Anyone else alone at new years?

[Jannes]

I didnt plan well for today and my plans B, C, D all dont work out so I am home alone. Its all just peer pressure to do something today but I cant help but to feel left out. 

Anyone else in the same situation?

[Salvijus]

You have us and most importantly you have me - your best friend forever. 

[QVx]

Alone on a mattress in my empty house drinking some alcohol in peace, feels good to take a break for a year of hard work  

[Jannes]

I am learning to knit right now. First steps successful. 

[Salvijus]

7 minutes ago, Jannes said:

I am learning to knit right now. First steps successful. 

That's the spirit. 

[Beans]

25 minutes ago, Jannes said:

I am learning to knit right now. First steps successful. 

LOOVE I also crochet 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

We are ahead in Australia so new years is donskies 😃

Had my brother over for a gaming night. Usually it's a non-event for me. New year is my birthday.

[Jannes]

Happy New years everybody !!

and Happy Birthday to You @Natasha Tori Maru  

[Natasha Tori Maru]

4 minutes ago, Jannes said:

Happy New years everybody !!

and Happy Birthday to You @Natasha Tori Maru  

My phrasing was so poor! What I meant was - I count my new year as my birthday (not 1/1/**) if that makes sense 🤪

I stuffed that up so bad with how it was worded! 

Happy new year right back at you! Love the knitting btw - have you tried crochet? I do both. But lately I have been teaching myself macreme 

[Jannes]

1 minute ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

My phrasing was so poor! What I meant was - I count my new year as my birthday (not 1/1/**) if that makes sense 🤪

I stuffed that up so bad with how it was worded! 

Happy new year right back at you! Love the knitting btw - have you tried crochet? I do both. But lately I have been teaching myself macreme 

Ah got it! No worries. 

Yeah I started with crochet but its not really for me. The whole reason why I do knitting is for emotional regulation as adhd makes emotional processing more difficult. With knitting its said that it is more flow inducing. I dont know about macreme, is it hard?

[Yimpa]

I’ll be spending time with family tonight  

And Happy NYE, from Leo ^.^ 

[Ramasta9]

Yes, most of my life is alone, even when I am with family, i am alone, i see through everyone, all the lies, suppression with drugs and alcohol, fake happiness, fake smiles, cameras and phones recording everything and not enjoying the moment. This new years was the most alone I've felt in a while while being in the company of others. It was also the first new years without my partner which was hard for me. The two people I would of loved to spend the evening with under the stars somewhere, unfortunately they were at other events / places. I simply surrendered to the nagging families wishes this time, cause I never go to their gatherings, and glad I am back home alone again, feeling much more whole being with myself than with a crowd full of falsities and suppression of what real and needs to be felt.

I couldn't stand the artificiality of modern humans ever since i was born, I see and feel through it all. Was a big reminder for me, can never really go back to old people and ways stuck in a 3D matrix and useless small talk. If I wasn't around my family it would simply be another day for me, I don't even celebrate my birthday anymore, just intuitively live, time works differently and aging process becomes flexible.

I was like this when i was younger too, partying with my friends, after they all pass out, i was in great joy to sneak home and go in my little room/cave and either go online and play games or explore deeper stuff with substances or simply watch a good movie or read a good book.

Makes me realize how traveling in my van, living and camping in nature everyday was a far richer and more profound life full of surprises.

I am feeling my next move is to sell everything and book a one way flight and travel / live minimalist and throw more things away.

I am starting to realize the deeper i go into my journey, the less I have, the richer and more whole I feel in my spirit.

The only thing I miss here is my garden and having access to your own land where you can grow food and raise animals.

That's all deep souls really need, nature, and animals, humans are optional. 

It was just me and my cat in the end, and we snuggled and i feel asleep.

He knows exactly what I go threw and need.