I can’t overcome fear of permanent awakening

[TheGod]

5 hours ago, Dodo said:

I'd say dont ask what it is you are afraid of, but try to find out what it is that is afraid, classic self enquiry - moving away from the object being experienced - fear - and toward the one knowing it / illuminating it, the Self. 

I'll try it too 

[James123]

9 hours ago, TheGod said:

The feeling I am talking about isn't a thought 

If it is not a thought, explain it without a single thought or word.

[Nemra]

32 minutes ago, TheGod said:

Because my state of consciousness grows without me doing anything.

Have you checked your health situation?

Perhaps it's health-related if it's not your doing, or you might have contradictions or assumptions that you're still holding that are being unearthed.

Edited 5 hours ago by Nemra

[Breakingthewall]

38 minutes ago, TheGod said:

I am very positive that I will eventually reach a no-return point. Because my state of consciousness grows without me doing anything. Ever since I did 5MeO-DMT I crossed the line. 

How was the experience with 5meo DMT? What happened exactly? Some years ago I got very focused in 5meo, I did it a lot of times, until I understood exactly the point of 5meo (in me, not in everyone) . 5meo can change your energetic configuration in deep ways 

Edited 5 hours ago by Breakingthewall

[TheGod]

2 hours ago, James123 said:

If it is not a thought, explain it without a single thought or word.

Let's go to a good horror movie and I won't have to use any single though or a word. 

 

[TheGod]

2 hours ago, Nemra said:

Have you checked your health situation?

Health situation has nothing to do with the things I'm talking about. I'm not seeing demons, white lights or visions of Jesus christ. 

I'm talking about being aware of being aware, nothing more. I become more and more aware that I am aware.

[TheGod]

2 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

How was the experience with 5meo DMT? What happened exactly? Some years ago I got very focused in 5meo, I did it a lot of times, until I understood exactly the point of 5meo (in me, not in everyone) . 5meo can change your energetic configuration in deep ways 

I did 5MeO-DMT probably 50 times or even more. Most of the trips can't be shared because they are not from this paradigm. Languge is useless. Most of my trips I would wake up to my ultimate nature as god as center of the universe and its creator. 

Anyways, I won't try to explain it because it's not exactly what I am saying. 

[Breakingthewall]

37 minutes ago, TheGod said:

would wake up to my ultimate nature as god as center of the universe and its creator. 

That's the problem with 5 meo. If the reality would have a center then it would be limited and with a concrete form. That's impossible. The real thing is the openess to the absolute unlimited, the total dissolution of the self. Imo that's almost impossible, or totally impossible with 5 meo or any psychedelic. 

[Hojo]

Sound like you didn't awaken. You are still scared of dying and on the verge of awakening. There lot of fear that come up during awakening as you are releasing it.

Edited 2 hours ago by Hojo