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I am kinda being silly, but actually dead serious: 1. Infinity 2. Infinity 3. Infinity 4. It sounds like your state changed into more Presence, but not nearly enough to understand what and why Reality is this way. You need to also experience breakthroughs into Consciousness, which are extremely, beyond profound. And many of them. No one breakthrough is likely to leave you with a holistic understanding, even though the experience may feel total and be extremely profound, due to there being "many facets of Awakening", like Leo puts it. Because infinity 😜 5. Infinity "I" can't "communicate" the ENTIRETY of infinity to "you", i can only tell you the word, and that points you to it, and hopefully you can use your consciousness to directly have all sorts of insights and breakthroughs into it. Godspeed

I think that one of the most important things that Leo is giving us, especially with this last video, is clarity on when we are serious about truth, or just beating around the bush of survival. Problem is, when i am not serious, i'll be the last one to find out, cause you can have a round table of insanely conscious spiritual masters telling you you are not serious enough, and still the ego is (you are) able to BS itself into distracting from that. A "healthy discussion" is ultimately about survival, not truth. Even meditating is about survival, unless it's done in a way that truly increases consciousness.

@Breakingthewall are you aware/do you agree you're imagining this structure, and it's relative openness? Cause the "structure" i see is an infinite one.

@kbone all good, bro! I didn't mean to speak quite as aggressively. Sorry for that. I had a stressed body that day, lol @Breakingthewall i think i can sort of see your perspective. It's just that we're using language and it's sooo tricky😆 because openness, closeness, spaciousness, and the other terms you used instead of love and nothing are also dualistic, no? The way i see it is that every single word has a dualistic nature, and every single "word", is a "thing" - and each and every "thing" is Absolute "proof" or meta-proof of Infinity. Cause there is no "thing" that is NOT infinity, Absolutely speaking. So to me, what you're saying kinda sounds like "no, infinity and infinity are misleading terms, i like to say that there is infinite infinity from where infinity is infinite, and then there is finite infinity, from where infinity is infinitely finite" Or something like that 😆 (i'm not trying to be mean btw) But that's why i'm like... "Huh?... Well, i'm not sure how to reply to that, cause i mean, it's not wrong, but to me that is also not right either"

I call it the Christmas Tree of Yes and No. Or the Tree of Paradox. It's an attempt to explain why explaining non-duality through language is so tricky, and why the ego gets so tripped up in technical metaphysical terms. So for ANY conclusion that we can reach through language (including this one), the following meta-answer can be applied: Yes. No. Both yes and No. Neither yes nor no. Both both yes and no AND neither yes nor no. Neither both yes and no NOR neither yes nor no. Both Both both yes and no AND neither yes nor no and Neither both yes and no NOR neither yes nor no. Etc, to infinity It's an attempt to explain why it's not enough to just hear the correct metaphysical pointers, such as: God is Love God is Infinity God is Reality God is Nothing God is Everything Etc Because spoken through language, there will always be a +1 to be added by the ego. This points to the ego's infinite capacity for BS and mental masturbation. God is Infinity. "Oh yeah? Well, then x and y are not God, because they are finite" The point i am trying to make is that even the very fact that the ego can deny infinity infinitely, paradoxically leads to infinity. Infinity is SO obvious, and yet the Christmas Tree of Yes and No applies even to this statement. And to this one, etc 😆 Let's have some fun with it, and i challenge you guys to apply the Christmas Tree of Yes and No appropriately: "Infinity is Infinite" Yes - uhm... Duh! No - infinity cannot be truly infinite, because by definition it cannot be finite, because then it would not be infinite - YES - within this circular logic, that seems to be correct, because we can force this twisted perspective, and NO - Infinity is paradoxical, because it MUST contain even impossibilities, things it cannot do and be, cause otherwise it wouldn't be truly infinite - YES - because by definition it also contains "must" AND "mustn't", things jt is forced to be AND NO because bla bla bla I already feel stupid and dizzy just for trying to engage with this kind of logic. So that's why i find it annoying to keep talking about non-duality, what this teacher said and what that teacher said. (Paradoxically i also love it) Because the whole fun is for everyone to access infinity more and more, and also find their OWN original language to express and dance AROUND these old timeless truths, instead of mindlessly memorizing more and more wordy explanations from various teachers. So if you come to me with a non-dual CONCLUSION, the Tree of Paradox applies, so INFINITY IS THE ONLY ANSWER, REALLY! And so it's ultimately obvious if your ego is getting tripped up somewhere in the branches of the Tree. (notice how even this can turn into an endless ego BS debate, even this can be used by the ego to pretend like there isn't an infinite Truth) But that's why i insist - there is ONLY Nothing, and Nothing IS Infinity, cause it's the Only ingredient that doesn't need anything to be infinite. You don't need fancy explanations of Creation! There is only Zero - by definition, there is only One Zero. (Because there is NO difference between one zero, zero zeros, 365 zeros or infinite zeros) "One" exists, BECAUSE that's what Zero IS - One of "itself" - One of it's Infinite Self. By the same Logic, that "creates" the illusion of 2 - Zero AND One. That's WHY 3, 4, 5 ... That's WHY Infinity appears also as infinite finitudes, and that's why Nothing is Everything. But the Truth is One - Zero. (Infinity) And perhaps the Tree can help some to see how inescapable and obvious infinity is. Final thought: Nothing is Infinity, Everything is Infinity, Zero is Infinity, One, Two, Three, all are Infinity! Nothing... But LOVE! 😆😆😆♥️

True flexibility is obtained in years, cause you want to get to the point where you can wake up and simply do the pose you want without warming up. That's acquired flexibility To be comfortable in the lotus, you need to be able to go beyond the lotus, so that the lotus itself is not your maximum. You want zero tension, especially if you wanna sit for long periods of time in one pose. Personally i just switch between a few comfy positions, mostly sitting on a comfy chair or couch. If you wanna increase flexibility as an adult, especially without having it as a child, i recommend the following resources: Range of Strength (Lucas Hardie) Emmett Louis (the splits wizard) Also for general spine health check out the GOAT - David Weck

Props to you for reaching out for help. All these feelings are normal, there is nothing wrong with you. On the contrary, consciousness is always "working" perfectly. In my experience, all these feelings of misery have a good explanation, and focusing on what matters usually brings relief. It just can feel intense sometimes, before another breakthrough happens, and that's ok. Any endeavor is spent mostly on plateaus. Even muscle growth happens in spurts. You cannot maintain the high volume and intensity necessary for rapid growth all the time. The maintenance/slow growth periods also serve the purpose of adapting the tendons, ligaments, bones etc for more growth. Make sure the body is well rested and fed before you ask a lot of it. It seems you got a sufficient handle on it tho, and i'm no therapist, so i will go ahead and share what i can about my experience maybe it will help you in the long term. I've had moments like these recently, as i was making an effort to expose myself to more experiences. I found them extremely valuable, because it put me face to face with the structure of my ego. This fragility in the face of seemingly normal circumstances were like a wake up call for me, because i was still constructing a LOT of fantasies, and not being serious enough about the work of deepening consciousness, and loving truth (or deconstructing the ego so it becomes more transparent, so that the value of loving truth can actualize) Part of the fantasy was that i was super hard working, burnt out by doing too much spiritual work, when in fact, i kept making bad survival decisions that were making my life tired and miserable. Ultimately, i noticed that when i am actually conscious that i am distracting myself, i simply take the steps necessary to maintain focus and calm down the suffering ego mind. It's kinda sad and kinda beautiful and also logical how the ego seems to need to suffer enough to really get fed up and really look at, really face how it is creating the mental suffering and distraction. It's tricky cause the reasons it creates are so real and all-encompassing from those states of consciousness. But if i learned something in the last 10 years, it's just how right Leo is to emphasize long meditation retreats. Even just knowing that i have retreats scheduled in my year helps with re-gaining presence and focus in the face of the monkey mind going nuts. Really hope this helps a bit. Spirituality is a solo adventure, but survival doesn't have to be

@Sugarcoat thanks 😽 @Breakingthewall@kbone sorry @Breakingthewall, i didn't mean to tag you, and i can't untag for some reason. @kbone sure, conditioned fear is a potent ego memory and reason to remain a victim, that doesn't let focus rest on what is True, Present, because the truth is that your true Self, which is Love, Is all the things that the ego fears and hates, because it thinks those things will cause suffering and death. But honestly i find it weird that you are asking me this, when Leo has so much content on these topics, and when we are supposed to contemplate these things on our own. Perhaps you already believed you knew the answer, and wanted to see if we're in the same page, or perhaps you just liked what i wrote and wanted to hear more answers in my style of answering But i see quite a lot of questions being asked that have obviously not been contemplated enough in private before asking, like a reliance on outside authority. So that's why i'm questioning where your question is coming from.

@Breakingthewall i am most likely a narcissist, lol 😆♥️ wish you well

@Breakingthewall it's funny, cause you just named that which you deem unnameable (you called it unnameable). Idk bro, by this point i think we are derailing the topic of Emil's trip too much, maybe we can start another forum topic on this subject. I find you'r metaphysics to be inaccurate and entangled. I'm not interested in debating you, but the idea of trying to see if i can reply to your ideas sounds fun

@Breakingthewall because... Nothing, by definition, is INFINITE. Therefore, it's not relative nothing. It simply infinity itself. Infinity HAS/IS Everything ! Nothing, Anything, Everything, meaning, no-meaning, etc, etc, etc.

@Breakingthewall Nothing has no meaning precisely because it's infinite. Meaning is a relative ego-mind attempt at dividing Reality, which is like trying yo use a scalpel to divide a Galaxy. Of course you can't apply a relative notion, such as meaning, to Infinity, aka Absolute Nothing.

@Breakingthewall No, because actual Nothing is Infinite, so it's not nothing, as in what the mind calls nothing, which simply means that which is not relevant for survival. That is a shallow use of the word nothing. I am using language here, and i am explicitly telling you that i am referring to metaphysical Nothing, which is not nothing, but the Totality of Infinity itself. It's like this example i like to give - what is an infinite bottle? Is it a really really big bottle? Is it still a bottle? No! It's the Totality of Infinity. And Nothing, Something, Everything and Anything are exactly and precisely the SAME "thing" - Infinity.

@Breakingthewall i'm referring to Absolute Nothing, which IS infinite, which is Unlimited, which is Reality, which is Total, which is Everything, including relative nothing and relative everything, which are Absolute illusions. I'm just talking about infinity. Which is my experience right now, when i'm in a transparent enough state of C.

@Sugarcoat (sorry my phone doesn't let me edit these text boxes out) Actualized.org, lol 😆 No, but it's tricky for me to answer, since i've only stumbled upon spiritual teachings 10 years ago, when i was 19. So only now i'm starting to be ABLE to become serious about all this stuff. I don't think that there is one particular thing that has had the most profound impact. Cause it also depends if you're asking about raising my baseline of consciousness. Leo emphasizes the importance of long meditation retreats, and in retrospect, the 2 vipassana retreats i attended really did boost my consciousness a lot. I attempted a few more solo retreats, but too many survival problems and a severe lack of maturity made me distract myself and quit doing them seriously enough. I was only able to do 1-3 day long meditation retreats since, and only very recently i realized i've been living like a fool, and that centering my life around loving Truth requires infinitely more seriousness, focus and discipline. If you're asking what raised my consciousness acutely the most, that's easy, high doses of psychedelics, lol. But not having the requisite baseline of consciousness and sufficient ego deconstruction, or transparency, as i am starting to call it, or sober discipline, created a LOT of suffering and not understanding why i'm getting the results i was getting. Raising my intelligence in the areas where i was lacking it the most was/is incredibly painful I was gonna mention contemplating infinity a lot, but i don't know that it raised my consciousness, it certainly helped develop the intelligence around understanding the theory better. Yeah. I don't have any better answers at the moment but Leo has plenty of content on this. Also don't underestimate his blog and forum replies. I must say, the more i am super focused on what is continuous in Reality, the more i feel conscious that i am/ i am surrounded by - infinite love. And the more it makes me yearn to just bask in this Truth, with no need to think. Which funnily enough activates thinking that is annoyed that i still have survival struggles, distracting from Truth lol. But it's becoming more transparent, and love shines through that challenge as well.