I have been considering taking my own life

[zaki]

A bit of background about me: I was born and raised in Somalia. I used to watch Leo since I was 14/15. I moved to the UK about three years ago. I lost my brother due to suicide two years ago. I have left islam and I'm not sure whether I'll be able to stay in the UK or not. I have been doing deep research on how I can take my life painlessly. I have no family around. Everything feels meaningless. I didn't think it’d get to this point three year ago. You'd be surprised how ambitious and hard-working I was. I'm in pain and just want to go. I know it’s a cowardly thing to do, but the world isn't nice and we're all going to die anyways. 

[Basman]

Do you have anyone you can speak to?

[Natasha Tori Maru]

25 minutes ago, Basman said:

Do you have anyone you can speak to?

Seconding this - are professionals available to speak to? 

We know not everyone is privileged enough to have access to help. 

You are looking for a permanent solution to a temporary state. No states last forever - please know this ❤️ 

[Someone here]

Please tell us more. From what you’ve shared so far..it’s hard to understand what has brought you to the point where you feel there is absolutely no other option except ending your life.
And honestly..my answer is a firm and heartfelt NO. please don’t do it.

I know you must be carrying an incredible amount of pain to even be thinking about suicide. But pain can convince us that there is no hope when in reality there are still paths  that we simply cannot see in our darkest moments.

Please don’t isolate yourself. Try not to spend long periods alone .Go outside if you can.. be around kind and caring people even if it’s just for a little while.

I also strongly encourage you to seek professional help. Talking to a therapist and if appropriate considering antidepressants can be life changing. You don’t have to carry this burden by yourself.

Most importantly.. be gentle with yourself. Love yourself even if it feels impossible right now. Accept yourself with all your scars..blind spots..mistakes..fears..and wounds.Give yourself the love you’ve been longing to receive from others. Nobody can love you more than yourself . 

And if you feel comfortable please open up a little more about what’s making you feel this way. What is causing so much pain that suicide seems like the only answer? Right now it’s not entirely clear from what you’ve share and understanding your situation better might help others support you more effectively.

i wish you happy long life with peace in your heart . If you need someone to listen my inbox is open . You don’t have to go through this alone .

 

[zaki]

20 hours ago, Basman said:

Do you have anyone you can speak to?

NO

[zaki]

19 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Seconding this - are professionals available to speak to? 

We know not everyone is privileged enough to have access to help. 

You are looking for a permanent solution to a temporary state. No states last forever - please know this ❤️ 

I literally mentioned one time to my therapist and she kind of ignored it. I move on because I didn't want to make things awkward 

[zaki]

19 hours ago, Someone here said:

Please tell us more. From what you’ve shared so far..it’s hard to understand what has brought you to the point where you feel there is absolutely no other option except ending your life.
And honestly..my answer is a firm and heartfelt NO. please don’t do it.

I know you must be carrying an incredible amount of pain to even be thinking about suicide. But pain can convince us that there is no hope when in reality there are still paths  that we simply cannot see in our darkest moments.

Please don’t isolate yourself. Try not to spend long periods alone .Go outside if you can.. be around kind and caring people even if it’s just for a little while.

I also strongly encourage you to seek professional help. Talking to a therapist and if appropriate considering antidepressants can be life changing. You don’t have to carry this burden by yourself.

Most importantly.. be gentle with yourself. Love yourself even if it feels impossible right now. Accept yourself with all your scars..blind spots..mistakes..fears..and wounds.Give yourself the love you’ve been longing to receive from others. Nobody can love you more than yourself . 

And if you feel comfortable please open up a little more about what’s making you feel this way. What is causing so much pain that suicide seems like the only answer? Right now it’s not entirely clear from what you’ve share and understanding your situation better might help others support you more effectively.

i wish you happy long life with peace in your heart . If you need someone to listen my inbox is open . You don’t have to go through this alone .

 

I had a fucked up childhood in Somalia. Thats it really 

[Someone here]

10 hours ago, zaki said:

I had a fucked up childhood in Somalia. Thats it really 

What happened in your childhood? 

[Raze]

Try tranquil wisdom insight meditation and EMDR 

[Ulax]

I'd recommend the Healthygamergg youtube channel.

All the best to you bro.

Edited 4 hours ago by Ulax

[Yimpa]

Don’t dew it.

[Yimpa]

On 5/30/2026 at 2:11 PM, zaki said:

I literally mentioned one time to my therapist and she kind of ignored it. 

Huge red flag. I’d end the relationship with that therapist and find a new one ASAP.

[Never_give_up]

I feel the same, I want to take my life but then again what's the point of taking my life, if reincarnation is true then I am going to be back here again maybe as an ant or something and not a human. Plus it would hurt my family.

What keeps me alive is having goals (learning a language, learning to draw), journaling and imagining that I am with the girl i love (she doesn't like me at all which makes me want to take my life even more so I just fantasize about her and me being together).

It's the goals for me, some day my life will be better when I will learn a language and know how to draw, when I will become thin. I had a rough childhood and teen years and even later, too. But I try to forget my traumas as suggested in Leo's videos about trauma. I don't know how to help you but maybe if you set goals and try to use your imagination to feel better it will help.

 

To be honest the best thing you can do is talk to a psychologist/psychiatrist. I mentioned I want to take my own life to my psychologist and she tried to help me, also she told me to try being grateful for the things I have cause it helps. 

[Yimpa]

@Never_give_up I am grateful for your presence here. You didn’t give up