Connor Murphy the fitness influencer, has passed away

[cetus]

1 minute ago, Inliytened1 said:

I dont think it was the Truth that killed him i think he was never comfortable in his own skin.

My brother was that way. He abused himself with alcohol and finally when things got really bad, he said to my mom, "If anything ever happens to me don't feel bad because I was never happy here". 

[r0ckyreed]

2 hours ago, Monster Energy said:

Usually, close friends and family are much quicker to speak out, even when the burden is heavy.

They did. Watch the video I posted in this thread. His long time best friend confirmed it.

[r0ckyreed]

21 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

I dont think it was the Truth that killed him i think he was never comfortable in his own skin.

He “couldn’t handle the Truth.” His mind opened up more than he could tolerate and had psychotic break. He had genuine awakenings but couldn’t integrate them. Awakening doesn’t mean you will be sane or moral.
 

Truth kills us all in the end since Truth is Everything, including the lake he drowned in.

Edited 42 minutes ago by r0ckyreed

[Leo Gura]

He was doing spirituality for the wrong reasons. He wasn't doing it for truth, he was doing it out of ego and vanity. Something so serious cannot be turned into a social media vanity project. Mysticism isn't a joke, it is more serious than science. Yet some people treat it like a toy.

In Zen they call this "wild fox Zen".

Connor was the wild fox.

Edited 35 minutes ago by Leo Gura

[Hojo]

5 hours ago, OBEler said:

@Leo Gura But its so disturbing because he really faked his emotions. I believe that. It was total overexaggerated and bad acting.  It really seemed to be thats someone who tried to imitate people with real mental conditions.

Hes not faking the emotions hes pretending that hes faking it he was mentally ill. Emotion - thought - action.
He was turning into his thoughts by actioning them everythought he had. This is why you cannot fuck around. He was emoting every thought he had. Those thoughts are imaginary. He turning schizophrenic by treating his thoughts as if they are him. Thats how people go schizophrenic, by emoting his thoughts everytime he has one he gets confused and forgets who he is. The silence is gone as you just created an additional barrier against God.

Saying im faking my emotions is schizophrenia. Bro theres no you to fake emotions and your emotion created your thought.

While going schizophrenic is part of the path emoting every single thought is the opposite of what you want to do you want to let them go rampant but not do anything about them they arent you.

After awakening you are supposed to drop the mask. He put on 15 more and lost the silence and peace of God.

Edited 29 minutes ago by Hojo

[cetus]

I'm sure he was influenced by Frank Yang too.

[Lyubov]

5 hours ago, OBEler said:

No I mean he stated the whole time it was just an act. See my last post where he even was evaluated by a psychiatrist that he is mentally ok so his parents and other viewers are not too concerned. He said he always faked his craziness. His whole goal was to give attention to mental conditions like social anxiety and others. It seemed always to me he knows what he is doing. I really thought he is an actor.

That’s because to a degree there is a phenomenon where your mind / inner child / ego (whatever you wish to call it) knows the truthfulness of your thoughts and what you’re doing. You mix it that with the altered manic state and there is some degree of agency in it. Especially if it becomes a pattern where it becomes familiar. It’s in that space between it all where you act and keep yourself safe and stop putting energy into beliefs and things which create the manic states. Through his episodes a part of you can shine through telling you it’s not true and not right to align like this. Conor overestimated the control he had over it. It’s why he said it’s an act because in a sense it was but it wasn’t an act where he was pretending and faking everything, it was an act in the sense that he would choose it and feed it instead of heeding advice that he would eventually put himself in danger if he fed into those states. 

Edited 3 minutes ago by Lyubov