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Journalist Tries Meth for Journalistic Purposes

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@Leo Gura

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

 

You think God is a fool? He keeps the greatest pleasure for himself ;)

 

Ahahahahaha i like this :)

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@Mason Riggle

2 hours ago, Mason Riggle said:

@SQAAD as I said, there are plenty of experiences more pleasurable than meth.  Im fortunate to have experienced so many. So in comparison, meth wasn't so special.  I did it in the vein of the reporter, intentionally to know for myself. 

It's like, if you're regularly a bull rider, the thrill of sky diving might not be as intense as it would be for a librarian. 

My biggest pleasure was when i was high on mdma. Damn i still miss it. The high was just incredible. I have never felt anything come even close to that. It was too good to be true. I didn't expect this level of happiness, not even in my wildest dreams. I know sober that i will never experience that level of euphoria again. But still i enjoy the mundane feelings. I don't put them below or above anything else.

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Just now, SQAAD said:

@Mason Riggle

My biggest pleasure was when i was high on mdma. Damn i still miss it. The high was just incredible. I have never felt anything come even close to that. It was too good to be true. I didn't expect this level of happiness, not even in my wildest dreams. I know sober that i will never experience that level of euphoria again. But still i enjoy the mundane feelings. I don't put them below or above anything else.

My sober awakenings were better (and worse) than MDMA ?


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I've done meth quite number of times as as well as psychedelics such as 5-meo-dmt, mushroom and lsd. Only drug I think about or crave every now and then is meth, the pleasure you can get from it can be intense. Its nothing like the lovely dovely all is one feeling you get off psychedelics ,so stupid to compare it to them. Meth is more of a sexual drug and people often find themselves watching porn or having sex (the dirty hardcore kind) on it for 10+ hours. Just imagine the best sex or porn movie you have every watched and then multiple it by 100. Sober sex and porn will seem almost like a joke after you have used it with meth and that's sort why its so addictive and shouldn't try it.

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@SBB4746 maybe you're doing sober sex wrong.   Don't get me wrong, sex on meth is amazing, but I'd put it more like 2x better, than 100x better (I suppose this has to do with context and experience... I'm 46, been married twice to very sexual partners.. and so the amount of mind blowing sex I've had isn't perhaps typical.. sex when you are 20 is good.. but sex when you are in love, have a partner you're comfortable with and with whom you know what feels good and what doesn't is multiple times better!), and trade offs of ingesting meth (feeling grimy and strung out during the come down) are horrible.  

Addiction is a complex beast, and the particular 'substance' of the addiction, whether it be meth, caffeine, fast food, porn, sex etc. has less to do with how addicted one becomes than most people realize.  

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15 minutes ago, Mason Riggle said:

@SBB4746 maybe you're doing sober sex wrong.   Don't get me wrong, sex on meth is amazing, but I'd put it more like 2x better, than 100x better (I suppose this has to do with context and experience... I'm 46, been married twice to very sexual partners.. and so the amount of mind blowing sex I've had isn't perhaps typical.. sex when you are 20 is good.. but sex when you are in love, have a partner you're comfortable with and with whom you know what feels good and what doesn't is multiple times better!), and trade offs of ingesting meth (feeling grimy and strung out during the come down) are horrible.  

Addiction is a complex beast, and the particular 'substance' of the addiction, whether it be meth, caffeine, fast food, porn, sex etc. has less to do with how addicted one becomes than most people realize.  

@Mason Riggle, so if I have addiction to caffeine is it serving similar purpose as addiction to heroin, in the sense that the caffeine buzz might be causing me to avoid feeling certain subtle aspects of my shadow ? 

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@SBB4746

On 28/9/2021 at 7:15 AM, SBB4746 said:

Only drug I think about or crave every now and then is meth, the pleasure you can get from it can be intense. Its nothing like the lovely dovely all is one feeling you get off psychedelics ,so stupid to compare it to them. 

Yes i tend to agree. People who haven't tried these type of drugs can't really comprehend the level and type of extreme euphoria we are talking about. I can comprehend because mdma is similar to meth i heard.

I took once a bunch of pills (i think it was ritalin) and then began masturbating. It was better than if i was to have sex with 10 super models. Lol.  

I totally agree with the sex part. All the documentaries i've watched basically say the same thing ''Sex on meth is beyond this world.''.

 

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@Wilhelm44

16 hours ago, Wilhelm44 said:

@Mason Riggle, so if I have addiction to caffeine is it serving similar purpose as addiction to heroin, in the sense that the caffeine buzz might be causing me to avoid feeling certain subtle aspects of my shadow ? 

I can relate with caffeine addiciton. My sleep has suffered the last days and i was feeling my head like it was eroding. This made me scared and i stopped caffeine so i can get deeper sleep. I think caffeine is more like an attachment rather than an addiction. A true addiction you can't stop it so easily.

I just wish caffeine didn't have that long of a half-life.

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4 hours ago, SQAAD said:

@Wilhelm44

I can relate with caffeine addiciton. My sleep has suffered the last days and i was feeling my head like it was eroding. This made me scared and i stopped caffeine so i can get deeper sleep. I think caffeine is more like an attachment rather than an addiction. A true addiction you can't stop it so easily.

I just wish caffeine didn't have that long of a half-life.

Try going cold turkey on coffee for a month after you had 2 or 3 cups every day for a year, not so easy :) I think it's all about association, I associate coffee with warm conversation and upbeat creative energy.

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How can you have sex for 10 hours??? Your dick would fall off.


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@SBB4746

23 hours ago, SBB4746 said:

 

@SQAAD Yeah, I put it in a class of its own. Something very evil about it and it changes your personality. I recommend you stay away from meth if you couldn’t control yourself on Ritalin haha. 

I will never try meth in this incarnation. Even though i would like to know what it's all about and its the drug that has intrigued me the most besides 5-meo. I just know it will ruin my life for good if i try it. lol. And i am scared of consequences. I have already done a LOT of stupid sh*t....

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@Wilhelm44

On 29/9/2021 at 0:53 PM, Wilhelm44 said:

Try going cold turkey on coffee for a month after you had 2 or 3 cups every day for a year, not so easy :) I think it's all about association, I associate coffee with warm conversation and upbeat creative energy.

Actually the last months, thats what i've been doing. I stop caffeine for weeks or even a month, then i get back to it. And this whole cycle basically. The good thing is that if i don't drink coffee i don't experience any withdrawls. My body is not dependent on it which is a good thing.

The thing that makes me go back to coffee is usually when i had a bad night of sleep and i need something to keep me going. But once i drink coffee then i love the buzz it gives me. And i keep chasing that buzz the next days. Until i stop again. Basically i am drinking coffee now just because i am an addict and i love getting high lol.

But i will take a pause again. I want to use this drug as a tool. And i really don't need it for energy. I have tons of energy without it. If coffee didn't have all these health benefits people talk about i would probably never drink again to be honest....It has made my life more difficult in some ways, especially when quitting it. 

The good thing is that i can keep my dosage under control. But it is still an attachment. It creates suffering if i don't have it the first few days. A lot of suffering in my neck area which is really annoying. I can't make it go away. And is torturing me so that i give in to the craving. lol.

In general caffeine is easy to quit. Once you get through 2-3 days, you realize that you don't even need it. Because you have tons of energy without it (in my case). Last thing is that its best to drink coffee after 90 mins since you wake up. Because when you wake up you have tons of cortisol. Its best to wait your cortisol drops, then raise it back again with coffee.

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@SBB4746

23 hours ago, SBB4746 said:

 I won’t deny you feel like the most pathetic perverted piece of shit when you come down though.

 

Lol that is funny :D

Meth turns you into a devil.

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1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

How can you have sex for 10 hours??? Your dick would fall off.

@Leo Gura

Weren't you the guy claiming to have masturbated like 20x a day when younger?xD

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22 minutes ago, Gregory1 said:

@Leo Gura

Weren't you the guy claiming to have masturbated like 20x a day when younger?xD

No. I claimed that I could orgasm 20x in a row in a single session. Which is true and not at all impractical.

20 sessions would burn your dick off. More than 2 sessions is already pushing it.


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1 hour ago, SQAAD said:

@Wilhelm44

Actually the last months, thats what i've been doing. I stop caffeine for weeks or even a month, then i get back to it. And this whole cycle basically. The good thing is that if i don't drink coffee i don't experience any withdrawls. My body is not dependent on it which is a good thing.

The thing that makes me go back to coffee is usually when i had a bad night of sleep and i need something to keep me going. But once i drink coffee then i love the buzz it gives me. And i keep chasing that buzz the next days. Until i stop again. Basically i am drinking coffee now just because i am an addict and i love getting high lol.

But i will take a pause again. I want to use this drug as a tool. And i really don't need it for energy. I have tons of energy without it. If coffee didn't have all these health benefits people talk about i would probably never drink again to be honest....It has made my life more difficult in some ways, especially when quitting it. 

The good thing is that i can keep my dosage under control. But it is still an attachment. It creates suffering if i don't have it the first few days. A lot of suffering in my neck area which is really annoying. I can't make it go away. And is torturing me so that i give in to the craving. lol.

In general caffeine is easy to quit. Once you get through 2-3 days, you realize that you don't even need it. Because you have tons of energy without it (in my case). Last thing is that its best to drink coffee after 90 mins since you wake up. Because when you wake up you have tons of cortisol. Its best to wait your cortisol drops, then raise it back again with coffee.

@SQAAD   Yeah, coffee can actually serve as good medicine for a while, in the same way that porn can be like medicine, ie self soothing. And I feel that there's a divine timing as to when some of these things simply let go of us, as opposed to us letting go of them. 

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42 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

No. I claimed that I could orgasm 20x in a row in a single session. Which is true and not at all impractical.

20 sessions would burn your dick off. More than 2 sessions is already pushing it.

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1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

No. I claimed that I could orgasm 20x in a row in a single session. Which is true and not at all impractical.

Don't you run out of ammo after the first few? I don't like the feeling of shooting blanks ?


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