Chronic Pain

[integral]

I've been dealing with chronic pain since I was 21 a severe sleeping disorder that I managed to recover from at some point, recently in the past week it came back and I've been in extreme physical pain in my entire body. Everything hurts even breathing is painful.

Writing this here because I cant burden anyone in real life with this problem. I made that mistake in the past there's no point.

I've been ready to die for many years, today I need to do it but im scared.

I don't know how to die. 

With my past experience, I learned how to sleep through extreme physical pain and I got pretty good at it but now I mostly forgot the technique and it might take months to relearn it.

It's very difficult having to harm this body after spending so long trying to keep it healthy.

I can't go to a hospital, I'm allergic to the air, they don't know how to help me. And what I need is assistance to die.

it's too difficult dying alone.

I don't understand why I needed to be born and I would prefer that people don't give birth to me again.

Please do not give birth to me.
Do not create me.
Do not dream of me.

This body can do a a backflip and 15 muscle ups, but it can't sleep or breath air.

It's interesting that we have the freedom to die and every reason to, but we keep living

Edited 5 hours ago by integral

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@integral holy shit my man - I don't want you to do this. Your describe horrific suffering. 

I run under the total assumption you have reached out many times to medical institutions, and not found a solution? 

Please stay 

Is there any reason not to hope? ❤️

Please stay 

[integral]

@Natasha Tori Maru for a lot of chronic health issues. It's up to the individual to solve it for themselves. This puzzle was too hard for me to solve.

I'm not gonna die tonight, this is clear.

 

[nufan]

please dont do it @integral

let jesus heal you

you have all the love from us all

https://open.spotify.com/track/6Yg3J1OkP45uNcboiUg2Rw?si=b4257b9e96c14aba

Edited 52 minutes ago by nufan