khalifa

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  1. purity values is nice but that isn't exclusive to mormons, christian and muslims have it too but these days cults do some mental gmnastics where they justify breaking some of their good old values while following others i'm not a fan of drinking/hook up culture either, what you could do is just not interact with those girls that are into that, if your not into being cucked by her men are being feminized lately that it's alright to be cuck'd by their women it's kind of weird to accept a women of low integrity/dignity imo but hey the world now accepts mental illnesses with bad behavior instead of encouraging improvement, just be careful of what thoughts you entertain marrying a mormon doesn't sound ideal imo, but who knows maybe it could work out for you personally i'd probably marry a conservative since i do like how they think, i like their pros over theirs cons, but their kind annoying on some stuff, atleast it beats liberal cons imo https://www.slideshare.net/tonysheng1/the-righteous-mind-tldr-25524905
  2. when does this shit stop? it's getting annoying i mean sure i'm used to it but it's like a roller coaster, just when i think it's never coming again, nope just another day of a random night of hello, here's a weak baby dose of 5meo this crap seriously has given me some serious PTSD/GAD chronic anxiety, never felt the same since 2019 the current symptoms i'm facing is 24/7 uneasyness anxiety, vibrations on my body, overwhelmed throat and tightness in chest. my memory has taken a big hit too, sometimes i can't even tell if i've showered for the day or not, i used to have amazing memory before it, it has made me less assertive since i don't like to wrong anyone by being arrogant, and i start doubting my memory, my confidence has taken a big blow, i feel weaker than what i used to be mentally, noticed weak impulse control too, i feel like i'm a different nerfed like person that's unstable with his mind, i no longer feel stable with my well being and thoughts, it feels like i have some sort of ocd at times
  3. @Giulio Bevilacqua shoot your sources, and yes i freaked out for sure hence the terror was long
  4. @OldManCorcoran the ocd is so annoying, it won't shut up, for me it's calmed down more after 2 years, but it's less now but it's still there, my brain pattern thinking is just not the same, it's weird it feels like i have another mind but memories of the past me if i were to describe it it's more like a dumb new me.. i threw mine away so didnt have that thought, however i would worry and think about the uneasiness all day and like somethings wrong all the time, it was and is still living hell, now it's abit better since less symptoms but i still feel mega uneasy ALWAYS
  5. @OldManCorcoran what about other symptoms besides the broc? i remember being scared by just playing my playstation or watching series where nothing to be afraid of, it would rise my anxiety @inFlow besides meditation, not much yoga practise that was longterm something like a 2 week thing at random intervals and id stop, no results from it
  6. @Tech36363 a good con artist, fell for his bullshit right after abraham's con artist scheme just use logic to achieve your goals, it won't fail you, general positive guidelines from self help is plenty to get real results
  7. i wonder how all these psychs affect offsprings in the future, i'm going to guess plenty of mental illnesses @Breakingthewall @Theplay @AerisVahnEphelia
  8. @OBEler already booked a session with him, he told me to do another session with a sitter that knows what he's doing so i can have a full release, and he told me to let go and not struggle like last time while laying down on the ground star like pose *since i've tripped on my stomach, he mentioned unideal poses can cause bloackages like it did with my case* i don't think 5meo can cure chronic anxiety/GAD, if it can that would be weird honestly since it's given me the PTSD/GAD and now i russian roulette role it again to try and get rid of it or maybe even it might gets worse, which is why i've been avoiding it @Breakingthewall my goal was obviously to experience the hype of 5meo? which it's just another drug that gave me some unwanted mental handicaps, and physical damage, my kidneys have been horrible i've been peeing foamy pee after some months, till today for years, it's alarming that i have foamy pee and the lab doesn't seem to pick anything up, and it's been hurting lately too
  9. ok so what could you do after doing those psychedelics that you couldn't do before doing them? so far it sounds like there's nothing you couldn't do so they were just pointless recreational drugs just like drinking alcohol but with more mental masturbation of cult philosophy parrot larps
  10. @Breakingthewall congratulations to you for playing russian roulette with your brain and winning the lottery of not being a prisoner in your brain, so how was your quality life improved? what can you do now that you couldn't do before 5meo? or do you just cope that your doing better mentally because a drug cult psychonat told you so and you just went with the narrative flow larping and parroting that it's great when it's nothing special but just another delusional philosophy perspective can you guys stop parroting that bullshit of open up yourself to chronic anxiety, i've been doing that for years now since it started and guess what you can't open up to chronic anxiety because the body's chem balance is just unstable it has nothing to do with opening up, everybodys body/dna is different and it doesn't work the same way with psychs, hence the different random results
  11. @Yimpa leo's old videos back in the day claimed awakening/enlightenment is the end goal for humans, i bought on the hype train went emotional over logic, ofcourse his views changes from time to time he doesn't hold his old beliefs i've been self actualizing since 2014 watching his channel weekly/religiously, did various self help books 25+ wasn't satisfied, so i thought 5meo would help but boy was i wrong, that was not what i needed, pretty much been living a detrimental life just wishing for an average healthy human days of my 20s, my mind and body legit feels like crappy 24/7, feels like an ongoing hell every moment and nothings really improving either for the past 4 years i just hope i get to atleast get to average health someday in the future, if not it's going to be a pretty much crappy unideal life for me
  12. @Yimpa to me it's more about being realistic than cynical, 5meo advertised as a cure for human suffering was pretty much a scam after i experienced, since now i am left with longterm phyiscal and mental health issues, i've just invited more suffering in my experience sadly wish i didn't get on the hype train for it, would've dodged a good bullet
  13. @strangelooper more like a consequence of playing russian roulette with my brain with a random hyped drug that i thought could solve all my suffering, all it's one is give me more issues to worry about all day not the most ideal situation to be in, i'd be better off clean without it but i wouldn't know that back then that's the irony of buying into the hype @Keryo Koffa rubbish doing that for years now, used the mantra of this too shall pass plenty, it's just an unstable mind no thought can fix a panic attack in a moment but just watching it through, at least in my experience @Yimpa acceptance of cult sheep thinking of this so called *awakening* mind land delusion? i still have bills to pay at the end of the day and take care of this body's wants and needs, it wasn't even worth pursuing seeing infinity at this point the irony is i wouldn't have known it wasn't worth it since i've witnessed it and get it now, but the detrimental factors have more cons than pros at this point
  14. dude's just wants to live off passive income and chill low stress means he'll live longer what else is there to do here? it's pretty much the big brain thing to do while he has his other side stuff, if he wants to pursue them
  15. went vegan for 2 years+ at first i felt great later on i kept telling myself that i'm *detoxing* and i kept feeling like crap for a long ass time, till i ate some eggs and overnight all my health issue symptoms went away, i like a lot of dairy and have lots of eggs through the month i feel the best on that over meats i've noticed, i do eat some nuts/fruits/vegies on the side, i guess i'm accidentally vegetarian surprisingly i did try carnivore that just makes me constipated, keto isn't sustainable for me either
  16. jim your better off using common sense/logic and not listening to this con artist their's no need to reach any age, just live and do you
  17. Tetris effect (2018) Demon souls (2009) fallout new vegas (2010) crysis (2007) Sekiro shadows die twice GTA san andreas tenchu (1998) devil may cry 3 2 player messing around games resident evil 6 kingdom two crowns nioh Baldurs Gate 3 fighting force (1997) bushido blade 1-2 1997-8 dead or alive 6 forza horizon 5 metal slug biped baba is you strip fighter 5 chimpocon edition cuphead
  18. @Dodo pretty much got rekt and rugpulled here and there, trying to just make it to the moon with shitcoins now what else i got to lose lol --- used to believe in law of attraction held it in high regards, sent like 50k+ to discord scammers thinking "it's meant to be" and it's all "coming" that was the biggest slap that woke me up out of it, there goes my 6 digit inheritance o well life's still good
  19. 6 digits to 3 digits here, would vouch/gamble on dbi pepe spx6900 doge1
  20. @Salvijus parroting that nonsense isn't very helpful, presence of that isn't going to really help any real solution as ego still has to take care of daily life with whatever it has to deal with in this case they need a different healthier knowledge graph that gets them out of it and not just some i am god delusion philosophy they still need to take practical action from here, imo recordings and proof that it's all in their head at the moment should help subconscious mind quiet down on it
  21. it's all in your head they don't exist, your beliefs on them is what's causing them to seem real even though they aren't setting up multiple recordings, and seeing hard proof of none of what you describe is not real would help you snap out of it, if you try to be conscious of it, unless if your ego somehow tries to make up more stories about it being real, ignoring hard fact evidence of it not being real by the recorded stuff caught, then your pretty much going to be in that loop of delusion for long multiple deluded people will try to validate your craziness because they are deluded themselves, good luck making it out of that phase, i was once in it
  22. @flowboy martin's just going to tell him to do another one most likely, that's what he told me when i told him i keep tripping everyday multiple times a night he mentioned i need to do one to complete the energy as the trip is trying to continue to finish something, so i have to trip full force and let go, give up breathing and just die and wait to be reborn again I thought he was insane when he said that as i was already terrified enough wanting to be normal, took me around the 8months to notice a difference, at the 2nd year pretty much a bottle neck of improvement, i still trip randomly with nouctral panic attacks but the frequency is much less now
  23. @Leo Gura take it easy, take care of yourself and well being for now
  24. thank you leo, you've helped me/us a lot you've gotten me out of my shell of victim mentality in the past made me explore the rabbit hole in various ways, while trying to self improve myself egoicly and spiritually i feel much more satisfied with life knowing what i know, thanks to you, without you it wouldn't have been the same as much as i feel stuck in a new phase, it's all good knowing it's all an illusion gives me that ease at times thank you for the making those videos for us all
  25. I started having these thoughts of jumping from a high floor, I was at a hotel last year when it happened, I stared down, And my mind started making up a story of how nice it would be to just jump and end all this suffering that's been going on for a while. It seemed like the perfect solution as to my life, since my life is just a dream why should I care that much if everything's so illusionary with their illusionary consequence. So i attempted, but i freaked out went on bed (not sure if i was consciously stopping it or my subconscious mind freaked out about it ) and there it was mind won't stop racing thoughts about that incident, all night and morning, that it wouldn't stop until like 2 weeks have passed I've been having these episodes of it coming and going, Felt like it was getting stronger at times when i follow those thoughts. They'd like for days or weeks, My mind is calmer now but i easily fall under the trap of i should go for it since life feels so meaningless and i dislike a lot about it and i just can't seem to get it the way i want life to run for me. It feels like someday maybe i could really lose control and go over it, since it felt automatic at the time back then. I can kinda of understand how suicidal people are since i've never been in that state of mind before. I used to be able to say yeah i want to die and suicide since i was 13-14 but that thought would go away within a few seconds to a minute and won't really come up again until months or years passing by and i'd let go not thinking too much about it over the years, But this seems like another weird infiltrated virus that just won't stop leaving me alone pushing me to do it every time, even though i'm trying not to entertain it, it seems very believable as a good idea out of suffering. Even though i keep telling myself over and over it's not as bad as i exaggerate it to be, i still have a lot left, but it's hard to feel the past's well being due to my chronic anxiety. (there's like a pain/uneasiness worry that never goes away keeps cycling between my chest/heart/throat, i just loathe it that part the most with my health issues. (tinnitus/hyperacis/back/leg injury/kidney issues, not sure how to explain it but i have several 5meo side effects, my mind and body just doesn't feel the same feels weird/off and i can't be my past self as i used to be, i have a lot of memory issues which is making it hard for me to cope/learn from my experiences or speak in a proper manner without much brain fog) I really crave early financial freedom since i was so close to get it but i gambled it all away in crypto thinking i could reach UHNWI and i'm manipulating people/ market to make it work eventually. But that was just dumb i keep bringing up the past over and over from a lot of petty stuff with lots of overthinking. As for love i just realized egoic human love is always conditional over unconditional so i thought there could be some unbreakable unshakable bond with someone here for me, but apparently that doesn't exist either salty about wasting all my life for her only to get cheated on multiple times through out the years as i tried to forgive and let go just for it to keep repeating with no remorse. I can't grow feelings to anyone anymore after that experience, I just dislike people in general. Advice? Thank you for caring