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    4 hours ago, Buba said:

    Ok. I feel incomplete because I have not got enlightened yet. But I dont want to feel like that. What if I never get enlightened, like millions of people in this journey. My life then will be a misery. But I want to enjoy the life. To marry. To have kids.

    @Buba You said that you don't want enlightenment yet here you're saying you feel incomplete, what do you want? The mediation is doing its thing, showing you what your not, and its no walk in the park.

     

    On 2/13/2018 at 9:09 PM, Buba said:

    I meditated for several months and got depersonalization/derealization. I was seeing around through a tunnel. As If I was two - one who talks, walks and one who observes. I did not like this. Has it ever happened to you? Do enlightened people see around like this?

     You have to go find yourself. Mediation will shine light on this. Are you living a life you want to live? You can enjoy life, marry, have kids, you can have all of that. Its all here right now. 

  4. Posted · Edited by nightrider1435

    On 2/13/2018 at 3:39 AM, Buba said:

    The only thing I do, I try to be in the now. And I try not to follow my thoughts and bring my focus to something

    This is a good thing, keep it up. The thing with the dark night of the soul is your just gonna have to ride it out, it will eventually pass, whether its months or years, don't worry about it, it will pass. Be gentle and loving with yourself. If you don't want to mediate thats ok, don't mediate.  Sitting out in nature can be a huge help, I suggest to do that if you can.

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    @Charlotte You just have to fucking do it lol, there is no other way. Get rid of it, don't listen to your minds cravings. You'll probably get irritated and moody when you take away nicotine from the body, at least I was. The first couple days will be rough but as time goes on you just start giving less of a shit about it. You have to really want to quit though or else you won't do it.

  8. Posted · Edited by nightrider1435

    I do think vaping is a better option than smoking, but either way inhaling any smoke/vape in your lungs is obviously not going to be good for you. I just kicked a very heavy vaping habit, I'm talking about blowing fucking clouds all day and night for the past couple years... not good. Yeah we don't know long term effects, we'll find out with the people who had been chain vaping for decades. The whole purpose of it is to get people off cigarettes and then to eventually drop the vape, but it took on a whole new trend. I got hooked on the fucking thing when I was 16 unfortunately. This whole vaping culture we have now is fucking stupid.

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    @Shin Start of the dark night of the soul possibly? Everything becomes uninteresting because the universe wants you to keep turning inwards. Have you had any major glimpses?

    You're waking up, no doubt in my mind based on what you're saying here. When I reached this point that's when my mind really started to kick and scream, its becoming exposed to what really is. When duality really starts to dissolve your kinda just like oh.......... oh ... shit.. wow.

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    Past couple months for me I get a feeling of disgust whenever I eat meat. I still eat meat though, I grew up eating it so I can't really help it. I'm surrounded by a society that consumes alot of meat. Obviously it's going to take me some time to make adjustments to my diet, I've been eating more fruits and vegetables, been on a smoothie beinge lately. Everything is interconnected, when you consume meat you are taking in that animals suffering before it was slaughtered, that fear energy gets transferred to you. I would like to kick out dairy and meat at some point, go full on vegan.

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    Sounds like a typical awakening, I'm the exact same way. I probably could get diagnosed with bi-polar If I told a psychiatrist everything going on in my mind. You probably know you're not bi polar, I wouldn't take any medications for that. No one else in my life is going through this and it gets damn frustrating sometimes, I feel you man. 

     https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjerQpCYV_kL-IbQZNVHVPQ/featured

    Check out this youtube channel, may help you out. Its a guy named Victor, he helps people who are going through a spiritual awakening ascension, which can lead to some crazy symptoms, basically what you just described.  

     

     

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    3 hours ago, Max_V said:

    I’ve committed to always being mindful throughout the day, which already I feel has been becoming easier and easier. So that is a big component of growing spirituality that I’ve added in my daily life. It’s very difficult but very satisfying.

    This is huge for growth, its like a snowball going down a mountain, it just keeps getting bigger and bigger. 

  25. Posted · Edited by nightrider1435

    I mediate daily, it usually ranges from 40 minutes to an hour. Occasionally miss a day or two, mainly because of a big baggage of emotions combined with sexual energy, I just need to take a break sometimes.

    I do breathe concentration with ear plugs, usually in complete darkness because I mediate at night most times. Breathe concentration is so simple yet so powerful. I've seen big results in myself just by doing this one method. I'll mediate with binaural beats about two or three times a week to reach more extreme states of stillness, which is a good balance for me. It's easy to get carried away with binaural beats, it can be very powerful shit too.

    Self Inquiry? 24/7 basically.

    I usually try to get 2 hours of mediation in on free days, would like to make that a daily thing at some point.

    Mediation is essentially my life, I'm aware of my breathe 24/7. I pretty much watch life like a movie. I am very "still" now, which I guess can be good or bad for my ego since I feel everything... oh well lol.