beautiful and necessary for Maximum Poetry!
  4. @Inliytened1 @Serotoninluv Thw funny thing is, the more present I become, the more everything look so alien and surreal. How can verbal answers even capture these! It's just my mind wanting verbal answers which it can't really get. But what happens when a hammer hits my face and crushes my skull? Why is there something being thretened? What is being lost?
  5. Reasons just don't work here. This is just far beyond any reason. I don't see any reason to survive nor to be. I just look over my body and see this ultra complex machine, but it has no reason to be it. I let myself lose my mind and just screw around to see what this thing is. Just, why is my body existing? Why does it look like I experience through this body? The reason just takes a turn and becomes itself. In other words, the reason to survive is just survive. The reason to be is just to be. I've never been suicidal in my life but these bother me a lot. It just stops my mind and locks me up on this circle of being. Then I just tell myself, "you know what, forget this bullshit. Who cares? Just do what you like and enjoy it."
  6. @TheAvatarState Holy shit I just loved this quote, thank you. Actually this is more true. What is rationalization? Or Skeptisism? Just ideas and concepts. They weren't even actual Is this from the spoon quote from the matrix?
  7. @PlayOnWords Being is prior to reason and knowledge, so there was God, then there was relative reason and knowledge of humans. A relative thing cannot capture absolute infinity. Like number 1 to 10 cannot capture everything on the spectrum. Btw don't underestimate what ABSOLUTE UNLIMITEDNESS means
  8. 6 months ago, I sat down and tried to find every little thing I hated, about my body, my mind, my personality and my idenitity. I wrote down a page full of hatred and I just left it. Yesterday I found the notebook and read it. I was shocked by how I was thinking about myself. I haven't really changed much since then (so the changes aren't there to make me feel better about myself) but for some reason, I have become the exact opposite of how I was. Everything I hated then, I love it now. It just doesn't make any sense. So I contemplated about "Why I love the things I hated? Why people self hate instead of self love?" I realized that self love is so much harder. It's like the whole human psyche favors self hate more that self love. The reason is: Self hate puts oneself in a position of being a victim, being someone that life wasn't fair to. It gives the person a reason to not act, not change, stay stable (Homeostasis at work ) and always blame other things and people for their hate. (Ego is safe here.) The twisted thing was; I actually liked being a victim, being depressed and hating myself. I just wasn't mindful enough to see this. Like, inside, unconsciously, I craved being hated so I could have people telling me "No don't think like that" or "No you're very good please stop hating yourself." It actually felt great inside, but I wasn't aware. Maybe the thing happened here was because of Love realizations and realizing everything is absolutely fair and perfect. Maybe it was something else. Do you have this twisted desire for being hated? Are you aware of it?
  9. Basically this is how people go post rational, post skeptisism, post morality. Skeptisism/Rationality is really powerful for killing falsehood. Like cutting beliefs with a sword. But bending it to cut it with itself with break it. The end of skeptisism is being skeptic of skeptisism. That's how you get free from it.
  10. @Aeris There is a even more accurate metaphor for this, a dream. It not like there is a written determined future, but there is no will and free choice. Only God has absolute freedom because it is unlimited. A movie has a fixed story but a infinite dream is unlimited.
  11. What is it like to be a human living in a specific condition? What is it like to be a flying bug in the forest? What is it like to die trying to run away from a chasing lion? God is so infinite it has to have all possibilities within it
  12. It's a game. Just for fun. Survival has no significance and no importance. God just wants to play with infinite possibilities.
  13. @Commodent yeah it's like switching masks or characters in a video game. Who is switching the roles? Who is always there even without these egos?
  14. @seeking_brilliance I heard about it. I guess my tulpa is a alternative Pouya talking to Pouya. @pluto Time to recruit more people for the gang