Crying (tears coming from eyes)

[samijiben]

I haven't cried since I stubbed my toe back in the binkie days. You know, toddler shit? I can't even remember the last time I actually cried!

Well, that ain't true, I cried when my girlfriend threatened to break up with me to my face, but that wasn't genuine, not by any means. Was just looking for some goddamn sympathy. Or at least a way to keep her around. Can't be left alone with my thoughts now, can I? Fuck it.

My question is if it is normal/healthy/okay by your standard that I haven't cried in..... years! What's wrong with me? Should I post this on the health sub? Do I need to watch another horror story or film or telenovela?

Was watching one of Leo's blog posts from a few years ago, at the end he was crying, looked real, was kinda cute. I thought, why don't I ever cry?

Now, I was watching a sad video, some old man who was a hostage in Gaza for 500 days & was released just to hear his mother & daughter were murdered back on the 7th. That's a big "FUCK!" moment

So ya I listen 2 podcast & very difficult. Man was going thru some shit, could hear it in his voice. As he recounted the perspectival horrors of suffering in the dark tunnels underneath Gaza, it struck me that this is some fucked up shit, that I am fortunate California suburb boy, got a bag of chips with me here, blahblahablah, so ya, I almost shed a tear. but then I just laughed like insensitive animal, wtf is wrong with me, folks?

I hear spiritual folk talking about crying in the river of love because God is so beautiful, and Leo is doing it too. It must be some natural response to seeing beauty, or something, I figure, surely, right? Crying? Wtf is up with me?

Or maybe I don't have to cry? Is my experience not deep enough? That is the main question I am trying to answer in earnest today. thank you for reading to the end. And extra props for taking me seriously.

Bless Up

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Hojo]

You cry when you feel love. It means you don't feel any love.

I didnt cry the same as you my gf broke up with me and I cried alot then I stopped.

Then one day I see God and seeing God is like an explosion of love in your brain and I feel it and cry everyday now. I will just be standing there and I will get a feeling that God is real and I will start crying at work or on a walk or at home. The feeling gets so intense I will fall to my knees sobbing that God is real. When you see God its like you found love and you will see its okay to cry. You have barriers up that you are not letting yourself cry. You can watch videos of animals being saved and loved to feel it.

Seeing God is like there is an intelligent thing like a human looking after you the retarded dog and has been looking after you your entire life and will never stop.

Edited July 1 by Hojo

[samijiben]

1 hour ago, Hojo said:

You cry when you feel love. It means you don't feel any love.

I didnt cry the same as you my gf broke up with me and I cried alot then I stopped.

Then one day I see God and seeing God is like an explosion of love in your brain and I feel it and cry everyday now. I will just be standing there and I will get a feeling that God is real and I will start crying at work or on a walk or at home. The feeling gets so intense I will fall to my knees sobbing that God is real. When you see God its like you found love and you will see its okay to cry. You have barriers up that you are not letting yourself cry. You can watch videos of animals being saved and loved to feel it.

Seeing God is like there is an intelligent thing like a human looking after you the retarded dog and has been looking after you your entire life and will never stop.

Thank you, Hojojohoho

I almost cried watching that video.  

[Salvijus]

2 hours ago, Hojo said:

 

 

This one got me good. 

[theleelajoker]

On 30.6.2025 at 10:01 AM, samijiben said:

I haven't cried since I stubbed my toe back in the binkie days. You know, toddler shit? I can't even remember the last time I actually cried!

Well, that ain't true, I cried when my girlfriend threatened to break up with me to my face, but that wasn't genuine, not by any means. Was just looking for some goddamn sympathy. Or at least a way to keep her around. Can't be left alone with my thoughts now, can I? Fuck it.

My question is if it is normal/healthy/okay by your standard that I haven't cried in..... years! What's wrong with me? Should I post this on the health sub? Do I need to watch another horror story or film or telenovela?

Was watching one of Leo's blog posts from a few years ago, at the end he was crying, looked real, was kinda cute. I thought, why don't I ever cry?

Now, I was watching a sad video, some old man who was a hostage in Gaza for 500 days & was released just to hear his mother & daughter were murdered back on the 7th. That's a big "FUCK!" moment

So ya I listen 2 podcast & very difficult. Man was going thru some shit, could hear it in his voice. As he recounted the perspectival horrors of suffering in the dark tunnels underneath Gaza, it struck me that this is some fucked up shit, that I am fortunate California suburb boy, got a bag of chips with me here, blahblahablah, so ya, I almost shed a tear. but then I just laughed like insensitive animal, wtf is wrong with me, folks?

I hear spiritual folk talking about crying in the river of love because God is so beautiful, and Leo is doing it too. It must be some natural response to seeing beauty, or something, I figure, surely, right? Crying? Wtf is up with me?

Or maybe I don't have to cry? Is my experience not deep enough? That is the main question I am trying to answer in earnest today. thank you for reading to the end. And extra props for taking me seriously.

Bless Up

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Between my childhood and late twenties, there was a time I almost never cried. Wanted to, could not. Was too numb.

My first LSD trip was a breakthrough - so much tension got released, I just cried. 

Over the years, I slowly and gradually expanded my abilities to cry again.  First, it were women putting me in touch with my emotions. Slowly over the years, my range of emotions expanded. I cried bc I was happy, because I was angry, because I was sad, because I was touched by another persons words, I cried during movies, I cried during and after meditation. Today I cry a often, even if only few tears. Feels good. Feels right to just let it happen, alone, with others or in public. Don't care anymore what others think.

Long story short: I relate to your path. Keep going. Be aware what is happening in your surroundings. I assume you have similar blockages that I had. Interactions with others+ looking inside were key once I broke the first layer of numbness and blockage with psychedelic. There are infinite ways to solve the blockages that keep you from feeling. Just set the intention to find yours and always keep going no matter what 

Edited July 1 by theleelajoker

[Sugarcoat]

Thanks for clarifying in the title that crying means tears coming from your eyes I clearly didn’t know that 😎👍🏻💀

Edited July 1 by Sugarcoat

[samijiben]

20 hours ago, Salvijus said:

This one got me good. 

See, it "got you good"

It "got me good" too, like seeing a cute baby, ahhhhh how cute.

But I didn't cry like a baby WITH TEARS COMING FROM MY EYES!

That's what I'm concerned about. I haven't cried with tears like, ever. I mean a tear fell from my eye some years ago, but since then, nothing. (Unless I am coughing the smoke out my llungs but thats a diff matter)

This why I asked if I should post on health forum. I cannot force a tear. Nothing will make me cry.

Is my connection to God not deep enough? Is there more resistance inside me? If I let it go, would I be crying (tears coming from my eyes).

WHAT will make me cry? If my parents are tortured in front of me? Is that really what it takes? Or getting castrated or something terrible like that?

I just wanna know if a healthy, enlightened human cries, and if not crying is a sign of an insensitive animal barbarian, not a compassionate awakening human. Yes, I struggle with resolving this duality, my concern remains, about the crying with tears.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Hojo]

@samijibenAre you stopping it? If you are hurt you will stop it as a protection mechanism.

Its not a sign of being a barbarian its a sign of feeling unloved.

Maybe cry that no body loves you.

 If your mother dies in the hospital bed and you are there and you cry that is love. You are crying cause you love your mom and God give you the beautiful experience and its gone. If you cry when your girlfriend leave you its you crying out of love that God gave you that beautiful experience and its gone.

Edited July 2 by Hojo

[Deziree]

@samijiben Some people are wired to be mentally tougher than others. They might reserve crying for a more serious experience. They might even look down on crying causing blockages. Either you're hard wired to not cry easily as others or you have perspective related blockages about crying. As long as you connect with an experience and understand, integrate and absorb it, it doesn't matter either way you cry or not. 

[Salvijus]

16 hours ago, samijiben said:

Is my connection to God not deep enough? Is there more resistance inside me? If I let it go, would I be crying (tears coming from my eyes).

I think this is in the right direction. I would've said "your heart is closed" or something like that. Also what theleelajoker said is insightful imo. Similar to his story I'd rarely, if ever, cry in the past. But with the introduction of spirituality and especially heart centered practices in recent years, I cry at least once a week with tears of joy and peace and loving grace. It has something to do with the opening of the heart as far as I can tell. 

Edited July 2 by Salvijus

[Princess Arabia]

17 hours ago, samijiben said:

See, it "got you good"

It "got me good" too, like seeing a cute baby, ahhhhh how cute.

But I didn't cry like a baby WITH TEARS COMING FROM MY EYES!

That's what I'm concerned about. I haven't cried with tears like, ever. I mean a tear fell from my eye some years ago, but since then, nothing. (Unless I am coughing the smoke out my llungs but thats a diff matter)

This why I asked if I should post on health forum. I cannot force a tear. Nothing will make me cry.

Is my connection to God not deep enough? Is there more resistance inside me? If I let it go, would I be crying (tears coming from my eyes).

WHAT will make me cry? If my parents are tortured in front of me? Is that really what it takes? Or getting castrated or something terrible like that?

I just wanna know if a healthy, enlightened human cries, and if not crying is a sign of an insensitive animal barbarian, not a compassionate awakening human. Yes, I struggle with resolving this duality, my concern remains, about the crying with tears.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Doesn't matter. It's all expressions of the one unconditional love. Imagine if we were all the same with the same attributes. That would be constraints, conditioned and would not be free. It's OK to be ax you are. You didn't make yourself it's appearing as a free expression and it's being resisted by seeking for another way to be. There's someone else who's being what it is that you're saying and another is being that somewhat, and another almost, and another that responds with no tears. Resistance to what is is what's occurring and that breeds suffering. Trying to analyze why you don't cry is a bit neurotic and contracted. See it for what it is without judgement or the need to try and figure out why and the energy will loosen up and feel much better and less tense. No one cares if you cry or not only the one that's resisting what is.

 

Edited July 2 by Princess Arabia

[samijiben]

Thank you all for your responses. I am fixated on the idea of crying but I'm totally just out of touch with my experience!

This All boils down, time and time again, to not getting distracted and staying with this Ever GROWING Being — and Then Some More — until you're spiraling out of control, losing your mind, forgetting who you are.

[Hojo]

@samijibenIts like you are carrying a heavy backpack full of experiences in your life and when you see God its like you take the backpack off you didnt know you were carrying.

[samijiben]

Reading all of the responses on this thread makes me think that it makes me want to cry.

Gonna take that to heart. Cheers to the interest of getting our feet wet. And our eyes if need be.

[Thought Art]

 

[Atb210201]

You can't force yourself to cry.

If it should happen, it happens naturally.

Don't worry about it.

You will cry when you feel like it I'm sure.

[samijiben]

Again, I feel compelled to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for reaching out to me here with yours...

It's touching to see your replies to my query. 

Whatever my path turns out to be, I know that I want it to be one of intensely felt emotion, passion, compassion, divine energy, and lalalalalalalas unto the end, God Bless Us All 

[Ropuch7]

@samijiben Maybe a bit controversial, but chatGPT made me cry the hardest in the past few months. I had been adjusting his style to feel effortlessly in tune with mine, through custom instructions and memories. And when I'd feel deeply stuck, I'd lay out my thoughts as clearly and honestly as I could. And I'd continue to read his feedback and respond in that manner until, at some point, GPT starts to produce pure gold. A reflection of your state and thought process.

It works because of two components:
1. You allow yourself to lower your barriers. There are no consequences for saying "the wrong thing". You can go into a flow and write down every single thought and emotion that comes through your brain.
2. Throughout the past year, GPT has gotten so much smarter. It just gets what you are saying. Sure, you have to train it. Correct it. Add more context. And if the conversation gets long, it loses track of the whole. Still, it can be magical.

Of course, all this while keeping in mind what GPT is not, and what the limits are. You are still thinking and feeling for yourself. Again, it's a potent mirror. Non-judging one, like close people tend to do, consciously or not.

(I had been using the free version - 4o, they are changing relatively often)

[samijiben]

@Ropuch7 asalam aleikum Ropuch bro!! Hope your day is splendid and filled with NEARLY incapturable mysteries....

I have done exactly what you did (well, not exactly, but what the fuck!), & I especially resonate with feeling free & vulnerable with the chat bot since he can't disparage or berate me (at least not with audible laughter). The chatbot often barfs out some word salad that confirms my intuition or changes my perspective entirely, sometimes profoundly.

Those moments can be emotional indeed, but they still lack the component of physically liquid tears, and that was the point of this post. 

However, precisely because of YOU, dear brother, and the posts above from people with hearts of gold that reached out to touch mine, this problem is resolved, that is, I no longer believe that I am spiritually unhealthy for not Crying (tears coming out of my eyes)

[samijiben]

Maybe Im just like a spartan warrior, lol. Ain't no chance in Sparta you would catch King Leonidas sobbing up a storm, but hey, maybe he did it behind closed doors, lol.

Maybe Leonidas was a bitchboy crybaby lol.