For example, you're generally not horny anymore after ejaculation. It takes time to build up to the same level of sexual appetite, which is a hormonal process (among other things). It's more adaptable than say a menstrual cycle, but it's a cycle nonetheless: horniness -> ejaculation -> decrease in horniness -> celibacy -> increase in horniness etc.
The overarching point is that everything that is physical is cyclical, and that there are many different cyclical systems, and that many of the cycles especially in the body influence each other. Repressing one system might create an inbalance in other systems and the system as a whole.

This could be true. Improper breath work and mental madness are an often phenomena.
Overall, those are some strange symptoms you're having. Perhaps you're sending too much energy up your head without beinging it down to the dantien. Taoist always say that too much energy in your head can make you go crazy.
What is the breathing excercise you're doing if you don't mind sharing?

People often cherish the positive effects of nofap while ignoring the potential side effects like sleep problems, chronic stress, restlessness, bodily tightness, aggression, emotional numbness etc. Your body is intelligent and will tell you what it needs to maintain optimal functioning. The body follows natural cycles, and messing with these cycles (like the reproductive cycles) can impact other cycles like sleep. It's not just females that have a reproductive cycle. Male sexual behavior is also cyclical in its own way, which is driven by physiological mechanisms. Transcending these cycles cannot be done forcefully, only through growth. High consciousness people who are celibate don't have to work to maintain celibacy. It happens naturally. Don't got against your nature.

Hello everyone. My name is Zack and I am new to this forum. 

I'd like to share my experiences with psychosis and see if anyone can relate or offer guidance. When I was 21 I had my first psychosis. I think it was caused by stress. I was a terrible insomniac back then. Struggled with working as an electrician because I always felt so tired and fatigued! I didn't seem to get much nutrition from the food I ate which was the most nutrient dense 'super-foods'. That psychosis lasted around 6 months where I was drugged against my will into a state where I slept all day and night. Didn't feel very human after this experience. 

At this point I was at my wits end with health and my body. I had tried nearly everything concerning dietetics and psychological mind-over-matter garbage. The last thing I turned to was raw animal foods. Meat, milk and eggs, all eaten raw. Understandably I get this is controversial, but I don't want to dwell upon it. I've done it for almost 8 years and I feel very good doing it. 

What I am struggling with is retaining sexual energy, and the effects it has on my body. Around 2019 I came across the idea of 'Jing' from Taoist practices. I started to practice semen retention, tantric sex, and pelvic floor exercises mixed with deep breathing to move sexual energy up the spine. The effects were great. I did go through some rough patches where these practices brought me symptoms of fatigue and nausea. But after that passed some amazing things started to happen. Trees started to look holographic. I started to see waves emanating off peoples bodies. I thought they were auras, still not sure. Near the tail end of this experience. I was in euphoria and often felt like I was on mushrooms.

Sadly this all came to an end. The euphoria turned to delusions and paranoia. In Fall of 2020, I had my second psychosis. I am still in disbelief this happened. I was so stable, for literally years, with no need for medication. Sadly I was drugged against my will again, but fortunately, I came out of my psychosis very quick this time, so I wasn't as injured by the drugs. Still took me about a year to get back to my regular self.

I am back to enjoying life again. Things are good. I sleep good. I eat good. My amazing girlfriend actually stuck with me through all this. But I am back to desiring more out of this human experience. This is leading me back to breathwork and retaining my sexual energy. 

My experience this time is that after about a month of retaining sexual energy I identified I was getting a bit overenergetic. Where I can feel my heart beating loudly and cannot sleep. Having mild grandiose thoughts, mild paranoia. So thankfully, I can identify this state now which is potentially leading to psychosis, and what I did was to simply release my sexual energy a few times. Next day, back to normal, although mildy fatigued and depressed in comparison.

So here is my dilemma. I want to get to a point where I can retain all my sexual energy, and do lots of breathwork, and attain these higher states. But when I do it for too long I enter mania, if I keep going I would risk psychosis. I don't know why I am hitting this 'mental illness wall'. Perhaps my brain is not ready for this much Jing to be sent up. Maybe the breathwork I am doing is bad? Or maybe I am doing too much pelvic floor lifting exercises. Sometimes I would do it all day. Or maybe ---- The scariest of all for me ---- maybe these symptoms of madness are necessary to get to the next stage for my particular body. 

Anyways thanks for the read, if you'd like to share your experiences with this I would love to hear it.



 

The key is to rapidly learn deep lessons from your failure and to change how you approach things, so that you're creatively adapting to feedback rather than just doing the same thing which isn't working.
Keep asking yourself, why is this failing? How could it be changed to make it work?
Failure is a sign that there's something you're not understanding about reality. Your job is to figure out what that is.

Ofcrouse it's a diffrent skillset and you are gonna have to adjust your approch but the fundementals of closing, hadnling social pressure, calibration, esclation (in the context of sales) mindset, value offering, rapport, rejection mangement etc goes along way. I have dated multiple girls at once. Now I have moved on but unless for sales I would not have been able to.

I wanted to share this video. Intersex person with a penis and vigina who later turned into a guy with two dicks. For me what's astonishing is the fact that he seems confident and had sexual experiences which he can talk about. His game must be on point. If I was intersex I could totally see myself as becoming a victim and getting no ass. 
 
Additionally its interesting how he describes sex with men and woman. He says that he prefers sex with woman because they are 100 times more emotional, whereas men just want to fuck and evacuate. He does admit that having sex with men felt nice, but the emotional sex with woman was better for him. This led to decision to become a man in his teens. 
 
 

Cheap talk and excessive communication no matter how trashy creates an image of friendliness. I don't see a lot of intelligent people in powerful positions. Intelligent ones are generally quiet. People are charmed by a compulsive talker even if he talks rubbish. The next is drama and stimulation. People like drama. A dull person cannot hold the attention of masses. People like Trump are familiar with entertainment and can generate drama that the lowest common denominator feeds on. There is a need to directly rile up people's emotions by fear mongering or sympathizing their hopes, this is the opium. You feed people with rubbish talk and drama so they are engaged like little children. That's why Hitler was popular. He emphasized people's hopes. He gave them constant drama. He created friendliness in German people through constant rubbish banter. 
That's the key. 

Yes, it's gonna be very challenging marketing high-consciousness material because 99% of the population is low consciousness.
If you want to do that, you need to build some kind of bridge or funnel which meets people at their low consciousness level and slowly exposes them to higher consciousness material over time.
It's very challenging to start a high consciousness business as your first biz. You might want to start with a lower consciousness biz just to shore up your financial base, and then build on top of that.
Definitely nobody will ever care about your life purpose. Your customers are completely selfish and will only care about the survival value your product/service offers them. Your life purpose is for you, not for them. You must invent a way to translate your LP into tangible value for your customers. In this way they will indirectly care about your LP via the value it gives them.

@impulse9 Funnily enough, most programming is not serious intellectual work. I can code for 10 hours. It's way easier than contemplating for 3 hours.
After you get good at coding, it's like riding a bike. It doesn't take that much thinking.
But still, you burn out and it's very unhealthy working like that.

That's not something most people can pull off. Which is why we have 8 hour work days.
I can't work that long consistently. Especially not any kind of serious intellectual or creative work. Maybe if you're just sitting around waiting for customers that might be workable.

@Dinkle64 Be very careful with this kind of thinking. You don't comprehend what capitalism is. It's not what Marxists think it is.
You don't have an option to leave capitalism so long as you're alive. Even if you build that cabin in the woods you will still be inside of capitalism. You will still have to trade for resources somehow. You are like an ant who says that he refuses to participate in the ant colony and it's destroying him. Yeah, of course it's destroying you. You are an ant. You cannot survive outside the colony. That's something you have to accept.
Rather than rejecting how civilization works, leave to operate effectively within it. This doesn't mean you have to sell out.
You can run a higher consciousness business and enjoy it and help people as well. This is the way.
Stop consuming Marxist ideology. It's poisoning your mind.

I specifically picked a business that required no more than a few thousand in starting capital.
I only invested like $2000 to get it started. Once I started making good profits I reinvested some of that into hiring some helpers and buying some tools and stuff. An online business does not require a lot of starting capital. At least back when I started. Today it's a bit harder because the web is more developed. But still, you can start a YT channel for basically zero. YT channels didn't even exist back when I started.
If you are clever you can find ways to start a biz with very little money. That has always been my approach. I never liked to invest a bunch of cash into a project because it is risky. Of course the other option is to go for a larger biz and find investors. But this usually requires more experience.

Not if you are doing it online.
In-person yes.
Nowadays very strongly. I basically don't even do business. I just make videos and courses.
In the past I was less ethical because I had to bootstrap myself somehow.

I had one friend who quit his sales job at Zillow and turned to selling penis enlargement pills on Facebook. He was making 6 figures within a few months. This was about 8 years ago. I doubt that exact same method would work today, but methods like that do exists at all times. You just gotta ferret them out. And you gotta be a good marketer/salesman. There is always low-hanging fruit in some industry. It's just a matter of finding it and capitalizing on it. But finding it is up to you. Don't expect anyone to tell you what it is.
I made close to a million dollars selling annuities.

Why would you expect what is mostly as spiritual and philosophical discussion group to help you make money? That's not the primary focus on this place.
You should join some money-making forum in addition to this one, so it rounds you out.
Yes, making money is important, but do you really need to get your money-making advice from your rabbi?
What it sounds like you really need is to join a business mastermind group. Not as a replacement for this forum, but as a supplement.
If you are serious about success, what you need to realize is that success comes from specialization. You can't expect one person, group, or book to cover every important topic. Seek out specialists in every area you wish you master. This place is specialized for metaphysical topics. That's not a bug, that's a feature.

I didn't like it mostly because I am just not suited to being an employee. I am too ambitious and creative to work on someone else's project. So I quit to become my own boss.
I would never work on a game to which I didn't own full IP rights.
I am very particular in this regard so don't let this discourage you.

There is no cure for lack of ambition.
Some people, in fact most people, simply have very low ambition. Ambition is a personality trait.
But also, if you feel your life lacks meaning, that means you aren't really satisfied with your life as you claim. Deep down you know there's more to be had but you haven't yet come up with a vision of what that would look like.
Besides ambition what's needs is imagination. To imagine a really new and exciting future for yourself.

Get some wingmen and learn to have fun and enjoy yourself. This is key.
It's not supposes to be a grind, it's supposed to fun. You gotta learn to have fun partying moreso than picking up women.
Do you understand that all those folks you see out at night, are just out to have fun?

@Michael569 great list. I especially like the part about description, not persuasion (which is mostly just manipulation in this context). That really seems to be the only way high consciousness sales can exist.
Here's my piece of wisdom:
Drop this idea that simply because a customer is wiling to pay for something, that you are offering them value. This is an incredibly toxic belief that is widespread in the internet marketing community. Rationalization on top of rationalization about why you should just figure out what the market wants and give it to them. Doesn't matter what it is as long as there is demand.
In reality, demand =! true value. There might be demand for cigarettes and drugs, can you honestly say selling those things is a high consciousness business that brings value to people? Perhaps in a twisted sort of way you could rationalize it. But it's obvious to me that people can demand all sorts of things that are not higher consciousness and may even hurt them.
If you actually loved your customers, you would care about what is best for them. End of story. 
Of course it practically may be more of a challenge to sell higher consciousness products. You might be get all excited about how your product is going to change the world, only to discover that people just want low consciousness garbage and get outcompeted. So get too idealistic either. You have to find a balance of demand and value.

Do it any way. Hard will grow you.

Don't want to kill your buzz but this doesn't sound like a good idea, theres too much competition in this space, especially with language learning websites starting to incorporate AI into their platforms.

You should be learning about sales, content creation, and marketing in addition to programming, creating a software based biz as your first business is not advisable as you don't have the funds or the exp, (this is coming from a software dev btw).

Programing is not something you half ass if your trying to make a career or money out of it. If your serious I would suggest learning Python as your first language. Build a small project and see if programming is something you want to take serious or if its just a hobby.

You can still satisfy your passion of teaching languages in different ways that don't involve programming.

 

There is little need these days to learn web programming unless it's something you want to specialize in. Coding is not an effective use of most people's time unless you seek to do it for a living. Either use a platform or outsource the work to a professional so you can focus on your area of mastery. It's important to learn to deligate work to the right people and not try to do everything from scratch yourself, as that is very inefficient.

Coding your own website these days is not a good idea unless you need something very unique and specific. There are tons of platforms available that make it easy to make sites with little coding knowledge.
But if I was developing a serious custom site from scratch I would use HTML, CSS, PHP, MySQL, and JavaScript. This is a classic stack that's proven to work very well unless you need something enterprise-level.

Add AI to your design pipeline. Stop thinking of yourself as a code monkey but as a software designer.