The battle between heart and the self (fear)

[DrewNows]

@dimitri“5-Leo” ? 

@CharlotteI am curious do you experience any sort of hullicanations or seeing with eyes shut micro-dosing? 

Btw definitely envious of that last workshop, great share ?

 

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows Sometimes when microdosing and walking in nature I close my eyes. It doesn't feel like I am closing anything off by closing my eyes, only strengthening the connection to nature/energy. Does that make sense?

[DrewNows]

yea I guess so. Could you take a nap? 

 

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows what do you mean? 

[DrewNows]

14 minutes ago, Charlotte said:

@DrewNows what do you mean? 

On a day you micro-dose would you be able to take a nap in the middle of the day like if you were behind on sleep or something 

[Charlotte]

Definitely yeah 

[DrewNows]

16 minutes ago, Charlotte said:

Definitely yeah 

Awesome ?

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows no worries dude you thinking about doing it?

[DrewNows]

9 hours ago, Charlotte said:

@DrewNows no worries dude you thinking about doing it?

No don’t have access but maybe I will sometime 

modafinil does impact sleep. And for me sleep wasn’t possible on a shroom trip. 

Edited April 30, 2019 by DrewNows

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows ah right I see. Understand yeah. 

[Charlotte]

This week has been simply eye opening, insightful and profound. 

i feel I've worked through a lot egoic attachments and now the most deep rooted ones are showing themselves. 

A lot of this week has been about insecurities. Insecurities has been present in my life since I was a child so therefore it's heavily attached as a identity. You can feel the rigid'ness of them but they have surfaced even more so, to the point that they are screaming to be looked at and transcended. I'll book in with the therapist. 

Yesterday was extremely interesting. I had slipped back into an old unconscious habit but this time round it was different. I could actually feel the distance between the Self watching it happen and the self playing out the identification of the behaviour. It was fucking amazing ?

Also I'm booking the accomodation for my first (adult) psychedelic trip today. 17-19th may I have the pod booked for. Gives me plenty of time to get some camping gear together and that. 

 

 

 

[Charlotte]

Also I'm gonna be randomly writing dualities here which is just saturating my mind at the moment ?

The whole calender

Seasons (winter, summer etc including rain, wind etc)

Silence (I love this one)

Shapes

Sexual orientation

 

[Charlotte]

Dualities...

all the elements

Materials

[Charlotte]

2.4 microdose today. Observations... Feeling a bit 'fluffy'. 

Started a new term of philosophy Tuesday. P2_H01.pdf

[Charlotte]

 

More dualities I thought of:

Pain

Satisfactory and unsatisfactory

Suitable & unsuitable

Sunrise, sunset

Night and day

Tidy, cluttered, neat, untidy

[DrewNows]

Lovely pics. Happy for you having planned a trip! 

[Charlotte]

@DrewNows thank you ?

[DrewNows]

@Charlottehow do you upload multiple pictures without running out of space? 

Actually I think I’ve figured it out, they gotta be “live” and not from a library 

Edited May 2, 2019 by DrewNows

[Shin]

4 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

@Charlottehow do you upload multiple pictures without running out of space? 

Delete the old ones.

Profile -> Attachments

[DrewNows]

4 minutes ago, Shin said:

Delete the old ones.

Profile -> Attachments

Awesome thank you 

@Shinpictures are too big to upload from camera library?

Edited May 2, 2019 by DrewNows