I can’t overcome fear of permanent awakening

[TheGod]

5 hours ago, Dodo said:

I'd say dont ask what it is you are afraid of, but try to find out what it is that is afraid, classic self enquiry - moving away from the object being experienced - fear - and toward the one knowing it / illuminating it, the Self. 

I'll try it too 

[James123]

9 hours ago, TheGod said:

The feeling I am talking about isn't a thought 

If it is not a thought, explain it without a single thought or word.

[Nemra]

32 minutes ago, TheGod said:

Because my state of consciousness grows without me doing anything.

Have you checked your health situation?

Perhaps it's health-related if it's not your doing, or you might have contradictions or assumptions that you're still holding that are being unearthed.

Edited 1 hour ago by Nemra

[Breakingthewall]

38 minutes ago, TheGod said:

I am very positive that I will eventually reach a no-return point. Because my state of consciousness grows without me doing anything. Ever since I did 5MeO-DMT I crossed the line. 

How was the experience with 5meo DMT? What happened exactly? Some years ago I got very focused in 5meo, I did it a lot of times, until I understood exactly the point of 5meo (in me, not in everyone) . 5meo can change your energetic configuration in deep ways 

Edited 1 hour ago by Breakingthewall