AerisVahnEphelia

I bought 4 times the same nike now. Been having the same for 10 years. I've a roll of 4 tshirts and 2 pants for going outside.

If everyone was enlightened we wouldn't know who to blame or what to be mad about, it would be heaven, but the human brain is made for hell. We are by definition in constant division and friction, as it it the natural movement of nature.

Self awareness is almost always better

nice story, but you might be immortal and will never die (physically, litteraly) you never experienced death, the fact you're conscious is because you've always been starting to exist as god/universe now. You cannot die. You might aswell respawn infinite like in a video games. but in this life, you believe it's important to make the most out of it for some reasons.

crossbow and arrows, it's harder to get in EU. I do get very horny on thc or derivative, maybe too much, otherwise, not really.

I don't, but that's also maybe explaining a lot.

I might have been a natural mewer. My neck looks perfect from the side, and I didn’t even know that could be related to tongue posture. That’s the downside of being born a Chad. There are no wars left for me to fight.

Lol, you’re funny though. Is your main need just being able to ramble about anything? I’m saying this respectfully, but it’s genuinely funny to read your posts because they’re so intricate. No, I mean, I do have needs, but I was suicidal for a while. I expected the world to have more to offer, and the cause was basically the same feeling as finishing a video game and being stuck in the endgame with no more content left to really explore. My desire for death led me toward truth ( but it's the reverse as people suffering from feeling stuck, I had nothing to be stuck about ), but it wasn’t what I expected. It does fit your explanation of the character becoming self-aware in some way, though. I feel like I’m hope-maxxing now, with the added possibility of AI happening, eventually leading to UBI and some kind of large-scale human liberation, where we can all just chill, live happily in communities, and do some Final Fantasy Zanarkand-type living. Honestly, the feeling of a “meaning crisis” is still there, but not in the same oppressive way. I’m kind of playing around with it now. I’ve become a very optimistic doom-pilled person. I’m not fatalistic. I still like striving to be the cleverest person in the room, and in some sense I feel like I’ve won. I can joke about genocide, death, Hitler, or whatever else because I’m extremely detached. I can do that with basically anything, even argue against everything I supposedly stand for, whether that’s my culture, my race, or whatever other bullshit story. I do fancy myself as a good person, but I’m detached from human affairs to the point where, honestly, I don’t really care about the state of the world or whether my words ultimately affect people positively or negatively. There’s much more I could say. Sometimes I feel like I’m the most “intelligent” person on Earth, and I don’t even mean that as a good thing. I don’t mean intelligence in the sense of some fancy ability to understand advanced mathematics. I mean that, if intelligence can involve being able to detach yourself from everything, from language, perspective, identity, and even life itself, then that’s something I feel I can do better than almost anyone. Even the hippie or the Buddhist is usually still attached to something. Even the guy who dies through extreme meditation can still be attached to escaping worldly experience or transcending desire. I’m detached in a different sense. I simply let desires and needs happen within this point of view without treating them as fundamentally important. And even on the ordinary human plane, those desires are relatively weak. Sometimes I still get a sudden peak of delusion around achieving some goal, or the reverse: a sudden conviction that everything is meaningless. I removed my post because it felt too personal. I don’t really like oversharing my identity online unless it’s within my private spaces. Yeah, you’re right about a lot of what you pointed out. Still, I don’t really judge normies for being normies. My judgment is mostly just fancy gaming. I’m special, and you’re special too. Just look at your post. You’re posting on this wretched edge of the internet. You really think you’re a normal person now? Girl, you’re an absolute weirdo, sorry. No amount of self-proclamation that you’re normal is going to save you either way. You can go back to being an alien, because you are one! I mean, alright, nowadays everyone is kind of crazy, so the bar has shifted dramatically in terms of what normieness even entails. We might all just be mildly convinced schizophrenics who occasionally need a puff of some nice self-narrative to keep the whole thing coherent. And in the end, what even is “normal” or “weird”? It’s just another layer of fanciness. But yeah, of course, if being "a normie" feels nice, just be one. Whatever makes you happy. I’m still convinced that almost everyone on this forum is some kind of nutcase, basically a functional asylum with creature who somehow learned to operate in society.

Just the fact your brain think about needs is so unserious. Your only need in a relationship shall be love and surviving. Everything else is bargaining for non sensical goodies. Basically trump level self entitlement drug addiction to stimulation. It's fine to enjoy crack though and find someone who enjoy it with you. So you're right about that. I m into fantastic romantic delusion. "We will drink water and our love will help us figure it out." Girls have become so anti Disney for the worse and they suffer more from the list of needs. I know it but I can't prove it. Too much mental calculation. Too much bad self awareness.

There is nothing under control anyway. Self-improvement is a joke. It’s just your body talking and inventing more fantasies. The real miracle is having a stable illusion that you can believe in, even momentarily. Why I am here, well, why am I alive is the same question basically.

People generate reality based on their emotions. ( everything is false, but you know this ) Womans are living 10 psychedelic states a day.

the easy thing is to stop having weird needs and increase your level of consciousness to god monk.

Why is that though. It might be an American thing to be honest. Best I can do is download the best series and watch with her.

In my case, though, that’s basically the only way to get the papers to live in the US ( not that I m looking forward to it, I don't really give a shit about living there, in fact I prefer the EU vibe ) As for my current wealth... well, one thing’s for sure: gold diggers should take better courses if they’re trying to dig me.

What about the wealth of having a loving wife.