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  11. Posted

    10 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Hate to rain on your parade bro, but the awkwardness is all you ;)

    Strong polarity does not require awkwardness.

    Yes, us INTPs tend to be socially awkward. Requires a lot of work to compensate for it.

    Yes, but it's not the point I'm making.

    Awkwardness, polarity and tension have same source. It's a common mistake to avoid discomfort when interacting with opposite sex. This weird feeling of discomfort and tension is what you really want to feel and release.

    I don't necessarily agree with INTPs being socially awkward. I think it's quite easy for us to relate to female if they are ENFP, ISTJ, ENTJ, ESTJ or INFP. There aren't many females we can interact without feeling tension and this might cause inexperience.

  12. Posted

    @Loving Radiance Everyone has own definition of femininity. I have male ENFP friends and I have seen how easily they can interact with females. This is because of shared traits. Having shared traits means that there is weaker polarity.

    I'm an INTP and my interactions with females are very awkward. There are some females I can easily have a conversation with but it feels like talking to a guy. Awkwardness = polarity, connection = release of tension.

  17. Posted · Edited by Username

    I think that I solved my issue ?

    I started using Armodafinil (1/2 pill three times a week) which seems to raise my permanent level of consciousness. I started noticing that even a small amount of caffeine from coffee make me slightly energetic but significantly decrease my attention span. It doesn't feel healthy anymore.

    I still drink an equivalent of ~2,5 espressos a day. However every time I do it I feel it makes me anxious instantly - even if it's just a half of espresso. What I used to do was drinking a coffee, when effects of caffeine were wearing off I would drink another one to maintain a stable level of anxiety.

    I don't think that it was a caffeine that was my real problem. I wasn't able to sustain high level of consciousness I had to do something  compulsive to lower it.

    Oh. Sleeping on my left side also seems to improve my energy levels.

  22. Posted

    I have my basic needs met but not in a sustainable way. I didn't have any interest in playing survival game on someone's else terms. I tried to work on my life purpose but I'm not financially successful.

    Transition into turquoise gave me a kick to to sort my basic needs (health, diet, daily routine and finances). When I was yellow I had many great ideas but I was struggling to implement them - I thought that I can solve my problems by thinking.

  23. Posted

    I would just gradually lower caffeine intake. Coffee with less caffeine is a good idea. I have an impression that my free will / willpower is very limited, so I try to be strategic about using it. I would rather try to drop addiction in 6 months or even a year without making serious effort. I prefer to use my willpower for other things like sticking to physical exercises, learning and fasting.

    I'm also about to drink another coffee xD

  24. Posted · Edited by Username

    I was also abusing coffee. Recently I got a smallest possible moka (1tz / 50 ml) instead of 100 ml one. I started with drinking more often but smaller amounts. Very often I wanted some coffee but I had to drink whole big thing.

    If you drink 4 cups a day it's better to split it into 8. However in reality you will drink less cups (instantly). It also makes easier to cut amount of caffeine if you do it in very small steps. Reducing by 25% is hard.

    Another idea is mixing ordinary coffee with decaf. I'm not sure why (maybe due to Armodafinil usage?) I became very sensitive. 25 ml of moka feels like way too much now. Probably I will start mixing coffee and decaf in 1:1 ratio.