I lost all my money gambling

[Jowblob]

I lost all my money gambling

My mind started to act up everyday and it was unbearable, i had enough money but it was telling me that i just needed more money to buy or do certain things otherwise i shouldn't be doing certain things or buy certain things that i wanted when i could easily.

So moral of the story, you will never have enough money no matter how much money you possess, because we're living in survival mode the ego will always crave more money for the betterment of your lifestyle without working or to do certain things, that's why you see
people with hundreds of millions gambling it all away it is because when you're feeling abundant it becomes one of few way to feel any excitement from life.

Gambling also lowers consciousness for some reason, i was living in my own peacefull consciousness bubble not hearing any loud noise or the sounds of quads driving in the distance or any noise from the neighbours. But when i lost all my money, suddenly i hear my neighbours playing loud bass music at 9:00 am etc...

My outer world became a reflection of my inner state, that is what hell is, it's you inner state.

 

But i think i'm feeling better now because the abundance is gone now. I still have abundance in other ways that isn't accessible to humans but this too loses it's value and excistement. So the middle way is the only way or from high to low and low to high.

 

Now i will have to go back to working again

Edited Thursday at 04:50 PM by Jowblob

[Leo Gura]

Sorry to hear that man. Very painful.

Hang in there.

[Jowblob]

7 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Sorry to hear that man. Very painful.

Hang in there.

Thank you, i knew you were reading this. And was curious what you would say. It is indeed good to relieve suffering or misfortune, when you see it. I think this is a lesson for me too, to work harder on raising my consciousness to be not bound by money or survival aspects of life. I have achieved abundance in consciousness and unity in particular areas but i'm still not free from the survival aspect of life. I feel 2027 is gonna change that.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Ah! no - I am so sorry to hear this (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Do you think there was some unrest or lack of fulfilment that drove you to gamble?

I hope you get back on your feet as soon as you can. I do not know how to express myself here. But you have my compassion.

I will put you in my thoughts for my sunrise meditation tomorrow, at dawn 🙏

 

[Ramasta9]

Its just money, just material. I lost my brother who was stabbed and killed few weeks ago standing innocently on the side walk.

He was one of the sweetest and most kind hearted person i knew, didn't have a bad bone in his body, gave to charity, helped the homeless, and made friends with neighbours who were not initially friendly to us. He was like Jesus in a way but still a child in many other ways, saw the positive in everything, and didn't each reach his 40th birthday.

If it was money or things, would of been easier. He used to say: You can always make money back and buy the things you broke, they are just "things", but the human never returns once death takes him, the soul is absolutely unique. These situations are wake up calls for all of us.

Some worse than others, maybe this could help shift your perspective that there's always someone out there in a far worse situation.

 

 

[Jowblob]

11 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Ah! no - I am so sorry to hear this (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Do you think there was some unrest or lack of fulfilment that drove you to gamble?

I hope you get back on your feet as soon as you can. I do not know how to express myself here. But you have my compassion.

I will put you in my thoughts for my sunrise meditation tomorrow, at dawn 🙏

 

I think the main reason is that i don't value money as much is because of the spiritual awakening, even though i have worked very hard for it and i know what money can do it only brings temporary joy after all . I knew there was a high chance i will lose everything, and  i knew the risks of gambling but my mind was causing me trouble so it was either: winning money or losing it. The everlasting  fulfillment and joy comes from within and won't go anywhere unlike money. I moved to another country and don't speak the language here, i'm already preparing some documents and papers again so i can get back to work. And thank you for including me in your meditation , love. 

 

10 hours ago, Ramasta9 said:

Its just money, just material. I lost my brother who was stabbed and killed few weeks ago standing innocently on the side walk.

He was one of the sweetest and most kind hearted person i knew, didn't have a bad bone in his body, gave to charity, helped the homeless, and made friends with neighbours who were not initially friendly to us. He was like Jesus in a way but still a child in many other ways, saw the positive in everything, and didn't each reach his 40th birthday.

If it was money or things, would of been easier. He used to say: You can always make money back and buy the things you broke, they are just "things", but the human never returns once death takes him, the soul is absolutely unique. These situations are wake up calls for all of us.

Some worse than others, maybe this could help shift your perspective that there's always someone out there in a far worse situation.

 

 

I’m so sorry about your brother, sending you my condolences. Yeah he's right, money is temporary and so is the joy that money brings. I already feel better and my mind seems to be rested now.

[BlessedLion]

Sorry to hear this man, it's crazy how addictive and tricky those gambling sites/apps can be. 

 

It's a good reminder to be content with what you have, live simple and once having the basics covered just being okay with it. The trap of "just a litte more would really lock me in" is a sticky one

[Miguel1]

@Ramasta9 What country do you live in?

That’s crazy, I am sorry for your loss.

[Ramasta9]

@Jowblob @Miguel Thanks for your words.

Sydney, Australia... Many people think this is a good country but I've lived here all my life, and see this happen a lot, especially in Sydney.

The nature and land is beautiful and vast, but the government and how it treats others, especially immigrants and others (non-english/whites) has always been terrible and disrespectful, especially in the poorer suburbs. The whites here are extremely racist, especially the richer areas.

Living here is becoming very expensive, and now with all the smart-cities and traffic, excess rules and fees for every little excuse the government can find to charge you on, you suffocate unless you live in the mountains or country, which are also rising in prices exponentially. Beaches are mostly for millionaires who can afford it, and its usually full of those whiteys who hate everyone but themselves.

Of course like anywhere else, the further you are from the city, the nicer the people / community and more relaxed the system is, but growing up here has always been mostly hell for me, our family fled here when I was 3, like many families from war or danger to find a better life, but in all honesty, the government always treated us like shit. Luckily my family is mixed so i didn't have it as hard as some of the darker skinned immigrants.

An example of this is my dear brother who was killed was working hard almost daily for 15 years and spent over 100 thousand dollars in lawyers and expenses in countless attempts to apply for permanent residence so he could feel free to go on holiday and visit his family overseas who were in a more dangerous country, and was refused every-single time. Now that they refused him and he was killed the government acts like they care and granted him pertinent residence and some of his family. Now they get to finally come see each other, only problem is they come to bury their son / brother, who was helping them live by working here and sending money over so they can buy bread and survive. Out of all 14 members of their close family, he was the only one who died, while he was sent here thinking he would be safe and free from such things to find a better life. I know many people who were accepted and treated as human beings instantly, but because he came from a country who practiced Muslim religion, its a different story.

Then the country wonders why Muslims get angry and cause problems here, they are treated like shit to begin with, because most are actually kind and loving people who simply came here for a better life, only to be racially threatened by whites and English and others and strategically placed in towns with more trouble and crime when they arrive and seek housing. I've seen this pattern for 30 years living here.

I guess you can understand why I am ranting lately. Most people don't care until it happens to someone they know and love.

[bazera]

10 hours ago, Jowblob said:

I think the main reason is that i don't value money as much is because of the spiritual awakening, even though i have worked very hard for it and i know what money can do it only brings temporary joy after all . I knew there was a high chance i will lose everything, and  i knew the risks of gambling but my mind was causing me trouble so it was either: winning money or losing it.

Did you have a history with gambling in the past or was this a new thing for you?

My friend has a gambling addiction and he lost so many things over it. I've also dealth with some addictions and it's tough man, when you just sabotage yourself even though you know it's not healthy for you.

Anyways, I'm sure you'll make it all back, good luck 💪

[Leo Gura]

I've lived in Vegas for 14 years. Gambled one time. Lost $1.

[bazera]

@Ramasta9 My condolences brother, stay strong for your family and yourself.

I've lost father 1.5 years ago unexpectadly and as terrible of an experience it was, it made me stronger in ways that I was not expecting. And made me realize that I won't be here forever either.

[Ramasta9]

37 minutes ago, bazera said:

@Ramasta9 My condolences brother, stay strong for your family and yourself.

I've lost father 1.5 years ago unexpectadly and as terrible of an experience it was, it made me stronger in ways that I was not expecting. And made me realize that I won't be here forever either.

Thank you, and for sharing this story, excuse my ranting and coldness lately.

[kavaris]

I lost all my money jus livin. So dont worry bout it, its happened to even the best of us.

[AION]

That is a bummer. I hope you took lessons from it

[VioletFlame]

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

I've lived in Vegas for 14 years. Gambled one time. Lost $1.

That is funny.  It takes one unmaterialistic man with a lot of will to live in the biggest gambling state in the U.S. and NOT gamble lol. I give him props.

Gambling is an undesirable pursuit for me. But I feel for people who struggle with it. 

[VioletFlame]

@Jowblob I'm really sorry you're going through this. Hugs. I hope things get better for you soon.