165 Days Before College

[Everyday]

Weird, I was sure I posted smth the other day. Did it got deleted?

 

So here we are 2024! I can't believe it has been over a year since I started working out regularly, mediated, stopped watch tv series and moving, didn't watch porn, etc. I also got a raise, finished college and dated a bunch of girls. I never before had sex with two girls ok the same year nor I kissed so many years in just one year. Insane. 

To tell you the truth I'm super anxious 😰 about not being able to keep up not watching tv series, movies recaps and so on. I also want to watch porn. I find it hard to abstain this year as well. I've never done this. I am worried I'll fail.

Like drug addicts said in mark's interviews - each time I get clean I am thinking I'll do a little bit and work relapse. The start using again and end the cycle repeats itself. Of course, isn't at all dramatic in my case. In just trying to be a better version of myself. Watching tv series makes me escape reality. I don't want that.

Last year I was super pumped up after that trip to not watch tv series. It was hard to quit them. One of the reasons to quit was to have enough time for the last year of university. Why am I wondering if I should watch them or not this year? I can use all that free time to work on my business. I can really make a difference in my life 💰🥁

I find it super difficult to not fap each day like I've been doing for years. Since I said I'll do it once a month I did it daily :)))) 

 

I am excited and scared. I am feeling 

 

Checked my messages from insta and I saw that the swedish girl wrote me again...after 5 days. What is going on? It makes me very confused. But I can say that she doesn't really like me judging by her behavior. It's ok. Just don't replay to her and leave her alone. I feel embarrassed to ask her out again just for her to tell me she's super busy. Why do we even speak than?!

 

Last night I drank and smoked some weed. I wondered why wouldn't I live like this daily like 2 of my friends? I got scared of this thought. After smoking I feel I need a break, not wanting more next day. Shit. My two friends completed a whole year getting high daily. Damn. They said they need to stop since they don't want to be addicts. Man, I didn't even think they actually want to have a better life. I thought that they are Happy. Wow. Of course everyone wants a better life.

Our friend group is shrink fast. Two couples already canceled ok us multiple times. One friend who hot his first gf for almost a year doesn't even hang out anymore unless his girlfriend is busy. I also question if this group is what I need. Nice people but I don't get motivation to work harder from them. Maybe I want to much from this group of friends. Look elsewhere for inspiration

 

On my way home I was thinking how next level I think is to move out of my parents house and still have enough money to pay my rent, invest, enjoy life  travel and save. Each time I moved I was struggling with money. So being able to move and not worry would be a game changer. I struggle to imagine that that's so basic and perfectly possible in a few years. I feel stuck because I made so little money over the years. Now as well. 

Man, if I didn't live at home I wouldn't have time money to invest in this company. Isn't this crazy? So focus on this side hustle to actually make enough to move out and use your time better.

 

I can use the few hours left today to watch crap online or actually search new products, make some changes and so on. I can choose if I want to make money or keep complaining. I'll be at work in 2 days. I can use this time to improve myself and that business or get nothing out of it.

 

🌞I need to keep working even if I am scared and doubting myself. These feelings shouldn't stop me from living that amazing life.🌞

 

Edited January 1 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey!

I was preparing for work last night when my sister asked me why am I going? Indeed, my bosses are in vacation and I work from home next 2 days. So I stayed at home. Worked a little bit

We are finally at 99% done with the order for February/March. 1/3 is paid from the money we made past year. I just need a second look at some jewelry boxes before I order them as well. I'm excited. I worked most of the day to make this order. Nice.

I need to pay more attention next time I search for products late at night. I made some mistakes. Some products weren't good enough. We aren't sure of some products even if they are selling quite a lot. All the products we are going to buy are verified super hot 🔥

 

Yesterday, my father and my brother's girlfriend got in an argument. I didn't intervene even if I don't like her. I need my brother on my side to make the side hustle work. One of my goals is to quit work this year. They decided to close the family business since they can't communicate at all about business related stuff. They are both relatively lazy. Also, my brother's GF had BPD judging by her behavior and she's very co dependent and a little retarded. One of the problems they have is that he's going to see her asap after she calls him or else she gets really upset. Doesn't matter if it's he's shift or smth else. He has to go or she goes nuts 🌰

 

I replayed to the last message the swedish girl sent to me 2 days ago. I didn't feel right to ghost her. I wished her a great year and that was it. 

I felt a lot of urges to fap since Monday. I was used to do it daily.

I went to bed earlier and it was such a hustle. I couldn't sleep and I had a hunch of negative thoughts. Good. I need to listen to these thoughts and face those emotions. I can use them as fuel to change my goals.

I started mediating for 16 min instead of 10. I'm aiming to reach 20 my December 2024. Small steps... but it works. 

 

I was thinking that I need to work waaay more on this side hustle if I want to make real money. Maybe I shouldn't take it easy at all. I'm amazed that I actually made money with those products last year. Stuff I learned in a few months.... versus years at uni for nothing. What can I achieve if I do that full time? Wow!

Today I realized that the product code used by some big jewelry company it's exactly the same from 1688. 🤔 Man, it can't be that easy! They made a business with jewelry bought for nothing. Respect!

Edited January 3 by Everyday

[Everyday]

I had to put this separately:

Yesterday, I had a call with my flat mate from the Netherlands and my best friend from South America. I haven't seen them in 5 years. She has been traveled like crazy for the last few years. I was sure she's doing great.... Actually, she left to travel the world because of her parents divorcing, personal trauma, her grandma dying and so on. She basically ran away. I was actually enving her. 

I told them about my goals this year and afterwards I realized how chill my life is. I live at home, don't have any big problems, I started a business, have a job, I have been working out for a year, finished college and so on. My life is really going amazing. I should take it easier sometimes. However, I still feel guilty for not being even more productive.

 

 

I was stressing for days that my 1688 account got frozen right when I was talking with a seller about some jewelry boxes. I looked again at the version he had in stock... it was actually shit. It looked like a tuna can haha. That was the biggest jewelry box I've ever seen lol 

 

I was looking at some funny looking products with my sister. I found some stupid sushi socks. My father asked us if we want to hear smth sad. I thought he was joking ... He was crying that a relative's house burned down and he just woke up from coma. I didn't know how to react. I haven't seen him crying since his father died when I was little.

Edited January 3 by Everyday

[Everyday]

👋

Last night I was very horny. Started fapping to an Instagram reel a OF girl. I wanted more so I searched for nudes and lended on some page with porn pop ups. So technically I watched some porn while I was looking at those pictures. Shit. Well, this doesn't mean that I have to go all in or exaggerate now. Just move on. Being crazy about my schedule isn't going to help. Today I feel calmer but more tired :)))

I worked on the side hustle regardless of what I've done last night. I also did some work for my job. I made some mistakes once again and had to fix them. Of.

I listed 8 new products and improved old listings. The ones I made 3 months ago are quite bad. I need to focus on quality over quantity. 

 

I gave a task to my brother as well. He isnt doing anything for the business now. He is also upset for closing the family business after working there for several years. I will give him some space. My father is really difficult and I get why my brother has such a hard time with him.

I find it stupid that my father joked about getting money from us in the future for depositing our boxes with products in his house. Wtf... Pathetic. Anyway, this pushes me to make more money and work harder. I'm frustrated for seeing that I have the drive to work but not making more money than the people I know 

 

We had 2 orders today and one from yesterday. Nice! 🔥

 

I'm not looking forward to go back to work. I'm proud of my progress so far since I stayed home. I took care of myself. At work I was a zombie. I struggle to wake up in the morning. 

I talking with my brother that I make money for my boss but I dont get much in return. I don't have to stay there. I can change that! I make fun of my clients who can't afford over 1000 euros for ads but I don't even earn that amount per month......🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😳

I'm literally making others rich while i survive haha. That's fucked up. If I want a small raise I have to make even money for my boss. Funny. I'll get $250 more and in return I'll have more stress and make more money for my boss 😆😆😆😆

If I want to make more money with our side hustle we just buy more inventory and sell more. I don't have to wait a year lol for some small raise. I don't have to be miserable like my colleagues 

It's hard as fuck to actually go to sleep on time. I struggle. Even if I went to sleep on time I still don't feel like sleeping 

[Everyday]

Hey, how are you doing?

I couldn't sleep at all last night. I kept thinking of the side hustle. What can we do more? What can it be done? When will I quit work? Maybe after March? I can do it sooner than I planned to do it (September) 🤔

Today we set a goal to earn 80,428 euros until the end of the year. I think it's too much but we'll adjust that number after seeing some results next months. My brother isnt willing yet to spent more on stocks but in order to make more money we need more shit to sell. 

I got really upset that I have to go to work tomorrow. What is the point in investing so many hours if I am not making money?! Also, because of it I don't have time for other stuff. Maybe I do have some time but I keep saying I'll do it another season. I noticed that I worry not being able to keep up with my goals once I return to work (it's also raining).

 

Spent the day doing more listings at the highest level I've done so far. My sister suggested to let them do some. I should lead the group better. We are waiting for 2 shipments to arrive in the country.

I had an insight that I should read out loud self help books recaps to achieve two goals in one. But I have so much resistance. I got a great insight tho from atomic habits - make doing the bad habits harder and keep talking small steps daily.🌞

So I deleted all sexy pics and reels I had saved on Instagram to not be tempted to checked them out and so on. Also, keep up working on your goals. I moved from 10 min meditation to 16 min. Going to make it 20 by this December. Same for working out. I can do an easier work out when I'll want to do 3 times a week. On the 3rd day I can do some pushups. Simple!💯🔥

 

Each night I get flooded with frustration of not working more and making more money on my own. I use this as fuel ⛽. It's hard, of course. I was quite bored yesterday, doing my routine 🥱.

I'm not happy going to work tomorrow:))))). I can say that I had a really productive holiday vacation. 

 

 

[Everyday]

🥱

First day of work at the office it was boring and frustrating. I had to see my all colleagues come there and complain about having to work today. No body seemed happy to be there. They took a bunch of breaks as usually. Trying to make it acceptable. 

From time to time I remembered to be conscious of what I'm doing. Spent hours improving some accounts which won't raise my paycheck anyways. Spent some time setting up some campaigns for a colleague as well. I was wondering what I could do if I was working got myself instead. Damn, those hours would have been equal with progress . I would have finished my listings for example.

Went to see a friend afterwards who works at a kiosk 12 hours with one break in between. I bought some groceries to cook. He is on his feet all day and still makes less money. I felt stupid for complaining about my work. Especially that I worked from home since end of December. I made such a big deal about having to go to work on a computer at the office. I wasn't going into the mines. Ridiculous

Arrived home, ate and chopped some meat. Hang out with my siblings, meditated, diction and not much else. I feel so tired but it doesn't look like I did much today. 😩

So what was the point of the day? Earned some money, ate, took a shit, did my little routine and not much else. So if I want to work even more on myself there is little time left. Imagine what I can do if I had more free time in a day... Damn! Imagine the shit I could accomplish! Unreal! 

So tomorrow I start this shit all over again. It could be worse tho...

 

We had one order today and another one from yesterday late at night. I think our 1st import together with that group are in the country already. I have to ask them. After that we pay for the shipment and other costs and we wait for those boxes to arrive. 

[Everyday]

🤠

Yesterday, after work I met with an ex work colleague who strated selling on eMag since 3 years ago. He dropped soooooooo much knowledge. Unreal. I took notes.

I had fun and learned a lot of shit. I was thinking afterwards that I didn't feel inspired after meeting someone in a while. 

 

I felt really stupid for being employed here. I got lazy and comfortable. I don't have time for much and it leads nowhere. Of. I have to stay at work even if I finished my work. 

We talked about my boss. I realized that me makes us feel like we are fortunate to work for him and we can't do better. Indeed, I really don't think I can get a better job and I don't believe in myself. He is literally making lots of money from work but criticizes us for making mistakes with clients. Today I freaked out thinking I'll get scolded.

We do feel the fear and pressure to make mistakes with clients. If you fucked up with one client you get a criticized like it's the end of the world. But it doesn't really matter. We are getting clients who don't actually have a good business but my boss makes some money from them. They won't grow for real and will leave soon but he takes their money anyways 🪴

 

 

Today a colleague from seo with whom I colaborare on one project told me the client called her to complain and talk shit about our work. Apparently he didn't answer to my emails since 22 December because he thought that his programmer it's in CC. He wasn't.

I should have asked the girl from seo to give me the programmer s email. I just didn't think of that at all. Also, he had a campaign active in the account and I didn't think to ask what's the deal with that shit. I didn't pause it since I got the account so now he was mad. I didn't even think to tell him about that campaign because I thought he knew about it. I doubted myself. I apologized blah blah just to check the accounts history and to find out that he Is probably full of shit.

The campaign was there since June and he activated it a month before I got it. He kept saying that the account is new and I never thought to ask. Damn. I was so upset man.

Also, another client complained that his ROAS dropped to half last week and requested a meeting. Shit. I tried a bunch of methods but I should have asked for help tho.

In between that I checked my email to see that I have to pay $2260 for the second shipment. This was more than I expected. I also got the papers for the 1st shipment. Sent the boarder documents and we will get our products next week.

We went to the bank to put the missing money for the big order. I got super frustrated and worried. We tried to sent to money from revolut business because they have cheaper taxes. The transfer was declined because it looked suspicious. We managed to talk to the support and fix the problem. I was really frustrated and upset.

 

Meanwhile my sister's boyfriend was in the same room with us and kept talking shit and trying to get my sister's attention. He kept telling her that is time to watch his favorite show and sleep. Also, my brother's gf was texting him that she is sad and wants him to come home faster. 

I stayed to finish the emails and documents after they left. 

 

What a day.... it was a lot to take in...

[Everyday]

Hey ☀️

Woke up and checked my mail. I had documents to sign and a shipment fee. I pushed myself and finished them before work. My sister helped me as well. I didn't do my routine, just that. Next week we'll get the first shippment. We are waiting for the next one as well.

At work I used some time to read all the messages we had from the telegram group. I also had to carry on the drama from yesterday. Some more shit from the client's programmer. I was worried again I'll get fired. 

It was another boring day at work but I learned smth. ai asked my supervisor to look over some account I fucked last year. He laughed about it but I really made every mistake in the book. I panicked and I didn't think.

I took a 40 min walk afterwards. I fell on ice but didn't break anything. I saw a girl who ghosted me in December 2022. I felt bad for not having sex now and so much shit. But I remembered that I've improved myself so much since than. Life is so much better.

I arrived home and went to bed. Fapped but without some pics or any material. It was the only time this week. I can stay I feel better afterwards.

 

I find Instagram overwhelming. I checked my messages and scrolled a bit. There is too much info. Some bits of knowledge but it can't be applied at all. Does anyone feel the same? I don't see the point in checking other's stories. I get nothing from it. They are most likely not having an adventure or smth.

 

 

Anyways, what have I done last year? Mostly at work and at university. So much time invested in those two and for not much return. Imagine spending that time on your business and cultivating some skills. Amazing! 

 

[Everyday]

🪴 hey 🪴

 

I stayed home yesterday to work. I wanted to have time for the business and my routine. I did what I had to do so it's alright.

I paid the last fees for the first proper shipment. It was literally almost as much as the order itself (shipment, taxes). Wtf? We had 13 kg in total. 

Made more listings, improved old ones. Nice, I make them better and better each time. I m proud of myself. I procrastinated a little tho. I did my routine late and left for later harder stuff. 

Most product listings are very ugly to be honest. I'm surprised. So I just have to put in the time to make better ones to take the client's eyeballs. So simple. I have what it takes. I deserve more! I am getting it.

 

I checked out some movie trailers for around an hour or more. Wasted time there. I also checked one of the movie reviews guy on Yt. He had just a few new videos since over a year ago. I didn't watch any of them. I wondered what was I doing at the end of 2022. It was a hard time for me. 

What else?

Another week passed by. the first week we went at the office this year. Lots of time wasted at work and not much left for other stuff. I feel so tired. I got used to this way of life. Just to chill at my house and  the end of week, each week, each month. Like last year, before going to work and uni I was doing my routine diligently. Going to work makes it harder. 

My time is extremely limited. I really have to choose little progress or nothing at all. But I have to say that is easier to be productive when I am constrained by time. When I'm at home I tend to procrastinate and resist to work more.

Today I woke up and did my routine. Went back to bed until 12. Nice. I needed that. I went to sleep at 4am

 

[Everyday]

Hello 🤗

I went to bed at 4, the courrier wake me up this morning to give me the jewelry boxes we ordered from AliExpress. They were cheap but smell weird. Did my routine and went back to sleep until 12.

Spent an hour or so shooting videos of some products which we didn't manage to sell. 

My brother arrived and I we calculated the profit for the first import. It's ok, we are going to make profit. I was worried since we paid a lot for transportation.  

This was our first official import with taxes and boarder control. The other ones were from AliExpress or SheIn and we didn't know how to do this legal process. I wasn't using that group back than. I was cheap.

We will receive the first import next week. The other one in a few weeks I guess. Not sure where we'll have money to pay for shipment and border taxes. Man, it's so expensive to make money starting from zero. 

After that we went to my sister's boyfriend place and worked out. That guy needs a dopamine detox asap. He kept putting the stupidest yt clips while we were working out. I told him to stop because it was too much. Man, that's so much drama on the internet. I dont even know those people. Lol.

I didn't use Instagram today and I'm thinking that's the best thing. It's really addictive and keeping you stupid. 

I'm wondering what am I doing tho. I'm doing so many good things every day for myself and it seems to make me more aware of how bad I'm feeling deep down. 

I'm dreaming of a life where I don't have to just stay at work until the set schedule ends. Me and my colleagues are waiting so much time at work wasting our time. No wonder they smoke or take coffee breaks. You need some excuse to procrastinate. It's boring. We jus need to be there to make our paycheck and it could be worse. 

What am I doing tho? I'm looking forward to quit my job but it looks like realistically I should shut up and wait. It will take us more time than I anticipated. We just started this. I need to be patient. There is no second option here. I need to make it work. Can't live like this.

I struggle to go to bed early but isn't working. I feel that I don't have enough time left after work to do more. It's sad. Basically I have very little time to improve myself and actually grow. I have to choose if I want to meditate or watch some video.

 

Me and my sister went to visit my brother since he moved in with his girlfriend a month ago. She wasn't pleased to see us. Their apartment is beautiful. They cant afford it but isn't this how others live as well? She is stressed with some exams and God knows what. Apparently she doesn't cook because some reason we don't get?! Her mom sends her food.

Went to see mom and she was upset that we bother her while watching another movie. She's using that to escape reality. She's overwhelmed by her mom and her fears. I don't know how to help her. I know exactly how she feels. I was behaving the same while watching tv series and some other crap. I noticed my brother spends most of his time on insta and after that says he doesn't have time 

I wonder what other people are really spending their free time. I wonder what my friends are doing when they say ,,I'm busy". Are they hustling or just chilling? Who knows?

It looks like they are watching tv series, podcasts, dating, movies and lots of social media. Interesting. How are they feeling because some fo them look so chill while I go to work.

I stopped reaching out to some high school colleagues. It seems that I'm the only one making an effort.

 

 

Edited January 13 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey ☀️

Just started a new week. I went to work and I was bored. I didn't have what to do but couldn't leave so I looked on each account trying to improve them. No wonder my colleagues go take smoke breaks so often. They are tired and bored. 

When they left I did a little bit of work for our business. We are waiting for the first shipment to arrive at our house.

Im tired. Spent another day at work. Afterwards I bought some food and cooked. Did my routine etc. Not much. Basic stuff. I have to be patient and keep working until I can quit. I need to put more work and more money for our business. 

Man, I wish I had a family who would give me money to do nothing like my friends have. No worries real life, just wasting time. One of them asked why I don't work out at noon (I was saying I work out after work because I'm too tired in the morning). Like he couldn't comprehend I'm at my job at noon. It must be another life to not have to work at all. 

Funny enough, they want to organize a trip to Greece this summer for 12 days. He was shocked hearing me and another guy who has a job saying it will be too expensive for us 😳. How come that we work for years and they still have more money to spent? That's the world. 

Another one said he doesn't want to be like us and that's why he never had a job by age 25. I wish I would love myself not having to achieve anything just like him. Imagine not even being brothered by getting money from your parents at 25. Imagine being at a level that you don't understand why others dont just have money. Lol.

I don't feel inspired after seeing them. More like having negative motivation to use for my goals. I feel stupid. Does it really matter that I have a job?

Dodie hot mess 

 

Edited January 16 by Everyday

[Yimpa]

1 minute ago, Everyday said:

Man, I wish I had a family who would give me money to do nothing like my friends have. One of them asked why I don't work out at noon. Like he couldn't comprehend Im at work at noon. It must be another life to not have to work at all. 

Hey 🌕

There’s pros and cons to this from my own personal experience. One of the primary downsides is that my family’s financially supporting a cause that is foreign to them or that they don’t understand or agree with yet. 

My goal is to become financially independent so that I don’t feed off of resources that are coming from a place of ignorance and miscommunication. 

I want to pursue a life that inspires others. My resources would come freely from my own autonomy. 

[Everyday]

On 15.01.2024 at 9:47 PM, Yimpa said:

Hey 🌕

There’s pros and cons to this from my own personal experience. One of the primary downsides is that my family’s financially supporting a cause that is foreign to them or that they don’t understand or agree with yet. 

My goal is to become financially independent so that I don’t feed off of resources that are coming from a place of ignorance and miscommunication. 

I want to pursue a life that inspires others. My resources would come freely from my own autonomy. 

Hello 👋

Yes, I didn't think about this at all. 

Wish you good luck on your path to financial independence. Won't be easy but it's totally worth it.

[Everyday]

Hey ☀️

Went to bed late so I woke up tired as fuck once again. I laid in bed for an hour before I actually prepared for my job. I didn't have much to do so I worked for my business when my colleagues where not around. I did my tasks and I was bored for the rest of the day. I had to stay there anyways. 

For some reason my clients are calm.I  had a situation with a client last week but he calmed down. 

My boss arrived today at the office right when the fire alarm went off. Wasn't anything serios in the building. Just a broken glass door. Anyway, I admired him tearing down any comments or complaints form my colleagues. I can't believe someone can think so fast and make it appear it's your fault. He pointed out how much it cost him to register in the US. in order to start offering PPC, SEO services there as well. Didn't mention how much money he'll make or if we will get a raise since the company will make more money. Interesting 🍿

He mentioned that a new system of reward and punishment will be used. If you loose some clients you'll get less money monthly and if you do well you'll get more money.

A colleague told me he convinced a few clients to take more subscriptions from us like Facebook and tik tok services. He confessed that some of those businesses won't do well their but he wants a promotion. He wants to show my boss that he brought even more money for his company. I wonder if he really cares enough to give him more money. So much effort to ask for more money from him. Who knows if he'll offer him more ? That's why I want to do my own thing. I won't have to wait for months to earn more.

 

Finally, the boxes from the first shipment will arrive at our house this next few days. It took longer than I expected. I wondered why they don't use a bigger truck to transport all the boxes from several people like me who ordered through them.🤔 Maybe because most sellers just started like us. Maybe not everyone wants to grow fast and buy a few tons for themselves like my friend. I see that most of them got just a few boxes. Maybe isn't just about money but more about the effort that comes from so many orders.

Today we had 3 orders in total. Two of them from associations (selling same products cheaper on someone else's listing). In other words stealing their orders if the product is super hot. 

 

 

Edited January 16 by Everyday

[Everyday]

hey 🫠

Didn't go to the office today. i work from home. i had a hard time starting tho. I didn't do much. 

Yesterday, after the office we went to drink together. It was fun, got quite drunk. I didn't speak shit fortunately. 

The new stocks have finally arrived yesterday. Awesome. They are fine except one of them, the seller sent another product. We are going to sell it anyways. We didn't choose the extra fee to verify the products in china once they arrive at their deposit. We didn't make the same mistake for the second shipment. 

All products are cold since we didn't have stocks since December on those products. It took us very long to not be cheap and use them to make the order even if it will cost us more. This was the first order from Alibaba. The second order it's from 1688.

We should have started with those platforms instead of AliExpress. But I was very resistant to speak with sellers and find an agent.

 

One of the new colleagues told me that is very uncommon for men to cook. He prefers ordering food from restaurants daily. He asked me where do I get the meat I used for my recipe. Like he didn't know you can buy grounded meat from the store. It socked me. It's unreal. Most people at work don't cook either. 

 

I didn't fap this week. Last week I did it on Thursday so this week I want to go longer. I feel very good. Just a few weeks ago it seemed impossible. 

Also, I feel good not using Instagram. I did check some messages. I feel so much better about myself and life in general. I don't know how to describe this feeling but I know it's good. I'm not missing anything by not checking other's stories. 

I still have my tinder profile on pause. 

 

 

 

Edited January 18 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey 🤠

Woke up tired and started working late. Went to the accountant and we finally solved some issues with our invoices. Finally!

While I was there I had to call a client and after talking with a colleague I realized that I had to call him back to tell him there is no solution for him. I was anxious.

We got a notification by mail from the guy I blocked from our offers on eMag. He got so upset that he sent us a legal notification treathing to stop blocking his attempts to use our product listings. 😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆 Basically we should let him still our clients from the product listings I did. Unreal! Also, why won't we use his listings if we have the same products?

 

Apparently no body from the group or my friend ever heard of such a scheme. This is crazy! We still didn't associate with his offers because he really seems crazy. Judging my the document and the stamp he's an actual lawyer, older than us and selling socks online🧦😆😆😆😆😆😆😆

His notification doesn't make any sense. Apparently we should have asked him if we can sell on that marketplace, we should have agreed to colaborare and set up the same prices and so on. We ignored him. He was really upset for blocking his offers and protect ourselves?! Man, he's crazy!

Also some dude asociated on one of his offers and he kicked him out. So wtf? He's full of shit. 

 

What else? Just kept thinking how can I improve the existing listings. I finally figured out yesterday how to use the best possible pictures by simply checking other's listings. The imagine size I used last year made the products in the pics small. 

 

I have to admit that I'm concerned that people aren't buying again our products like last year. But it was December and everyone was selling. We need to wait a few more weeks. 

 

🪴 I got a shaorma after I went out with my work colleagues. I didn't feel great afterwards. Maybe I should avoid it. I'll pay attention to this. Lately I'm feeling like I have to eat junk food because I feel this and that. But I can want junk food and still not get it. 🔥

So I finally have over a week since I fapped last Thursday. I feel so good. My mind is clear and it is getting easier to do hard stuff. Of course, the other habits help like no tv series, yt, Instagram, etc.

I still procrastinate on some stuff and I did checked IMDb and read about some shoes plot. But I didn't actually watch any of it. 

It's still hard to trust myself even with simple things like not fapping. 

 

Edited January 19 by Everyday

[Everyday]

On 20.01.2024 at 1:16 AM, Everyday said:

We got a notification by mail from the guy I blocked from our offers on eMag. He got so upset that he sent us a legal notification treathingh to stop blocking his attempts to use our product listings. 😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😆 Basically we should let him still our clients from the product listings I did. Unreal! Also, why won't we use his listings if we have the same products?😆😆

This morning I get a notification from the courier that my package will arrive this morning. I had no idea what is he talking about. Could it be that crazy guy sending the notification? No way! So the delivery message came on my phone because I used my number back in December to order the product he associated on our offers. 

It turns out that dude really sent us his notification. He checked all the order he had until he found mine. I refused the package. I was shocked. There is no way he's that crazy! Right? 

We made a ticket to eMag mentioned all of this situation. I am waiting for their response.

 

I felt bored at work and there was not a lot to do. I hate I have to just stay there all day regardless of my tasks. I am thinking to ask for more accounts. I'm not learning once again and it doesn't look like I'll do e-commerce full time soon. People aren't buying online during this period. I see this at work at my client's businesses.

Two colleagues from work told us what they did this weekend. One of them got high as fuck. Another was sick and watched an 8 hour tv series in one day. 

I did my routine and spent lots of time working on this business. I need to keep working. 

 

I fapped twice on Sunday. I didn't feel great tho. I also checked my messages on Instagram and replayed on some memes. It makes me feel so good not scrolling there. 

I thinking that I'm quite dramatic about my life right now. Lots of things are going great. Yet, I'm finding some stuff I don't have yet and making a big deal out of them. I watched a few videos about the recovery of a drug addict. The things he's going through doesn't even compare with my struggle at all. Mine is nothing.

I was tired and frustrated after work. I don't have it that bad tho...

I was thinking how amazing my life is now. I'm actually started a business, I have been working out for over a year, meditated, finished college, I'm cooking weekly, I'm awesome! I'm looking forward to keep doing the same things and keep growing.

 

I was thinking last night how hard it was in the Netherlands depending solely on my father for money. I didn't even believe I can get a job. I was eating so much junk food and feeling so hungry. I was sick hearing my father so worried about money. I was feeling uneasy. I was also failing in university. 

It was hard one I arrived back. I hated working for him and my brother's at the family business. I was watching so many tv series. I was so miserable. Going to uni didn't make things better. My father was complaining that I arrived late from university and wants on time for my shift. I hated that he was so lazy that wanted to go home even if I was actually studying. I didn't even wanted to think of it. Just washing life away. 

I was so happy when I got hired here. I got rid of that shit hole. Compared to that here is heaven. But now I'm looking towards the next step.🪜

I remember how hard it was for me to even date or let my hair longer. I have come a long way. I really did. It looked so unreal to do all these things. I can say that I have done amazing leaps in the last 3 years especially ✅.

I was so shocked when the 1st relationship ended for real. I really didn't take action to change my life if it wasn't someone to get angry about the way I lived. I didn't see the problem... I just wanted to see her, have sex, hang out, etc. I was wishing a better life tho 😂

No I'm preparing to make a new leap - being my own employer. What a change!

I was thinking of my exes and how much hate and frustration I still have about them. While I was with them I wanted to be at the level I'm now. Just working out, meditation, cooking, etc. 

Isn't that funny? I had those relationship while I really hated my life. I was simply not taking care of myself 🥲. I remember talking about the days I was taking care of myself in high school. I was daydreaming to do that one day. I was thinking that dating them won't allow me to finally take back on the track. It was easier dating them than even working out 10 minutes. 

What now? I spent almost everything I had on this business. I'm waiting for the salary next month. Maybe I'll be able to save some money after paying for the second shipment. I want to get some dates after that. I need more experience and I do want to get laid.

Edited January 22 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hello 👋

I want to write a post about what I was up to during the last few days but it's bed time here. I should go to sleep and face whatever emotions arise. I don't want to feel some things right now. It's ok.

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Turned off my phone but didn't fall asleep right away 

Edited January 26 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey 👋

I had a productive week so far. Wednesday was a free day so I wake up late and just worked for eMag. Improved some listings, made new ones and so on. Things are looking great, I'm learning and improving each week. 

I figured out that people didn't buy some products because the old listings where shit. Now I'm In the process of changing all of them. 

I fapped on Monday night. I got triggered after speaking with a hot girl friend and from some music video. Lol.

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I felt bad two days ago around bed time. I remembered that I sent a follow request 9 months ago from the internship insta and I should deleted it so she won't figure out I'm weird for trying to stalk her after rejecting me. I didn't contact Teo 1 since she told me she got a boyfriend and I told her he's a lucky dude.

She made that second account public. I could have resisted but I chose to check all her pics and stories. She did get a boyfriend. I felt triggered that she didn't choose me and it's alright. I haven't felt so bad since the first break up, 3 years ago. But this time I got back on my feed In no time because I have on what to fall back on - over a year of working out, mediating, no porn, less fapping and so on. Life is getting better and I don't need a girlfriend. It's ok. She didn't want me and it's alright. You don't have to push her. So now I have closer. 

Keep working on yourself! You are doing great! 😃

 

I did check some stories on Instagram and some posts during the hours I stalked that girl. I had some thoughts about stalking all other girls but I resisted. Enough is enough. I won't beat myself up for using insta a little bit. It's ok. But I do feel great not using that app like I used to a few months ago. It wasn't healthy. I'm not losing anything by not being up to date there. Honestly there isn't much interesting things to see there. Most stories aren't even wow. 

Edited January 26 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hello 🤗

I woke up, did some diction exercises, worked, did some tasks I have been avoiding, worked out, meditated, listed some more products and that's it.

I went to work out at my sister's boyfriend's place. It was fun and I pushed myself.

 

I arrived home late and I was wondering why do I still feel like I have to do more. I set in bed and I thought of the girl I was banging last summer. The sex was really good. I thought of other stuff. It worked.

I concluded that I need to get tinder back and get laid. Again, make the dates count. I'll exercise to text better. I need some new pics there.

 

So I got tinder and started swiping. I need more experience, man! I have no choice but practice. I have learned so much last year because of my dates. Swiped way to way until... i stumbled my ex profile, Daria1.

When we broke up, in November 2022, she didn't have pics ok tinder with her face. I'm glad she found the courage to post them now. We bough grew. I didn't block her profile. I didn't swipe either left or right. I should get involved again with her 

 

Also, maybe my standards are too high. I was thinking of this lately. I'm no price. What am I waiting for, a model? 🤣 I need to upgrade my profile haha. I've been using it got over a year. Just the same shit.

 

What else? 

I'm proud of my progress over the last year. Amazing. Meditation and working out for longer periods of time is tied with my self of worth

 

Edited January 27 by Everyday