Julian gabriel

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  1. it seems there is a dimension of reality where others are only toys and it really is a dream. this may be a version of hell, and I may be the devil in it. once others are places for spirits to reside and its a lucid dream conducted by the mirror of internal and external
  2. @LastThursday sounds like hard work
  3. I just feel like i should be in control here it's just me in a big way, its all me in a bigger way, subconscious re-programming does sound like a sort of control. manifestation? idk how exactly, when I don't think and let myself desire without fearing what is desired it feels like that works sometimes... kinda it seems a-lot to do with which other energy u have some sort of inferiority complex in association with, that energy will control you. maybe the question is how to drop all inferior feelings, hm
  4. slightly clickbait title, because he responds quite often for someone of his status, however at times I will ask a very good question and I wonder why that particular one is left on read After the solipsism video I feel Leo has become too much about serving others positively to be as authentic, I find this really sad sometimes because having a hyper logical mind dissect reality publicly with disregard for the consequences to a large extent was incredibly raw, it was more artistic than almost anything. I'm partially posting this topic also because I feel it is probably something other forum members have frequently pondered. It seems that the type of hiding Leo is engaged in would come from a lack of trust of others, which is kinda understandable, FEAR OF OTHERS POSSESSING EQUAL KNOWLEDGE. I also feel this fear at times related to my fear of intimacy. of course there is also the main reason Leo gave himself for his change in style which was that he didn't want to harm others, I believe him, partly.
  5. definitely feels like my states of more unity
  6. while on shrooms I tried to throw up with the regular will of resistance to the situation which did not work then I tried imagining throwing up in some law of attraction type way which let and allowed what I desired to happen to me then I threw up, without using my ego's will. if anyone could help me articulate wtf happened that would be much appreciated thx
  7. aweomse thanks leo
  8. it literally makes me so happy by accepting how sad I be is that y?? idk y tho?
  9. I think it's weird that sex is only legal once ur 17 in New York, the body becomes sexual way before that, and its not like 17 year olds are much smarter than 15 year olds, what do you think?
  10. in my opinion the whole concept of "game" as a way of interacting with other humans only gets in the way of real connection and intimacy. maybe if u aim to show ur real personality as much as u can instead then maybe it won't feel so bad when ur rejected, that's what I do, it still feels bad but at least I get to know she's really rejecting who I genuinely am and therefore I probably wouldn't like her anyway in the long run if she doesn't like who I am. maybe the homeless guy was more real
  11. thought it would be cool to create a thread of just the coolest most profound questions we can come up with without giving answers. Here's some examples: what happens after you leave the body? what do you think about throughout the day? what was the most traumatic experience of your life? what do you want most? are others concious? how to become immortal? what do you fear most? how to control reality? what makes reality exactly the way it is?
  12. maybe the desire for a life long partner is the desire to have a parent instead of a lover because romantic love doesn’t last it comes and goes so maybe a lover is naturally a temporary thing and a life long partner is the desire to return to childhood instead of growing up and realizing that the only one who is always there is yourself there is such value in being alone because ur forced to confront yourself without distracts, and that’s painful. maybe that’s what growing up is though maybe if society wasn’t set up around living consistently to have a job and AI did the working for us then we wouldn’t arrange relationships in a way which prioritizes stability and consistency but instead feel the wave of romance going up and down as a natural thing instead of something being wrong
  13. kinda
  14. @Davino yeah I do feel like for me solopsism feels like tenstion between unity and division, when solopsism could rather be taken as that which encapsulates both