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@Natasha Tori Maru I Will stop at nothing for my art and craft to be perfect whether thats conciousness, being, music, art, video games, body building, aesthetics, relationships.

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Im not quite sure what you're asking. If you rephrase I could answer. But my deepest compulsion and desire is realizing im completely alone / solipsism at the deepest level. I became God concious at 19 and the entire reality and sense of other completely vanished.

Id say all of these issues are 2nd order to the first order issue of misunderstanding conciousness. If you get conciousness right you get everything else right.

One is emotional and one is your sense of reality

This feels more like validation then ocd. A desire for approval instead psychological certainty.

Most people in general dont realize Truth.

I have pure Ocd (No Compulsions) and have tripped over 100 times. Ive done Dmt, Lsd, Shrooms, mdma, and salvia. OCD is like this constant beam of focus and obsession towards having a perfect metaphysical and epistemic understanding. Like @Inliytened1 its doubt, i have must have pure certainty and understanding of whats absolutely true. And eliminating that doubt with more and more conciousness is the methodology. But the doubt eventually comes full circle and eats its own tail into Absolute Truth / Certainty / Being The one thing you can not doubt is your own being which is Absolute. You basically doubt the ego to death

If so, without any spoilers how would you rate it and is it worth playing? I was thinking about downloading it from nexus.

You can run OpenMW on android as well. Its a locked 60 if you have a flagship device from 2021 and up. @UnbornTao @Leo Gura

A coin has 2 sides (Love/Truth) but is 1. You can use multiplicity to explain a singularity. That actually shows the CORE of Infinity. If God couldn't be multiple things God would not be Infinte. @Inliytened1

It absolutely is abuse. My mom would force us to go to church and scold and guilt us when we wouldn't. Most children's minds are just going to conform to whats being taught in church without any proper epistemic framework. Not everyone would of have been like me questioning the ten commandments and moral relativism in the Bible at grade school age. To really understand how this is abuse you truly have to understand the metaphysical and epistmological positions that Christianity takes on and how it is devilry as a smoke screen. Taking your child to church for them learn devilry disguised as Truth

Funny light chose not to have the shinigami eyes

All the conciousness infinity could actualize and bro doesnt even know your name but claims youre absolutely deluded

Yet within the non locality and omni presence that is my conciousness Leos body, mind, or his awakening is no where to be found.

At breakthrough doses the notion of Dimension itself will collapse so it's not even 5th 6th 7th dimensional geometry. You also realize DMT is something you are imagining and from the absolute pov you're conciousness of the trip is prior to the substance or trip itself.

Honestly it just sounds like youre biased against solipsism because of the metaphysical consequences it will have on your sense of reality. This entire post is purely a distraction for you to NOT realize solipsism is true

The void that is God / You

Leo is an imaginary fantasy you are dreaming within your own mind as God. I'm curious how many people on here have actually ceased to imagine all others including Leo @Inliytened1

Also would there be any thing specific we should include in the email requesting to join?

Im mainly curious of the longevity of the substance. Like dmt where its infinite conciousness almost immediately or Like lsd / mushrooms with a comeup and come down. I can allude from the level of God Realization you're conveying this would most likely be a dmt like substance.

@Leo Gura out of curiosity are you going to reveal the chemical you will be using if selected?

All hail Lord Dexter His eyes are too self aware og

What sparked this inquiry is Ive seen @Leo Gura correct not just multiple mods but countless amounts of other people about deep and core metaphysical topics about Awakening. Denying many of the things he teaches. I have a deep desire to understand and pursue Truth at the highest level. And want my understanding of Truth to be pure and direct. The biggest thing I lean towards accomplishing this is Radical Open-mindedness, direct experience, and not knowing. But I tend to notice I have a bias towards Leo's answers. I have had a fair amount of Awakening myself and have validated dozens if not more of Leo's answers. So I could say with certainty Leo knows what he is doing, guiding everything in the right direction. So the real question is without blindly grapling onto Leo's words, how do you navigate you're understanding of reality while remaining humble and intergral? So one does not develop this arrogant attitude but still fundamentally integrating the Absolute nature of Being/Self/Authority/Experience? As well as cutting out the middle man and going straight to God for your answers. And to not fall into the trap of you got it when in fact you don't.