I lost all my money gambling

[Jowblob]

I lost all my money gambling

My mind started to act up everyday and it was unbearable, i had enough money but it was telling me that i just needed more money to buy or do certain things otherwise i shouldn't be doing certain things or buy certain things that i wanted when i could easily.

So moral of the story, you will never have enough money no matter how much money you possess, because we're living in survival mode the ego will always crave more money for the betterment of your lifestyle without working or to do certain things, that's why you see
people with hundreds of millions gambling it all away it is because when you're feeling abundant it becomes one of few way to feel any excitement from life.

Gambling also lowers consciousness for some reason, i was living in my own peacefull consciousness bubble not hearing any loud noise or the sounds of quads driving in the distance or any noise from the neighbours. But when i lost all my money, suddenly i hear my neighbours playing loud bass music at 9:00 am etc...

My outer world became a reflection of my inner state, that is what hell is, it's you inner state.

 

But i think i'm feeling better now because the abundance is gone now. I still have abundance in other ways that isn't accessible to humans but this too loses it's value and excistement. So the middle way is the only way or from high to low and low to high.

 

Now i will have to go back to working again

Edited 3 hours ago by Jowblob

[Leo Gura]

Sorry to hear that man. Very painful.

Hang in there.