About the insane Social-Symbolic-Alien Language non-Truth-Sensitive-People use
Do you also hate making presents? 
Since forever, my family hates on me for sucking at making presents. And I beat myself up for it. They say I'm not empathic enough, too egoistic bla bla bla. My best explanation was, that I'm an only child and I've never properly learned it.
Theory break: According to me, there exists a kind of neurodiversity I call "Truth-Sensitive-Person" (TSP). I believe, that TSPs exist on a spectrum between object-sensitive-person (OSP) and subject-sensitive-person (SSP) (this model is a work in progress. In previous posts, I used TLP). What all TSPs have in common is a love for absolute truth and a disdain for and a lack of understanding of social truths. More on that below.
I have an alternative explanation now. My grandma told me that she is always super thrilled and happy when she receives little gifts like cake from her cleaning lady, and she is disappointed that me and my mom (also SSP) would not engage in little acts of affection like these too.
What I've noticed is that this (happiness about gifts from others for their own sake) is not the case for me and my mom at all. Which means that even if we were lazy and egoistic (which we are not) we are at least not hypocrites. In fact, we are always annoyed by gifts from other people, when they are not useful to us.
You might now say: "Of course you are. Why would you be happy to receive a gift that you have no use for?" 
If you believe this logic, you might be on the TSP spectrum. Because for a non-TSP, this logic does not apply at all. When they receive a gift from someone they love, they are super thrilled if that gift is well-meant.
The crucial thing to understand, and it is hard to understand for TSPs, is that non-TSPs are not thrilled about the present itself. They get most of their pleasure from the gesture. The present is a symbol to them.
This is because non-TSPs speak a completely batshit insane kind of social-symbolic-alien language they picked up and learned passively through conformity like their native language and are super confused about anyone who struggles to speak it, like TSPs, who only care about information (or spiritual truth if you are HSP) and struggle to pick up on these social symbols.
Expecting a TSP to implicitly understand this social symbolic language is like starting to talk to some random person on the street in chinese and then being mad and confused, if they don't understand the fuck you're saying. And non-TSPs do that all the damn time! This leads TSPs to develop social anxiety, low self-esteem, etc.
People who are TSPs naturally struggle with social situations, especially competitive ones because of this. They will genuinely start believing they have to learn tens of hours of pickup theory and do thousands of approaches to be successful without ever understanding, that they are not meant to engage in this alien language, the same way someone with an IQ of 80 is not meant to study thermodynamics. (If you think you might be TSP, you don't have to worry, just seek out other TSPs irl. They understand you perfectly and vice versa)
I want to give another example from my life. I once dated a girl with heavy ADHD. This made her relatable to me, but she is not a TSP.
One day, she was kind of in a bad mood, and she asked me: "Do you think I drink too much water?".
I answered by dumping her with all the information I knew about the topic "how much water is too much water".
After that, she was pissed and said: "What does any of this have to do with the question?".
I was stumped. What did I do wrong? You have any ideas?
I thought, that she wanted to know if she drinks too much water. Big mistake. See the mistake? If you don't or struggle to answer, then maybe you are a TSP too.
It took me some time to figure it out, but I think I got it. She did not want to know if she drinks too much water. She wanted to know if I think that she drinks too much.
She just wanted me to affirm that I accept her for drinking so much water.
When you dig deep enough you will realize, what she actually asked was: "Do you approve of my existence?".
This is at the fundamental reason for all social interactions between non-TSPs. This is why they need social interactions, because without them, they wouldn't know whether they exist.
To TSPs, this logic makes zero sense. When we are faced with questions or insecurities regarding our existence, we would NEVER even THINK about going to a cleaning lady for affirmations (nothing against cleaning ladies). Because what the fuck would they know about existence???? What we do instead is we study philosophy if we are more on the autism side, meditate when we are more on the HSP side and do both if we are hybrids.
In case this did not get clear enough: The reason why TSPs are here on this forum is because we are genetically unable to be satisfied with answers about our own existence from our cleaning ladies.
Or positively reframed: We are not stupid enough to believe that receiving gifts from our cleaning lady is sufficient to affirming our existence. 

Yeah the problem is, when you train your mind to believe that everything is consciousness, that this will bias your mind to turn inwards.
"Why would I help this person materially if I could just imagine helping them, which would be the same thing?"
At the end, you will not be more right when you believe in philosophical idealism oder more right when you believe in philosophical materialism, the only thing that is shifting is what you tend to focus on. (Meditation, thinking, lucid dreaming, fantacising, isolation, etc. vs acting, socializing, political activism, improving material conditions etc.)
This is not an error. You need to focus on some narrative in order to act and make a decision. You can also empty your cup and act intuetively, but if you are here you have very much intact reasoning skills, it would be a waste not to use them at all. Also your intuition is biased towards your beliefs anyways.
Learning about marxism has provided me with an extremely important insight. It's that this notion, common in spiritual circles that "you can't change the world but at least you can change yourself through discovering god" is complete bullshit and capitalist propaganda.
No matter where you look in history, the concept of god was always used by the ruling class to make the oppressed class turn inwards and "forget" they are oppressed. "The reason you are doing poorly is because you are not enlightened enough!" 
I want you to research the horrendous conditions, the tibetan serfs were faced with under the supposedly so loving Lama system before the Chinese communists liberated them.
The thing is, this has never changed. It only has become more subtle, and this community is the proof.

"All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊All is Love. 😊" - Xonas Pitfall
"Hate is just love taking out the trash, don't you know." - gettoefl
The ideology that @Xonas Pitfall and @gettoefl are promoting can be broadly categorized as "right hand path" (RHP).
The idea that if you put love as the highest value, it is possible to avoid harm is wrong. However I understand why it seems so bulletproof. After all how could anyone harm someone when their highest value is love?
But you don't understand how self-decieved people can be. There are plenty of atrocities that were supposedly committed out of love. "I snipe gazan children in the head out of love towads holy isrealites" give me a break.
So how does this deception work? 
There are some moments in life where cruelty is just the best option. Maybe you've never had this in your life but there exist people who are like parasites that will just keep exploiting you as long as you act selflessly towards them. And as soon as you try to turn your back towards them, they will play the victim and look at you with puppy eyes.
Everyone who has met this kind of person who is not a right hand path person will tell you the same thing: Just pull the trigger. Be cruel. Cut them from your life. If you are a devotee of the right hand path (RHP), this will be very tough for you (since you value love, kindness and this shit) and you will try to weasel yourself out of the situation. 
This is really hard since these kinds of people will not just leave you the fuck alone. The big danger here is this: A lot of RHP people, who intuitively know that the cruel thing is the right thing to do, bc it is, will do that anyways, but than somehow frame it in a way that makes it seem to themselves that they actually upheld their values. For example they might cut the person out and say "I did it out of love! This will teach them to be independent! They are actually better off without my help!".
This does not have to be the case at all, like the person could be completely fucked without the help but the RHP will always find a way to bend reality to convince them they are still a good devotee. This is a bit of a niche example but this mechanism happens extremely often. Just look at the heinous things mormon people are capable of. It's also very important to understand, that "high consciousness" RHPs are not immune to this at all.
"Hate heals, you should try it sometime
Strive for Peace with acts of war
The beauty of death we all adore
I have no faith distracting me
I know why your prayers will never be answered"
Left hand path people (LHP) (satanists etc.) are the ones who smell and expose this bullshit. Their way of coping with cruelty and hate is actually brilliant which is they promote it into the devine realm. This allows them to commit cruel acts in a ritualistic way. Notice that I'm not saying, that satanists are necessarily cruel more often than RHPs (In reality, the opposite is the case actually). But WHEN they are cruel, they can do it with integrity and in a pure state of consciousness, without any delusions attached.

@Lyubov  It's helpful you mentioned that these labels were harmful to your awakening, not harmful to your survival.
First I want to remind you of the approach "figure out which traits you have without labeling yourself".
But I also want to defend labels for a sec. Of course I know that identifying yourself with any concept is harmful for an awakening. However, even though buddhists now that, they will still be buddhists bc how else are they supposed to build a sangha if they can't say they're buddhists? 
The Moment you realize that labels are just a language game that we play out of convenience and don't penetrate the self, you'll be able to call yourself what you want, as long as you remove all the fluff again as soon as you are doing the practices. And do you really want to tell me you want to practice every waking hour? Gimme a break.
So why are labels useful in the first place? They are effective. If I see a Nazi charge towards a minority I will not politely tell them: "You are being very unconstitutional you. Don't make me write an angry letter with plenty of exclamationpoints to your mom" like a god damn liberal. I also I will not stand there and empty my fucking cup and wait until laser beams shoot from my eyes.
Very quickly, I will notice that I'm a communist and remember how communists deal with nazis.
Likewise, when your grandma tells you: "Why are you on the internet so much? Why aren't you enjoying your youth? You are thinking too much about abstract topics, I feel sorry for you. If I was your age again, I would be travelling around the world" you don't want to think to youself: "She is right I AM pretty weird. Why is that? Am I living my life wrong? Am I wasting my youth? Am I wasting my potential?", instead you can, again, quickly remember, that you are ND and she is projecting. Then you can politely tell her "I know how I want to live my life, thank you".
Edit: Just in case that wasn't obvious enough, yes this was an actual conversation I just had with my grandma and yes, the first reaction was the one I used to have which led to low self esteem that was indeed not curable through any spiritual practices (the logic, if I realize I'm god, then I will accept myself is complete bullshit) and yes the second reaction is the reaction that I had today and yes, I've never felt more confident and self-assured in my entire life not even close.

Why there is actually only one Problem with Escapism
The solution is right in front of your eyes.
Your wording implies that you have an internalized aversion against doing nothing, and this is exactly the problem.
Finally, to my big point about enabling the Peter Pan people
The reason why the Puer Aeternus (aka "degenerate gamer" type) engages in self-destructive, escapist behavior, is because they're passion oriented and so squashed and discouraged by the societal expectation of them engaging with their kryptonite (consistency, hard-work, discipline, attention, deadlines, responsibilities, chores, etc.) every day, that existence itself becomes unbearable.
Escape and distraction from an unbearable state are only understandable reactions. So what exactly is the core problem with such behavior? That it is bad for health and balance? That it doesn't lead to you making money? That it is "pathetic"?
No. The objects of distraction are not inherently problematic. The only thing that is problematic about escapism, is that it blocks your crucial ability to do nothing and be bored.
The reason, why boredom is important, is because it allows your default mode network (DMN) to activate. I'm not an expert, but if I understand this brain system correctly, the purpose of the DMN, is to enable you to mind wander and through that process
reflect on your choices, search for meaning, calibrate your activities with respect to your personal values. So when passion oriented people are empowered and enabled to uncage themselves from the toxic societal expectations applied to them and at the same time encouraged to just chill every once in a while, they will automatically orient themselves towards their authentic selves and successfully learn to positively disintegrate from society.

Shit goes absolutely haaaaaaaaaard! Thanks for sharing!
I'm not quite sure what you want to say with this, but I think the opposite is true. 
If you see love, truth and infinity and all of this bogus as the most fundamental aspects of god, you live in delusion. Even worse than that, the reason you do this is to flatter yourself and to cope with your own self-hatred, stemming from your ostracization from society for being neurodivergent. 
The rationale is this: If god is good, and I'm god, then that means I'm good enough! What you don't realize is that that has nothing to do with truth and everything to do with cope and delusion.
Every teaching that has some connection to the left-hand path (satanism, occultism, aghori, etc.) points to this truth, which is why these kinds of teachings are completely underrepresented in this overly idealistic, chronically spiritually bypassing, anti-materialist and therefore deeply counter-revolutionary community.
I'm planning to write more about this topic in the future, bc I think it is absolutely fundamental.
Edit: It is important to note that the song might have put me in a sort of adversarial mood which has led to chose this strong writing style. But seriously. Shit goes absolutely bonkers.

Edit: I am using the label ND too broadly here. What I mean more specifically is passion oriented people/ADHD/executive dysfunction. Thanks @Human Mint for pointing that out.
You are correct that talking about "hard work" is crucial in an ND discussion. Thanks for reminding me.
The sentence above is exactly wrong. 
The reason why you think this is because you still live too deep in NT Land.
The concept "Hard work" mean completely different things for an ND and for an NT.
Comparing the "hard work" ability of an NT person with those of an ND person is like comparing the boxing ability of Mike Tyson with those of some nerd with no arms. This nerd could be Albert fucking Einstein, and he would still have low self-esteem their whole lives if they were to compare their boxing abilities to Mike Tysons.
Coping "tricks" like gamification and all this shit is like saying to Einstein: "You can beat Mike Tyson if you believe in yourself! You just have to use your forehead!". You are banging your head against a wall when you do this.
Being productive for an NT person always takes them roughly the same amount of energy and willpower no matter what they do (I know this sounds completely unbelievable). This means they are literal Mike Tysons at doing boring shit. This is, again, also why they are usually not productive during leisure time (aka no hobbies). In addition, it's why they think that people have to work to be happy bc they wouldn't know what to do with all that time.
Nothing I've done the last view days felt like hard work. No NT could ever communicate this much information without it feeling like hard work. This is one of the superpowers of NDs. When an ND is motivated to do something, it costs them discipline NOT to pursue that thing (I'm failing miserably at not doing this btw). The downside is that having to do boring shit feels excruciating.
This is why you need to avoid doing boring shit like the literal plague, which you already do, but I'm enabling you and I am telling you not to feel bad about sucking at discipline. You need to question why "hard work" is so valued in society. No, it is like boxing. No one here gives a shit if someone is good at boxing so why is this not the same with hard work.
To circle back to your point: If they had a butler who would feed them, do all their chores, do all the paperwork, etc. an ND would absolutely be able to create the most marvelous creations of genius and creativity you have ever seen without EVER working hard.
But this is unrealistic, of course. You will have to be disciplined some of the time. JUST STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO MIKE TYSON!