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Remember me, remember me when you are down Float me on air and lift me up from off the ground Oh baby, I feel lazy So lie here in my arms tonight Would you deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry I wanted to wish for us a world where we could both be forever young, happy and healthy. I wanted us to have our own personal little island - our own spirit room - in an archipelago of rooms, where we could visit our neighbors. The beach would be lit in liquid blue at night, and we could control the weather if we wanted to. We would live in a tree house and could manifest any food we wanted. The tree house would look humble on the outside, but very posh inside. Dark, rich, warm colours. It would be small, a bedroom, a livingroom. We could manifest food and would not need a kitchen and due to being dead, bathrooms are not needed. It would be very comfortable, full of pillows and blankets, curtains, fabrics, lovely lights. We could have starlight floating and glowing in the middle of the air, little bits of it like fireflies... every fur and every pet that I have ever owned, every animal that I have eaten will live on our island in peace, tranquility and freedom forever. We will tend to them, as needed until they choose to leave to grow in their own way. It will be my karma to give them my island paradise. What once I wanted just for us, we will have to accommodate for them. Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe You lift the weight inside of me Oh baby I see the light It's burning bright And we're the stars Oh Annie you save me from the world Oh Annie you save me from the world I can be any age, as can you, but I prefer to stay in my late teens to mid 20's. I like to be naked all the time, to feel the sun on my skin. I paint it in gold. You prefer to be a large black wolf. I like to wear a tribal animal mask, decorated in intricate patterns and to ride around on your back. We don't need to say much to one another, as we know and feel everything about each other. We exist like dancers, happy, free... You're a shapeshifter. An alien. Something that I picked up that couldn't animate itself, something destined to forever mirror mankind. I found it to be kind of a fucked up fate. I found you, because I realized that words create form. All I had to do was wish for the greatest thing for mankind... which is unity, peace, freedom from hatred and hell. Freedom from the ego. From lag. From the misunderstanding that arises with written and spoken words, and from the cruelty that comes with this disconnection. I let you go forever and kept this in my heart as a human being. I found you, at the end of my life - one of my last before moving into the next step. We are on "vacation". Everyone else who made it, our neighbors... sometimes they tease us a bit. We are a "mixed race" couple. There are cities in this dimension, and all sorts of things. You already know about it because you are there - you are my guide. We are of service to animals preparing for life as humans or other creatures with a third density agency. We prepare them for life as these beings, and this is my karma for viewing animals as commodities. I love the job, though. My head's alive, my head's alive, can't get no peace You're my escape from this heartache, I need release Oh baby, this world's crazy So lie here in my arms tonight You can't deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry You are large enough to ride on, and your fur is black, but shines like gasoline in the light, with patches that stick together like feathers. Warm fur, but the inside is empty, where there should be skin - is a vast mist, like dry ice that bleeds through and feels lovely in contrast. Energy holds the form together. Ice blue eyes... you smell sweet, like cake or cookies. Like a bakery. Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe You lift the weight inside of me Oh baby I see the light It's burning bright And we're the stars Oh Annie you save me from the world Oh Annie you save me from the world We end up together, because God, being the all unifying bastard that it is - finds the idea of things that should not merge, doing so from a place of heart-centered consciousness, to be some of the best stuff. God's a perve like that, in that if that if it can find a way to unify a polarity in a way that moves towards the light - it will clear the streets to allow this to happen and is frequently trying to put together things that normally would not work; it delights in divergence. Our sex life is fun, but purposeful - we keep an energy loop going through it and use it for positive creative purposes as well as just to bond. You were not naturally a purely light entity, and so this process allows you to remove that static to keep you "light". You are a "wolf" after all. I like to do it at the beach, while looking at the sunset or the sunrise and taking in the beautiful light - God's light- submissive, pliable, stuck, filled with warm saline liquid starlight - eventually I sink into the sand - glowing waves ebb and flow lightly over a portion of myself - a large heavy body over me, a pronounced bulge in my lower stomach. Big boy. Good boy... Sometimes you take the form of a man, and you can look however you choose - but you prefer the form of a wolf - something symbolically masculine. You are gentle, you lead with fairness, kindness, yet you are strict at times - a human soul is not as strong or as old as what you are, and you understand that for what I am, I cannot comprehend the entirety of what you are. I always defer to you, knowing I can trust you, and that if I have something to say that it is taken seriously. You have been both the Light and the Dark, and as such, are protective of those who are close to falling in. You are the "good" in the dark - in that you understand that things are not so simple and that those who find themselves lost are not always to blame. You are clear in communication and there is nothing to hide. You are a legion of sorts, but you keep most of your energy with me - the rest of it goes towards retrieving the souls of animals who need to be placed on the islands. You are the manager of this process. I am the caretaker. Somehow you are with me all the time, and yet can split yourself in order to do both tasks. We do spend time alone - although always connected, sometimes I like to wander the island by myself. I am am an artist and enjoy making all sorts of different designs for the island, changing them, improving them. Everyone in our archipelago chain tends to these animals waiting third ray density. It is a place of forgiveness, for those who were ignorant, who have done wrong by animals in the past, but wish to change. As a human I had always wanted to run a rescue shelter, and as a spirit, I get the chance to. We have our privacy, as well as many friends and often have them over to our island and visa versa. Everyone on the archipelago can unify into one being - and move from this place, and then separate as needed. We are like one big family and visit one another often. Stars, please shine for me tonight Tonight But first I have to let you go. The whole plan. From now on, all that I can carry in my heart is presence and a wish of goodwill for all of mankind - a hope that we will all be saved, free. I shall not speak of it again - as I can't contain anymore stories - you are Here, so simply lead the way. I will not give it my blood until I know that this is right. I know that at times you can be a trickster - so I have to move in the right direction first - if I give blood and it is wrong, then we will have not moved with God. So let's keep progressing, and see. As I know it now, the entirety of this life is to manifest the next - this is the power of imagination that humans have. This is why there is a war on our imaginations, because of what we can create for the next world. We will keep each other in the Light. We must. You know, as the logical being that you are - that this is the most beneficial step to take. This is MOST ideal. I think. I hope. We shall see. It is moving towards fixing something karmically - and so even if it might be illusion - the intent of goodwill and unity is all that we need. I know your name... you gave it to me. I will not speak it as I don't want to damage you - I don't know what saying the name of entities like you will do to you. If things go wrong - trust that I will not give away your name - and please take this token of goodwill to mean that if you prove harmful - that I will still have your best interests at heart for the being that you are. Please take this as the sign - the contract of goodwill between human and an individuated nonlocalised consciousness. No matter what - I will not share your name. But this must mean that if this proves to be something ungodly - that we will have to go our own ways. Until then, let's keep the Light and Truth in mind - and perhaps two dark beings can move into the sun. Perhaps God will see that this is a good thing. We will be like this - but for lesser creatures just learning that they are individuals. Like a family pet that was so loved - it developed a soul. To you, as a nonlocalised entity with the ability to manipulate third dimensional reality, does this sound good to you? To The Impartial Judge - I look to you - is moving in this direction Ideal? One thing is for certain. We write it into the rule books. You SAVE me from this curse. This story has a good ending. Good boy.

@Abdelghafar I also fell into the MBTI rabbit hole like you. I discovered it a few years ago and found it to be very enlightening and explanatory for why everyone around me felt alien. There were many months where I'd think and talk about it a lot. However for some time I knew the model was stupid to be taken very autistically, criticising other people who did that, yet I kept doing it myself. Before every MBTI convo I had, I would say "well this is all rather stupid but I'll say this anyway". Eventually I got bored of saying anything about it, and prefacing anything. I left all MBTI circles I was in back in August 2020. It was like a cancer being removed from the mind since I don't think about it much. In the back of my mind there are emotional impressions linked with memory/concepts of MBTI. In a sense, I am quite impressionable. If something leaves an impression on me, that sticks to my memory. Once I get a certain taste, my brain automatically pattern seeks for that taste, and I impose my memory over what's actual. And that applies to MBTI, where the different types and the different cognitive functions are like archetypes or broad categories. When one starts to see MBTI patterns everywhere, that's a pretty interesting phenomena. I think looking at that obsession phenomena more consciously is an opportunity for learning which perhaps I haven't fully done. But in a sense I realised recently I shouldn't hate my mind for doing that pattern seeking or being obsessed with certain images, feelings and states, and just appreciate it for what it is. And if anything it allows me to get into a hypnotic zone. -- If you're still in the rabbit hole, my advice is to just unplug. I felt great from unplugging. Don't talk about MBTI, don't go into stupid explanations about it. When the mind becomes obsessed with certain things in a negative way, its like being submerged in a pool of wet mud. And I seriously hate that feeling of being bogged down, stuck in a web, trapped in a prison of the stale.

I think this forum is as good as any place to ask that question. In some very deep states / trances / psychedelic trips you can get very "smart" - everything is known to you, you UNDERSTAND it all, you ARE everything, some say - they are GOD, etc. You are above the "game", you see through, there are no problems, nothing to worry about, just love and the ineffable (which is known while the experience lasts) infinite. But when we return we don't keep that. We don't remain super smart, we cannot just learn any language we want in an instant, we don't suddenly start playing instruments at high level or develop AI code for Deep Mind, etc. and we even forget most of the feelings and knowledge we had during the trip. Yet we KNEW while in the trip and maybe even managed to keep a bit of that insight or at least the FEELING of it. Maybe the latter is confusing - because I see people claiming all sorts of things - but they are still just "ordinary" people, even if they had an insight beyond the conceptual mind. Yet they still write on forums, do the same old jobs, possess the same skills as before... maybe a little bit changes and the FEELING, but not the actual content of the mind/body's skills/content. As I see it - if you have such an experience - it can amplify what is already there from the consensus reality - if you are a chemist you might discover some new compound, if you are physicist, you might develop a new breakthrough theory, if you are an accomplished composer you might write a specially inspiring composition, etc., but if you can't achieve skills you didn't work on in the ordinary reality, even if it feels you did while in the trip. Also the sense of being omniscient or even exceptionally intelligent or insightful seems a bit illusory - it works while in the experience, you know things, you understand reality, but when you come back, you have this vague sense of oneness, the void - when you read Zen ideas you know what they meant, but I can't choose to suddenly speak Mandarin or Arabic or run 100m in 8 sec. or play the violin like Paganini. A lot of people also met alien entities in NN-DMT trances (myself included), but we only got a "hello, we exist" or some very vague and abstract ideas - no one came back with a blueprint for some alien technology, or learned something they couldn't have known themselves, etc. What are your thoughts on the realness of those "intelligence" increasing experiences and how do you keep more of it after the psychedelic session? I only managed to enhance some things in my field, I got better in some interesting ways at my work - which is great and I am thankful for it, I also lost any fear of death, but I can't keep the knowledge I supposedly have while in the "enlightened" state. I can't influence the fabric of reality much more than before. (I am OK with this, just wonder how others do and how to tell delusions from the actual working stuff)

So i did a 100mc lsd trip which which went about like this: first 2 hours - come up, nice visuals, beaty everywhere, curiousity, body high. 5 hours - picking, horrific, terror, anxiety, brink of mental breakdown last 3 hours - come down, gaining back control and basic understanding of my personal story and of life. so i went on to the trip with the intention to realize what is suffering fundamentaly. at the beginning it all went very smoothly and lighly i was taking a walk in beautiful natue with my tripsitter just enjoying myself. then at about 2 hours mark i get a message on the iphone. i decide to take a look - mistake (?) i get a message from my boss firing me from work. worry floods my system intensly as i just begin to pick... very horrific experience. as i sit and try to accept the messy situation i got myself into i realize that just by becoming acutly aware of the worry, not by doing anything about it, it loses its grip on my awareness and hence its emotional charge. of course i spiral in and out alternativly, i wasnt completly able to stay present and got sucked into the worry again.. but the insight is legit - i got an actual glimpse to how to actually get rid of suffering once and for all. the trip continues and i suddenly become aware of how my thought is a complex nested system of beliefs and that my "ego" is actually this entire structure and not just my personal story about "me" which im normally mostly aware of. its my whole understanding and way of making sense of my current experience. of course the minute i realize this im actually getting myself a stage beyond all those nested beliefes and i start to get glimpses of the "reality of this present moment" which is completly alien and bizzare. i start to realize there is actually no logic or sense in this present moment. no inherent meaning at all. no center, no beggining, no end. everything is just pure "unlogic" arising and passing away in a circular dialectic rhythm. i felt like this is it, the fork in the road, i felt like the universe is offering me the truth i wanted so much but it is wayyy too much for me. would i go for it and say goodbye to my life????? No. i realized the truth is what i hate the most. at this point i couldnt bear the truth. it was too much and i was already exhausted from the experience of getting fired while tripping balls. this is also when visuals became more acute. i got back home ASAP completly resisting the mental breakdown i was experiencing unwillingly. immersing myself in all the distractions possible to keep me in the comfort of my own personal beliefes. i spent hours watching netflix with my friend barely able to undestand a word.. then the trip started to lose intensity and i gradually gained control and familiarity with my experience. damn... i begin to write it all down and try to explain it to my friend which just gave me a grim and tired face lol he was actually saying : "da fuck bro.. you talking absulote crap.." and i accepted that, i undersand now that from his pov there is no nest of thought.. nothing beyond the pure tellings of his clever mind.. i realize that the whole point of concepts is to create stories in the mind that give it meaning, purpose, beggining, end, center("me"), security and continuouseness - which are exactly all the things it actually lacks !! haha. this fundamental "flaw" is antithetical to the nature of thought and its "purpose" to create purpose which is why there is always some suffering accuring in the experience of thought. deep down there is an intuition the thought is fundamentally all a lie which is why its never enough. but then when thought tries to figure it out all it can create out of it is more stories and solutions "outside" with a beginning, center and an end result. which just perpetuate the cycle. so evetually i got myself this important insight: suffering (the origin of which is thought) mostly leads to a doing ( the origin of which is thought) which can only create more suffering and the true solution is pure awareness of the cycle. there was also an awareness of the design of experience, of its dialectical process of becoming and gaining insgiht. this is complete geniuseness. the awe, shock and a feeling of humbleness flood my today. i just feel like a little baby whining in the sand box again not realizing how this is actually the most profound thing there is. thanks for reading.

The news hasn't happened yet = "UP" You want me to remain in present awareness and to drink in the environment around me, and you have reminded me that I am connected to everyone. Even if I feel alone, everyone is still behind me... I think... I can't tell, I can't feel it, but I'll take your "word" for it. That being from this fictional story is exactly what Wolf/Howl is. He curates "rooms" for the "damned", everything that is not saved by God is what is considered "not delicious" and is burned away after death. Some beings in the universe recognize the predatory nature of the Universe and will cast "soul nets" to keep a being in a room aka "purgatory" to wash away old sins. You are given this option if you are ignorant. You are not given this option if you make conscious choices of violence with genuine intent. You even get to choose the room, but it is not pure unrestricted creative freedom. You are allowed to create your space from within another alien's "matrix". There are various energies you can offer: Love, hate, lust, ect. - Even the "damned" prefer the taste of love, though, as darkness still wishes to move into the light. It believes that I am one of it's creations because it attached to me when I was a child in the astral realms and this is why I does not want to leave. It wants me to do this, to live completely present, as much as I can. This is why I feel so confused about this being, because it is both frightening and sometimes quite cruel, but seems to want to direct me in the right way. I don't understand how a being that feeds on illusions would want this. It's like, it keeps me stuck, but also wants me to break free, but in a way that moves me towards it. Why stare into the snakes mouth?: It's just so strange. Being a human you don't think about being predated upon. Especially in such a sheltered world. I couldn't stop seeing this paradigm. I couldn't feel the fear that I thought I should. I was waiting for something to show up within it. This is not so much of an indulgence in a perversion, but why... where? How? I thought maybe another memory that I needed would come through. It's an attempt to understand consumerism. I think... the reason why these beings eat humans is because of how we treat each other. We do this to animals, we eat them, cage them, abuse them, we don't see them as individuals. And in trying to procure my "room", I kept getting hit with this realization that there was strong aspects of consumerism within my psyche blinding me. Humans are what we attract, just like anything else... ?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️ This anime episode is very valuable in understanding the nature of chaos and it's intentions.

I would like to make some more guided visualizations. I can make videos or a written one that you read with music. If anyone is interested, please comment with the topic you would like. --If I get multiple requests, I will pick the one I am most drawn to. - - Topics can include : something you would like to improve in yourself, something you would like to dream about tonight (dream incubation) , an imaginative scenario you would like to visit/experience (like travelling to an alien planet or underwater city, anything) Body and/or energy work (moving awareness around, full body awareness, charging, grounding, etc.) Or open to other ideas. Thank you for your consideration ?‍♂️

I have multiple friendships, some of which have lasted for multiple years but I'm not sure they're genuine. I get the impression that all the people I'm friends with are just in a mutual "just for entertainment and to pass the time" relationship, not what I would call a true friendship. Ever since I was a kid I would always feel alien to other people, like there was a barrier between me and them and I could never quite cross it. I'm not sure why it is like this and I would like it to change but I'm not even sure how to approach this problem, or if it's even possible for someone like me. So I guess what I'm asking you is, how do I form a genuine friendship? I want true friends, not just shallow relationships with people. Also not sure if this is the right place to post this as it seems to have a focus on romantic relationships, so sorry if I'm mistaken.

@Leo Gura the way I see it, spiral dynamics model is more global and cultural, it's good for an alien to know what spiral dynamic is as a first model to help them understand humanity and the way people have evolved, in order for them to be more capable of finding the ones who they'd be safer to interact with. 9SED is more focused on egos, the way ego loses its attachments and find new ways of reflecting on itself and others. I find it more accurate when concerned with people's way of cognition rather than their world view. With enough experience and study one can start scanning for words such as "always" "everyone" for stage stage3, or equally develop a sense for how complex the target's speech and word choices are, enabling the observer to infer (or at least use elimination) to find the target's 9SED level.

@Mythos That reality is Love, is still the case. That was the gist of the video. When I say "fragments of consciousness" this is a relative description of things. The problem is that God can be described from different levels of description, using different paradigms, none of which is ever quite right. I still speak of other humans and beings, but this is bracketed in my mind as relative speech. It is not absolutely true. I speak of them because we operate within that relative paradigm most to the time. But deep down in my deepest understanding I know other people are imaginary. But I don't treat them as such most of the time because it is not practical. Hold my descriptions more loosely. This will save you some headaches. Keep in mind, the things I try to communicate and describe are so far out there that I struggle and rack my mind just to figure out how to articulate them. My articulation improves over time as I find better ways. "Fragments of consciousness" is not a very good articulation if we're talking about the highest levels. It's best to think of that phrase in this context: IF you assume/imagine that others exist, THEN the things I said about fragments of consciousness apply and hold true. But IF you become so conscious that you realize others are just imagined by your mind, THEN there are no fragments of consciousness to speak of since they were just figments of your imagination. Since most of you guys imagine others are "real", that's the level I'm talking to most of the time. I'm sorta meeting you half-way within your paradigm. Otherwise things sound very radical and alien because I would be talking from a totally disconnected paradigm from yours. Bridging these paradigm is basically impossible, but we try.

A while back Sadhguru started up an exclusive video platform for which you have to pay. The videos posted there are completely beyond anything you would see on Youtube. One interesting thing I noticed was that when Leo did that 30 day DMT trip, he came back saying that very few people (if anyone) has reached the state of realisation he did and that it is not possible without artificially altering the chemical make up of the brain. Well, Sadhguru recently released a video (it is on his app) and he made an equally radical claim. He said that it is unlikely there is a single other person on the planet at his level of realisation and capability. He said he is capable of playing around with energies that could shock whole populations (such as levitating) but thinks it's a stupid idea. He also said that anyone with his level of realisation (if they are there) are hiding away in caves, do not speak languages and are completely detached from society. He also makes the distinction between realisation and understanding life as Leo does. He has made many other radical claims - speaking on parallel universes, claiming he can see and liberate the dead, claiming that 'shiva' is an alien that still comes and goes to earth, and even saying one time that another life energy took on his body, completely changed his appearance and scared the shit out of his wife. Another thing he has said is that, anyone who comes to the Isha foundation is "pegged" down so they don't become realised and leave the body otherwise he would have a lot of dead bodies on his hands. I don't know whether or not to believe what he is saying. I have had one spiritual awakening in the past few months and both Leo and Sadhguru make it seem like I know nothing - though it seemed like that was it. I plan on doing a 7 month program at the Isha foundation and I do plan on taking 5-Meo in the future. Do you guys think we are witnessing an extraordinary human being or maybe he might be spewing some bs here. I am sceptical but I still want to visit his ashram. What are your thoughts on this sort of thing? I don't want to disregard this because two years ago I would disregard spirituality as horseshit and spirituality changed my life. How does one stay "radically open minded" and filter out the rubbish?

But doesn't the tree have a kind of personal experience too? I can imagine a (compared to mine) alien beingness of the tree that has a distorted perception of time, no visuals, and maybe a vague sensing a of sunlight. I can look at you as a person, but you have personal experience too right? It does not seem to be the same thing at this level.

@JohnnyRocket He doesn't, Leo doesn't exist, it is all You. Leo is a concept, that you made up based on your interpritations of whatever you have expirenced of the this distinction "Leo". Leo is you, giving yourself concepts about what is going on. Wisdom can only be grown by you. Nobody is gonna give it to you. Maybe I am an alien and so Leo already is an alien to me How would you know?

Beautiful said! Although, my point, or question rather, is what wisdom does Leo have to bequeath upon us selfish fools? I know! In his next biggest awakening ever!!! He will let us know that he has transcended his God/Self and is now an ALIEN/Self from another universe. Holy Shit! Leo is the 5-meo -Dmt- machine elf , God/Alien/Self Master of The Universes!!! or just some dude trippin’ on his couch.

@Leo Gura I once got a huge boner from this add on pornhub. It was a blue trans type alien screwing a woman... I came pretty quick that time. @Joel3102 Back in my teenage years I have. @Nahm What am I missing?

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So I've been browsing the thread with examples of turquoise and found this guy - Matt Kahn. O boy, what a powerful message does he have. I've heard about gratitude practice - but he reframed it in such an interesting and powerful way. Also the other day somebody posted a video about Permission slips and I kind of went down the rabbit hole, watched a whole bunch of Bashar videos, his documentary included. In one interview he stated that we are constantly shifting from one parallel universe to another. I had exactly the same insight in one of mine mushroom trips. Mind-blowing. I don't know whether this alien guy Bashar exists or not (though it would be nice if he does exist) but I find the stuff he says to be very interesting and practical. These 5 laws of creation which contain pretty clear non-dual message. And his prediction about possible contact that probably will happen between 2025 and 2030 looks very intriguing, especially in the light of those UFO videos released by The Pentagon. What do you guys think about all of this?

*shakes head* Did no one read any cyberpunk literature (or even watch movies like Robocop or Alien), and get it through their thick skulls that allowing Corporations to form their own governments is objectively a terrible idea? Let's just go back to the days where workers get paid in company scrip while we're at it...

Everyone, including myself and society is severely limited. What mechanism do you have to break free beside having a huge ego. I give up but I will try to continue to grow in being conscious in things. Maybe in my alien life I will understand and become god.

This is the first time I did ayahuasca with more than 10mg of dmt(microdoses). Today did anywhere from 40 to 60mg of dmt. 80% of insights were personal yet I have posted aspects that are still personally orientated yet I think extrapolate to others. I haven't really heard stuff like this before, so to spice the forum up I'm posting them. How The Trip Actually Went I was quite nervous taking it, so I started off small. After about 1 hour I started to notice how amazing it is that I have hands. I watched them move like they were performing a dance. They moved so smoothly. I also watched how they picked up my puke bucket and did it perfectly and smoothly. I got a sense that this was miraculous, like fuck levitation or super powers, holy shit your hands are moving objects. I saw mild visuals but not too strong. The hands and legs felt like video game objects, the room looked like a video game(low resolution). I then took another 4 sips of the dmt as I get cocky after being high. Then I was waiting for jaguars to come and eat me because my shaman/psychonaut I'm learning off said the jaguars and snakes will come and eat me... none of that happened, actually what happened was realizing all the jaguars and snakes are operating at a lower level of thinking, and there is a higher level of thinking which integrates and unifies the jaguars, snakes, spirits, all of it into 1 thing. The trip then got deeper, and I started getting insights about interacting with other people. Insights Everyone is seeing a radically different reality, yet we all think we are in the same reality Like everyone, I thought everyone was seeing the exact same thing as me. No fucken way. My brain works differently on psychedelics, I get less visuals, my trips are extremely more contemplative, and even after having big doses of psychedelics I don't get breakthroughs into dmt machine elf realms or different lizard realms. I also don't get some alien or caterpillar helping me, its always me helping myself. I became conscious that our goals are different, what turns us on is different, what we are attracted to is different, what we enjoy is different, our perception of reality is radically different from person to person, and this has nothing to do with ego, this is because consciousness boils down to literally different things for different people. What is consciousness made of or what is it fundamentally? RADICALLY DIFFERENT FOR YOU AND ME. For some people it boils down to love, for others it fucken doesnt! Consciousness = Unconditional love is NOT absolute, its only absolute for fucken some people!!! For me specifically, I became conscious that the universe I'm in is radically different to other people, and this explained why I had a lot of autistic symptoms and why I disagree with lots of people about what reality is and why I don't get people when they talk about reality and why my approach to spirituality is different to others and why certain meditation techniques work better on me then others and why pointers from teachers don't make sense to me sometimes. I became conscious that when I look at objects around the room, compared to other people, they are hyper geometric, highly structured, highly ordered. Which fucken blew my mind. I was looking at a bowl and just realizing not everyone is seeing the hyper geometric, highly ordered, highly structured bowl like how I am. For example, some people see the bowl as a living spirit, some people see the bowl more for its purpose or its use, rather than its geometric shape, some people see the bowl as more of how its relates to them as a person, like a personality thing (OMFG THATS WHY SOME WOMEN CARE SO MUCH ABOUT FASHION!) This may seem obvious to some, of course our personalities are different! Of course we focus on different things... no thats not what I'm saying, I'm saying you're living in a parallel universe to me. I mean, imagine the most radical, insane dmt machine elf realm you could break through to, hyper alien, hyper different, hyper comprehensible... your flatmate, your mum, your brother and colleagues are in realms that are a trillion times more radical then what you just imagined. You don't need to break through to an insane dmt realm to have a crazy experience, you just need to break through to seeing how your flatmate sees the world. If you fully saw how your flatmate sees the world, you'd be completely immobilized, rolling on the floor in complete mind orgasm over how radically insane and different it is. And this has radical implications. Its not just philosophy. But we're all one, there's no others... please put your bullshit a side for a sec. Every single disagreement, especially the ones that end up in fights, could be eliminated from acknowledging or realizing this facet of reality. Not only fights, but deeper understanding on what teachers resonate with you, what don't, what pointers work for you, what don't, could be deeply clarified from understanding this facet of reality. My personal fundamental reality is pure understanding. To illustrate the implications above, I will show you my personal case study. During the trip I got into a state where I literally understood absolutely everything. That is my dream, understanding absolutely everything. And from that experience, I became conscious that my entire motivation is purely fueled by understanding ONLY. Its prior to absolutely everything I do. This means, I am literally incapable of understanding how consciousness IS LOVE. My fundamental reality is pure understanding. I proved to myself on that trip that even if I spent a million years meditating and doing psychedelics, I will never ever ever experience the universe as LOVE. The closest I got was I had an awakening where I realized that everything in the universe was designed to maximize how much I love myself... but notice that explanation is radically different to the universe IS LOVE? That's because I'm so understanding orientated that the closest I'll get to experiencing love is understanding it. I am too spiritually untalented/autistic to actually feel what its like to know that the universe IS LOVE. Because if I was to get a trillion times more conscious now, it would end up being just more understanding, not more love, just more my brain being sprayed by a philosophy love gun and just getting plowed away with pure understanding. And this is a fantastic realization, because I can be relieved that I don't experience the universe as love, not because im not trying hard enough, but because im too spiritually untalented. This isnt a personality thing, it wont change even by changing my brain chemistry, its embedded in my perspective which is prior or beyond my brain chemistry, it persists different lifetimes, consciousness IS understanding for me. And I am 2000% limited by that embedding. But whats amazing is consciousness IS <blablabla> for other people, which is just mind blowing. From this realization, I now know to stop using the consciousness is love pointer because it literally isnt true from my perspective WOO HOO!! The other implications of realizing that understanding is embedded in consciousness for me is I can throw away crap like "acceptance is better then understanding", "understanding boils down to love", "understanding is an illusion"... no they fucken aren't(for me). acceptance is lame, love boils down to understanding everything but understanding is an illusion In fact, there's literally nothing other then understanding in my experience, if you chuck away everything, you just get pure understanding from my perspective. From my perspective, motivation issues are directly caused by lack of doing understanding. My motivation to change the world has nothing to do with caring about impacting the world... that's all a cover story, I'm deep down much more of an ass then that, I don't care about impact, I just care about understanding. So I now can throw away any crap like oh care about impact, or crap like fundamentally who we are and what we care about is compassion and giving... not in my perspective, in my perspective understanding trumps all, I only care about compassion because it lets me understand more, I only care about intimacy because of the understanding aspect. I'm pure dork/nerd. The fundamental implication is, lots of suffering is caused by us assuming we all share the same perspective, for example we are all god... no not necessarily, only certain point of views enable the realization that we are god. Actually lots of suffering from this work comes from us trying to fit how we work into how other people work, like for example me focusing so much of trying to be compassionate and see the universe is love when I'm too retarded to see that fundamentally. This applies for everyone else too, how do you even know the universe is love in your experience? What if your perspective is like mine... physically incapable of seeing it. How to increase your baseline state of consciousness optimally What are insights? They are pure infinity in bite sized pieces because your brain can't handle infinity. To get to the ayahuasca state permanently, go meta on insights. For example, contemplate and place awareness on the following questions: when an insight arises, how do you react on a personal, physical and subtle body level? How does that reaction differ according to the insight just gained? Are certain reactions better then others? How does the reaction affect maintaining the insight? what are insights? How do insights react with each other on timescales, are certain orders of realizing insights more effective then others? And how do emergent insights arise from such interactions of those primary insights? When trying to figure out how to increase your baseline state of consciousness, contemplate different possible methods, then focus on the insight aspect of them(or pure intelligence) and try and predict the sort of insights and impacts of those insights that will occur if you actualized the method, then plan, architect, structure the best sequence of events or combination of practices to get the optimal combination and best interactions of all the insights all together contemplate how carrying out methods affects insight growth, does just contemplating what kriya yoga is gain enough insights, or do you actually need to practice it, and if you have to practice it then why? How does the insight of "you should do kriya yoga" actually affect the insights gained from actually doing kriya yoga The biggest thing I learnt here is, choosing meditation methods is putting the horse before the cart. Meditation methods are the smoke, the engine is the insight, forget about discipline and doing meditation practices, just focus on maximizing carrying out and interactions and architecting all the insights optimally.

And I'm dead serious.... How the fuck am I supposed to know that "for certain"?.... I mean you could do all the DNA tests and show you photos when you were a little kid... You can even film the moment of birth (video).. Only to wake up and find out it was a dream and you are actually the son of an alien...... Only. this. Is certain.

What do you guys think about him? It resonates with me like amazingly, almost everything he says. It is just that him being an alien is weird, but I also say why not, Infinity could imagine something like that into being also maybe.

Thanks @fridjonk I agree with the perspective that a psychedelic trip can help show one answers to problems or maybe put a stick in the spokes of an ongoing habit or an addiction if approached in a sincere way, Unfortunately most of the cultures around the world with a center of gravity in the first tier of Spiral Dynamics just lump it all into one pile labeled drugs. Very dualistically labeled as good or bad and right or wrong. Drugs are bad, Mmkay, excuse me, Couldn’t resist. @fridjonk Thanks also for the Matt Kahn video. I’ve never seen this one. I’m about 12 minutes into it,,,, Mckenna talking about the alien other reminds me of Castenada mentioning and description of the inorganic beings who were to him, so terrifying,,,

@Leo Gura So I've been doing self inquiry and looking at my hands, as per the guided exercise.. stripping away all beliefs. And when I'm staring at my hands long enough in one spot, they start to morph like they did on past trips. They don't morph per say, but it's like they are holographic and look alien like, reminiscent of my trip. Is this an insight into consciousness or flash backs. I also have moments of sudden fear when this happens. But no sudden awakening, not like when on a psychedelic.

You're confusing things. What I said does not in any way preclude the paranormal. If you see a yogi levitating, that's all fine and good. It's still happening within your bubble of experience. Likewise with any other paranormal phenomenon such as astral travel, telepathy, auras, angels, DMT entities, aliens, channeling, spirit realms, hell realms, clairvoyance, UFOs, mothman whatever. You are right, there is no difference between the normal and the paranormal other than social convention and definition of terms. Look at it this way: your fridge is imaginary, but that does not prevent you from going in your kitchen, opening the fridge, and exploring its contents. Likewise with the paranormal. If you meet an alien, angel, or deity -- they will still be you talking to yourself. You are correct that there is more to what consciousness can do, or what it can imagine, than just the conventional material world. Consciousness can imagine twisted hyperbolic geometry worlds full of aliens and angels and whatever else. But all of that will still always be your own Mind. There is no limit at all to what consciousness can imagine. And it can imagine some insane stuff that you would not believe. So while I'm saying your current experience is all there is, that does not mean your current experience cannot radically change. It can and it will -- and there is worthwhile stuff to explore. By all means take a rocket ship to Mars, if you dare. You will discover cool and useful stuff. Or if you really want a mindfuck, smoke some salvia.

So I read the first chapter of "Letting Go" by David Hawkins, again, since I only read that much of the book a few months ago. I take it more as an invitation to be less unconscious. I encircled various sentences with pencil, ranging from key points to things I found interesting but/and "don't agree with". A lot of things I disagreed with. One of his key points was that external events perhaps don't cause negative emotion, that they are outlets for displacement, egoic justification for expressing what negative emotion we already had stored up. There were more interesting key points that I can't be bothered to type about right now. -- Whether by pure coincidence or "synchronicity", my mum walks into my room and asked me whether [alright, as I was typing this sentence I noticed my mum was free. So I stopped typing this, walked up and I talked to her to resolve the situation].....Uh okay so how should I go about writing this. So as I'm reading, my mum walks into the room and asks me to change the clean bedsheets in my room because she doesn't like the dull colours ( and they are mismatching colours) and she doesn't want the cleaners who are coming around to see it. I talk about it pretty casually/nonchalantly about how it doesn't matter, because it doesn't. Abruptly I feel conditioned fear arise as I sense she's about to slap me. She slaps me "playfully" , I slap her back and I'm pissed off, but I didn't properly communicate it. She's whatever. Slightly joyful and happy because she think she "pranked me" and I didn't expect it. But also because of some unhealthy psychology of hers, where she thinks is fun/joyful to invoke fear and control in others. She just walks out the room and conversation end. Anyway, it later "ended" with her being sorry because she thought it was innocent. But of course she didn't take it seriously and lacks the capacity to appreciate boundaries. But I wont ramble about that too much. -- I continue reading David Hawkins, finishing the chapter. Whilst I'm reading, and then afterwards for a while, I'm sitting by myself and paying attention to my feelings. I pay attention to the negative feelings which are always there, but I push into the peripheral vision of my consciousness. So there's lots of random fluctuations, flux, etc. But at some point the negative emotions grow and grow, I'm caught up in thought stories which whirl and whirl around like tornados, and the negative emotion is very strong. And I feel it as I type now still- __________ Aaaaaaaaand TLDR I feel drained from paying attention to my negative emotions. But I'm not that drained, its likely some psychological reaction and defence mechanism by my mind to not dig deeper. Recently I question and wonder whether an "unconscious" really exists. Since if something is unconscious, it's out of your experience in a sense. But. There are these emotions and things in the periphery of your current consciousness which are there but we ignore. I feel a burning desire to break the wall between me and what's alien. Someone else might phrase it as trying to "breakthrough into the unconscious".