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  1. The Likability Factor - The Bible of Social Skills
    The Likeability Factor - The Bible of Social Skills
    I'm gonna share this book today as I've never seen it mentioned before but it's one of the most powerful books I've read. The likeability factor by Tim Sanders 

     It's most likely the best book on social skills/charisma I've ever read. Much simpler and straight to the point than How to win friends and influence people. It breaks down charisma into 4 parts: friendliness, empathy, relevance, and authenticity, and then breaks down each part to give examples of it and explains how to develop it. 
    Highly recommend it for anyone looking to make more friends/dates as well as anyone in a corporate setting where charisma and being well-liked are essential to their career. 
    It's quite short at 224 pages so you can read it and start implementing it within a week. 
    Solid 8/10, Must Read 

  2. Why can I only perceive my own thoughts?
    Why can I only perceive my own thoughts?
    thx for the high-quality response...
    maybe you also misunderstand my points, mostly because i put them in a way in which it is probable that you understand me the way that you understand me...
    my radical open-mindedness has led me to believing everything witch is also false... this can go also in dark ways (where i did not go)but for example, lets just try pedophilia, heroin or whatever comes and goes...
    as you said: of trying to rationalize them into a coherent idea with some explanatory power... and then happens imagination and dogma and delusion...
    proof is relative, somehow you prove one thing with other things... the relation of A to B, and A to C proves A... if i sleep, other people still live... nondualist somehow say that this is not true... if you cut your arm off, you don't have your arm on your body anymore... should we now take drugs, or go into deep philosophy to discredit that proven statement about your arm that fits into basic logic, truth and common sense philosophy... and say a thing like there is no arm, no you, and if you deeply meditate you can grow it back, and all prove that that is not true are false because there are no proves... you see where this goes...
    to all the so-called non dual and drug experiences I can say that they are true, and profound and that they show something about the nature of something, but what about what, we as humans dont have the capacity to know it all and to explain the deepest truth and laws of an absolute existence... so your IQ can be 140 (smart guy), but it is not even close to 9999999999999x999999999, and you complete knowledge is less then 0,0000001 of the existing knowledge on earth, not to start comparing it to the universe... so what truly can you GET from observing your experiences or trips... my experinces and openmind is so open that i can question the same critice that opend it in the first place... so I trip or listen to ,,gurus" wow wow wow, so deep, I listend again, yes, yes yes, wiat WRRRROOOOONNNNGGGG, youre just imagining or gessing or shouting arbitrary ideas that fall from your (smart) head, its not like YOU KNOW or that it can be proven in any (relative) credibile style of proving... and what I test your ideas or statements with everything (modest) that i got, with all my mind, knowledge or whatever, they fall those test, whil some other ideas or statement  they pass all the tests or critices that I can possibly try so i belive them, I say they are true or proven (with always an open mind that everything could be wrong) so if i cut my arm maybe tho new arms will grow insted if i take 8meoaya...
     
    Again all those questions... why cant I feel you if we are all one, if we are all one, how that i can only feel my shit and not one more  shit of other persons... i should at least be able to feel/experience 100 or a million humans if not all of existence...
    Why i dont experience anything when I sleep, im in coma, dead or before I was born?
    why most gurus charge and make money, and take drugs ond somehow fuck up their lives?
    Why non duality leads to expositional more searching and suffering that never ends?  you see how leo is drifting... he is not a person who got it, who is so happy peacfull, who does not search, who emits love, who makes wonders and soo on... just an everexpeding deeper never ending searcher with more and more task complexity and so on...
    why does morality go down in this path, and sins get relativized...
    Why does the truth can only bee attined with tricky methods (drugs, meditating and so on) and why is it not always obvious (so its a mind state attained with touching special parts of the brain)
    when you see the wall, the wall is there... when you get that 2+2 is 4... it not that you tomorrow can not get or see it... but a non dual realization is an induced experience, and later you make just ideas of it without any prove or test that those ides should be capable of passing...
    non dual reasoning can be applied to any experience... there is only sound, everything is sound (if you would have only that sense)... i think our brain has a basic receptor for every input... when you sort out every input and start to feel the same blank receptor than you get to the nondual experience... it can be blank or filled with incredible inputs that again show your pure awareness as it its... later you dogmatize that all is that, as you cold do with all is sight, sound or whatever...
    So i Dont belive you can in any way prove to me that you and are the same  consciousness, or being or mind or the same nothing or whatever... while I belive you every word of the things you have experienced, but I dont belive you your conclusions or ideas about what they are if you can not in any way prove them to me or to most of the human understanding (if you can put it simply you don't get it-Einstein) while I or the whole human comunity can in many ways disprove all of non dual theories claims or ideas...
    Again if you take aya, and say i talked to another entity... i can say that is your hallucinations or that is true, there are multiple dimensions and maybe the human brain can be modeled with drugs to directly experience it... telepathy is also posible, when mobile phones can connect, why not electromagnetic brains... so i'm open-minded...
    but when you say i meditated and felt like nothing, i say I belive... then comes dogmatic reasoning... so I'm nothing ... NOOOO, thats your idea and interpretation of your experince but not your truth... btw. the ego is so relative, one kick in the brain and there is no person any more... you can experience your deletion, and get an existence crisis or bliss... who knows... I wold like to know what we truly are, where we go, where we came from, why all of this is and so on... I thought non duality was the answer for long time, but it literary does not give answers... when it gets tough it says stop asking, thinking, meditate, take drugs, there is no you, empty your brain, fuc   k asking, thinking, logic... this is the truth because I say so, and if you dont get it you're just on a low-level consciousness... it relative, all is relative... cut of your arm!!! there is no arm. Its always there, but it never even was there... so cut it of or don't.
    here is more
     
    those are examples of the forums i put with even more and more questioning, Leo answered and others,,, ant their answers fit the style in which i elaborated now to you... so basically they come to a dead  and get dogmatic or asking me just to stop ,,asking"

  3. My Life Purpose: Raising Humanity's Consciousness Through Storytelling
    My Life Purpose: Raising Humanity's Consciousness Through Storytelling
    After 22 years of life and over 3 years of spiritual work, I have finally made clear my Life Purpose: Raising Humanity’s Consciousness Through Storytelling.
    From a young age I have always had a knack for storytelling, as I have always been one to daydream in class and imagine countless fascinating fictional scenarios. When I was 5 years old I would create little pocket books with drawings and a caption at the bottom of page that told a story as you flipped through the pages. In elementary school I won multiple awards for stories I had written…my mom told me I could be a great writer one day and that idea has never left me. I wrote some more fiction in high school (never showed anybody, it’s cringe lol), and in this past year I have written a couple short stories that have received positive praise from the people I have shown it to, one of which was a creative writing major herself. I have also from a young age filmed random skits with my friends and even worked on a couple higher production level short films with one of my friends who is studying film. 
    And through all of this, whichever medium it may be, I am just absolutely in love with the storytelling aspect. I want to create deeply moving, consciousness tickling work that makes the reader/viewer’s jaw drop, make them think about reality in a radically different way, and/or leave them inspired to improve their lives and raise their consciousness. 
    Some movies that gave me these feelings are: Interstellar, Annihilation, Arrival, Blade Runner 2049
    Some books that left me these feelings are: Beyond Azara by Martin Ball, The Solandarian Game by Martin Ball, Beneath a Scarlett Sky by Mark Sullivan, Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman…and I’m sure there’s more I can’t remember right now.
    Phase 1 of the actualization of this Life Purpose is starting a new Youtube Channel. I have already created a Youtube channel before (search "The Curious Minds") and I had solid success, amassing over 35,000 subscribers and making more than $10,000 total on that project in a 2.5 year span…so I know the ins and outs of Youtube, how the algorithm works, how to keep the viewer engaged, how to build a community. 
    I am going to take it next level with the content I am going to create. Not just next level…but world class. Given that I already have multiple years of experience creating topic, I have confidence I can reach world class level within 1-2 years of starting this project. I’ve saved several thousand dollars already so that I can purchase high quality computer, camera, microphone, etc. I am going to weave in storytelling into my videos…short skits that are about whatever topics the video is on. For example I have an idea for a video, with tentative title “Radical Honesty - How to Transform Your Life by Telling the Truth.” The video would start with a 4 or 5 minute skit depicting how a guy puts himself into a mental prison with the lies he tells…then when the skit reaches a stopping point I would come onto the screen in a sit-down setting and talk about the concept of Radical Honesty for several more minutes…and then then story would continue again, and then at a stopping point I would talk about Radical Honesty some more. I envision each video being somewhere between 20 and 40 minutes, maybe some even up to an hour…I keep having the deep feeling of trust that If I grind and put in the work, that this channel will grow a big and loyal following. 
    It’s not just the channel either…it’s a whole ass business. I have spent probably over 100 hours now researching one-person business models and I think I am pretty clear now on how I am going to pull this off. I am going to funnel my audience to my community online, where I will have my own website, which will contain my newsletter…as well as 1-on-1 coaching…another thing on the coaching part…I have gained some experience with therapy skills and life coaching in the past year or so (I am a psychology major) and I have loved it. So if I could pull this off…make my creative content online and also have some coaching clients on the side…fuck that would be the dream come true. Eventually I want to sell other products on my website too, I already have dozens of ideas for products that I won’t say because I don’t want anyone to steal the idea…but I will say one of them could be a Self-Actualizaton journal that is filled with prompts and practices to help one find meaning in life and move one closer towards discovering/carrying out their Life Purpose. 
    But yeah, that is the general plan outline for Phase 1. I imagine that building this business will take up most of my waking hours for the next couple years, so I need to get ready to grind and make sure I am in peak mental fitness each and every day. As soon as I am able, my plan is to buy a plot of land with a couple friends in relative close proximity to a national park (my two friends and I have “sworn” that we will do this) and build 6-10 yurts on the land and rent out on AirBnb. If this plan goes well, these two business projects will make me a very well off person financially and give me immense freedom in life.
    Once I am financially free is when Phase 2 begins (I am 22 right now and realistically I think this could happen before I am 30). Phase 2 is when I dive deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep into the spiritual work, hell maybe even Leo level deep…and then with my newfound level of consciousness and my mastery in the art of storytelling I will be able to tell the most profound stories humanity has ever heard…I don’t even know if that many people would read them because the level of consciousness of humanity is so low, but I wouldn’t even care because I woud be financially free and not trying to change my stories to make a buck. 
    Also sidenote I have been writing streams of consciousness multiple times weekly on a single document for over 5 years and this document contains several hundreds of thousands of words. Near the end of my life I plan to release the entire writings from that document that contain my most wicked, fucked up thoughts that people would hate me for but also contain the thoughts that make me a vehicle of love for humanity and I will title it something like “The Raw Human”
    But anyways that is the outline for my LP. The vision has been getting clearer and clearer for some time, and now it is finally crystal clear now that a busy ass quarter of college (don’t even really know why i am in college anymore lol but I’m about to graduate this year so finishing it out) is over and now that I have separated from my gf who took up a lot of my time, giving me clarity of mind to think about my next step in life (thank god),
    Much love everyone, just wanted to share. See you at the top!
    Feedback is appreciated, as well as potential blindspots that people might be able to point out.
     

  4. Having a Contemplative Mind At An Inconvient Time and My Thoughts On the Education System
    Having a Contemplative Mind At An Inconvient Time and My Thoughts On the Education...
    So my mind has a lot of deep thoughts that may not be clear but is still a distraction none-the-less which is why I want to post them on the forum to get them off of my mind and it is my mission to improve the education system. Taking this into account, it would be important to think about when homework will improve someone's life and when it won't. I would say that homework should be enforced during elementary and middle school to build discipline for the areas of life that is worth pursuing but becomes more of a distraction if it causes misdirection when it comes to life purpose. I think that it becomes more of a distraction during high school because the mind becomes more mature and focuses more on spirituality, life purpose, etc. There needs to be a way to show this or for this to be tested like a survey or having a conversation with a student (I don't really know the methods or how this will work yet). Although I focused on these things in the past, I was probably resistant with doing the work for those things and I still am to some degree and so homework needed to be enforced during elementary and middle school in my life to learn discipline. I probably need to learn that with my homework now but I don't want it to be misdirected either with this new system even though I want to focus on it now. Having this kind of state of mind however feels less neurotic than the addiction to thought although addictions can feel pleasing so I need to introspect on what it feels like more. Homework is just a tool, there needs to be other methods for serious learning and that going through my school schedule reminds me of the stuff that was irrelevant or not learned. Maybe that method can change every year to maintain order with this schedule but to still have more flexibility when needed.  
    What is the fundamental purpose of homework? What makes this tool so common and overused? What are some alternatives? If it makes me feel guilty with doing the kind of work that I care about more, then it means I am doing it mechanistically and for the sake of doing it instead of doing so consciously. HealthyGamergg is right, it turns out that motivation is keeping a thought steady in your mind and I am more motivated to be doing this even though it was past midnight while I was creating the post and that the thought of posting this was more steady within my contemplative mind. I want to give him credit for his work on YouTube as a phychiatrist, he even talks about meditation, consciousness, and enlightenment. He gives really high quality information about work, motivation, etc, and it is very rare to find such information on the internet. Would it then be impossible to predict or control my motivations if I cannot predict or control a thought without thinking about it causing an infinite regress problem? Could I actually fix this through awareness by meditating?
    Homework should also not cause people to normalize isolation just because people are too "busy". There should also be a deeper connection with other people at school to actually a deeper connection outside of school. I am interested with inviting people over but homework, having to clean regularly, video games, and social media usually gets in the way which is why there needs to be better relationships within school to give me hope and motivation with doing the work required to have better relationships with people meaning that there cannot be such a short sliver of time for that and that there needs to be deeper questioning with the content and structure that is being taught and the beliefs and assumptions that is responsible for the content and structure of the curriculum. The structure is how you make the content better which is improved through systems thinking. This is very difficult to do because that skill falls in tier 2 at stage yellow in spiral dynamics. I would say that HealthyGamergg can be effective at contributing to that if he really wanted to based on where he is at within spiral dynamics and he is slowly opening the door with making room for me to develop systems thinking.
    My first step would be for me to get back on track with meditation so that I can have better concentration with whatever I want or need to work on. HealthyGamergg actually provides such a meditation and it seems to me that he is right that the meditation session is for the base level of consciousness. How do I find out what actually caused me to lose track of meditation? Was it boredom, lack of results, distraction? What is causing resistance with meditating when I first have to chance to do so and how do I focus on the thought of it to actually get motivated to do it? This contemplation session is creating a vision for me and I look forward to see where it takes me.

  5. Mental health and ego backlash
    Mental health and ego backlash
    Hi guys..
    I am new here soo I hope I will not write something stupid lol
    I just want to tell about me shortly. So I am just 18years old but I am not mentally strong. I have been practicing spirituality since I was 14. It really helped me beat my social anxiety, depression, I wasn’t addicted to cutting anymore and I became more loving which is ughh the best experience I have ever had. I attracted people after I stopped caring about their attention. Also I became more awakened because I started studying Buddhism and Hinduism, also Leo’s teachings were helping me A LOT!! so thanks ?  but at some point I got bored you know and I stopped practicing spirituality. I didn’t think I would get bored but it happened since I was not really enlightened. I was just more aware of reality but I didn’t experience a serious enlightenment and mental health problems appeared again. I suffer much more now. I am trying to focus on studies but it’s really hard. I was a very good student but now I can’t study for more than hour a day to be honest. Also my Social anxiety became crippling again. Sometimes I look so weak and it is really ashaming. I think everyone thinks that I am weak and I can’t stop these thoughts because I am addicted to them, also people don’t respect me anymore and they surely view me as a weak person. When I tell myself to go back to spirituality I can’t! Because I feel like I am using it as an escape! I want to first go back to studying and socialize and then focus on enlightenment but it seems impossible. It seems impossible to do any of them first. I don’t know I am stuck. 
    I am forever glad if you read my boring story:)

  6. What If God Wants You to Fail?
    What if god wants you to fail
    Only God's Will is all-powerful. Only God's will IS. God's will is the only command for this particular game to keep appearing as reality. There is no other will around but One, because anyone that you've always had interactions with is what makes the world alive. Given the fact that the Universe is this rn, the external objective reality is an idea.  You'd get lonely ..because there is no veil of perception. Nobody is perceiving an objective external world. If I interact with You and I am ✌️ I am You because nonduality, duality, one, two, etc are words and thoughts, the only way of access for truth to get realized or for God to realize God is direct experience. I can't see my face when I open my eyes because Consciousness is not activity of brain neither has anything to do with brains. What is behind closed eyelids? It's the Same Same. What is behind opened eyes? The black screen you see when you close your eyes is not the perception of having your eyes closed when you realize there are no physical eyes, brains or eyelids. What's beyond the visual field? Nothing else appearing because to say *space*, you see, for that to be correct you should be having direct experience of what you call space beyond visual field... Now play around with this train of thought...
    You realize there is no space beyond direct experience, and you start wondeing... Is there anything at all happening beyond direct experience?
    And then you rethink the first question more throughly..
    And u think to urself.. ? Ummmm 
    God's game ? is designed in such a way that once the click happens you lose all fear. Because you know, and that knowing is your fuel. You are Unstoppable. 
     
     Try this out: Close your eyes for 2 seconds, then open just one. Keep just that one open for 6 seconds. Look, did u notice? Now... At the same time, open the left eye and put your hand like this as you keep the other one open as well. ? Notice how you re creating the whole Qualia of every drop and ocean of sensation. Your body is Qalia. Of course you're dreaming up Qualia in real time. Qualia is not a mix of signals interpreted by a brain. Brain is Qualia too as all appearance. But guess what are the implications of *Brains are not even something that exist outside or as smth else other than though, Qualia. 
    Only the eyes are the windows to "God's Highest States" 
    Pointer .. ??? There are two Eyes ?️?️, Maybe you never thought it throughly, I mean, wtf, why 2✌️?️?️? why... And then you realize.. When you realize the real awakening triggered by this pointer, since you can't see your face you start looking for another ?️?️ and then finally everything clicks. It clicked. You start seeing and understanding that the absence of your eyes within your sight is experienced via a double body with the same nonlocal seat... Astral projection, OBE etc. Think about seeing your face and your body on the bed while out of body journeying... What is really happening is you having direct experience..
    Eyes are that stuff which cannot be seen until You discover through direct truth access that the way you experience this very moment might have ✌️ existing nonlocal .. in the same "seat".
    Just imagine...
    A world where there is no suffering. A world where the only suffering the world ever experienced is through conscious direct experience. Hi? The One reading this rn. ?✌️Clue... Everything that appears as XYZ is Consciousness, your voice, sight insight, feels, thoughts are Consciousness as well. Consciousness = ? Reread this paragraph and read beyond what you first thought I mean; Two channels✌️OneScreen??✌️ One Godhead, 
    I included some symbols here which I am not using to express what these emoticons etc are supposed to convey as meaning 'conventionally', please let all the old meaning behind. If you know what I mean you can surely verify it in your direct experience, the only way of recognizing the same insight, awakening and breakthrough realization is through getting the Clues, a clue is a pointer. Guess what? If everything is Consciousness, guess what the pointers are pointing at.
    Look...There is no ego either. There never was. What do I mean by that... Well, you might wonder, In what sense there is no ego... ?.. The ego is creation. Creation is play. The Ego you've been keep updating and upgrading as you keep dreaming it up... Every ego activit that occured within your awareness is the only reference point for what? ? Now you might wonder ? What if there is randomness here and there in God's game? But now think this throughly... everything you think and do is fueled by God's will and after True God's God-Realization begins the Journey of contacting yourself by initiating connnexion with Yourself, God-realized God wanna be Itself and experience itself..and explore this liberation through Interaction with Capital I.
    Direct experience of There is no veil of perception= Proof available when you take 5-meo with your girlfriend and you realize that you cannot see your face because this is when both get the biggest clue , literally and metaphorically, you cannot see your face because for you to look into your eyes you'd have to look through some other eyes.
    Fire cannot cook and eat, cannot magically turn into a human being, butterfly etc because fire is Qualia. Qualia has no will. But the recontextualization after the Realization: Consciousness cannot be absent There is no Unconsciousness
    What this is pointing to ...✌️ "I am Conscious in your Mind too* might make you enter this state: "the real realization of what this: Imagine Reading Religion stuff from God's POV. Do u remember that line? NWe made man in our image. Our. Our. Our. Image ?? God Realized that God is immortal and It's existence is absolute, it Has nothing to do with any unconscious nothingness. There is no nothing in existence, there is no absence when it comes to existence/God. Full stop.
    Start practicing some Consciousness play... Don't think about anything for 7 hours straight with a partner. You just focus on each other without talking, worrying, eating, doing rutine shit etc. Just stay there, both on 5-meo and look into each other's eyes till both of you recognize the fact that you've always communicated inside the mind.
    That s the only body of work that God sacrificed itself by living in your imagination thinking your whole life into being. 
     
     
     

  7. Why am I distracting myself?
    Why am I distracting myself?
    Hi, Actualizing crew,
     
    Lately I have noticed my mind really looking for and finding ways to distract myself, with shallow pointless YouTube videos, porn, watching more movies, and generally speaking, feeling  drawn to keep my mind busy. 
     
    I am looking for perspective, higher level wisdom or personal experience to shed light on what could be happening, why my mind is trying to distract me, and what mindset shifts may need to happen to pass through this. 
     
    For context I am
    Working 26-28 hours a week Going to school around 23-26 hours a week, (18 hours of class, 5-8 hours of study/homework.) Investing around 50-70 minutes into meditation, stretching, and going for walks as my morning routine Playing music around 3-6 hours a week  
    There are a few different perspectives I am recognizing/actions I could take.
     
    To accept what I am doing, the behavior, and try to exhaust it. To force myself to quit them all To cut back on my time with those distractions and make more time for other, more productive and fulfilling things. Judgment for not living up to my ideals, of filling my time 100% with productive and life purpose related things, meditating more, playing more music, etc.. Seeing it as a phase I am going through on my journey, not to freak out or take any drastic action, but to experience it and try to learn from it. Question deeply why I am distracting myself, this one is scary and seems like a lot of work (especially in contrast to the high pleasure activities my mind is filling with.) Look for the needs these behaviors are fulfilling, try and meet those needs in more conscious ways.  
    Big picture, its all good, I intuit that over the course of 5-20 years, it will become clear what stage this is, what to do or not do, and I will continue with my routines, and this path, curious to hear what you have to say!  
     
     
     

  8. Who are the highest beings in existance
    Who are the highest beings in existence
    Haidakhan babaji has the highest proof from 20 century, he is mahavatar Babaji but basically appeared again in the 1980s.
     
    He's also one of the reasons of my spiritual awakening, the proof that i have seen is astonishing
     
     

  9. Confused about my next step in life
    Confused about my next step in life
    Hi,
    I applied to so many universities abroad and I got acceptances letter from some universities across the world. I am confused as to in which country should I do my university degree in. The list go as below:
    1- China in medicine.
    2- Pakistan in dentistry.
    3- Russia in medicine.
    4- Canada in pharmacology and biochemistry.
    5- United States of America in life sciences and health science.
    What do you guys think? Any advice? Any suggestions? I will be grateful for any help you can give me.

  10. Videos From the Question About Pursuing Awakening
    Why Pursue Awakening If It Is Not Caused By Anything?
    These videos are pointers...but think of them as stimulants to help you on your path.
     

  11. Each Part Of Your Life Has A Theme
    Each Part Of Your Life Has A Theme
    As you get older, different events will happen that will change the direction and conditions of your life. Many people think life is just some random events, but in actuality it isn't. Life is a thematic expression of love. If you are walking the path of self-love/truth, and are checking everyday where you need some tinkering to better align yourself then eventually you will become aware of the theme for that particular part of your life. That theme will be something you are struggling to express, for me that theme is compassion. 
    As you gain more in awareness of yourself and others, you will become more impatient. Your ability to see through your own self-deception and others will actually start to irritate you as you constantly keep catching yourself and others. This frustration will bleed out into your relationships, and you will start trying to teach and correct others. Whatever issues you have within you will always play it out in others, this is what life will constantly showcase.
    All judgment of others is judgment of self, any criticism of an other is always with you. This is the absolute truth, you cannot run from this, you cannot hide from this, because there is only you. Even a notion of a Higher Self, is baloney, there is no higher self. What is the ego? Judgment. Get rid of judgment then no ego. So if the ego is an illusion, so is criticism/judgment. 
    I have recently come into my awareness that the current theme in my life is compassion. I am to cultivate compassion, by getting rid of judgment of others. A desire to teach born out of lack of judgment, will be expressed as a desire to connect, not a desire to correct. My biggest issue is my desire to correct, which comes out of my desire for truth. When a person has a need to be right, they become deathly afraid to make a mistake, and they become overly sensitive and fearful of criticism of any kind.
    This is a difficult identity to drop because a need to be right is a strong motivator to find the truth. But as a result it can make you combative, preachy, and have you come across as judgmental. Understand... that this only happens because of fear of being wrong, and then being called out for it can be resisted as well out of fear of being wrong. I have realized that every identity has its purpose, and the hilariousness of all this is each identity can only see this...if they can drop their fears/judgment. I have recently practiced this with people I thought were crazy....and immediately I understood them. 
    Compassion is the practice of meeting people (points of view) where they are at and through that process you understand them. Why? Because they are you. Socializing with others doesn't make you stupid, the belief of socializing with others making you stupid, makes you stupid! The purpose of solitude is to wake up to your delusions, the purpose of interacting with others is to find out your hidden delusions. You will discover how well you are integrated through your relationships with others if there is no resistance in the interaction.

  12. Leo's Blog: Videos, SUmmaries, and Interviews
    ▶️ Leo’s Blog: Videos, Summaries and Interviews ▶️
    (This is a really good video about using your life purpose to maximize goodness in the world ?)
    Summary of Blog Video: Extra Insights About Good Intentions
          (uploaded August 23, 2021)
         -Some people have been misunderstanding Leo’s latest youtube episode: “Everyone Acts From Good Intentions”
    “But Leo, so what if ‘The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions?'  Are you saying that the intention to ‘be good’ negates the evil of mass murder?  So destruction is ‘good’ if you have ‘oh so good intentions, your honour.’  Aren’t intentions pretty shallow compared to destructive consequences…?”
         -What Leo was saying in that episode is pretty radical.  He’s not saying that evil people rationalize their evil as good, but that their behaviour is still evil.  He’s saying that…
           Everything is an incarnation of Absolute goodness.    It’s just an extremely biased, unholistic, twisted, finite, selfish form of goodness.  God acts through everyone and everything.  All people are literally good!!  Even when your mind is rationalizing destruction and murder, it’s actually good.  Actual good, not just evil trying to rationalize evil as good.  Hate and evil are just twisted forms of love, because…
         -Absolute good is all encompassing.  It embraces everything.  Finite good is not like Absolute good.  People define “good” based on their level of consciousness.  So, relative bad exists alongside Absolute good, but relative bad (and relative good) are still finite, selfish points of view.
     
    “But Leo, how can something like caring about the planet still be selfish?”
         -Well, what about the trillions of other planets in the galaxy?  You don’t seem to care about them.  (Also, you’re probably overestimating how much you really care about the planet.)
          Notice how all the good you do is always a finite good, not the Absolute good. (10:40)
    eg: Let say you donated to a charity for tigers.  That’s good and selfless, right?  Well, how much did you donate?  Why didn't you donate more?  Why not donate your whole life savings?  That’s finite good, not infinite good.  You don’t love tigers infinitely.  So, your love for tigers is finite you monster
     
    Survival and Goodness
         -Basically, you have survival needs that limit your capacity to be infinitely good.  Your capacity for goodness is limited by your empathy, your level of consciousness and especially your survival needs.
         -Notice that you can’t help others in an infinite way, unlike God.  Your physical form puts you in a survival bind.  After all, you can’t be loving and helpful if you’re dead.
         -This doesn’t mean you should stop doing good things because they're finite good.  You also shouldn't become a doormat.  This is just about understanding your limits as a human.
         -In enlightenment work, we experience peak states of love and still have to survive (16:40).  We realize that our day to day level of consciousness isn’t as high as it is in a peak mystical state.  That can make you feel less loving and worthy than someone who’s actually less conscious than you.
          You’re trying to live up to these impossible ideals of love.  Thing is you’re always going to fall short because of your survival needs.  Your love will always be finite and corrupted.  Finite good is still a corrupted form of love (18:38).
         -The finite domain is the material domain.  It’s not fair to expect yourself to embody infinite love in the finite, material domain.
    eg: For Leo to film videos for us ?, he can’t be infinitely loving.  He has to be loving in a finite, corrupted way and keep certain attachments.  Otherwise he’d neglect his survival needs, give all his money away to charity, end up homeless and die ?, and there’d be no more Actualized.org.   
     
         -Notice how when you express love it’s still finite, conditional and corrupted by survival.  That’s okay because you’re stuck in a human state of consciousness.
         -The Godhead is infinite and formless, so it can love infinitely and without fear of “losing” its formless form.
         -However, none of this is an excuse to be hurtful and unloving, or to not try to love more.
         -You can increase your capacity to love by raising your consciousness and empathy and recognize the holism and unity of everything.  Psychedelics is the most direct way.  Raise your baseline level of consciousness through meditation, yoga, mystical experiences.
        -Also, removing obstacles to love will make you more loving.  You can do shadow work, release fear, trauma, anxiety, anger, releasing limiting beliefs and judgments about others (sexism, racism, ableism, etc.)
          Reading more books can open your mind and heart.  Same with educating and exposing yourself to more cultures, people and experiences, so you’re not afraid of “foreigners.”
     
    Idiot Compassion (31:50)
         -Idiot compassionate means being compassionate in impractical ways that diminish your ability to help others.  It distracts from your life purpose.  Idiot compassion drains your ability to be compassionate in an effective way.   
         -Compassion is a delicate balancing act (33:00).  To find that point where you are serving the highest good that you can serve given your finite form, your finite state of consciousness, weaknesses, strengths and problems.
         (Reminds me of the episode where Leo talked about Obama’s drone strikes, and why it’s facile and unproductive to demonize complicated situations as “evil war crimes.”)   
     
    Realistic Practical Love 
    There’s a realistic, grounded practical version of love.  There are also two extreme traps people fall into:
    The “love is some silly hippie notion” camp.  The atheistic rationalists fall into this trap.  They’re so disconnected from love they don’t understand that love is a metaphysical aspect of reality.  That’s very problematic. The ungrounded new age hippies who think you should always apply absolute love without considering the implications of living in a relative, material world.  They talk about love and peace in an idiot compassion way.        The idiot compassion group assumes that you just need to be lovey-dovey towards everyone and that solves everything.  They’re confused about the difference between Absolute truth and Relative truth.
           Having an intention to be lovey-dovey and good isn’t good enough.  You’re a finite being with survival needs.  You don’t have infinite money, time or resources.  No one has that, not even Batman.
     
    Be Honest About Your Limits
         -You need to be honest with yourself about your limits.  You’re not unlimited in the material domain.  You can’t drink a glass of poison and survive.  You can’t jump out of a plane without a parachute and drop kick a coven of warlocks.  You have to be selective with how you invest your energy. 
         -To do good in the material, relative domain requires that you allocate a significant portion of your time and energy to taking care of your body.  So, love cannot only  flow outwards from you.
         -Women have this problem because they tend to be more compassionate and fill more of a caretaker role in society.  They can become too giving and self sacrificing.  Leo’s mom is like this!  This ends up backfiring and leads to a lack of capacity to do good in the world.
         -When you’re serving others too much, you don’t take care of your needs and your body deteriorates.  You compromise your mental health and get drained.  You have to be smart and practical about how you express your love in the world. (37:23)
     
    Effective Goodness Requires Exquisite Balance
         -If you really care about maximizing your output of love into the world, it requires exquisite balance and intelligence, there’s no algorithm for it (37:50).  To be good and giving, you need to maintain your poise, groundedness and connection to spirit itself.
          If you’re showering others with love but you have no love for yourself, this will create problems.  You have to find your unique balancing point.
         -To do good in the world, you have to be selective with your time, money, energy and resources.  You can’t help all the children in the world equally, there’s too many of them.  You have to choose which children in the world to help.  You can’t give money to every charity.  You have to make a choice.   You have to be wise about how you give your time, money and resources.
    “How would the world be best served by the time and money I’m going to give?”
         -These are difficult questions with no obvious answers.  The whole point of you being alive, conscious and intelligent is to make these decisions for yourself.  That’s the joy and hell of life!
         -Material life is a finite experience.  That means you have to make difficult decisions.  You can’t go to every university, or date every lovely, eligible person, or fulfill every interesting life purpose.  Even one is too much for most people.
           So which life purpose is the best for you, that’s going to maximize your output of love?  Leo’s Life Purpose course can help you with this, but you have to make those decisions yourself.
         -It’s important to see the profound tradeoffs and interconnections between the finite and the infinite.  It’s a dynamic dance between the two.  That’s what reality is.
         -Intelligence is your capacity to see and maximize goodness, love and how it's expressed. (41:50) That’s the true definition of intelligence, not IQ.  The ultimate puzzle that intelligence is trying to solve is how to maximize love and goodness.  That’s the puzzle of your life.
         -All the decisions you make in life can be framed with this question: “How do I maximize love and my expression of love?”  Find wise ways to maximize love in the finite domain.  It’s very different than how a fool expresses love.
     
    Wise vs Foolish Love
         -A fool tries to maximize love in foolish ways, like injecting heroin, or eating greasy cheeseburgers, or robbing someone’s life savings to spend it on a Maserati, or promoting toxic forms of picking up women.
           A fool may discover, eventually, that none of those ways are very effective.  They come with side effects and terrible consequences.  They don’t produce love consistently, and they don’t produce the highest levels of love either.  There are also costs that you pay, for the rest of your life, that outweigh the little bit of love you get in the short term.
         -The wise person wises up to the foolish ways he’s been trying to maximize love.  The cheeseburger drains your health, so the wise person will sacrifice taste for energy so he can funnel that into his life purpose.  He trades the love he would have gotten from the cheeseburger for a higher quality of love from his life purpose and the meaningful impact he’ll have on others.
          You could trade drugs like heroin for psychedelics.   That could lead to Kriya yoga or meditation.  You can bootstrap your capacity to love this way, inching your way up bit by bit.  You’re solving the puzzle of love.
         It takes a high degree of intelligence not to eat that cheeseburger, or give into vices and instead work on your life purpose (45:23).
     
    Solving the Puzzle of Love
         -As you solve the puzzle of love, you become more loving and happy.  Love is all you want.  It’s what really makes you happy.
         -There are also different gradations of love.  If you’re a low consciousness person, you’re satisfied with low forms of love.  If you’re a high consciousness person the low forms of love no longer satisfy you.
    eg: If you’re a low consciousness person with no interest in growing, you might be happy with just going to bars and hooking up everyday for the rest of your life. If you’re mature, you’ll realize that’s not fulfilling and you want a deeper form of love.  Maybe you’ll get married, and have children.  After a while you might take up psychedelics and yoga.  
    Stuck at a Level of Consciousness
         -A lot of people are stuck at a certain level of consciousness and they don’t want to raise it.  If you give them a high level of love it will freak them out and plunge them into an existential crisis.
         -To experience the higher forms of love requires maturity, wisdom and intelligence and very little fear.  There’s a trade-off between love and fear.  You have to be willing to surrender a lot of attachments.
         -To a dogmatic, close-minded religious person, the highest forms of love will feel like hell.  They’re super attached to love looking like their religion or to a finite form of God.
         -Bad psychedelic trips can happen if you’re scared, close-minded and resistant to love.  Hell is being disconnected from love.  That’s why you need to do prep work to make the best use of psychedelics.  The infinite love will still be shocking and scare your pants off, but it won’t be hellish. (ep: Dangers of Psychedelics.  Summary is here.)
         -If you have twisted understandings of the world and of people, you won’t open yourself to love.  Dense minds with big egos and trauma, fears, toxic ideologies, will need a gradual process of development.  However, if you’re really advanced you may not need a long, drawn out process and can get straight to the love.
         -Actualized.org is all about raising your consciousness, opening your mind, and growing your capacity for love.  It’s about experiencing infinite love without recoiling in horror.  Even the episodes that seem philosophical or technical are about that. (50:18)
         -So, good intentions aren’t just rationalizations.  They come from Absolute good and ARE good.  It’s just finite, partial and biased.
         -If you want the unadulterated, impartial, unbiased, Absolute kind of love, you must become formless.  If you realize that you are the Godhead, you’ll have the best of both worlds.  You can bring the Godhead back into the finite, material world.  It’s all about how much love you can handle, and how you want to manifest that love.
     
    Finite Doesn’t Mean Inferior
         -Finite manifestations of love are not inferior (53:50).  They’re less total, but “inferior” is a judgement you’re putting on it from your finite human self.  One doesn’t have less value than another.  The finger isn’t less valuable than the hand.  It’s smaller, it’s different, but not inferior.
           The value of everything in the universe is the same, according to the Godhead and Absolute love.
         -From the Relative perspective, certain forms of love are “inferior” because they interfere with a larger purpose, which is to create a peaceful society.  So terrorism is an inferior form of love compared to charity work.
           It’s inferior from the Relative perspective, from the goal of constructing a good, happy thriving society.  From the Absolute perspective terrorism not an inferior form of love compared to charity work, or anything else.
           To the Godhead, everything is of equal value because all parts are necessary.  No part is more important or above any other part.
          You need to know the difference between Relative and Absolute truth.  Know how to distinguish them properly, but also know how to collapse them when necessary. (ep: Relative vs Absolute Truth)

  13. Examples of autism and psychosis as diametrical opposites
    Examples of autism and psychosis as diametrical opposites
    I'm speaking to you @thisintegrated >:)

  14. Examples of Autism and Phychosis as Detrimental Opposites
    Examples of autism and psychosis as diametrical opposites
    I was watching the ToE discussion with John Vervaeke and Donald Hoffman, and I heard John mention he was doing work on the "autism-psychosis continuum", and I was like "what?! Was Jreg actually not trolling with his autizmophrenia video?", and apparently yes, there does exist serious scientific research establishing diametrically opposite relationships between certain autism and psychosis symptoms. Here is a table from one such study:
     

    https://eprints.lse.ac.uk/21571/1/Psychosis and autism as diametrical disorders of the social brain (LSERO).pdf
     
    Does that mean they are mutually exclusive? No. There is still a high comorbidity rate between autism and schizophrenia (up to 34%). Still, I've always been fascinated by the potential connections between these two conditions, and I found this very interesting.
    I couldn't find Vervaeke's study on it, and he was only slightly alluding to it, but I'm pretty sure it involved explaining the autism-psychosis continuum as a continuum of relevance realization.
    And for you MBTI freaks out there: 

    https://jeffwarren.org/articles/twotribes/ (it talks about the study above).
    ...meaning that autism tilts towards sensor type cognition while psychosis tilts towards intuitive type cognition. This is of course evident in how autistics are more literal and only go with the information explicitly provided while psychotics can construct elaborate narratives out of thin air. The evolutionary background for this is also interesting:
     
    I certainly feel that I tilt towards the psychotic end, especially when I think back to the time I felt like one of my teachers (who I know without a doubt is a narcissist) was bullshitting an answer in front of the class with the fear of looking dumb if she couldn't answer. So there you can obviously see the connection between sensitivity to social cues and the abstract inferences based on those, and how it creates a more "mentalizing" style.
    "Mentalizing" is also a term used in attachment theory, and it's been shown that mothers who score high on mentalizing correlate with having children with secure attachment styles (i.e. successful parenting), which also ties to the idea that femininity is more "psychotic" (given that parenting is mostly a maternal thing) . In that vein, I've heard autism being referred to as a form of "hyper-masculinity". Also, if mentalizing is associated with social perspective-taking and abstract inferences, then you can say that holistic big-picture thinkers (e.g. most of the Tier 2's in today's world) are essentially sub-clinical psychotics (which I've also heard about through the concept of decreased latent inhibition). Ahhh it's all coming together 

  15. The True Definition of What Forgiveness Is
    The true definition of what Forgiveness is
    Sin is impossible 

    There's an incorrect definition of forgiveness? Yes, it's the accepted one:
    "Psychologists generally define forgiveness as a conscious, deliberate decision to release feelings of resentment or vengeance toward a person or group who has harmed you, regardless of whether they actually deserve your forgiveness." Source

    Notice that it never works, by the way. You can stop thinking about them, but you can't actually release the resentment towards them. Ups.

    This is why the subject is so important. We want to learn how to release all resentments permanently. That will raise us out of negative feelings into a more peaceful state. The true tool to do so is True Forgiveness. I will capitalize the correct one to separate the two.

    True Forgiveness is the act of realizing the Oneness of existence and releasing the object in question from his guilt by accepting that he and you both are innocent. Innocence is the realization that sin is impossible in the eyes of God. 

    How is this achieved practically? Here's an example of a thought system rooted in Forgiveness:

    1. A painful thought arises in any of its possible forms.

    2. Notice it and acknowledge fully that it is here to be released. The tendency, especially for people who meditate, is to simply let it go. That does not release it. It only ignores it for the time being. To release - first notice it, then acknowledge that it is there for a reason - to be released. It will hurt. No one said that it's a walk in the park. There is a reason why you avoid it. Soldier through it and move on to step 3. 

    3. Being fully present, analyze the reality of the thought at hand. Look at it with the eyes of God and judge, appropriately, if it is real or not. The release happens when you completely discredit the actuality of the thing that thought points to. Don't discredit the thought. Discredit what it is talking about. Catch this nuance, or miss everything.

    Take what that thought is talking about, look at it, and, once again, using the Holy Vision, surrender it to God, with the knowledge that it has not occurred and will never occur. Most painful thoughts have never actually happened because you are dreaming a solipsistic dream, which hypnotizes you into believing that the world is actually real. Those thoughts are simply stories you told yourself, which aren't true, but still hurt you, because you believe in them.

    The only reality is what God experiences firsthand in the Dream. The solipsistic hallucination is real, but only to the point of what is in the present moment. All else is stories and stuff.

    Some say that nothing actually occurred in existence, which is an appropriate statement from the perspective of the Absolute, but while you are here, let me come over, punch you in the face, and then you can come back here and tell us that that didn't actually occur.

    It does occur in the Presence of God, which is in the Primordial Here and Now.

    To avoid suffering the appointed Karma for this life, get enlightened, and that will eliminate all suffering, including physical pain.

    You don't think that Jesus actually suffered on the cross, do you? He was hard chilling. It's kinda badass to die in front of your girl by smiling in the face of death and then coming back shortly after to chill again. 

    Anyway..

  16. Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born
    Finding Your Soul's Plan: Discovering What Your Life Was Meant to Be
    Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born

    If I were to summarize this book in very few words it would be “it’s all good”. If you agree with the author’s perspective on life (which includes more than just this physical life), then everything happens for a reason and for the ultimate good of all concerned.
    The premise of this work assumes that you accept that we are eternal souls and we live many lives in order to learn and grow. Apparently, most of that learning is by experiencing the opposite. For example, we come into this life and forget who we really are, and then we experience anger as both victim and perpetrator so we can forgive ourselves and the other person and move past it, discovering our own divinity in the process. Then when we cross over into the more sublime reality where there is no anger, we appreciate the love we express and receive all the more. Had we not experienced the illusion on earth of negativity, we would not value so highly the positivity of the heavenly worlds.
    I am a seeker of truth and I have searched both outsides, through books mostly, and within via meditation for answers to the mysteries of life. As I have some past life recall, I am a ready audience for the premise of this work. I also have some revelation that some things are definitely planned. But I do not know if they are planned to the extent given here. Do we have full say on whether we reincarnate? And do we really decide all the major goals and factors that our life will entail, and then we make the necessary agreements with other souls? Schwartz claims that oftentimes very negative, even criminal behavior is not what it appears. A young man planted a bomb and grievously injured a young woman. But this was not the evil act it appeared to be… it was agreed upon prior to their birth. Thus the young man incurs no negative karma for this although he doesn’t recall the agreement and is ashamed of what he sees as a random act of evil. The victim learned to forgive the unknown man (in this life) and move a step further toward gratitude for his act because it compelled her to make great strides in the unfolding of her true nature.
    This kind of makes sense and I’m still working on the extent to which I believe this is true and how it fits my understanding and long-held beliefs. Perhaps the biggest loose end in this book was its brief and casual mention of walk-ins. That’s the idea that a soul can depart from a serious accident or illness but the body survives because another soul has stepped into that vehicle. The new soul would inherit the memory and some personality traits of the previous soul but would be a different being. I read about this many years ago in Ruth Montgomery’s book and I brushed it off at that time. While it seems to fit with the concept of the present work (that it’s permissible if the two souls have pre-agreed to this) it is creepy to ponder that another entity might be looking at us through our loved one’s eyes. Of course, we ourselves would also have pre-agreed to this in a state of being where we wouldn’t find such a thing so disturbing.
    Another thought-provoking point made by Schwartz is that when a person learns to love and forgive and becomes one with their true higher nature, they uplift all humanity. The pain and suffering overcome by the woman who was a victim of the explosion were transformative to the whole planet even if no one ever told her story. That’s because her energy is felt by us all. This gave me a new take on the concept that Jesus died for our sins. In the context of Schwartz’s work, we could say that Jesus’s love and forgiveness despite his intense suffering, uplifted the whole world. This may be where that concept was derived from.
    I would have liked to have seen one more chapter, and that would be a story where some act of evil was not planned. Don’t some souls go off the reservation so to speak, and what happens then?
    This book may not be for everyone, but if you are an open-minded seeker of truth like me, consider this a must-read.

  17. A Critique of Actualized.org And Leo Gura
    A Critique Of Actualized.org And Leo Gura
    A Critique Of Actualized.org And Leo Gura
     
    The intention of this critique is to make people aware of some of Leo’s limitations. It might save people time and unnecessary suffering. It is not meant to invalidate or insult Actualized.org or Leo. I think Leo is a great teacher in many ways, this is just healthy criticism. Please take it lightly. Since Leo likes to criticize everyone else, I thought why not do it to him this time.
    It’s worth mentioning that I’ve personally never taken any psychedelics and I don’t consider myself some advanced spiritual person either. Some might consider this critique incomplete - which is fair. I have been watching Leo and other teachers for a long time. Nevertheless, I think it can still be helpful for people to read this. If anything, it can be an exercise in open-mindedness. 
    It’s important to note that I will only be critiquing Leo on his more core and central teaching. So don’t expect much on minutia like his dating advice or politics. Although these thing can be important to some people, and you are free to level your own critiques on him, small or big, below this post, I personally won’t be focusing much on this.
    So sit back and let’s being…
     
    Freedom from understanding
     
    This one is a little confusing and long but the most important. Stick with me please.
     
    Basically, Leo takes psychedelics and shares his findings on YouTube.
     
    Why am I telling you this? 
    I am telling you this because there are things he doesn’t explicitly tell you:
    What Leo does is pursuit of understanding. It is an endless process. There is no end to it. You can keep on accumulating new experiences and making your understanding better and better. Understanding is a limited process rooted in the ego-mind.
    So during his psychedelic trip he has an experience of God. We can say he is in a higher state of consciousness. Once it is over, he comes back to his normal state of consciousness. The experience is stored in the form of memory which gets interpreted and communicated by the ego-mind. The memory isn’t reliable because it can’t be stored. Understanding is a limited thing, whereas Truth is unlimited it can’t be bound to such things.
    So here’s what you need to know:
    Most people don’t need to do what Leo does. Leo is like a scientist. It’s his profession and passion to have new experiences and create new mental models. This pays his bills.
    Truth is beyond understanding. Truth is something living, it doesn’t come from a memory of a trip.
    Understanding (and experience) is only needed to answer a few basic questions, beyond it you don’t need it. Questions like, “Who am I?”, “What is thought?”, “What is the limitation of thought?” Basically to quiet the mind and satisfy your curiosity. To become free from this as well.
    The point of spirituality is freedom, but people get stuck in this cycle of accumulating experiences and gathering knowledge. They never become free from understanding itself. You have to use your understanding to get free from understanding.
    Getting more understanding will not change you. Your personality will remain the same. Your habits and patterns will remain the same. Your base level of consciousness will remain the same. You will remain an idiot. (If anything too many fixed ideas you got from your trips might make your ego swell and make it hard for you to look at life afresh.)
    You might regret wasting this time on understanding. It’s endless. It’s the same as exploring the physical world. You can keep exploring it deeper and deeper and arrive at new conclusions each time. Your time might be better spent on any number of things.
    It’s important to tell you that it will not get rid of suffering either, in case that’s why you are following Leo. 
    It’s important to tell you this because people have attached unrealistic expectations about this. If you’re an average person with a job and a career, you don’t need to do this. In fact this might not even be spirituality for you, it’s like a weird game of documenting peak experiences. He might say he made this clear to people, but I say he doesn't explicitly tell you this. Most people don't need this and they don't know they don't need it, they are lost and Leo doesn't help them out.
     
    Lack of balance
     
    Leo likes to talk about balance, but how balanced is his spirituality? 
    How balanced is his self-help? It is overly intellectual (as he himself admits). 
    All he’s trying to do is get peak spiritual experiences. He has completely neglected raising his base level of consciousness. As far as you know he is not doing anything to raise it. He inspires others to do the same.
     
    Arrogance, ego and the forum
     
    If you had asked me about Leo’s ego a year ago, I would have ignored it as minutia, but now I increasingly feel it is becoming a problem.
    After an awakening his ego becomes inflated for several weeks. Every time he gets an awakening you can bet it will be like this.
    You know something other people don’t. So what? What’s the big deal? What’s there to be proud about? You don’t even know it after the trip. I don’t see the point of inflating your ego.
     
    Trap of solipsism 
    “But it’s not ego, he’s trying to communicate solipsism. That’s why he says he is the best and the only one awakened.”
    No, no. If he was he wouldn’t say it like that. It would be a matter of fact statement. Anybody with some awareness can tell that what he is saying coming from ego. He thinks there’s no one he can learn from. There can be no characters in the dream more knowledgeable and aware as him. Yet he continues to be in the dream. He thinks he is the most advanced, not because of solipsism, he actually thinks that. (For anyone that thinks otherwise, you can simply use the search function and look what he said in the past.) (I'm not saying solipsism is not true.)
     
    It’s a one way conversation with him. There’s nothing you can say to him that will get through to him. There’s really no point talking to him anymore. It’s a misapplication of solipsism. 
     
    “He’s just being authentic.” 
    Being authentic doesn’t mean doing whatever comes to your mind. “I feel like murdering someone, so I will murder someone.” That’s not authentic. Again, I think it comes under a trap of solipsism.
     
    “The other teachers are not as good”
    He doesn’t know about other teachers’ methods.
    Leo doesn’t know about all these things, he has never learned from an actual Yogi, Tantric, or a Buddhist monk from the places these traditions originate from. He has never gone too deep into this. He’s not qualified to talk about it.
    He doesn’t know about devotion, about chakras, energy, and many other things. 
    It might be because he has an autoimmune disorder which prevents him from exploring other methods fully. That’s why he likes psychedelics so much. They’re quick and easy. 
    “Buddhism will never get you there.”
    Sadhguru said Buddhism is a long, drawn out process. He said Buddhist masters tell you it will take you 12 life times of sadhana to become enlightened. Buddhism in the east, the actual Buddhism, makes it clear. It doesn’t give you false expectations.
    "But re-incarnation and all that isn't real."
    Just like everything else. The walls in your house, your ego-mind, your body, and your psychedelics. How do you know it's not as real as radio waves?
    "But these teachers are genetic freaks! We can't be like them."
    So it just didn't occur to these genetic freaks that other people can never advance spiritually like them. These supposedly genetic freaks who are juggernauts of awareness, just didn't realize other people are not like them. It slipped their attention. Obviously if these people are so aware they know what they are doing and what others are capable of. I've seen videos and testimonies of people who go to these people. People's lives have changed for the better. Obviously not all the people who benefit make a YouTube channel and say exactly the same things Leo says. People are private.
     
    Being offensive and outrageous 
    I am embarrassed to share that I watch actualized.org with anybody. With post titles like, brains don’t exists and pedophilia is love. I’m sure I’m not the only one. Leo has no regard for how others might perceive his loyal followers when he does things like this.
    It’s coming from ego. The way he’s going about saying it is dumb. You don’t need to do all this to make your point. It’s unappealing, that’s why people move away from you and he feels they are moving away because they don’t understand his point. 
    “Look at this video of a murder taking place. This is love guys! Look at this! Why are you going away? Surely you’re not as awake as me! I’m the most awakened person on the planet!”
     
    Future
    I think in the future, it is possible, Leo will eventually develop occult powers with the use of psychedelics. And his ego will be even more inflated. It will become even more ugly. This is all a consequence of not neglecting his base level of consciousness. 
     
    Forum
    The forum is not a great place. Partly because Leo himself sets the precedence on how to communicate here and he himself breaks his own rules and name calls people. Even when he’s not name calling you directly, that’s what he’s trying to do indirectly. He’s so snarky too. Other than that he’s doing some version of “everything is a dream”, “this is just a figment of your dream.” 
    “It’s the internet” No. They look at Leo’s writing style and get inspired. 
    The quality of the forum is quite low. Some members with mental illnesses should’ve been reached out and told to take care of themselves before posting again. There are posts which are quite low, like “why I hate men/women” or some other thing like that. Some members should’ve been kicked out a long time ago but Leo seemed to have a soft-corner for them. There are people who have shown no progress (or even regression) and have been on the forum for a long time.
    For e.g, take Nahm’s example. He should’ve been stopped a long time ago. I come on the forum occasionally and even I noticed he was misleading members on the forum whether he meant to do it or not. And I have seen long term members being lost and no one corrects them. 
    This is important ‘cause there have been incidents of suicide and people ending up in mental hospitals among Leo’s audience. It’s not far fetched to call what he does irresponsible. 
     
    Better self-help teachers
     
    In a sense you can’t even call what Leo does self help anymore. Over the years, he has become more interested in sharing his awakening from his trips than actually understanding his audience’s problems and solving them. 90% of the time he’s just describing his awakening and it’s not of much use because you cannot get to that point by just listening to him. Just do the psychedelics in the way Leo say, there’s no point listening to him except for entertainment.
    I think, there are better more balanced self-help teachers out there. Those who don’t focus on journalling and intellectualizing too much. Intellectualizing is the number one trap today, people just sit and home and try to think through their problems instead of taking action. So that’s why I think it’s a big limitation of Leo. There is Sandeep Maheshwari for example who has a good balance of self-help and spirituality. His content is not in English however. 
    And for what we know Leo is not a very productive person either. His life might be worse than most people’s for what we knew (partially because of his autoimmune disease). I don’t he’s the ideal person to teach a balanced self-help.
    For e.g. take the difference between Sadhguru and Leo on concentration. Concentration is one of the most important things you need to become successful spiritually and materially.
    Leo has a video on concentration titled: Concentration vs Meditation - How To Develop Concentration. I’m sure everyone has seen it multiple times so I won’t talk about it.
    Now look at what Sadhguru says about concentration: he says don’t try to concentrate. Trying to concentrate is torture and you won’t be able to sustain it. Instead be involved in whatever you are doing and focus will naturally come. Not attached, not detached, but involved. Like you are involved while playing a sport. To meditate is to be involved. Involvement brings attention, and attention brings clarity. Personally this had changed my life. Here’s one article by him: https://isha.sadhguru.org/in/en/wisdom/article/key-to-staying-focused
    I think Sadhguru knows much more about attention, concentration, focus, alertness, and the overall mind than Leo. 
     
    Other minutia
     
    If I were to say something else I would just say that Leo has a slight bias toward the “western” way of life and has wrong assumptions about people from other places. The lifestyle of the “west” isn’t all that great. 
     
    They End
     
    I may edit this post later for spelling and grammatical errors, or if I want to add something to it. 
     

  18. A Practical Plan For Absolute Fulfillment In Life
    Absolute fulfillment in Life: A practical plan
    Absolute fulfillment is what everybody ultimately wants. It is what you truly long for. The best word for it is Love. Pure unconditional Love. Freedom. Ecstacy. Boundless Consciousness. Vibrance. Life itself. God.
    The name you give to it doesn't matter, the only thing that matters is, are you living as Love or not? There are only two answers to this. Either yes, or no.
    These words are coming from a once lost soul, who now achieved a life of beauty and aliveness. For the last few months my life has been heaven on earth. On a daily basis I am crying tears of joy. I left all my negative tendencies behind. My life has become Life itself, without a me to own it and the joy and peace that accompany it are unimaginably sweet.
    The only thing I am doing in life now is to serve others, and this is what I will be doing for the rest of my life. Once your personal agenda drops away all you care for is understanding, caring for and ultimately loving other people. And the beautiful thing about love is: It is infinite. The more you give it away, the more it becomes.
    I am here to tell you, that Love is a real possibility. I am here to tell you that it is not a mere sentiment, but the ultimate truth that lies of the heart of all creation. Truth is not a thing that is merely accessible through psychedelics or hard practice. In fact, absolute Truth is always the case, and the only thing that needs to happen to see that is: simply seeing it.
    However, there are practical steps that can be taken and need to be taken in life. And while ultimately any step that you could take is pure goodness and absolutely fine, there are steps which seemingly higher your chances to "reach" absolute truth. Absolutely speaking however, it is important to state that absolute truth can never be "reached", because it is already here. It is you.
    This being said, let me outline a practical guideline for you, which you should follow to turn your life into the sweetest thing it could ever be. Follow this guideline step by step. Do not try to follow all steps at once. Follow 1 step at a time. Only go to the next step if you mastered the previous step. These steps are not dogmatic. They are based on Life itself, if you follow them carefully you will quickly see your life becoming sweeter and more at ease:
    Quit all your addictions to substances: No alcohol, no suggary foods, no cigarettes, no other drugs, no caffeine, no overeating, no medicines, no substances of any kind, other than healthy food Quit all your addictions to entertainment and social media: Stop entertaining yourself with anything. Stop watching videos, even spiritual videos like Leo. It is all entertainment. Stop using social media of any kind. Stop using the internet in any unconscious way. The only way you should use the internet is if you want to consciously enhance your understanding of a certain topic and by conciously choosing the means and the content through which you enhance that understanding, not through compulsion Only eat natural and healthy foods: Foods which are non-processed like vegetables, fruits, meat, fish, nuts, etc. Nothing else. No noodles, no cornflakes, no processed things Quit your addiction to porn: Stop watching porn. Not only is it a strong addiction that distracts you from actual reality. Furthermore it creates a really unhealthy image of what sexuality means / is and it manipulates the way you look at women Live on your own: Have your own room, your own restroom, cook your own food, wash your own dishes and your own clothes. Take responsibility for ALL things you do in your life. Say: "this is my life, and this life is my doing." Anything you do in your life is your choice, realize this truth. You chose the way you sit. You chose the way you stand. You chose all the things you say, the activities you engage in and the people you spend your time with in any given second of your life. Stop giving your responsibilty away by saying "God did this to me" or "my life is just shitty." This is not true. You created your life. You are in the drivers seat. Always follow your highest feeling: Stop listening to your thoughts. The only thing you should use in order to decide what you want to do at any given moment is your highest feeling. Walk slowly through life. Take your time to go inside of yourself, go to the deepest place you can find, to your heart, and look what you truly feel. Your highest feeling is God, and it always knows exactly what the next move should be and what the highest choice is. You don't need to believe in God to do that, just listen to your heart, always. Start looking at all people like you would look at your own children: Look at all people you encounter, including yourself with the eyes of love and compassion. Stop caring more about your own problems than you care about other peoples problems. Start caring equally about anyone and start to look at anyone with the eyes of a loving mother. Start looking intensely at everything: While you move through life, whatever you do, be intensely in the present moment. LOOK at ANYTHING life throws at you. Just look, don't look for any particular thing. Don't look for truth. Don't look for God. Just look, without intention and without expecting any particular result. If you master this step, all the other steps will take care of themselves naturally Follow these steps and your life will transform tremendously. Stop looking for excuses. Start following step 1 from today on and make a commitment to follow through on this list. Try it out. If you follow those steps with 100% commitment you will see your life improving tremendously in no time.  After a few months of commitment following them will be natural and effortless for you. Then you will realize that the place you currently are in is already heaven.
    Wish you all the best!

  19. Interesting Content of Spawn Count
    What's Your Spawn Count?
    I don't know.  When I accessed my soul on a few occasions, I didn't feel that there was a count.  It felt more like... okay...hmmmn... so the first time I felt it, I felt like I stepped outside of time and space and underneath the layer was everyone who ever was, and I didn't have a count.  I was always there the whole time and always will be.  There was no start, no finish, just forever with the illusion of life flowing around me.
    Another time, I was feeling around in the aether, and I could feel my soul family, they were like little grapes on a vine attached to me through the fabric of reality and again they didn't have a count either.  We were all just... always there.

    The third time I was listening to this song after reading Sri Aurobindo's the nature of the soul and how the soul is located in the heart, just behind it, and this song hit me there - with the lyrics, the image of the animal, the way the voice felt - even the name "You" called to me - uhm... I had been in a trance and allowed my full self to move forward before this happened.
    The black fur of the animal represented to me an instinctual void, within the sky - just nothing really - and the jellyfish, the tendrils looked like feelers, as if my soul had implanted all of my lives throughout history all at once, and it had all emanated from my mouth - from The Word - and it only felt like there was a progression, but it was actually a simultaneous process.  The eyes in the centre of the feelers represented the interconnected awareness of all my lives.  So I don't think there is a spawn count in the way that we think of it... I think the soul plants everything down at once and then raises it up again.  My highest self was more divine than I could ever hope for.
    Hey, what's your name?
    'Cause I need to know
    I've been high and I've been low
    Far beyond and far below
    Never seen you before
    If I die before I wake
    Promise me you'll remember me tomorrow
    'Cause I'll remember you
    I'll remember you
    And then, along the way I became corrupted with hate.  I wanted to self destruct and so I chewed myself out of the fabric of reality.  All of the cords that held me together, I ripped them out, and when I was sick and it came time to connect, I wasn't connected to anything.  Just floating around.  I actually felt the process of being unharnessed, uncorded from my family and my mate and it was horrific.  I could, underneath the facade of my human life, feel my soul just screaming out - being foisted into nothing and then destined for a recycling process that I began to orbit around.  It felt like being drawn into a great incinerator.  I would look to my guides and they would tell me with worry, "Annie!  You're burning!  Get out!"  But I didn't know how.
    Around this time, before or after - I felt a wave of my other half move towards me and he contained many souls all at once, each one looked to be like a candle of light within a great ocean spiral, and I knew I was supposed to crash into it, and that my wave would fractalize but I leapt over it in fear, in self-hatred, in spite and because I can be destructive at times... 
    Later on, I was in a fevered state and I met him again and he said he was my partner, he was worried I was dying and wanted to be there for me, but his nature is that of chaos, destruction, and rebuilding, and because I don't really see how that operates - like, death and petrification is something that I don't really understand beyond a conceptual level, that I could not see him.  He felt to be many - which is what is described in pretty much any book where people talk about entities, they present themselves as a legion, but put forward one singular face for you to come to understand.  He tied me back into himself and he's the only thing I can feel a connection to anymore, after removing myself from everything else.  To see these things you have to open yourself up to the possibility.
    Look within to find your soul, and the anatomy of the process of it, where it is, where you should be...


  20. Souls and Past Lives
    What's Your Spawn Count?
    Did you read what I wrote?
    Well.. do twin siblings always have the exact same identity/personality? Why do families sometimes have a kid that's completely different to everyone else in the family? So if you can't imagine how a soul could have any impact on a person's character then that's how it could manifest, in theory.  It's easy to see how people conclude that souls are real when there are people like Sadhguru born in slums, who uplift their whole community.  It's as if genetics alone don't seem an adequate explanation for their energy/happiness/selflessness.  It's as if they've taken a quality from elsewhere, and their memory has nothing to do with it, it's an "essence" that's got nothing to do with their brain chemistry or intellect.
    But also you seem unfamiliar with Tom Campbell's work.  The idea is that everything in reality is an information system, and behaves like an information system.  That's why physics works like a predictable algorithm, and why quantum mechanics works like a probabilistic model you could get in a computer simulation.  Anyway, for evolved information systems to continue to exist they must continue evolving, and to do that they must become better information systems, that means having less randomness/entropy and more order.  Another word for this is "love", as love is the most constructive/orderly/productive state to be in.  But to produce love/order out of chaos/randomness we need an environment in which there are consequences to actions, where there's natural incentive to grow towards a state of love.
    The whole of reality is basically just a love simulator.  Without our human/physical limitations there'd be no change, no reason to discover love, every action/choice would be inconsequential and meaningless.  According to the model, with each incarnation we grow closer to love as the process of life automatically evolves our "IUOC" or something like a "soul".  The IUOC's "quality of consciousness" is what is being evolved, and is what you take across lives.  And this idea does seem to have some validity ime.  It's really pretty obvious and is everywhere you look.  Initially I thought this was the one and only thing Spiral Dynamics was attempting to model, quality of consciousness.  With time, the average stage of people seems to be increasing.  Kids are starting off more evolved than their parents, and almost every prisoner/soldier is pretty much Green by the end of their lives.  It seems that eventually we'll have people born into Turquoise.  I don't imagine aliens millions of years ahead of us going through Red, Blue, etc. going through violence or racism, I can't imagine such dysfunctional tendencies staying with any species forever, but iirc Leo and the forum doesn't see it that way and disagrees with this perspective.

  21. Leo's New System On Spawn Count
    What's Your Spawn Count?
    From now on I'm ranking ya'll based on your respawn count.
    25 respawn minimum.
    If you can't clear the bar, come back after you've respawned a few more times.


  22. The Authentic Path
    The Authentic Path.
    Why do I do the things I do?
     
    Why am I attracted to those things that feel so good but hurt me in the long run?
     
    Why do I run from the responsibilities that could changed my life?
     
    Why do I play the subtle victim?
     
    Why am I the way I am?
     
    Today unfolded like a blanket held on one edge and flapped like a wave, I tried to think of what was beyond the crest of time, and failed. So I rode the wave instead. 
     
    One of my newer co-workers, has dreams, though deeply mired in cultural norms and habits, he has dreams, even though he says he is afraid to ask questions because of the uncertainty it will bring. He still dreams. Of opening a Café, of having a better life, of being financially independent. he hasn't accepted the call, but he dreams. Maybe I project myself onto him, but I see a spark, I will not let him down by giving unsolicited advice, I will instead help him understand himself, by being an example, an inspiration, with questions, with resources he can lean on. I want to empower him to overcome his unique struggle. 
     
    In fact...
     
    I want to help as many people as possible, overcome their unique struggles. Trauma, brainwashing, ideology, negative thinking, limiting beliefs, lack of self-love, inauthenticity, people pleasing. I want to be a guide, a light that shines into their "soul" so they can see who they really are, under the muck, under the layers of bullshit, that spark within  us all, that desire to grow, to love, to create. that spark of consciousness.
     
    On the way home from work tonight, I sing in the car,
    "What will I be when I  Wake up? What will be left the stories have been washed away?"
    "Who will I be when I wake up? how much of "me" will remain?"
    "All of the stories, all of the lies, all of the boundaries, all in the mind"
    "How will life be when I wake up?"
     
    Goodnight dear reader, love yourself fully, don't accept shit from anyone, even me  
     
    - Paul
     

  23. Proserpina's Journal
    Proserpina's Journal
    Unmanifested - Being (father)
    manifested - Wise self- Being (son)
    Unmanifest vortex - Wise self - Being - Wave (Holy spirit) 
     

  24. Proserpina
    Proserpina's Journal
    Only a God can see the Gods. 
    But God forbid you ever admit that in the realm of the Gods. Unless you have the balls to see and admit to the true reality.  You'll either be worshipped or doorslammed as unworthy otherwise. 
    You have to awaken from the dream. Meditation can guide you the way there. But you can't meditate your way out of hell, you have to awaken. 

  25. Funny Leo meme I found
    Funny Leo meme I found