What keeps you alive?

[theoneandnone]

What keeps you alive like honestly what makes you keep going. I see life as nothing but torture after torture. Everything is pointless riddled with mental illness. The only reason literally the ONLY reason I am alive is because I don’t know what death entails… afraid the unknown…

[Someone here]

Because no one wants to die and life is beautiful.. At least for me .

If you have certain psychological or material problems that make you depressed please open up.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Probably, surprises. Good or bad. But hopefully good.

[Hojo]

Not wanting to sit in the loading screen.

And if you have a functioning body why would you want to end it. The next one could be infinetly worse or better. You wanna take that gamble?

Edited Sunday at 11:09 PM by Hojo

[TheCloud]

I'm moving away from insisting on a mechanically comprehensible meaning of life.  The meaning of my life is whatever I'm doing right now.  My reason to keep living is to keep doing whatever that happens to be.  I know I'm going to die one day, but I don't know when or how.  Insisting on knowing everything ultimately leads to insisting on knowing when and how I'm going to die, which is simply an act of suicide.

[UnbornTao]

Chocolate cake and Elden Ring.

Bear in mind, it's best not to take your experience of emotions too seriously. Give it some space - some "distance." Recognize it as an activity you're engaged in, not something that belongs to reality or life itself.

Think of depression as a particular outfit you might occasionally wear, rather than confusing it with your body (or something of the sort). You can always wear something else, too.

[theleelajoker]

Last week I took mushrooms. I went for a walk. It was beautiful sunshine despite late autumn 🍁 

I sat down on a bench at a playground. I sat for a few minutes and felt the sun on my face. I felt the energy, the warmth of the sun rays. I felt so happy and fulfilled by it. And all I needed to do was to sit there and receive.

Something was sinking in, and I thought "That's the same in life in general! It's all there, all I need to do is to allow myself to receive. Being there is enough just as it's enough now with the sun. So many good things have been happening, I can't force them but I can become more open to receive"

First time I felt this level of gratitude and self worth. Curios to find out what happens when I take this attitude into real life in my everyday interactions. That's a major reasons for me to stay alive. Finding out what's possible 

[Schizophonia]

@theoneandnone

If your relationship with your father, and by extension with authority in general, is unclear due to a troubled Oedipus complex or, at the very least, the dynamics surrounding the discovery of genital sexuality and its implications, you will see yourself as "against" or "in competition" with the law rather than with it. This oppositional relationship creates a repressed "castration anxiety" (fear of being punished), and therefore, defense mechanisms against this anxiety.

All of this is unconscious, but the hallmark of an excess of this neurotic configuration is a mixture of guilt and fear, depending on the specific defense mechanisms employed, of being phallic, that is to say, "selfish."

This guilt will lead you into many very unpleasant situations throughout your life.

[Bjorn K Holmstrom]

Here's what I think keeps me alive: Curiosity (what will happen with mankind and the planet?) and built in self-preservation (I've had suicidal thoughts but don't seem able to act on it). I used to be more depressed than I am now, I've been at the point where everything seemed pointless. Now I occasionally feel compassion and love for all of it, the ultimate shit-show of reality.